Why is first love so sweet?

That night, Sheng Yi suddenly didn't want to rely on Rong Yu's arms.

He hugged Rongyu from behind under the quilt.

When he saw Rong Yu's confused expression in the car, he suddenly connected to another channel of Rong Yu.

There was nothingness there.

There were no clear sounds, just the vague salsa of snowflakes.

Like a lonely radio signal high above.

Go round and round the dial until you find him.

If you don't get his response, you will die.

Sheng Yi never felt how important his existence was to this world.

Especially after recovering the lack of self-confidence that has long been imprinted in the soul.

During the exam, he would easily collapse due to a little pressure. At that moment, after amnesia, he saw his real self for the first time.

He found the dark side that Rong Yu never wanted to see.

So after discovering Rong Yu's confusion, he couldn't believe it for a while.

Such an ordinary and insignificant him would unexpectedly become the direction of another excellent existence.

His presence means a lot to another person.

This made him feel panic and a sense of responsibility.

After finishing the card and coming out of the study, seeing Rong Yu sitting alone on the sofa, a picture suddenly appeared in his mind.

He and Rong Yu are like two inseparable twin stars.

They are each other's gravitational attraction.

In the dark universe, they are strongly attracted to each other, revolving around each other.If one of the planets loses its way, both planets will wander together.

At that moment, Sheng Yi's panic dissipated again.

I just want to become the person with the strongest belief in the world and the most stable signal source in the universe.

The dark bedroom seems to have turned into a black universe.

Two people with their backs hugging each other in the dark are like two planets touching each other lightly.

Sheng Yi clearly hugs Rong Yu comfortingly, but dreams of being carried on Rong Yu's back.

Changed back to a dependent position.

There is a vast amount of snow floating between the sky and the earth, and it seems that it will never stop.

Countless white snowflakes rolled down from the hazy sky in a state of drowning the world.

When he woke up from the dream, Sheng Yi held back his tears.

The stone monument in the cemetery was getting farther and farther behind, and the adults in black suits walked in front holding black umbrellas.

He remembered this scene.

It was the day my mother was buried.

At this time, he was already 12 years old, and he still hadn't grown up.

But he remembered his mother's teachings on her deathbed.

In my memory, when my mother was still healthy, she clearly said, "There is nothing shameful about a child crying too much." But before she died, her mother hugged him on the hospital bed and told him in a weak voice: "My Hanghang will be an older child from now on. No more. When a boy grows up, he can no longer cry."

So that day he kept trying to pretend that he had grown up.

Enduring sore eyes, but did not shed a tear in front of my mother's tombstone.

When he left the cemetery, his legs were weak and he couldn't walk, so Rong Yu carried him out of the cemetery like this.

Obviously he is also a 12-year-old boy, but he refuses the help of adults and tries hard to bear his weight.

Sheng Yi held an umbrella on Rong Yu's back, listening to the creaking sound of stepping on the snow, nostalgicly put his face on his shoulders that had not yet widened.

The boy concealed the difficulty of bearing the heavy burden with his usual calm expression.

Sheng Yi hugged the young man's neck tightly, the sadness in his heart was very real, he asked in a hoarse voice: "Xiaoyu, can I go to sleep at your place tonight?"

Rong Yu gave a soft "hmm".

Sheng Ming walked in front, his mental state seemed to be very bad, and he didn't pay attention to Sheng Yi at all.

These years, Tang Yun and Lu Ying have always had a good relationship. Fearing that Sheng Ming's condition would not be good enough to take care of the child, he took Sheng Yi home that night and cooked him a table of delicious food.

At the family's warm dining table, Sheng Yi wore the first white shirt in his life and blended in. He didn't speak, and buried himself in his meal quietly.

Tang Yun kept serving him food, and Sheng Yi thanked him more politely than ever.

Putting down the bowls and chopsticks, Sheng Yi looked up at the scene that had given him infinite warmth, turned his head to look at Rong Yu, and smiled at him with the grown soul in his body.

For myself who was ignorant when I was young, I sincerely express my gratitude to Rongyu.

If it weren't for the kind care of this family, what would have happened if he returned to that already cold home tonight.

Rong Yu didn't look at him for too long, and lowered his head.

Back in Rong Yu's bedroom, the warm and comfortable atmosphere suddenly became a weapon to hurt emotions.

At a certain moment when he let go of his guard, the sadness that Sheng Yi had been trying to suppress suddenly pierced.

Knowing that it was just a memory, Sheng Yi completely regained the despair and loneliness of that time, hid under the quilt and cried loudly with his small body.

Sheng Yi remembered that he was eager to make up for something at that time, so he whispered: "Xiaoyu... now only you know my secret."

The light outside the quilt was dim, and the boy responded in a low voice: "Yes."

Sheng Yi felt that it wasn't enough, so he stretched out his hand, grabbed the pajama pants outside the gap, and handed over the right that meant a lot to him: "From now on, only you can call me that."

Rong Yu lay down and hugged him gently through the quilt.

He heard the boy's gentle breathing.

The heavy snow is flying outside the window, as if announcing the end of a period of time, it is noisy.

The young man's arm comforted him with its green weight, and he called him in a low voice outside the soft cover: "Hanghang."

Satisfied, Sheng Yi felt slightly cooler than his mother's body temperature, wrapped in a new sense of security, and gradually calmed down.

Sheng Yi suddenly remembered that in the real night, he seemed to have made a very embarrassing request to Rong Yu.

"Xiaoyu, can you pat me?" He asked a little embarrassed.

It was quiet outside for a few seconds, Rong Yu patted his back lightly through the quilt.

Quietly curling up the corners of his mouth, Sheng Yi closed his eyes enjoying himself under the quilt.

When she was about to be patted and lulled to sleep by Rong Yu, there was a knock on the bedroom door.

Tang Yun hesitated and said outside: "Xiao Yi, Dad is here to pick you up, do you want to go back with Dad?"

Sheng Yi arched into Rong Yu's arms, although he knew it was just a memory, he still became nervous: "Xiao Yu, I don't want to go back."

Rong Yu got out of bed to lock the door.

All night long, Rong Yu hugged Sheng Yi, patted him to sleep.

After Lu Ying left, Sheng Ming desperately wanted to keep Sheng Yi by his side for some unknown reason.Every day during the day, I went to school to look for him, and at night I went to Rong Yu's house to arrest him and go home.

Sheng Yi remembered that during that time, he was in fear every day, not daring to separate from Rongyu.

Rong Yu didn't leave him even for a moment.

At such a young age, he confronted the adults without any advantage, preventing Sheng Ming from touching a single finger of him.

Later, Sheng Ming was cornered and threatened Sheng Yi with Xiaojie who was still at home.

Fearing that something would happen to Xiaojie, Sheng Yi finally mustered up the courage and decided to go back.

"I'll take Xiaojie here. If you haven't come back by eight o'clock, you can go find me." Sheng Yi put on his coat and hood and went out.

Knowing that there is nothing here that can hurt him, Sheng Yi has nothing to fear, he just wants to retrieve more memories as soon as possible.

"I'll go with you." Rong Yu stopped him at the door.

"It's okay, he's my dad." Sheng Yi smiled, "I also have something to say to him alone."

Rong Yu hesitated for a moment: "Bring your phone."

Sheng Yi took out his phone and showed him, took a deep breath, and went out decisively.

Through the road in the dark night, Sheng Yi returned to his messy home.

The living room is full of wine bottles, and the nanny seems to have not come to clean it for a long time.

Sheng Ming was not seen.

Sheng Yi pulled up his hood, called Xiaojie a few times, and Xiaojie's cry came from upstairs.

Searching for the sound, I went upstairs, and finally found Xiaojie in the storage room in the attic.

Xiaojie is already an adult large dog, who was locked in the storage room for two days and jumped at him excitedly.

Sheng Yi breathed a sigh of relief, knelt down and hugged it comfortingly, "It's okay, I'm sorry I came to pick you up so late."

The door of the storage room was suddenly closed behind him, and under the dark cage, he couldn't see his fingers.

Then there was the sound of keys being locked outside.

Sheng Yi turned his head abruptly.

He suddenly recalled the memory of that day.

The chill instantly invaded the whole body.

Running to pull on the door, Sheng Yi's voice trembled a little: "Dad, open the door!"

Sheng Ming's drunken hoarse voice said persistently outside the door: "You mother and son don't want to go anywhere, and neither of you wants to leave this house..."

Sheng Yi quickly took out his cell phone in the dark and called Rong Yu.

His hands were covered in cold sweat, his movements were unsteady, and the phone slid to the ground and the screen went black.

It's like time can't be turned back.

The ending of the memory cannot be changed.

He was just trapped in a dark attic.

Sheng Yi completely remembered.

That night when he was sitting in the corner of the storage room with Xiaojie in his arms, despair was like countless invisible bugs, crawling along the cold floor to his feet little by little.

Spread to his gradually paralyzed heart.

Sheng Yi suddenly remembered that when he was very young, his memory could not be retained for a long time. One day his mother was not at home, and he did not finish the homework assigned by Sheng Ming, so he was locked in the storage room for a whole night.

The storage room has small windows in the sloping ceiling.

At night, even the moon cannot be seen.

He was bitten on his finger by an unknown bug, and cried all night in pain, afraid of being bitten again, he held his hands and dared not let go.

Later, when he was surrounded by such a dark and claustrophobic space, he would recall the fear and pain at that time.

He didn't want Rong Yu to know his vulnerable side, he only told Rong Yu that he was scared by horror movies when he was a child.

The truth is far scarier than the plot in horror movies.

Sheng Yi buried his head in his knees in a desperate dream, trying to wake himself up quickly.

Time seems to be frozen by the darkness, and I can't feel the passage.

Feeling the warm licking around his face, Sheng Yi hugged Xiaojie in his dream tightly, and stuck to Xiaojie, "Xiaoyu..."

In the next second, the door swung open.

A beam of white light came in.

Like the moonlight dispelling the darkness.

Sheng Yi turned around with red eyes.

Rong Yu was wearing a sweater jacket, with the cool air still remaining on his body, he walked up to him and carried him on his back, asking Xiaojie to follow.

When leaving, Sheng Yi saw Sheng Ming drunk on the floor of the living room.

After only one glance, he looked back without any nostalgia.

This is the second time he lay on Rong Yu's back.

Follow him through the dark courtyard, past the mulberry tree that looks like a devil's claw, and back to the brightly lit courtyard opposite.

Sheng Yi remembered.

It was after this day that he and Rong Yu were truly inseparable.

He was on Rongyu's back, being carried by Rongyu to leave the dreams and memories.

The last day before returning to Hokkaido, New Year's Eve.

After the New Year's Eve dinner, Sheng Yi and Rong Yu went out to set off fireworks.

Every New Year's Eve before Sheng Yi fell asleep, they would watch the New Year's Eve together like this, like twins who came to the world together.

The two stood on the snow-covered lawn, looking up at the gorgeous fireworks blooming in the night sky.

The circular light spheres rose up one by one, and darkened when they reached the highest point, and then exploded a bright starlight at the moment when they were completely dark.

With the colorful light of fireworks reflected in his eyes, Rong Yu turned his head and asked, "Leave tomorrow?"

Sheng Yi put his hands in his pockets, staring at the artificially created stars, thought for a while, then turned his head and said with a smile: "You carry me one more time."

Ares happily ran along the frozen lake, stopping every now and then to turn around and let out a cry of urging.

Rong Yu walked around the lake with Sheng Yi on his back, tilted his head and asked, "Aren't you coming down?"

"Walk around again." Sheng Yi lay comfortably on his broad and strong back, "Am I heavy?"

"What do you think?" Rong Yu said deliberately.

"Then you put me down, and I'll carry you on your back." As he said this, Sheng Yi tightened his grip.

Rong Yu was helpless and funny, so he walked around the lake slowly with Sheng Yi on his back.

After being glanced at several times with a smile by the elders who were walking, Rong Yu turned around and asked the people behind him: "Enough?"

Sheng Yi closed his eyes, lying on Rong Yu's top and pretending to sleep.

Seeing through Sheng Yi's clumsy acting skills at a glance, Rong Yu still slowed down and walked towards Bie Yuan with him on his back.

Sheng Yi curled his lips in triumph, opened his eyes quietly, and looked at Rong Yu's calm and stable profile.

Just like that day many years ago, the quiet air can only hear the sound of snow underfoot.

"Xiaoyu." Sheng Yi put his arms around Rongyu's neck and asked suddenly, "Tell me, how many stars are there in the sky?"

"A lot." Rong Yu said, "Countless."

So many lonely planets.

How lucky you must be to become a twin star who is never lonely.

Sheng Yi sat on Rong Yu's shoulder contentedly, "Then they must be very envious of me."

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