Comprehensive fear: this dead heroine

The author has something to say: (～￣▽￣)～A new world has opened~~~~~

The lives of Zuo Si and Qin Yue returned to normal, repeating the same life day after day.

Having experienced too many exciting but exhausting worlds, the two of them have adapted very well to such bland days.

They seldom went to Cullen's house, but Luo Ke would come back occasionally, staying for two or three hours before going back.

The potion she made seemed to be in the final stage. Before the finished product was about to come out, Luo Ke was very disturbed, and the number of times she came back became more and more frequent.

"I don't know what to do." Luo Ke was wrapped in a small blanket and nestled on the single sofa in the living room. Now she looks pitiful, like a little girl who has been wronged. Not like a vampire.

Qin Yue and Zuo Si collected all the potatoes in the field today. They were so tired that they didn't even have the strength to move their arms. They sat slumped on the sofa, looked at Luo Ke not far away, and asked weakly: " What are you worried about, what are you worried about?"

The person who spoke was Qin Yue, and Zuo Si had been exhausted for a long time, sitting there in a daze, with a sense of confusion as to where he was.

She heard what Qin Yue said, but she didn't seem to hear it. She knew that there were two people beside her, but she didn't know who they were.

This feeling is very bad, as if the whole person is separated from the world, drifting outside the world, as if she is the only one in the world.

Zuo Si struggled to get out of that feeling, she let out a long breath, like a fish returning to the water after being exposed to the sun for a long time, the feeling of being alive still made her soul feel very comfortable.

Letting out a long breath, Zuo Si turned his head, looked at Luo Ke who was still wrapped in a small blanket and huddled there, and said softly, "Did something happen?"

Luo Ke shook his head, that pretty little face was wrinkled like dried orange peel, Zuo Si looked at her and said, "You look so ugly."

Qin Yue burst out laughing, she stretched out her hand, and rumpled Zuo Si's messy hair into a chicken coop.

"Don't talk nonsense."

Zuo Si let out a sigh, and sure enough, she didn't speak anymore. When she was with Qin Yue, she taught her a lot. Qin Yue is a good friend and a good teacher. From her, Zuo Si learned a lot. .

Qin Yue taught her little by little what no one would tell her or teach her before. Qin Yue would never despise her for being stupid. Teach it three times until she has learned it.

She is really a nice person.

Zuo Si's thoughts drifted to some place, and she became numb, Qin Yue laughed, she shook her head, and then she turned her attention to Luo Ke.

Luo Ke, who was ignored, looked at Qin Yue with resentment on his face, and said, "Lawrence, you don't care about me at all."

Qin Yue: "..."

Luo Ke seemed to be on the rise, Qin Yue had to get up and coax her. After coaxing for a while, she finally coaxed the stingy bag well. She breathed a sigh of relief and changed the topic to the original one.

"What happened? What happened to you?"

Luo Ke sighed and told Qin Yue what he was worried about.

The relationship between Edward and Bella has gradually improved. When the love is strong, many couples have to do things that should be done between lovers. However, because of Edward's status as a vampire, the two are obviously in love with each other very much. There is no way to do the most intimate things.

Edward was still suppressing his emotions when he didn't know that Luo could concoct a potion that could turn a vampire into a human, but when he saw hope, those suppressed emotions could no longer be suppressed.

He desperately wants to become a human again, so that he can be with Bella, marry and have children like ordinary people, and grow old forever.

The more urgent he acted, the more uneasy Luo Ke felt. After all, this potion can only theoretically turn a vampire into a human. In practice, she cannot guarantee the success rate. If it is unsuccessful, there may be many sequelae If so, what should she do?

There is no way to say these words in her heart to the people of the Cullen family. Although they are all good people, no matter how good they are, there is a limit. She can only hold these words in her heart, and then find Time confides these words to Qin Yue.

"Roco, you don't need to have a psychological burden. You didn't hide the possible sequelae of these medicines. Those in the Edward and Cullen family know about this. You just need to have a clear conscience. Other things , really don’t have to worry about it.”

Qin Yue persuaded Luo Ke for a while, and her depressed mood improved a little bit. She raised her head and looked at Zuo Si who was already asleep on the sofa, with a hint of envy in her eyes.

"I really envy people like Adam."

Qin Yue smiled, and stroked Zuo Si's hair: "If you really become her, you don't think her life will be enviable."

Luo Ke deeply thinks that she envies other people's lives occasionally, but envy is nothing but envy, but she doesn't want to be like them. Her life is suffering, but it is still her own life, and she has to go on no matter what.

After leaving that day, Luo Ke didn't come over for a long time. Qin Yue and Zuo Si were unavoidably worried. However, the Cullen family is the territory of vampires. I didn't go there, and I only contacted by phone on weekdays.

In a blink of an eye, several months passed by, and a snowstorm swept across the entire Washington area, and the entire Forks became a world covered in silver light.

Because of the snowstorm, the communication was interrupted, and Zuo Si and Qin Yue hadn't contacted Luo Ke for several days.

Early in the morning, Zuo Si and Qin Yue came out of the warm blanket, wrapped themselves into a ball, and started shoveling snow with tools.

The snow outside the house was as high as half a person, and it was very strenuous to shovel, but after such a long time, the two of them had gotten used to this kind of work, so they didn't feel tired.

Just after shoveling the snow in the yard, the two of them just blinked, and there was an extra person in the yard.

To be correct, there was an extra vampire in the yard.

The person who came was Dr. Carlisle. In such a cold weather, he only wore a thin windbreaker, which formed a stark contrast with Qin Yue and Zuo Si who were wrapped into balls.

When seeing him, Zuo Si didn't feel anything yet, but Qin Yue seemed to think of something, and the expression on his face changed instantly.

"What happened to Rocco?"

There was a look of sadness on Carlisle's face. He looked at Qin Yue, and there seemed to be water in his blue eyes: "I'm sorry, we didn't protect Luo Ke well..."

Even though she already had guesses in her heart, Qin Yue still couldn't accept it when she really learned the truth from Carlisle.

Unable to control her emotions, she took a step forward and grabbed Carlisle by the collar, looking at Carlisle's handsome face, she gritted her teeth and asked, "Didn't you say that you would protect her by letting her join the Cullen family? Why is she still dead?"

This matter was the negligence of Carlisle and the others. After the potion was prepared, in order to verify the effect of the potion, Roco drank the potion that could turn a vampire into a human.

She successfully transformed into a human, and then, she knew what the aftereffect of that potion was.

The effect of this medicine is irreversible. After drinking this medicine, the vampire will transform into a human being, but from then on, even if it is bitten by a vampire, it is impossible to become a human again.

There is only one choice, whether to live forever as a vampire, or to become a human, experience life, old age, sickness and death, and finally turn into a cup of loess.

Edward chose to transform into a human being, and Rosalie, who had always hoped to have children by herself, also chose to transform back into a human being, and Emmett, who loved Rosalie deeply, also made the same choice.

He is willing to live with his wife as a human being.

Roco, who became a human, could no longer live in the Cullen family. They originally wanted to send Roco back, but because of the blizzard, Roco had to stay in the Cullen family.

"We were not there that day, because some things had to be resolved, so only Luo Ke was at home alone. When we realized something was wrong and came back, she had disappeared."

What Carlisle said was actually quite subtle. In less subtle terms, Roco was killed by another vampire on the territory of the Cullen family, and after that vampire killed her, he took her body with him. and took away.

"You go."

Qin Yue didn't want to see Carlisle anymore, because their negligence caused Luo Ke's death, they would feel sad and feel guilty, but no one would use their lives to compensate the dead person.

"Let's go. The connection between us was created because of Roco. Roco is dead, so there is no need for us to keep in touch."

Carlisle was silent for a long time, unable to say anything except a sorry.

However, a sentence of sorry is not worth mentioning in front of a lost life.

Carlisle left and hasn't been back since.

The days of Zuo Si and Qin Yue went back to the past. Zuo Si thought that everything was the same as before, but as time passed, she realized that some things were really different.

No one would come back every now and then to prepare delicious food for the two of them, and no girl with a sweet smile would act coquettishly at the two of them.

She knew intellectually that after leaving this world, she would continue to live in another world, but she couldn't accept it emotionally.

After the lease of the farm came, Zuo Si and Qin Yue didn't renew the lease. They drove the small broken truck and left Forks.

Where to go, where to live, the two actually don't have any plans, they stop and go, if a place has good scenery, they will live, rent a house, find a temporary job, live a life that is not rich but very A plain and fulfilling life.

Tired of staying in one place, they leave there and look for the next place to stay.

Decades passed by, and when the two of them were too old to walk, they dug their own graves in the deep mountains.

"Lawrence, I'm dying."

"Adam, me too."

Lying in the tomb, Zuo Si slowly closed his eyes listening to the voice from the next door.

Although I don't know if there will be a chance to meet again in the future, Zuo Si still has a small hope in his heart, hoping that they can meet again in a certain world.

"Qin Yue, goodbye."

"Goodbye, Zuo Si."

*******

The darkness seems endless. She can feel the existence of her own consciousness, but she also feels that the existence of her consciousness seems to be an illusion. Time is meaningless here. She can't feel anything, but it seems that she can feel everything get.

I don't know how long it took, the light came again, Zuo Si woke up from the dream, she sat up suddenly from the ground, looking at the familiar yet unfamiliar space, Zuo Si had a very unreal feeling.

She is back again?

"Welcome back."

That strange voice sounded again, Zuo Si let out a groan, as if he remembered something, and then said, "I'm back."

The mysterious existence in that mysterious space did not speak, and a moment later, a character panel belonging to Zuo Si appeared in front of her.

Character: Zuo Si

Age: 16

Intelligence: 26 (out of 100)

Physical strength: 12 (100 full marks)

Force: 6 (out of 100)

Hatred value: 1 (out of 100)

Zuo Si blinked and looked at those attributes. She couldn't remember what the data she saw last time. She just felt that the points belonging to intelligence seemed to have increased a little.

That existence seemed to be aware of Zuo Si's thoughts, and he affirmed her thoughts: "What you feel is right, your intelligence has indeed grown."

Zuo Si let out an oh, but didn't speak.

Probably to allow her to rest well and maintain her physical strength and energy in a perfect state, a new task appeared.

This task: get the hatred of the clown, the task time is not limited.

This mission floated in mid-air for a long time, and Zuo Si also looked at it for a long time, probably after making sure that she saw it and remembered it, the words disappeared.

Mission begins.

Zuo Si only felt that his body was empty, and his whole body fell rapidly downwards. She was used to the feeling of weightlessness, but she didn't feel anything else.

Are you going to enter a new world again?

It was just the only thought in Zuo Si's mind before she fainted, and then she fell into darkness.

Not long after Zuo Si fell, the man reappeared in this space. Looking at the direction where Zuo Si disappeared, he fell into deep thought.

Because of an accident before, Zuo Si fell into those mission worlds. He didn't know where she fell or what she experienced, but it could increase her IQ by as much as two points. What she experienced The world must be very exciting.

*****

Maine, USA.

Outside a slightly dilapidated house, a red-brown-haired boy with glasses lay outside the window and whispered into the house.

"Stan, Stan~~"

The little boy lying on the bed moved his body, then he rubbed his eyes and slowly woke up.

Zuo Si, who just woke up, felt at a loss. Her mind was empty, and she didn't know where she was. After a long time, some fragmented memories flooded into her mind.

With the influx of these memories, Zuo Si's sense of strangeness and alienation towards the world also slowly disappeared.

She became this 13-year-old boy named Stan.

"Stan, oh my god, you slept like a pig, I thought you'd never wake up again."

Hearing this, Zuo Si slowly turned her head away. She looked at the boy with reddish-brown curly hair lying outside the window, and slowly frowned.

"How did you come?"

The boy outside is called Ricky Tosha, and he's a good friend of Stan's, and he's kind of a nice guy, except for his mouth.

Of course, these memories are all found in Zuo Sistein's memory. She has Stan's memory and body. In a sense, she is Stan.

Seeing that Zuo Si was still sitting on the bed, Ricky showed an impatient look on his face: "God, Stan, you haven't forgotten our agreement yesterday, right? We agreed to go out to play, don't you Say you don't remember, if you do, I will definitely kick your balls."

Zuo Si: "...Of course I remember."

When she said that, Ricky laughed. He waved to Zuo Si and said loudly, "I'll wait for you outside the door, come here quickly."

Before Zuo Si could agree, Ricky climbed down the window sill and quickly ran outside the door to wait.

Zuo Si sat on the bed for a while, then went to the bathroom to clean himself up.

This is not the first time Zuo Si has used a man's body, she is used to it. In a woman's body, she regards herself as a woman, and in a man's body, she regards herself as a man.

Anyway, they are all human beings, whether they are male or female, it doesn't really matter.

Clean yourself up and put on clean clothes. It is a dark green military uniform, and the hat is also dark green. It is placed at the end of the bed. It should be what Stan is going to wear.

After getting dressed, he took a picture in front of the mirror, looked at the handsome young man in the mirror, Zuo Si frowned, and the young man in the mirror became alive.

Ricky's shout came from outside again, he was probably waiting impatiently, Zuo Si put on the crooked hat, then left the room and walked downstairs.

The stairs have been in disrepair for a long time, although they look clean, and then step on them, the wooden stairs creak, as if they will collapse at any time.

Fortunately, Zuo Si walked all the way to the bottom of the stairs, and the stairs that seemed to be collapsing did not collapse. She passed through the long living room and ran towards the outside. Just when she ran to the door, there was a middle-aged woman who was busy in the kitchen After running out, she saw Zuo Si who was changing shoes at the door, and she frowned deeply.

"Stan, where are you going?"

Zuo Si put on his shoes, straightened her back, looked at the woman who looked very similar to Stan, and said, "Ricky and I have an appointment to play together, and he's waiting for me outside."

The woman's brows stretched, she nodded, and then said: "Then remember to come back earlier."

"I see."

After saying this, Zuo Si came to open the door and ran out. Obviously, Ricky outside the gate was already waiting impatiently. He frowned tightly when he saw Zuo Si who was running towards him across the yard.

"Oh my God, Stan, you look like a little girl, do you still paint your eyebrows and eyes at home?"

He spoke quickly and urgently, sputtering out a lot of words, making it impossible for anyone to get in a sentence.

In the end, Ricky finally had enough. He glanced at Zuo Si and felt a little strange.

"Why are you so quiet today?"

"What?" Zuo Si, who hadn't reacted to Ricky's crackling words, raised his head blankly and looked at Ricky opposite.

Seeing Zuo Si like this, Ricky felt even more strange in his heart. He felt that his friend seemed to be a little weird, and he still looked the same, but he felt that the person standing in front of him was no longer the original one. up.

"It's crazy."

Ricky shook his head, and put all the messy thoughts in his mind behind him, he patted Zuo Si's shoulder vigorously, and said: "Okay, okay, let's not talk about this, let's go , it's getting late, and the sun will be setting soon after a while."

Speaking of Rich, he walked towards the small forest outside the town, Zuo Si raised his head in a daze, looked at the sun that had just risen and was still hanging in the east, and couldn't understand what Rich said.

Isn't it just morning?How can the sun set so fast?

"Stan!!!"

Ricky had already run a long way, but Zuo Si's footsteps hadn't moved yet, he was hopping on the other side of the street, calling Zuo Si's name loudly.

"Stan, come here quickly!!!"

"I am coming!"

Zuo Si came back to his senses, and immediately ran towards Ricky over there.

"I really admire you..."

"Sorry……"

Ricky is a chatterbox, and he has been babbling about Zuo Si all the way, without stopping for a moment. Zuo Si thinks Ricky is a very magical existence. Changing the tone of voice all the time, one person played more than a dozen roles.

He kept talking about Zuo Si, but Zuo Si didn't find him annoying, they talked and listened to each other, and the two of them had walked into the woods unknowingly.

For Zuo Si, she didn't know what fun there was in such a grove, but for half-grown boys like Ricky and Stan, the grove was a treasure trove, where they explored, played, and enjoyed every season. It seems to be able to find different ways to play.

Derry Town is a very small town. It is not as prosperous as a big city, and there are few places to play. This forest has become the best playground for children who are half-grown.

It didn't take long to walk into the woods, and the two heard people's voices coming from the woods. Ricky's eyes lit up, and he probably heard the voice of an acquaintance.

"It's Billy, Stan, hurry up."

With that said, Ricky got into the woods and ran towards the direction of the sound.

His speed was quite fast, but he disappeared in the blink of an eye. Zuo Si shook his head helplessly, feeling that Ricky's energy was too much.

Just when Zuo Sisi was about to follow, a somewhat familiar voice faintly came from her ear. The voice sounded like Qin Yue's and Luo Ke's. Obviously, she couldn't recognize the voices of men and women, but Zuo Si subconsciously felt that It sounded like the two of them.

She looked back and saw a red balloon floating over from nowhere. The balloon floated unsteadily to the tree, got stuck between two branches, and could no longer move.

Zuo Si hooked the corners of her mouth and turned her gaze away. She heard Ricky's voice calling her again. If she didn't go over, that fellow Ricky would probably talk about it for a long time again.

"I am coming!"

Zuo Si raised his voice and quickly chased after Ricky in the direction he left.

Passing through the thick bushes, Zuo Si saw five people standing beside the pool not far away, four teenagers and one girl, they stood there, seeming to be talking about something.

"Oh my God, Stan, you're finally here. I thought you were a snail. You won't come until dark on such a small road."

Zuo Si smiled and said sorry.

Ricky hooked Zuo Si's shoulders and pulled her over: "His name is Stan, he is a Jew, and he is my good friend."

The four people on the opposite side smiled at Zuo Si, and said hello: "Hi Stan."

Ricky and they all know each other, but Stan’s personality is relatively introverted. Apart from Ricky, he has no other friends. In the past, apart from playing with Ricky, he spent the rest of his time studying birds. of books.

Ricky patted Zuo Si on the shoulder and introduced her to the people opposite.

"This girl is called Beverly Marcie."

The girl with the double ponytails smiled at Zuo Si, showing two pointed canine teeth.

"The boy with black hair and glasses is Billy. The chubby guy next to him who looks like a scarecrow is called Ben Hankang. The other guy with curly blonde hair is called Eddie. He and Billy are close buddies."

Ricky introduced those people to Zuo Si one by one, and Zuo Si nodded towards them, showing a shy smile.

"What are you doing here? Building a dam? God, trust me, you're never going to make it."

Ricky pointed to the pile of tattered things and said so.

It was Billy who proposed the construction of the dam, and he was full of confidence in himself. Hearing Ricky say that it would never succeed, Billy choked back with a choked neck.

"Ricky, we will be successful, do you want to join us?"

In fact, when he spoke just now, Ricky also wanted to join the members who built the dam, but he didn't feel embarrassed to say it directly, so he spoke in a roundabout way.

Now that Billy proposed the invitation, Ricky naturally agreed: "Well, if it weren't for us, you wouldn't be able to do it. For the sake of your sincerity, we joined."

Feeling bewildered, Zuo Si: "..."

Children can easily develop an inexplicable friendship. Zuo Si and Ryan followed Billy and the others to build the dam for half a morning, and thus became good friends.

Beverly was very interested in Zuo Si, who had a handsome face and a shy smile, so she approached Zuo Si during a break, and sat down on the same tree stump with her.

"Hi Stan."

The little girl's voice was delicate and tender, and it was extremely pleasant to hear. Zuo Si looked sideways at Beverly and nodded: "Hello, Beverly."

Beverly smiled sweeter, a small pear dimple appeared on her cheek, getting along with beautiful girls always makes people happy physically and mentally, Beverly is beautiful and has a good personality, plus Her voice was delicate and soft, very pleasant to hear, so Zuo Si couldn't help saying a few more words to her.

"Stan, this is a beautiful dress on you. Is this a Boy Scout uniform?"

Zuo thought for a while, rummaged through Stan's memory, then nodded, and said, "Well, it's the military uniform."

"You're really good. I didn't even join the Boy Scouts."

Beverly said enviously, no matter what age girls are, they are a bit uniform-controlled in their bones, and Stan's appearance is really good, wearing the boy scout uniform makes him look even more energetic.

The chubby guy named Ben who was sitting on the other side looked a little sad. He was very envious of Zuo Si being able to chat so speculatively with Beverly, and he tried to get in, but Beverly didn't notice his existence at all.

Ben felt a little bored, so he sat back and watched sullenly that they had only completed a small piece of the dam not far away.

After resting for a while, they were busy for a while again. Seeing the sun rising above their heads, after a busy morning, the tired and hungry people were ready to go home.

They are both residents of the small town, and they were naturally together when they went back. Beverly had a good impression of Zuo Si, and after chatting by the pool for a while, she felt that the relationship between the two was pretty good. On the way, he followed Zuo Si all the time, chatting with her.

Zuo Si responded one after another. She is a good listener, but not a good chatter. She will only respond to what Beverly says, and can't get along with anything else. talk.

Although the body used was only a teenager, Zuo Si's soul was no longer a child, and she really had nothing to talk about with Beverly.

In the end, Beverly also felt a little bored, so she ran to the front and chatted with Billy.

Although Billy stuttered a bit, he had many wonderful little stories in his mind. When talking about those stories, he seemed to forget that he was a stutter, and his voice was very smooth.

Not to mention Beverly, as soon as he started telling stories, the other children all gathered around to listen to him telling those novel stories.

Zuo Si had never experienced the youthful and energetic youth before. When she recalled what she experienced at this age, she could not recall anything except the darkness.

There is really nothing worth remembering about her teenage years.

They soon arrived at the town, and everyone dispersed at the entrance of the town, each walking towards their respective homes.

Zuo Si walked slowly through the dilapidated but extremely clean streets of the town, and walked towards the old building not far away.

I don't know how many years this town has existed. It seems that the buildings in the town have not been built for a long time, and the old ones are left behind. The richer people will repaint the outer walls and so on. Some people will not renovate, so that the house retains its original appearance.

The small town gave her the feeling of being outdated. In addition, there was another feeling. Zuo Si couldn't tell what it was, but it felt uncomfortable, very uncomfortable. In addition to the smell of dust in the air , There is another faint fishy smell permeating the air.

Zuo Si frowned and rubbed his sore nose.

At this point, everyone basically had lunch at home, and there weren't many people on the street. Zuo Si rubbed his withered stomach, and ran quickly towards Stan's house.

"Hee hee hee~~~~~"

Inexplicable laughter rang in Zuo Si's ears, she stopped running, and looked back, the road she came from was empty and there was nothing there.

Did she get it wrong?

Zuo Si frowned, not thinking much, she turned around and continued running towards home.

She was really hungry, and she couldn't care less about those inexplicable voices.

"Hee hee hee~~~"

The laughter sounded again, Zuo Si didn't pay attention to the sound, and there was no pause under his feet.

Soon, she ran back home, she opened the door, and the aroma of the food wafted out Zuo Si sniffled, and after smelling the tempting aroma, a smile appeared on his face involuntarily, she liked it very much Only when you have experienced an ordinary life will you understand how rare it is to live an ordinary and happy life.

"I'm back~"