burial

I was dizzy and shook suddenly, and felt that what happened in just a few minutes was like a nightmare, a dream of confusion, confusion, and pain.

I don't know if my dad will go to Chu's house, and I don't know what I should do. I want to call Chu Zhi'an but I don't have a mobile phone... Tears welled up all of a sudden, the feeling of being twisted into a ball in my heart The pain made me unable to even stand, I had to bend my waist and knees, and finally knelt down and fell on the ground.

I knocked on the floor, but I couldn't relieve the colic in my body. Fear, worry, despair, these emotions kept coming up, overwhelming and suffocating in this dark and closed space.

I don't know when I passed out, I just remember that my head was bleeding, my eyes were blurred, and I don't remember anything.

When I woke up and saw the bright bedroom and the familiar room, it seemed like a lifetime away.

Suddenly there was a thin cry in my ear, I turned my eyes and saw my mother guarding my bedside with red and swollen eyes.I closed my eyes in despair, it was not a dream.

"An'an, you promise mom, break it, what's the use of tossing yourself like this? You change it, and it will be fine in the future, okay?" My mother touched the wound on my forehead, and the last few words were full of tears. Crying, tears falling drop by drop.

I closed my eyes tiredly, and said hoarsely, "Mom, I can't change it."

"Then what do you want?!" My mother's voice suddenly became sharp, and she couldn't bear to shout, "Kill us all?! Just like your Aunt Lu?!"

When I heard Death and Aunt Lu, my eyeballs moved, my nails dug deeply into my palm, my throat seemed to be rubbed with sand, and I couldn't say a word.

My mother took a deep breath to relieve her emotions, but her tone was no longer warm: "His parents have already brought him home. Whoever figured it out first went out first."

I opened my eyes suddenly, and my eyes were forced to turn red: "Why did you go to him?! I said that I started it first! Why did you go to him?!"

My mother stopped breathing and was so angry that she wanted to beat me up to wake me up, but she didn't do anything because she was concerned about the injury on my forehead.

She gritted her teeth with red eyes and said, "Look at what you look like now! Su An, are you going to piss me off!" After finishing speaking, she turned and walked out.

I lay on the bed with empty eyes, thinking about every bit of getting along with Chu Zhian, thinking about his last kiss that night... I suddenly laughed, and I burst into tears with a smile, my heart ached Bowed up and grabbed his chest hard.

I haven’t gone out since that day, and my mother brings me meals every day. I have no appetite and can’t eat at all. Every time my mother comes in and leaves with tears, my father doesn’t want to at all. see me.

I was terrified all the time, and there were countless shocking wounds on my arms.I also have no news about Chu Zhi'an, I can't contact him, I'm afraid that he will be beaten, that he will give up, and even more afraid that I will never see him again.

On the fourth day when I was locked up at home, my dad rarely came into my room, just to ask me to unlock my phone and send Chu Zhian a breakup text message.

I held the phone in my hand and looked at him calmly: "You and Uncle Chu discussed it."

My dad doesn't deny it either: "As long as you can become normal, I'm willing to try anything"

My eyes were red: "Why is it abnormal, Dad, I just like someone."

"I don't care if you like someone," my dad tried to suppress his anger: "but the one you fucking like is a man! Is this normal?! Your mother cries for you every day and every night and you don't feel bad at all?!"

I lowered my head and didn't speak for a long time, only to hear him sigh: "It's good for him to stop early, you know that Uncle Chu has a bad temper."

I suddenly remembered the time after the college entrance examination that Chu Zhi'an was beaten until he couldn't get out of bed. I was so tired that I didn't want to move or talk, as if every cell in my body had lost its strength.

For a long time, I trembled under his gaze and unlocked it, Chu Zhi'an, let's leave here together when we are free, and go to a place where no one knows us.

Start typing, send successfully.

"Let's break up."

As soon as I finished posting, I saw a reply in seconds: "OK"

Seeing me in a daze, my dad took the phone from my hand and walked out: "Have a good rest, their family will go abroad this Sunday, and you can go back to school after they leave."

It wasn't until I heard the sound of closing the door that my tears fell belatedly, I wiped my eyes with my arm, I was useless, crying, it's okay, it definitely wasn't from Chu Zhi'an, but...

My tears piled up uncontrollably and kept falling, but he was injured so badly that he could let others use his fingerprint to unlock and send me a message...

My head suddenly hurt violently. It was like a steel needle pierced my brain from one side to the other. It hurt so badly that I wanted to cut my head open and pull out the steel needle.

I staggered into the bathroom and locked myself in it. I bumped into the wall one after another. The blood on my forehead was getting more and more bloody, and the blood that had gathered was dripping down. I didn't realize it. I just murmured repeatedly: "What to do, what to do, what to do……"

My vision was suddenly blurred, I touched it, my hand was covered with blood, I lowered my eyes to see a shocking pool of red on the ground, I thought inappropriately, if Chu Zhian saw it, he would call me a liar again.

Another drop of liquid hit the blood, diluting the color of the small patch of blood red.

It wasn't blood, it was tears.

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