Reborn to Strive

Guan Baiyu stared at Shi Zhen with a sullen face, and then... tears fell down again.

He is not a person who likes to cry, after all, crying is useless at all.

When he was a child, he accidentally fell and was bullied. If he cried in front of his grandma, his grandma would get annoyed and would slap him with her hand.

So a little older and he won't cry anymore.

In another life, he didn't know how much harder he lived than now, but he would not shed even a single tear easily.

Crying will only make people see his jokes.

But seeing Shi Zhen now, he couldn't help crying.

After Guan Baiyu opened the door, Shi Zhen saw his red and swollen eyes at a glance.

Last night he felt that Guan Baiyu's eyes were a little red, and now it looks serious.

When Guan Baiyu couldn't stop crying, he was at a loss as to what to do. He stretched out his hand to wipe Guan Baiyu's tears, but thought that this would be too intimate: "Xiaoyu, don't cry, don't be like this... Xiaoyu..."

Guan Baiyu's heart was filled with various emotions, he wanted to throw himself into Shi Zhen's arms, hug Shi Zhen, and cry for a while.

But at this moment, he heard the sound of the door opening.

There is no doubt that Zhao Qiujuan got up.

Both Shi Zhen and Zhao Qiujuan got up early.

Guan Baiyu woke up suddenly. He tore off his towel from the shelf next to him and covered his face, then walked out quickly, past Zhao Qiujuan and plunged into his bedroom.

Shi Zhen didn't have time to stop him, so he could only look at Zhao Qiujuan who had just left the room.

Zhao Qiujuan was a little uneasy, walked to Shi Zhen and lowered her voice and asked, "Ah Zhen, what's wrong with Xiaoyu?

Shi Zhen said: "Maybe it's because I didn't pass the exam."

Shi Zhen vaguely felt that Guan Baiyu did this not because he failed the exam.

Maybe... something to do with him.

During the two days of the college entrance examination, Guan Baiyu was obviously very happy.

"Ah...then what should I do?" Zhao Qiujuan asked worriedly. Even the heartless Shi Ting had been worried for several days during the senior high school entrance examination, fearing that she would not pass the entrance examination.

Guan Baiyu is in the college entrance examination, so he must be more worried.

"I'll talk to him later," Shi Zhen said.

"Alright," Zhao Qiujuan said, "By the way, has Xiaoyu eaten?"

Upon hearing this, Shi Zhen turned around and went to the nearby kitchen.

He opened the refrigerator, and saw that the meals he had saved from last night were still there: "He hasn't eaten yet."

"Then... Anyway, let him eat first?" Zhao Qiujuan asked.

"Well," Shi Zhen knocked on Guan Baiyu's door, "Xiao Yu, are you hungry? Have something to eat first?"

Guan Baiyu was indeed hungry, but he didn't really want to eat.

After experiencing another part of his life, when he recalled all the things that happened in the past few years, he couldn't tell what it was like.

He didn't know anything about the other life before, and Shi Zhen guarded their memories alone, always treating him well.

He thought Shi Zhen didn't have feelings for him... Shi Zhen was so kind to him, how could it be that he didn't feel it?Some of Shi Zhen's performances can be called "marrying a wife and forgetting a mother"!

How can he be so good!

Guan Baiyu remained silent, Shi Zhen opened the door and went in, and saw Guan Baiyu was lying on his back with a towel wrapped around his head.

"Xiao Yu, no matter what, you have to eat." Shi Zhen said.

"I..." Guan Baiyu opened his mouth, and suddenly found that his voice was not right.

His voice sounded like weeping!

Shutting his mouth, Guan Baiyu took a few breaths.

Shi Zhen couldn't see Guan Bai's expression under the towel: "Xiao Yu, I'll get you something to eat, how much do you want?"

Guan Baiyu let out a "huh".

Shi Zhen in this life... is much more considerate than in his previous life.

In his previous life, this person didn't have so many twists and turns in his mind.

At that time, Shi Zhen was at home, and he was willing to do things, and he also liked to cling to him, but sometimes he didn't make it clear to him, and he might not be able to understand what others meant.

For example, if he said in a fit of anger that he didn't want to eat, Shi Zhen would think that he really didn't want to eat, and then he would kill his portion too.

Of course, after realizing this situation, he stopped saying such angry words, lest he would be the one who was unhappy in the end.

Shi Zhen went out, took out yesterday's leftovers from the refrigerator, fried them into fried rice with eggs, then put the two sauced duck legs reserved for Guan Baiyu in another bowl, and brought them to Guan Baiyu's room: "Xiaoyu, eat something."

Guan Baiyu's voice was heard through the towel: "You go out first..."

When he saw Shi Zhen now, he wanted to cry.

It's fine if there are no outsiders at home... Zhao Qiujuan is here!

The house's sound insulation is not very good, and he doesn't want Zhao Qiujuan to hear him break down and cry.

Shi Zhen thought for a while, but finally went out: "Call me if you need anything."

"En." Guan Baiyu replied again.

After Shi Zhen left, Guan Baiyu came out of the quilt. He drank the water that Shi Zhen brought him yesterday, and then ate slowly.

This rice is definitely fried by Shi Zhen, it is a familiar taste.

In another period of his life, he lived the most difficult four years, because of Shi Zhen, he didn't suffer any grievances.

But Shi Zhen... How has Shi Zhen been feeling these past few years?

Guan Baiyu ate the fried rice slowly, taking one bite at a time.

He was indeed a little hungry, so he quickly finished a bowl of rice, started to eat the duck leg again, and took apart the bag of milk to drink together.

Some voices came from outside.

Although he knew that Shi Zhen valued him before, he always thought that Shi Zhen loved him as a younger brother and treated him better. He also thought it was because of his good grades or something like that.

But now... If Shi Zhen dares to treat him as his younger brother, he will bite him to death!

Guan Baiyu was sure that with his appearance, Shi Zhen would not go out today.

Thinking of this, Guan Baiyu wanted to cry again.

In fact, Shi Zhen avoided him before, mostly because he didn't want to disturb his study, not because he didn't like him.

But Shi Zhen ignored his confession...

Guan Baiyu took a hard bite of the duck leg.

After he finished eating, he wiped his hands and face with the towel he brought in, and then lay still.

Zhao Qiujuan goes to work at eight o'clock, and she usually goes there early, and she leaves at about seven o'clock...

The door and the security door of their house were loudly opened and closed... Guan Baiyu heard the sound of the door opening and closing at around seven o'clock, waited for a while, and then called out: "Shi Zhen!"

"Xiao Yu?" Shi Zhen had been waiting outside, when he opened and closed the door of Bai Yu's room.

After opening the door, Shi Zhen realized something was wrong - Guan Baiyu always called him "Brother", why did he suddenly call him by his name?

"Your sister is gone?" Guan Baiyu asked.

"Yes, she went to work." Shi Zhen felt something was wrong again—Guan Baiyu had called Zhao Qiujuan "sister" directly before, instead of saying "your sister".

"Are you busy today?" Guan Baiyu asked again.

"Not busy." Shi Zhen said quickly, he mainly wanted to go to various construction sites to watch, and there were not many other things.

"I have something to tell you." Guan Baiyu tried his best to keep his voice steady.

"Xiao Yu?" Shi Zhen felt that the atmosphere was inexplicably solemn.

Guan Baiyu said: "I actually drink very well."

No matter what period of his life he was in, he was a good drinker.

But Shi Zhen probably didn't hold a lot of alcohol himself, so he always felt that he didn't hold a lot of alcohol either.

In summer, when he drank a can of cold beer to relieve the heat, Shi Zhen always looked like he would get drunk.

He just pretended to be drunk and did things that he was usually embarrassed to do.

Shi Zhen was taken aback.

Guan Baiyu said: "Four bottles of beer can't make me drunk at all. I was sober from beginning to end yesterday."

"Xiaoyu..." Shi Zhen was startled, Guan Baiyu was sober yesterday?

Guan Baiyu confessed to him, but he didn't give any response... So Guan Baiyu cried so hard?

Shi Zhen felt distressed and guilty at the same time.

Guan Baiyu looked at Shi Zhen's expression, tears kept falling.

"Xiao Yu, I'm sorry..." Shi Zhen apologized subconsciously.He has never seen Guan Baiyu so sad, this is caused by him... He subconsciously wants to explain: "I just think you are still young..."

Guan Baiyu wiped away tears and looked at Shi Zhen.

In their last life, they met a year later, but at that time, if you really want to talk about it... he looked thinner than now.

Why didn't Shi Zhen feel that he was young at the time?

However, he could guess some of Shi Zhen's thoughts, and it was precisely because he guessed... that he couldn't stop crying.

Shi Zhen was thinking about him.

Guan Baiyu didn't know what he could say, and he couldn't speak...He suddenly rushed over, hugged Shi Zhen's neck, and kissed him.

Shi Zhen froze.

Guan Baiyu let go of him, pushed him down on the bed, and bit his chest through his clothes.

"Xiaoyu..." Shi Zhen felt that his chest was wet, it was Guan Baiyu's tears.

Guan Baiyu was crying all the time, and his mood was not stable.

What should he do?How can he comfort Guan Baiyu?

Shi Zhen was a little worried. At this moment, Guan Baiyu suddenly began to take off his clothes...

Shi Zhen turned pale with shock, this development was completely beyond his expectation.

Guan Baiyu how... how...

This is a development that Shi Zhen never thought about!

He subconsciously wanted to hide, but then he saw Guan Baiyu staring at him with red and swollen eyes.

That look was a bit fierce, as if he would hide from him forever.

He could still feel that Guan Baiyu was very, very sad.

When the two are added together, it looks harsh.

The most important thing is that Guan Baiyu is so sad, and he feels uncomfortable in his heart. At this moment, there is a feeling...no matter what Guan Baiyu wants to do, he must follow his thoughts.

He actually...couldn't refuse Guan Baiyu.

Shi Zhen didn't move.

Guan Baiyu's kiss fell down again and landed on his face.

Guan Baiyu didn't expect that he would do such a crazy thing.

In his previous life, he would also take the initiative, but very few, and Shi Zhen expected him to do so when he was drunk.

But this time is different.

His sudden behavior... seemed to have shocked Shi Zhen into a daze.

But he was in a bad mood at the time, he was almost on the verge of collapse, and he couldn't talk properly... It would be good to just exercise.

He also... especially wanted to feel Shi Zhen's existence.

And he did just that.

Skip a series of procedures such as confession, and go straight to the bridal chamber.

Although Shi Zhen was frightened stupid at the beginning, he performed well later on, but his skills were the same as before... not so good.

Guan Baiyu was a little tired, but after being tired, he felt much better. He lay on the bed, his mind was empty, and he finally didn't want to cry.

It's really good, both he and Shi Zhen are fine.

In fact, he should be happy.

"Xiao Yu, you..." Shi Zhen was still a little confused at the moment.

He didn't even know how the previous things happened.

How could Guan Baiyu do such a thing?

Of course, he was also at fault, and he couldn't hold back.

The person he likes takes the initiative in a waking state, but his mind is in chaos and he forgets everything.

Guan Baiyu didn't speak.

Shi Zhen asked again: "Xiao Yu, how do you understand this?"

Guan Baiyu turned his head, looked at Shi Zhen silently, without saying a word.

Shi Zhen closed his mouth.

Guan Baiyu was originally... different from him.

When he was with Guan Baiyu in his last life, he didn’t understand anything, he just knew how to hug someone, and it was rare to go back and forth. Later, Guan Baiyu said that he had read the book, and that it was not just like this, that he opened the door to a new world .

At that time, Guan Baiyu actually didn't have many opportunities to read books, and there were no books to read, so he could figure it out.

What about this life?There are so many opportunities for Guan Baiyu to read books!

In classics like "Dream of Red Mansions", there are ambiguous descriptions, even "Historical Records", there are some relevant content mentioned, Guan Baiyu is so smart, it is normal to understand this.

"Xiao Yu, may I take you to clean it?" Shi Zhen asked.

Guan Baiyu only spoke at this time, his voice was hoarse: "I don't want to move."

"I'll carry you." Shi Zhen said.

After he finished talking, he got up and was about to hug Guan Baiyu, when he suddenly thought of something: "Wait a minute, I'll lock the door outside first." It would be bad if Zhao Qiujuan came back suddenly... although it is unlikely.

"En." Guan Baiyu responded, watching Shi Zhen hurriedly put on his clothes.

Shi Zhen went out and locked the door before coming back. He carried Guan Baiyu to the bathroom and helped Guan Baiyu take a bath.

He was a little dazed the whole time, until Guan Baiyu finished washing, he dried the person and moved him back to the bed, then his mind resumed functioning.He had always thought that he should not get too close to Guan Baiyu, so as not to spoil Guan Baiyu.

He also wanted Guan Baiyu to stay away from him and have a different life.

But now, none of this... is possible.

He had been restraining himself before, but now it was like this, he couldn't restrain himself anymore.

And Guan Baiyu...

He really didn't expect that Guan Baiyu would do such...something like going all out.

Guan Baiyu must like him very much.

"Xiao Yu, we are already like this... We will live together in the future, do you know?" Shi Zhen looked at Guan Baiyu.

Guan Baiyu smiled: "I know."

"From now on, you will be with me forever."

"Yeah." Guan Baiyu still smiled.

"Don't worry, I will treat you well. You can tell me anything you want, as long as you are well..." Shi Zhen also choked up after speaking.

Guan Baiyu reached out and hugged him: "You can sleep with me."

He has been crying for a long time, and his voice is very hoarse, and now he is very uncomfortable just talking.

Plus... it was his first time after all.

Although it is not as tragic as in his previous life because of his experience, he is also very tired and uncomfortable, and now he just wants to sleep.

Shi Zhen lay beside Guan Baiyu.

Guan Baiyu leaned against Shi Zhen and fell asleep in a daze.

Shi Zhen hugged the person, still a little confused about the situation.

Everything that happened today was too sudden.

Shi Zhen was very worried last night and didn't sleep well, Guan Baiyu was lying in his arms again, he could hold Guan Baiyu without any scruples... Shi Zhen fell asleep in a daze.

When Shi Zhen woke up, it was already noon.

He opened his eyes, and saw Guan Baiyu looking at him, seeing that he was awake, and leaned over to kiss him.

Shi Zhen was a little embarrassed: "Xiaoyu..."

"Brother, do you like me too?" Guan Baiyu asked.

"I like it." Shi Zhen said, how could he not like Guan Baiyu?

"Did you already know that I like you?" Guan Baiyu asked again.

"Yes." Shi Zhen admitted.

"Then why did you avoid me before?" Guan Baiyu asked again.

Shi Zhen was stunned before saying: "You want to take the college entrance examination..."

"I confessed my love to you yesterday, but you ignored me. I thought it was impossible for us to be together in this life." Guan Baiyu said.

"I'm sorry." Shi Zhen was also a little guilty. It was always wrong for him to let Guan Baiyu take the initiative to do this step.

"Brother, I should say I'm sorry. I forced you to be with me. I relied on your kindness to me and knew that you would not do anything to me, so I did such a rebellious thing. But I I'm also afraid... If I don't take the initiative today, you might avoid me again."

"I won't hide from you, and you didn't force me..."

Guan Baiyu's voice was hoarse, but inexplicably charming, he said again: "I know that we are wrong and shouldn't be like this, but I can't control myself...Obviously we are cousins, I still want to talk to you Together, I even do this kind of thing, I..."

He said, pretending to be guilty.

"Xiao Yu..." Seeing Guan Baiyu feel guilty, Shi Zhen felt even worse.They were not cousins ​​at all, but he didn't know how to tell Guan Baiyu.

Seeing his tangled look, Guan Baiyu put away the guilt on his face.

Shi Zhen was taken aback.

At this time, Guan Baiyu bit Shi Zhen's chest again: "Brother, are you still lying to me? We are not cousins ​​at all, are we?"

"You know?" Shi Zhen heaved a sigh of relief.

"I know, after all, there are many loopholes!" Guan Baiyu stared at Shi Zhen: "We are not related at all, since this is the case... why did you suddenly come to ask me about relatives, and lie to me that you are my cousin? I'm so good?"

Guan Baiyu had already guessed the reason, and now...he just wanted to confess to Shi Zhen.

When Guan Baiyu spoke, his voice was very steady, and he could not be called aggressive, but when he was asked like this... Shi Zhen was sweating on his head.

He didn't know how to answer himself.

After thinking about it, Shi Zhen said: "Xiaoyu, I have always liked men. When I came to Anshan Town, the first time I saw you, I liked you very much. I fell in love with you at first sight. Then I asked about you and made up a story Come to you, come to you."

Shi Zhen thought about confessing to Guan Baiyu about his rebirth.

In fact, if he can confess and get Guan Baiyu's understanding, it will be a relief for him.

But this is not right.

When the time comes, he will feel comfortable, what about Guan Baiyu?

The kid will definitely struggle with questions like why he likes him.

And Guan Baiyu didn't live well in his previous life... He didn't want Guan Baiyu to know about those things.

In short, he was relieved to know the truth, but Guan Baiyu might not be happy, but might be entangled.

So... let's not talk about it.

Shi Zhen looked at Guan Baiyu gently.

Of course he likes Guan Baiyu.

Guan Baiyu is more important than his life.

He avoided Guan Baiyu, but actually he didn't dare to have more contact with Guan Baiyu.

He was afraid of himself and couldn't bear to let go.

Guan Baiyu: "..." He didn't even know that Shi Zhen was so good at making up stories!

Guan Baiyu stared at Shi Zhen: "Really?"

"Really." Shi Zhen affirmed.

Then... Guan Baiyu bit his chest again.

Shi Zhen: "..." Why did you bite him again?

To be honest, when he was bitten by Guan Baiyu, he didn't feel pain, but itched.

In his previous life, Guan Baiyu liked to bite him when he was angry.

Obviously it was Guan Baiyu who was reluctant to bite him hard, and in turn blamed him for the toughness of his flesh.

But... Usually it wasn't his fault, Guan Baiyu bit him?

Thinking of this, Shi Zhen saw Guan Baiyu crying again.

Shi Zhen was in a hurry: "Xiao Yu, what's wrong? Don't cry, it's my fault."

"Aren't you right? I was thin and small back then, but you still fell in love with me at first sight. What's your taste? Now I've changed a lot, isn't it to your taste? Do you still like me? " Guan Baiyu gritted his teeth and asked.

"Of course I like it." Shi Zhen replied, always felt that something was wrong with Guan Baiyu today, and Guan Baiyu in the past would never talk to him like this.

"Then you are still in love! Since you like me, why have you been avoiding me and not accepting me? It's been three years, and it's hard for me to secretly take advantage of you! You can still sit still when you're drunk to seduce you! What a fool!" Gentleman!"

Guan Baiyu cried while talking.

Shi Zhen was thinking about what to say when Guan Baiyu suddenly leaned over and wiped all his tears on him.

Shi Zhen: "..."

Guan Baiyu wiped away tears, suddenly raised his head and asked, "How did you die in your last life?"

Shi Zhen froze.