Comprehensive fear: this dead heroine

Anger, sadness, despair, humiliation...

Zuo Si had never felt so many negative emotions before. When she entered this world, before she opened her eyes, those emotions poured into her mind continuously.

A steady stream of tears fell from her eyes, and that kind of sadness and despair surged through her body, wrapping her whole body layer upon layer.

Why is it so sad?Why is it so painful?Why is it so painful to even breathe?

Those pains did not come from the body, but from the soul, from the soul of the body she occupied, that pure, weak, fragile soul.

In a daze, Zuo Si saw that soul, and she walked towards her, reaching out her hand, wanting to touch her.

That soul suddenly raised her head, revealing a pale face, she just looked at Zuo Si, her eyes were so sad that it made one's heart break.

"What did I do wrong? What did Suyuan do wrong? Why do you say it's my fault? Suyuan is a good boy, the uncle said he didn't have an umbrella, Suyuan helped him hold the umbrella, why did everyone say it was mine Wrong, why no one praised Suyuan?"

The immature child's voice asked loudly, and her tears kept falling from her eyes, like pearls with broken strings, falling continuously.

"Why do I have to bear this, why do I have to suffer? Help me, who will help me, who will save me, Suyuan is in pain, it is in pain, mom, dad, help me..."

Zuo Si stretched out her hand, wanting to touch the person standing in front of her, but she couldn't catch anything with her outstretched hand. The little girl who had been crying turned into a wisp of smoke and dissipated in her In front of her, thin smoke slid past Zuo Si's fingertips, and she felt that her fingers seemed to touch something. The cold touch spread along her fingertips and spread to her whole body. The nerve, it seems, has regained its function.

Zuo Si felt the pain, and the heart-piercing pain pulled her out of the coma, she opened her eyes suddenly, and the ubiquitous pain ran around her body, that strange feeling Zuo Si couldn't help but groan.

Messy memories flooded into her mind along with the physical pain, and she saw what happened to the little girl who had been crying before.

She finally understood where those negative emotions were coming from.

Zuo Si opened her eyes and looked at the pale ceiling above her head. She felt stuffy and uncomfortable. The suppressed emotions in her heart could not be vented, and Zuo Si's mood swings were getting bigger and bigger.

How can there be such a thing in this world?Why do those people do things like that?Why do such terrible things to a child who doesn't know anything yet?

***

The owner of Zuo Si's body is named Suyuan. She is an eight-year-old girl who just entered the second grade this year.

Like every ordinary little girl, Suyuan's daily life is very monotonous, and she is full of fantasies about the future.

But all of this was destroyed by a brutal demon not long ago.

Those memories were so painful that even Zuo Si's emotions were affected. She sealed those memories deep in her memory and didn't want to touch them for the time being.

Those memories will affect her emotions, making her unable to think normally, and what she needs now is to think well.

The place where Zuo Si was located was an ordinary double ward. Suyuan just came out of the intensive care unit yesterday and was placed in this ward by the hospital.

Except for her, there was no one else in the ward. Like every hospital, the walls around the room were painted white. That cold and monotonous color filled Zuo Siyang's face, which made her feel very uncomfortable. Comfortable.

The smell of disinfectant filled the air, and her fragile nasal cavity couldn't bear the smell, and the warm liquid flowed out of her nasal cavity, and stained the pillow cover along her cheeks.

Zuo Si raised his hand and wiped it. The bright red blood was all over her face, making her look like a ghost crawling out of hell.

Suyuan's body was subjected to inhuman torture, and the slightest movement caused severe pain. Zuo Si took a few deep breaths and endured the pain.

A person like Zuo Si who can tolerate pain like Zuo Si couldn't endure such pain. She couldn't imagine how that eight-year-old child could endure such pain.

Why should a child encounter such a painful thing?

Zuo Si didn't understand, and she couldn't figure it out either. Children are obviously the future of the country, and they need to be protected and cared to grow up. Why would someone attack children?

In the eyes of those people, innocent and immature children are just things that can be abused at will, because those children are too young and fragile, so they become their targets.

The transparent medicinal liquid flowed into her body from the infusion tube. The medicinal liquid seemed to have an analgesic and sleeping effect. Not long after Zuo Si opened his eyes, he felt endlessly tired.

Those tiredness flooded in like a tide, and soon swallowed her up, pulling her consciousness into the darkness.

The nurse carrying the medicine in the corridor came over. She pushed open the door and entered the ward. When she saw the child lying on the bed, the nurse's eyes were sour and she almost cried out. After taking countless medicines, the nurse still feels pain and sadness every time she sees the child.

What kind of demon is capable of attacking such a child?

The nurse used the most gentle movements to change the gauze on Zuo Si's body. I don't know if it was the nurse's illusion, but I always felt that the wound on the child seemed to be smaller.

Sure enough, it was an illusion. After suffering such a serious injury, how could it be possible to return to normal so quickly?

Unless there is a miracle in this world, otherwise, the injury on this little girl's body will never heal in her lifetime.

After changing the medicine, the nurse gently covered Zuo Si's body with the quilt, and she came out of the ward with red eyes, just in time to meet another nurse.

Seeing the sad look of the nurse, the nurse knew in her heart: "Are you changing the medicine for that child again?"

The nurse nodded and said hoarsely, "Yes."

"You are too soft-hearted. Everyone has their own destiny. She is pitiful, but there are so many poor people in the world. If you sympathize, how can you sympathize? It's important to do your job well."

The older nurse patted the young nurse on the shoulder and left straight away.

The young nurse's expression was still gloomy. She pushed the cart and returned to the nurse's station.

She understood the truth, but she still couldn't help but feel sorry for that child.

The long night passed quickly, and the next day, when Zuo Si woke up, he found that there was a person sitting beside his bed.

Zuo Si's body tensed instantly, and when she found out that the person was a woman, her tense body slowly relaxed.

The woman sitting next to her looked less than 30 years old. She was very beautiful, very similar to Suyuan, but now she was haggard, and she looked as if she would fall down at any time.

The woman was crying, she didn't make a sound, she just shed tears silently, those scorching tears fell on the back of Zuo Si's hands, and burned all the way to her heart.

This woman is Suyuan's mother, and her name is Meiji.

Zuo Si lay there quietly, looking at Mei Ji who kept crying, she was so painful and sad, Zuo Si could see and feel her sadness and pain clearly.

Suyuan is her daughter, and her own daughter has encountered such a terrible thing. Miji's grief and pain are no less than Suyan's.

Mother and daughter are connected, only a mother can say the words of empathy.

Zuo Si felt that the corners of her eyes were a little wet, which was caused by Suyuan's remaining emotions in her body. Even though her soul was no longer there, her body still remembered that painful feeling.

Meiji cried for a long time, and finally, she barely stopped her tears, looked up, only to find that her daughter had woken up at some point, and was looking at her quietly.

At this moment, there was no gleam of light in those eyes full of agility, she just looked at her like that, as if her soul no longer existed, and all that was left was a broken shell.

Meiji's eyes were sore, and she almost cried again. She pulled herself together, looked at Zuo Si lying there, and forced a smile on her face: "We, Suyuan, are awake, Suyuan, your body Is it still hard, do you feel better, mom is here, mom will be with you..."

At the end, Meiji's voice was already choked up, she bit her lip tightly so as not to let herself cry.

Why is God so unfair?Why did such a terrible thing happen to her Suyuan? Why was it her Suyuan?

The more Meggie thought about it, the more uncomfortable she felt, and the more she thought about it, the more painful she felt. Those regrets were like knives, gouging out her flesh one by one.

If she had been with Suyuan that day, if she had sent Suyuan off that day, would such a thing not have happened?

Those pains became more and more, pressing down on Meiji like a hill, her guilt, her remorse, and her heartache almost crushed Meiji, she bit her lips tightly, the soft lips were covered by her The bite was bloody, but she didn't seem to feel the pain.

The pain she endured was less than one ten-thousandth of Suyuan's body. Her Suyuan could bear it, why couldn't she bear it?

The distance between the two is very close, Zuo Si can clearly feel those emotions of Meiji, Suyuan is her daughter, a piece of flesh that fell from her body, how can Meiji not be sad after she has gone through such a thing?

Zuo Si didn't know how to comfort a desperate mother, she watched Mei Ji torture herself there, and finally couldn't help but said: "Mom, don't be sad, I'm fine, I don't feel any pain at all. "

Zuo Si's words became the last straw that crushed Meggie. Hearing her daughter's immature voice, Meggie seemed to have suffered a catastrophe. She covered her face and burst into tears.

Since that incident, Suyuan has not said a word. She is like a rag doll that has been destroyed and stitched together. Although her body looks complete, the scars left on her body But tell everyone that everything is not over.

"Suyuan, it's my mother who's sorry for you, mother deserves to die, why wasn't I the one who suffered all this..."

Meiji was lying beside Zuo Si's hospital bed, crying bitterly. Zuo Si looked at this scene and didn't know what to do. She was clearly comforting Meiji, so why did Meiji cry even more sadly?

Zuo Si had never been a mother before, so she didn't understand a mother's feelings for her children.

She stretched out her hand and patted Meiji's back enduring the pain.

"I'm fine, really, don't cry..."

After a while, Meiji finally stopped crying, she raised her head and looked at Zuo Si, her tear-filled eyes were full of determination.

"Suyuan, mom will protect you, mom will always protect you, mom will never let you suffer any harm."

"I believe you."

***

Probably because Zuo Si entered this body, her special ability was also brought into this body.

Her injury was getting better day by day, Zuo Si thought that the recovery speed of this kind of injury was already very slow, but in the eyes of those doctors, all of this was a miracle in the history of medicine.

During these days in the hospital, Meiji has been taking care of Zuo Si.

She was busy before and after, and took care of Zuo Si meticulously without any help from others.

Suyuan's father came here once, but because he was a man and Zuo Si's wounds were hidden in hidden places, it was inconvenient for even her father to take care of her.

This man has never shed tears in front of Zuo Si, he is always smiling, and he has always encouraged Zuo Si to tell her what happened in the school.

"Suyuan, the children are waiting for you to go back to class. Everyone misses you very much."

"Your classmates agreed to come to see you, but the doctor uncle said that you have to rest now, and not too many people come over, so they didn't come."

Zuo Si quietly listened to Suyuan's father talking about those things, she didn't react too much, as if she was listening to something completely irrelevant to her.

In fact, except when facing Mei Ji, Zuo Si still has some reactions. When facing other people, Zuo Si is always like this, indifferent to everything. It was enclosed in a shell, rejecting everyone's approach.

In fact, only Zuo Si knew that she was absorbing the yin and resentment in the hospital at those times.

Her special abilities still remain in her body, but in the last world, Zuo Si consumed a lot of yin and resentment in order to save Stan. In this world, the reason why her body recovers slowly is because Because of her weakened strength.

The miracle in the eyes of those doctors was actually a normal phenomenon in Zuo Si's eyes. She even felt that her recovery was too slow.

There is life and death in the hospital, and the yin is very heavy. Those who are about to die have resentment towards the world because they cannot live.

In this world, no one knows how to absorb and use these yin and resentment, which makes Zuo Si easier.

However, because her body was depleted too much, the speed of absorption became very slow. It has been more than half a month, and the power she absorbed into her body was only able to recover her body by 5.00% %.

It will take a long, long time to fully return to a normal body.

But what Zuo Si lacked most was patience, she could wait slowly.

Meiji has been pregnant for four months. Her health is not very good, and because of Suyuan's incident, she has become even weaker. These days, she is busy taking care of Zuo Si, and she is exhausted physically and mentally. Living.

It's not that Meiji has never thought about getting rid of the child in her womb.

She wants to devote all her energy to her daughter.

After all, compared with the unborn child, her daughter is the most important.

After discussing with her husband, Meiji and her husband unanimously decided to remove the child in their stomach. They had already done wrong to Suyuan, and they should not treat Suyuan any worse because of the child in their stomach.

Someone told Zuo Si about taking away the child. When Meiji was taking care of Zuo Si, Zuo Si said to Meiji: "Mom, if you want to take away the child in my belly, I will choose to die."

Mei Ji was frightened by Zuo Si, she tried to reason with Zuo Si, she wanted to tell Zuo Si that the reason why she didn't want a child was to take better care of her.

Zuo Si didn't listen to Meiji's long speech. From Suyuan's memory, Zuo Si knew that Suyuan was looking forward to the birth of the child with Meiji's belly face. She even fantasized about how she would take care of this child in the future.

Suyuan hopes that this child will be born, and she hopes to be a perfect good sister.

Zuo Si is usually a good talker, but when she becomes stubborn, she doesn't listen to any explanation at all.

"If the child is gone, I will die too."

Zuo Si threatened her with her life, which finally made Mei Ji give up the idea of ​​taking away the child, and because Zuo Si's condition got better and she could handle some things by herself, she switched shifts with her husband and asked him to take care of Zuo Si.

Suyuan's father is called Ren Dongxun, he is different from Meiji, Meiji has always been cautious when getting along with Zuo Si, and often shed tears uncontrollably.

Ren Dongxun is different, he has never shed tears in front of Zuo Si, he has always been strong and optimistic in front of Zuo Si, he did not shy away from these things that Zuo Si encountered, he told Zuo Si, all this is not her fault, it is wrong It's the bad guy.

"We, Suyuan, are not wrong. We, Suyuan, are the best and kindest children in the world. You have done nothing wrong. It is someone else who did something wrong."

With Ren Dongxun, Zuo Si seldom talked, most of the time it was Ren Dongxun who was talking and she was listening.

Originally, the image of his father was just a vague shadow in Zuo Si's mind, but Ren Dongxun gradually made this shadow clear.

The image of her father in her mind became Ren Dongxun.

****

What Suyuan experienced was leaked out somehow, and a large number of reporters moved after hearing the news. They wanted to grab the news, grab attention, and gain more attention and exposure. They didn't care about their news reports. What impact does the victim make.

After experiencing so many worlds, Zuo Si has seen too much good and evil in human nature, but she never knew that some people have no moral bottom line, and in order to achieve their goals, they can do anything, even cannibalism , drinking human blood, peeling off human skin, tearing apart human bones.

At this time, Zuo Si didn't know that a reporter had already followed her.

Meiji almost had a miscarriage due to overwork, and Ren Dongxun had to take time to take care of Meiji.

He went out while Zuo Si was asleep, but he didn't expect that in just a few minutes, those reporters broke into Zuo Si's ward regardless of the doctors and nurses' obstruction.

The loud voice awakened Zuo Si from her sleep. As soon as she opened her eyes, she understood that countless long guns and short cannons were aimed at her.

The flash lights kept coming on, and the sound of the shutter sounded like a chant from the devil.

Those people with human-like faces unscrupulously filmed her wounds and tragedies there.

Those reporters pushed each other and came to Zuo Si's hospital bed. Their movements were so big that they nearly turned over the bottles and cans on the bedside table.

"Little girl, is your name Suyuan..."

"Have you been illegally violated by a grown man..."

"Why don't you resist, are you also enjoying it..."

Countless sharp questions turned into sharp arrows and stabbed at Zuo Si without any cover. The reporters' questions became sharper and sharper. If they had the ability, they would wish to tear Zuo Si's soul out so that they could check the case. What was the scene at the time.

No one cared what she thought, didn't care that she was just a child, all they saw was her newsworthiness, and in their eyes, she wasn't even a person at all.