Reborn to Strive

Guan Baiyu rested at home for two days, then went to school again, and they had to fill in their volunteers.

As soon as Lu Mingqi saw Guan Baiyu, he couldn't help asking, "Guan Baiyu, why do you look so ugly?"

"It's nothing." Guan Baiyu smiled, but that smile seemed to be forced out, and his eyes were black and blue, and his whole person gave off a listless feeling.

Lu Mingqi glanced at him suspiciously.

"I've been watching TV and playing games at home every day these days. I didn't sleep well last night." Guan Baiyu found an excuse.

"So it's like this... I'm different from you, I've been sleeping for the past two days!" Lu Mingqi asked something else: "By the way, how much did you estimate? Have you decided which university to apply for?"

"I should go to the provincial capital to study." Guan Baiyu said.

"You didn't report to other places?" Lu Mingqi was a little surprised.

"En." Guan Baiyu said.

Changxi City is not far from the provincial capital, and it is convenient to go back and forth. Even if he wants to come back on weekends, he can do so.

Somewhere else...too far away.

Even if he knew it was impossible, he didn't want to be too far away from Shi Zhen.

"Is it for your big sister?" Lu Mingqi asked.

"Probably." Guan Baiyu said.

These two days Shi Zhen was not as busy as before, at least he didn't go out at night.

But he tried a bit, and found that Shi Zhen was avoiding intimate contact with him.

Many things, if you don't think about it before, you can't find it, but once you think about it...all kinds of signs surface.

There is no doubt that Shi Zhen was avoiding him.

As for why you hide from him...

Shi Zhen still cared about him very much. Among other things, Shi Zhen paid great attention to his college entrance examination.

Sometimes he felt that Shi Zhen valued him more than Shi Ting.

Shi Zhen cared about every detail of his high school entrance examination back then, Shi Ting's high school entrance examination... Shi Zhen didn't care at all.

That being the case, Shi Zhen's avoidance of him is definitely not because he has an opinion on him, nor does it mean that he hates him.

If you really want to have a problem with him or hate him... There is only one air conditioner in the house, how can Shi Zhen still install his room?

He tried it out.

Shi Zhen was at home last night, and it was extremely hot, so he asked Shi Zhen to sleep in the same room with him... After all, his room has air conditioning.

However, Shi Zhen refused without thinking.

He was cheeky, coquettish and obedient, and asked Shi Zhen to sleep with him, but Shi Zhen always refused because he was not used to sleeping with people.

But it's not like they haven't slept together!

Before Shi Zhen refused to come over, the reason was that he didn't want to disturb his sleep, and wanted him to maintain a good state for the college entrance examination, and now he has passed the exam!

Shi Zhen was avoiding him. As for why he was avoiding him... Shi Zhen should have seen his feelings.

Shi Zhen must have seen it!

When Guan Baiyu thought of this, his eyes felt a little sore.

Shi Zhen is actually very perceptive. Although he has tried his best to hide it, things like feelings are really not something he can hide if he wants to.

He likes Shi Zhen, very, very much.

He also did a lot of tricks before, just to hold hands with Shi Zhen or something.

It was not surprising that Shi Zhen would see it.

I don't know what Shi Zhen thought of him after he found out about his feelings... Do you think he is disgusting?

Is Shi Zhen putting up with him this year?

For Guan Baiyu, this is more uncomfortable than Shi Zhen not liking him.

He didn't sleep all night last night.

In the morning in front of Shi Zhen, he could still show a smiling face, so that Shi Zhen couldn't see anything unusual, but now that Shi Zhen was gone, he didn't have the strength to pretend anymore.

His chest was full of tightness, and it was hard for him to make him greet others with a smile.

"Guan Baiyu, if you fill in the volunteers like this, we might be able to study in the same school in the future." Lu Mingqi said, he is a student in class one, his grades are pretty good, and his grade is stable in the top [-].

And every time he took a big exam, he would play very long. He felt that he did well in the college entrance examination this time.

"That's good." Guan Baiyu forced a smile again, feeling a little lost.

They stayed in the school this morning, and besides filling in volunteers, they also wrote each other's classmates.

This classmate book was newly launched by Huaguang. There are more than a dozen styles, the cheap ones cost only one yuan, and the expensive ones cost ten yuan. Almost every student in his class has a copy.

Guan Baiyu also prepared a copy, but forgot to bring it...

He simply didn't let anyone write it for him. When others asked him to write it, he simply wrote it down, but he didn't fill in the phone and address.

"Guan Baiyu, don't you have a telephone at home?" Someone asked.

"Yes." Guan Baiyu agreed.

Nowadays, there are quite a few people without a telephone. Everyone has no doubts, but Lu Mingqi asked in a low voice: "Your family really doesn't have a telephone?"

"No, I'll give you the number of my uncle's house." Guan Baiyu wrote Shi Dalin's phone number to Lu Mingqi: "If you want to contact me, you can call this number."

"Okay!" Lu Mingqi put away the phone number.

At eleven noon, everyone left school and went to a restaurant for dinner.

The one who invited the whole class to dinner was a boy who had no sense of presence in the class before. He was tall, white, fat, and a bit soft-tempered.If it weren't for the graduation, everyone would not know that one of the largest restaurants in the county is opened by his family!

There were not many people in the dining room when it was not a new year or a festival. There were more than forty people in their class, plus the teacher, and finally occupied five round tables in the hall. Everyone ate and talked at the same time.

The food is very rich, and the students in their class are basically adults, and some beer is served, of course most of them are drinking.

Guan Baiyu took the time to give presents to the students who were entertaining guests, then returned to his seat, ate the food one bite at a time, and then drank.

His behavior was so abnormal that the teacher called him out specially: "Guan Baiyu, you don't look very good today, and you filled out your application... Did you fail the exam?"

"No, teacher, I did very well in the exam." Guan Baiyu said.

But the teacher obviously didn't believe it.

Guan Baiyu could only say: "Really, teacher, I have something else to do." He thought that Shi Zhen didn't know his feelings before, so he dared to stay by Shi Zhen's side, acting like a baby and taking the opportunity to make out with Shi Zhen of.

But now Shi Zhen already knew his feelings.

Maybe he felt disgusted by his closeness.

Does he and Shi Zhen have no future?

"You...you're not in love, are you?" The head teacher frowned.

Guan Baiyu didn't speak.

The class teacher was surprised: "You hide really deep, who is it with? I basically know who in the class is secretly in love, but you, I really didn't see it before!"

Speaking later, the head teacher even had a bit of gossip on his face.

Guan Baiyu: "..." There are many people in their class who are secretly in love. Everyone thinks the teacher doesn't know, but the teacher does?

Think about it carefully... the teacher called me to go, because the puppy love is criticized, all the grades have dropped... so the teacher doesn't care if the grades don't drop?

"Is the person in love with you from Class Five?" the teacher asked again.

Sun Qiqi and Qiu Yunxin are in Class Five.

Guan Baiyu immediately said: "Teacher, no."

Fortunately, although the head teacher gossiped about it, he didn't get to the bottom of it.Guan Baiyu returned to his seat and poured himself another glass of wine.

Today is his first drink.

Shi Zhen doesn't drink alcohol, there is no other wine in their house except for cooking wine, and he is not interested in these, so he has never drank it.

Now that he drank it...he found that it was really not good to drink, at best...it was cold after all, drinking it to cool down.

Not only that, Guan Baiyu also found that... he can drink quite well.

He had already drank two bottles of beer and felt nothing at all.

After staring at his glass for a while, Guan Baiyu poured himself another glass of wine.

Shi Zhen will come to pick him up later.

"Guan Baiyu, you have a really good drinker." The people eating at the same table looked at Guan Baiyu with admiration.

"Guan Baiyu, stop drinking, otherwise how will you go home later?" Some people were worried about Guan Baiyu.

Guan Baiyu said: "It's okay, my brother will come to pick me up."

"That's good!"

"I didn't expect Guan Baiyu that you were still a drunkard, hahaha."

"I gave you this bottle."

……

There are not many people drinking in Changxi City. Most of these students are drinking for the first time.

Young people who drink alcohol for the first time are often not so passionate about alcohol and stop drinking after drinking a little.

In contrast, beverages such as cola are popular with them.

Especially these cokes are still frozen!

Only Guan Baiyu drank four bottles of beer alone.

If someone else drank like this, everyone would have persuaded him a long time ago, but Guan Baiyu looked like that...he looked very sad, and drinking seemed to be using alcohol to relieve his sorrow.

It's not easy for people around to stop him.

Of course, they all felt... Did he fail the exam?

It was difficult for them to persuade, they could only watch Guan Baiyu drink helplessly.

When Guan Baiyu went out this morning, Shi Zhen told him that he would pick him up at noon.

Shi Zhen didn't go to Anshan Town this morning, so picking him up was a matter of convenience.

After eating at the construction site at noon, Shi Zhen drove to the entrance of the hotel.

After starting a business, it is easy to get to know a large group of people. The owner of this restaurant, Shi Zhen, knows each other.

In their previous life, they also invested in real estate together, but they are not very familiar with each other in this life.

The students were all eating in the hall. Shi Zhen took a look at the entrance of the station and saw that they were still eating, so he didn't go there and found a shady place to stand.

After standing for a while, he saw the restaurant owner.

When the boss saw Shi Zhen, he immediately came over with a smile: "Boss Shi!"

"President Zhou." Shi Zhen greeted with a smile.

Mr. Zhou took out a pack of cigarettes and was about to pass them to Shi Zhen, but Shi Zhen refused: "I don't smoke."

"Then you have to learn," Mr. Zhou laughed, and asked again, "Why did you come to my place?"

"My brother and your son are in the same class."

"What a coincidence? What's your brother's name?" Mr. Zhou was curious.

Shi Zhen laughed, with pride on his face: "His name is Guan Baiyu."

"Your brother is Guan Baiyu!" Mr. Zhou was full of admiration, "He has very good grades!"

The two chatted for a while, and saw the teachers come out.

Seeing Shi Zhen, the homeroom teacher breathed a sigh of relief: "Brother Guan Baiyu, I was just about to call you. It's good if you come... Guan Baiyu drank a lot of wine, and I'm afraid he won't be able to go home by himself."

Has Guan Baiyu been drinking?Shi Zhen was stunned, and wanted to stop him, but Guan Baiyu was an adult, so he couldn't control him too strictly.

Following the teacher, some students also came out, many of them were from the surrounding countryside, and it would take two or three hours to get home, so they couldn't stay here any longer.

Guan Baiyu didn't come out, Shi Zhen waited for a while, couldn't resist going in, and saw Guan Baiyu lying on the table, crying, and the people around him looked at him helplessly.

"Xiao Yu, what's wrong with you?" Shi Zhen was a little anxious, Guan Baiyu is not a crybaby!

Guan Baiyu raised his head abruptly, staring at Shi Zhen with teary eyes, but didn't speak.

He looked like this, very similar to when he had a fever.

Of course...he shouldn't have a fever, he's just drunk.

The first time they were together in their last life was after they got drunk...

At that time, before he was drunk, he had been peeking at Guan Baiyu. After drinking, Guan Baiyu looked like this, very attractive.

"Guan Baiyu's brother! Guan Baiyu is drunk!" Lu Ming said.

"How much did he drink?" Shi Zhen asked Lu Mingqi, he had met Guan Baiyu's deskmate before.

"He drank four bottles of beer!" Lu Mingqi glanced at Guan Baiyu, speechless.

With Guan Baiyu's behavior today, it is clear that he is using alcohol to relieve his worries!

As for what kind of grudge he had for... Lu Mingqi thought, he must have broken up in love.

Could it be that his big sister didn't reject him before so that he could take the college entrance examination well, and now that the college entrance examination is over, she just rejected him directly?

That's too cruel!

Lu Mingqi looked at Guan Baiyu sympathetically.

At this time, Guan Baiyu slammed the table: "I'm not drunk! I'm fine!"

His voice had changed, and he was clearly very drunk.

"Why did you drink so much?" Shi Zhen was taken aback. He didn't drink for one reason, that is, he didn't hold much alcohol.

Two bottles of beer must have poured down.

Of course, with more practice, his drinking capacity can be improved. In his previous life, when he often had dinner parties with other people, his drinking capacity was fine.

But in this life, he has no interest in these things, so he doesn't drink anymore, and he hasn't practiced at all, so he probably still pours two bottles.

As for Guan Baiyu...he remembers that Guan Baiyu's drinking capacity is worse than him, and he became dizzy after drinking one bottle. He was very bold, but this time he actually drank four bottles...

A classmate said: "Guan Baiyu seems to be in a bad mood."

"Why are you suddenly in a bad mood... Sigh!" Shi Zhen frowned, Guan Baiyu looked quite normal these two days...

"We don't know..." Lu Mingqi didn't dare to tell Shi Zhen about Guan Baiyu's relationship.

Shi Zhen asked him, "Did you fail the exam?"

Lu Mingqi didn't speak. He checked the answers with Guan Baiyu before, and Guan Baiyu obviously did well in the exam.

"It's okay if you don't pass the exam...there's no need for this..." Seeing that he couldn't ask anything, Shi Zhen went to see Guan Baiyu again.

After Guan Baiyu patted the table and shouted that he was not drunk, he kept staring at Shi Zhen without blinking.

"Xiao Yu, let's go home." Shi Zhen went to Guan Bai Yu.

Guan Baiyu was as motionless as a log, Shi Zhen half hugged him and pulled him up.

After being pulled up, Guan Baiyu behaved well, leaned on Shi Zhen, and followed Shi Zhen out.

His whole body was limp, as if he couldn't stand up... Fortunately, Shi Zhen was so strong, he put one of his arms around his neck, and easily helped him out.

"I didn't expect that the only drunk person in our class was Guan Baiyu."

"Guan Baiyu's brother is so handsome!"

"Guan Baiyu is also very handsome! Just a little cold, I wanted to talk to him just now, but he ignored me."

……

In City No. [-] Middle School, the number of science classes far exceeds that of liberal arts classes. Classes one to seven are all science classes.

In the liberal arts class, the number of boys in each class is in single digits, but in the science class...there are more than forty students in their class, and only thirteen girls.

Today, there was actually a girl who wanted to confess to Guan Baiyu, but Guan Baiyu was in a bad state, he didn’t prepare his classmates, and he wrote other people’s classmates in a perfunctory manner, and ignored her, drinking all the time.

This girl is quite lost at the moment.

However, there is a high probability that they will go their separate ways in the future, and there will be no results at all... Thinking about it this way, she will feel better.

On the other side, Shi Zhen sent Guan Baiyu into the driver's cab, and leaned over to fasten Guan Baiyu's seat belt.

Guan Baiyu's head leaned forward, and his face was planted on his neck, sticking to him tightly, as if... kissed his neck, and still didn't let go.

Shi Zhen's movements froze, and a numb feeling permeated his whole body.

In his previous life, when he was with Guan Baiyu, he had just bought a motorcycle.

At that time, when he was free at night, he would take Guan Baiyu out to play.

Guan Baiyu sat behind him and sometimes kissed his neck.

Although not many times, he always remembered that feeling.

At this moment, Guan Baiyu's alcoholic breath fell on his neck, and he couldn't even buckle up the seat belt. After a while, he finally buckled up the seat belt.

After getting out of the car, Shi Zhenchang heaved a sigh of relief.

He sat on the other side of the car, started the car, turned on the air conditioner, and finally dissipated the heat from his body.

After thinking about it, he adjusted the air outlet of the air conditioner so that the wind would not blow towards Guan Baiyu and make Guan Baiyu sick.

During this period, Guan Baiyu kept looking at him with moist eyes without saying a word.

Shi Zhen was heartbroken by Guan Baiyu's gaze, and couldn't help but want to touch him, but he held back in the end.

It is not good to take advantage of Guan Baiyu while he is drunk.

Taking a deep breath, Shi Zhen drove Guan Baiyu back to their residence.

Their house was on the fifth floor, Shi Zhen helped Guan Baiyu out of the car, and led him upstairs.

Guan Baiyu was drunk, and he was afraid that Guan Baiyu would not cooperate, so he thought about whether to carry Guan Baiyu up, but Guan Baiyu was very cooperative, walking up with one foot.

It is the whole person, leaning against him all the time, and only walking one step at a time, walking very slowly.

What's more, Guan Baiyu kept looking at him.

Those eyes were very straightforward, full of affection, without any concealment, Shi Zhen's heart trembled when he saw it.

Guan Baiyu liked him very much.

I like it very much.

It's just, is this a young man's impulse, or... is he really sure?

Does he know how difficult this road is?

Shi Zhen helped him upstairs, opened the door, and sent Guan Baiyu to his bedroom.

Guan Baiyu reeked of alcohol, but he didn't find it unpleasant... Shi Zhen helped him sit down on the bed, wanting him to lie down and sleep for a while.

After sleeping and waking up, Guan Baiyu woke up from the wine.

Guan Baiyu was completely wooden, and after sitting down on the edge of the bed, he remained motionless. Seeing this, Shi Zhen knelt down and took off his shoes.

Then I felt... Guan Baiyu was stroking his head, using that kind of... petting a puppy?

Just like that, from front to back, slowly, one by one, touching his head.

Guan Baiyu would never do this kind of action before, this is really... so drunk.

Shi Zhen took off Guan Baiyu's shoes and was about to make him lie down when Guan Baiyu suddenly hugged his neck.

"Xiao Yu?" Shi Zhen called out.

Guan Baiyu's eyes were still moist, he hugged Shi Zhen tightly, and leaned his head on Shi Zhen's shoulder.

His voice was very soft, but Shi Zhen still heard: "Brother, I like you."

Shi Zhen took a deep breath before saying, "Xiao Yu, are you awake?"

Guan Baiyu is of course sober.

After he drank, he realized that he was drinking well.

He's definitely under the influence of alcohol now, but he knows what he's doing.

But he dare not admit it.

If he doesn't say anything, he can act as if he doesn't know anything in the future.

"Brother, I like you, I have liked you for a long time." Guan Baiyu's voice became a little louder, and he hugged him even tighter.

If it was in his previous life, Shi Zhen would definitely not be able to bear it.

In his previous life, he knew Guan Baiyu in the next year.

At that time he was 22 years old and Guan Baiyu was 19 years old.

In front of Guan Baiyu, he hardly had any self-control.

But now... he would actually feel that he was getting old.

He no longer has the passion of his youth.

Does Guan Baiyu really like him like this?

Will you find him boring and uninteresting after being with him?

Shi Zhen didn't move at all, and when he came back to his senses, he found that Guan Baiyu hadn't moved either, and the hands that hugged him were loosened.

Shi Zhen hugged him lightly, and put him down from his shoulders, only to realize that his eyes were closed, he was already asleep, his head was still thrusting into his body, and when he hugged his arms, he buried his face in it Don't let go.

Shi Zhen put him on the bed, took a little distance before pulling his arm out, and then turned on the air conditioner for Guan Baiyu.

After doing all this, he opened the door and went out.

After Shi Zhen left, Guan Baiyu, lying on the bed, opened his eyes.

Just pretending to be asleep, he almost developed all his acting skills.

Shi Zhen kept silent, he didn't know what to do, and he didn't want to embarrass Shi Zhen, so he could only do this.

He has had a crush on Shi Zhen for about three years. In the past three years, although he sometimes struggled, on the whole, it was sweet and sour. In fact, he was very happy.

This year, he was still in his own mouth, and had a relationship with Shi Zhen.

But if there are no accidents... now all of this will come to an end.

Shi Zhen's reaction did not surprise him.

Shi Zhen has always been very kind to him, but he has never crossed the line.

And...they're cousins.

Even if they are not two men, one man and one woman, they cannot marry.

So what is he hoping for?

Guan Baiyu lay still and closed his eyes again, but tears still came out.

He didn't know what to do next, when the door was opened again.

Guan Baiyu remained motionless, feeling Shi Zhen put something down on his bedside table, then adjusted the temperature of the air conditioner, and finally covered him with the towel on his bed.

The heart that Guan Baiyu was holding suddenly fell down, a bit dumbfounded.

And more tears fell.

Shi Zhen really treated him very well, but...it was impossible for them.

He likes Shi Zhen, has he caused trouble to Shi Zhen?

The room became quiet, and not long after... Guan Baiyu also heard the sound of the door opening and closing.

If there were no accidents, Shi Zhen should have gone out.

He finally moved, opened his eyes and looked at the bedside table, where he saw a glass of water and a bag of milk.

Shi Zhenlao bought milk for him, asked him to take it to school to drink, and asked him to drink it at home.

Don't forget to let him drink at this time.

Guan Baiyu turned over and lay face up, feeling a little thankful that he pretended to be drunk.

Tomorrow he can pretend that he doesn't know anything, find Shi Zhen as if nothing happened, and talk to Shi Zhen.

I just don't know what Shi Zhen will think of him.

Guan Baiyu covered his face with his hands, thought for a while, and got up from the bed.

He drank several bottles of beer and wanted to use the bathroom.

When he came home just now, he wanted to pretend to be crazy by drinking and asked Shi Zhen to take him to the bathroom, but he didn't have the nerve.

As for now... He is obviously so sad that he still has to cry to get up and go to the toilet.

Really... Just thinking about it makes me feel a little pitiful.

But Shi Zhen was also pitiful, and he fell in love with him.

I don't know how entangled Shi Zhen was this year.

Tears were streaming down Guan Baiyu's face, he went to the bathroom, washed his hands and face, and then returned to his room, throwing himself on the bed.

He was a little worried that he would not be able to see his face tomorrow, but he couldn't stop his tears.

He didn't sleep all night last night and drank some wine. Although he was sad, he fell asleep slowly.

Just slept very restlessly.

He seems to have come to a completely strange place.

It was a construction site, and he was wearing an old suit and sitting on a pile of bricks.

He felt something, turned his head, and saw someone looking at him not far away.

It was a tall, handsome young man with a tanned face. When he met his gaze, he smiled shyly and turned his head to talk to others.

After a while, he turned his head away again, and the man was looking at him again.

In fact, he would also look at that person, after all, on this construction site, that person is the most handsome one.

He likes men, of course he would like to see handsome guys.

Even sometimes...he would also feel that this person's attire made him unable to bear to look directly at him.

It doesn't matter if you wear tattered clothes, and your hair is very long, so don't care.

The man told everyone every day that they must wear hard hats during construction, and he also wore them.

So, when the man rested, he took off his hard hat... the hair on his head was flattened, and the hair around it turned up, showing the impression of a hat, which looked very strange.

The man was still unaware, and when he saw him looking over, he smiled at him.

He couldn't help laughing every time.

He is very thin, and he tried to look pitiful, so that the master was willing to teach him and take him around to work.

This also caused some people on the construction site to dislike him very much.

He likes to be clean, and because he likes men, he doesn't want to hook up with people, which makes some people always say that he is pretending or something.

He used to read on the construction site, and someone deliberately broke his book, or threw away his water bottle.

This construction site is actually no different from those construction sites.

Most people have no ill intentions towards him, and some older ones will take care of him more, but there are always people who don't like him.

Seeing him reading, someone laughed and reached out to grab his book...

Before the big dirty hand touched his book, it was blocked by the person who always read him, and the person reprimanded the person who wanted to take his book: "People are reading, what are you doing with other people's books?" ? And look at your dirty hands, you will pay for damage to other people's books?"

After the man finished speaking, he smiled embarrassedly at him, and then pulled away the scholar who wanted to rob him.

He was slow at work, and the man appeared from nowhere, and helped him finish the work.

When the man was still reading, he stood behind him and peeked at his book.

He also heard the man scolding the people around him, telling them not to disturb his study...

Although this person doesn't talk to him very much, this person likes him, and he is very sure.

Four years ago, when he was admitted to high school and finally lived in school, he accidentally discovered one thing - he liked men.

He dropped out of high school shortly after, not completing a semester.

After that, while doing odd jobs around, he would also look for some books to read.

Because of his own reasons, of course he pays special attention to men and men's affairs.

And it should be... "Dream of Red Mansions" that made him finally understand this matter?

He knew that he liked men, but he had never liked any men before. In fact, he hated those men on the construction site who were always full of foul language.

until this person shows up.

He liked this person's appearance from the beginning, but after getting along for a long time, he began to like everything about him.

It's just obvious that this person is still ignorant and doesn't realize anything.

Once again seeing a frozen Coke next to his book, he didn't want to let go of this person.

All along, no one has been kind to him, and finally someone likes him, then this person is his.