Lonely desert

He resolutely said: "Yes. Brother Wang sacrificed for our people and was imprisoned and humiliated by Emperor Sui'an. It has been more than eight years now. Fortunately, Brother Wang is still alive, and it is time to go back."

"But this time is obviously not a good time. If the person sent by the emperor to investigate Ye Ziyu was not me, then the person who stepped into your room at this moment would already be a dead body. It is really unwise for you to attract suspicion."

Shan Pei wondered, "What did Cichen think I did?"

I told Shan Pei the ins and outs of the incident one by one.

Only then did he begin to explain: "Li Shaoshi had the distinction of mentor and apprentice to Hu Ye back then, and he was able to stay in the court as an official after being recommended by him. Hearing what you said, Ci Chen, it was just that he wanted to Just repay Young Master Li."

He told me about Ye Ziyu's entry into the court as an official.But I thought this matter seemed too simple, so I asked again uneasy, "Are you really ignorant of this matter?"

Shan Pei put on an expression that you wronged me, and nodded helplessly, "I'm telling the truth about Cichen."

I looked at Shan Pei with a sincere face, and thought to myself, could it be that the emperor is worrying too much?However, Ye Ziyu's move really ruined the bureaucratic atmosphere of the court, coupled with his own sensitive identity, how dare he be so blatant?

Seeing that I didn't answer, Shan Pei continued to ask, "Ci Chen is so worried about me, but is he willing to camp with me?"

After listening to Shan Pei's words, I can see Beidi's heart clearly. Beidi is the leader of the four departments.And when Shan Pei mentioned the emperor, there was clearly hatred in his eyes, and the deepness was not just a kind of resentment from the emperor for accepting his brother as his concubine. I think he must have other things to hide from me.

I don't have a firm position, but the reason is that the officials of the heaven/challenge should serve for the court, and my life is doomed here.It has been more than a year now, and it is also appreciated by the emperor. It would be a bit embarrassing to stand opposite it.But one day Zhen and Shan Pei are their masters, how should they deal with each other?

Now I don't dare to respond to him clearly, I plan to appease Shan Pei first, and discuss the matter of position later.

"You are the No.1 person I met when I first came to Chang'an, and you are my best friend. No matter what happens in the future, I think you are doing well now."

But after listening to my words, there was a hint of disappointment between his brows, his eyes dimmed, and he hesitated to say, "If I not only take you as my best friend, Ci Chen, would you still be willing to help me like this?"

I vaguely felt uneasy in my heart, and said embarrassingly, "What do you mean?"

"If the person who had the accident today was not me, would Ci Chen also be so resolute in hiding it for him?"

I replied according to what I thought in my heart: "If it wasn't you today, I should be on the sidelines. If there is not enough friendship, others may not be willing to listen to what I have to say."

But Shan Pei grabbed my wrist violently, I raised my head to meet his gaze in surprise, and saw the intertwining of urgency and desire from inside.He slowed down his breathing, and said cautiously: "If I... If I say, I have other thoughts about you, would Cichen also want to do the same?"

I was shocked suddenly and looked at him full of surprise. Seeing his serious appearance, I knew that this was not a lie.

Before I could open my mouth, he continued, "Ci Chen, don't blame me. I've been wanting to tell you since we met again. The power is staring at me, and I may die here someday in the future. Now the Hu Ye incident is more likely to push me to the cusp of the storm, I'm afraid... If I don't say anything, I won't have this chance."

He loosened the grip on his hands a little, but he still didn't let go of me completely, and his eyes were still fixed on me, "I'm not afraid to speak frankly. There is no chance of returning to Beidi, and I have already made plans to bury my bones in a foreign land. But when I look back on Chang'an Street, I have already fallen for a hundred generations. If your name is lost to Sun Shan, I am afraid I will never find you again; I'm afraid that one day you and I will inevitably become enemies."

"Shan Pei..." I called his name softly. I never thought that as a god of fate, I had already cut off the thoughts of the mortal world, but now I can't help myself when I face a mortal person.

For the first time, I felt my heart pounding. I also had scruples and entanglements, and even started to be afraid.

I was concerned about the positions and identities of Shan Pei and I, and I was entangled in whether this relationship should be calm or calm. I was afraid that I would not be able to survive the calamity safely and would never be in the world with him again... But when did this start, I don’t know. know.

It turns out that I also had another birth to him before I knew it.

He heard me calling him, and was still quietly waiting for my next words, his eyes full of anticipation.

After hesitating for a moment, I withdrew my hand and said softly, "Shan Pei, you don't know my details, so I'm lucky to favor you, but..."

But I still don't know if I can escape this catastrophe, how dare I let down your affection for me so easily.Furthermore, humans and gods have different paths, and I dare not let you suffer the same punishment as me.

Seeing that I hesitated to speak, he hurriedly said, "I know! I don't believe that Ci Chen is a monster like he said, even... even if he is, it will definitely not harm anyone."

I couldn't turn my back on the secret and tell him my real identity, but I was afraid that this matter would not stop, so I lied: "Shan Pei, if I was really a monster, I wouldn't let Ye Ziyu put the knife on my neck. I One is not from the family of an official, and the other is not from a wealthy family. His parents died since he was a child, and he was given a book by his master. Could save my life."

What I said is not all made up, it is indeed my experience before ascension.When I first started, I heard my fellow disciples say that my master is an immortal from the sky, who has roamed the world for thousands of years. Although I have been taught by my master, I have never seen my real face a few times. I thought I could meet the master by chance, but I didn't get the chance to meet each other.

Shan Pei breathed a sigh of relief, he seemed satisfied with what he said, "I knew it."

When I saw him happy, I couldn't help feeling sorry for him, maybe he didn't know what I was going to say.But seeing him like this again, maybe the him I saw on weekdays and the one I see today are the same person.Not to mention the hatred of his family and country, he is still that innocent young man.

He gradually suppressed his smile, and tentatively called me, "Ci Chen?"

"what?"

In order to confirm my intention, he asked cautiously, "So, Cichen, you have accepted my intention?"

"I..." I have never had such a conflict before, one side is sincere, and the other side is condemned by fate, it seems that no matter which side I choose, it will hurt him.

Only then did I understand that once I have the person I want and what I want, I lose most of my sobriety and it is difficult to make a choice between both.

"Shan Pei, when people are young and impulsive, it must not be so easy..." I lowered my head the whole time, not daring to look at his expression, and finally sighed: "You are destined to have a lover."

For a long time, he didn't say anything.I just looked up at him.

He has been staring at me, but now there is no charm in his eyes.I don't know if he noticed my gaze, but he stared at me blankly, "Does Cichen have no affection for me?"

His words were full of grievances, which made people feel distressed, but I didn't know how to respond to him. If I only had a little affection for him, I wouldn't be so scruples.

"Fate has its own fate, you can't force it."

He suddenly came back to his senses, and said in surprise: "Does Cichen think I'm forcing you? If you can really tell God that you have no affection for me, then we'll just be the same as before. Cichen, Dare you say it?"

I was left speechless by his question, and I swear to God, I dare not speak.

"Cichen, you clearly have that heart for me, why don't you want to admit it? Or maybe you are worried about something?"

He probably suspects that I dare not speak lightly because of his status.

In the end, I had no choice but to tell him the number of fate tactfully, "You and I are not destined, even if we stay together today, it will never be possible in the future..."

He interrupted me, "If you don't try, how will you know that you and I are not destined? If you have never taken a step, how do you know that you will not reach the end."

I know that what I said sounds extremely absurd and foolish to him, but I am the God of fate, so how can I not know whether there is a bond between me and him.

"You just believe in your theory of fate in the Central Plains? I don't want fate to be determined by God, but I want to be determined by man. Ci Chen, if there is no fate, I will not meet you. Is it possible that God is boring and likes to play? In the world, are you deliberately playing tricks on you and me?"

I was awakened by his words, it seems that when I left the shrine, the predestined relationship between me and the world did not appear on the Siyuan Book, so what are all these things now?

"Ci Chen, what is supposed to be predestined? What is no predestined relationship? The friendship between my six brothers and Yunshi Zongjiao, the friendship between bamboo and horses, but before I can express my heart, they are separated by thousands of miles. One died in depression, and the other was imprisoned." In the cold Zhaoming Palace. Who should Brother Wang have a relationship with, and who should he not? If it is true as you Central Plains said, there is a god of fate in this world, but it is so chaotic, adding hatred and pain, playing with the world and the world. On the palm of the hand, how can it be worthy of the position of Yuanshen."

If there is a destiny, we will meet each other, know each other, love each other, and kill each other... Meeting each other without seeing each other is a thin fate; meeting and knowing each other is a good fate; meeting and then killing each other is a bad fate; but knowing each other and then being tempted, no fruit, is called half a lifetime Fate; if there is fruit, it is called a good fate... This is the method of fate I have set.

I can't say that his brother Wang's relationship with Yunshi is a half-life relationship, but it doesn't matter to me. Now that I stand from the perspective of the world, it's not just playing around.

is it my fault?

If I hadn't heard Shan Pei's words today, I wouldn't have known that I could have made all kinds of mistakes between the gods of fate.So, how much have I neglected before?

"Shan Pei." I called him and thanked him.

Although he didn't understand the meaning of my move, he still didn't forget to wait for my response.

I have been bound by rules for half my life, and now I am emotionally moved, stubbornly refusing to admit that it was just a trick of self-deception, but I have no choice but to put on an air in front of others.

If there is really a scourge from heaven, it should have been there from the moment I aroused my mortal thoughts. In the end, I should bear the mortal affairs alone, and should not drag Shan Pei down.If I really can't survive this catastrophe, then I will abandon this position of god and go through reincarnation again. In reincarnation, I will be a human being in the mortal world, without the entanglement of gods, maybe I will be more unrestrained and unrestrained, and I won't have this difficult choice at this moment.

I thought about it for a while, and said the most against my will in half my life, "Shan Pei, you and I are the most suitable here. My friendship with you is limited to this, and there is no possibility of anything worse."

I took a deep breath, suppressed the trembling in my heart, and continued: "I will not tell Your Majesty about Yeziyu. If you have trouble in Chang'an in the future, I will try my best to protect you and go back to Beidi safely."

Shan Pei didn't speak, and I didn't look up at him. After saying goodbye briefly, I turned around and opened the door to leave.