Beyond friendship is love

"Maybe you find it incredible and don't want to believe that I really love you, but Yan Yan, I believe that you are the person who understands me best in this world, and you must also understand that I will not sacrifice my love for the sake of the world. So , I really love you, I don’t ask you to believe me now, all I want is that you give me a chance to be by your side again, time will always prove it.”

"I don't know." Gently stroking An Shixiao's hands that were holding down his shoulders, Shen Mingyan turned his gaze away again, not daring to face it, not daring to look directly, he didn't know what to do?

As long as he nodded his head lightly, he might be able to achieve the so-called consummation, but he really didn't dare. Over the years, he had lost his self-confidence. He admitted that he was a coward, and he was afraid.Furthermore, An Shixiao already has a child, and the child needs to grow up in a normal family, which is not something he can give.

"I don't force you, and I don't need you to accept me right away, but I hope you don't leave again, just stay where I can see you, okay, I really..." Speaking of the past year, day and night Missing the night, An Shixiao couldn't help sobbing.

Missing is the hardest thing in this world.

"Come home with me, okay, Yan Yan, everyone misses you very much, after being away for so long, don't you miss everyone?"

Think, of course he wants to, but what can he do, how can he return if he can't forget this person, he doesn't want to embarrass both families because of his love alone.

Obviously decided to have a good talk with An Shixiao, but now he can't say a word when facing such a straightforward An Shixiao.

Silent, distraught.

Seeing that Shen Mingyan bowed his head and said nothing, An Shixiao didn't force him anymore, so he lifted the quilt from the big hotel bed and said, "I'm very tired, sleep with me, okay?"

"What?" Shen Mingyan raised his head in wonder, what was this guy thinking, at this juncture, he actually made such a shameless request, and stood up angrily.

"If you want to sleep, you sleep by yourself, I will not accompany you."

He picked up his backpack and wanted to leave, but An Shixiao grabbed him.

"Where are you thinking?" Knowing that Shen Mingyan must have misunderstood himself, An Shixiao quickly hugged him.

"I came here to find you to spare time. I haven't had a good rest for a week. I'm really tired now. You should do yourself a favor and stay with me. Anyway, it's so late, you should have a rest."

"Then you go back to your own room and sleep." Shen Mingyan refused, but when An Shixiao looked at him with such pitiful eyes, his heart softened again. Looking at the other's truly tired eyes, Shen Mingyan felt so distressed. mouthed.

"Okay, okay, go take a shower now."

"Decree." After finishing speaking, An Shi Xiao Pidiandian picked up the bathrobe from the hotel and rushed into the bathroom.

——I miss you so much that I am afraid that I will take a step away and not find you. You don't know how uncomfortable it is when you miss someone but don't know where he is.

Shen Mingyan was a little worried that An Shixiao would be unruly, but it turned out that he was overthinking.

When he came out of the shower, An Shixiao was already lying on the bed, but his eyes were wide open, as if he was afraid that the cooked duck would fly away again, and he could only climb onto the bed under the gaze of the other party.As soon as he lay down, An Shixiao stuck to his back like a koala. He wanted to get away from An Shixiao's arms, but the other party tightly trapped him in his arms. The voice said: "Don't move, I'll just hug you and sleep like this."

Really overbearing.

When the qi returned to the qi, Shen Mingyan stopped moving, and let him hold him honestly.

Presumably An Shixiao was really exhausted, and soon there was the sound of even breathing in a deep sleep.

Turning around gently, Shen Mingyan looked at the face that was only a few feet away from him in the faint light.

This is the face that he has always seen since he was born. From being immature at the beginning, he has gradually matured. He has seen it for so many years, but it seems that he can never get enough of it.Gently put his hand on An Shixiao's face, wanting to feel the hard-won peace, but unexpectedly, An Shixiao's hand grasped it, and directly pressed his own hand on his face.

"You pretended to be asleep?" Shen Mingyan wanted to reach out his hand angrily, but he didn't have enough strength.

"I was asleep, but there was a little guy who was restless, so I had to sacrifice my sleep to make a fuss with him." An Shixiao said in a sleepy voice.

"What, don't make yourself so great, hum." Perhaps it was such a night, Shen Mingyan pouted his mouth childishly, and complained to An Shixiao.

"Okay, okay, I pretended to be asleep, okay, don't be angry, be good."

"It was."

"Yes, it's what my wife says." An Shixiao also cooperated, coaxing patiently, as if he was as affectionate as when he was a child.

Gently branded a kiss on the top of Shen Mingyan's hair, and coaxed softly: "Go to sleep obediently, I'm here."

A simple "I am here" is like a calming medicine, Shen Mingyan can no longer control the desire in his heart, and sneaks into An Shixiao's arms, while An Shixiao hugs him generously, like coaxing Xiaocheng to grow up Generally, she patted Shen Mingyan on the back lightly.

Such a night, such plain warmth, gave the two of them a good night's sleep.

Shen Mingyan couldn't remember how long he hadn't slept so well and so deeply. When he woke up the next morning, there was no one around him. If he didn't remember clearly what happened yesterday, he would almost have thought that The arrival of An Shixiao was just a dream of his.

This person, always so capricious, forcibly broke into the lake of his heart that was about to be calm again, and after stirring up turbulent waves, he turned and left mercilessly.

——An Shixiao, why are you always so cruel?

Weakly fell back on the bed, staring blankly at the chandelier on the ceiling.

When An Shixiao came in with his luggage, he saw that Shen Mingyan was still lying on the bed and fell asleep obediently. He smiled knowingly, threw the luggage by the door, and walked lightly to the bed, but saw Shen Mingyan staring at him with his eyes wide open. Staring at the ceiling in a daze, he looked sober, as if he had just woken up.

"Why can't you stay up when you're awake?" An Shixiao sat on the edge of the bed, reached out and touched Shen Mingyan's face, feeling that it wasn't enough, leaned over and hugged him, and put his face in Shen Mingyan's ear side, dawdling.

"An Shixiao?" He called out An Shixiao's name with uncertainty, and only he knew how uneasy he was. For him, An Shixiao had always been his weakness, and the other party's emotions would become his emotions He thought that after a year and a half of precipitation, he could deal with it calmly, but he found that he couldn't do it at all.

"it's me."

As if sensing Shen Mingyan's uneasiness, An Shixiao hugged him tightly in his arms to confirm his existence.He swore in his heart that this time, he would never hurt Shen Mingyan again. In this life, he promised Xiao to take good care of Shen Mingyan.

Maybe it's just that he gets agitated easily in the morning, after a while, Shen Mingyan calmed down, consciously pushed An Shixiao away, got up from the other side, took his clothes, and went to the bathroom.

The empty embrace made An Shixiao smile wryly. He thought that Shen Mingyan had already forgiven him. From the moment Shen Mingyan pushed him away, he knew that it might not be so easy.For so many years, An Shixiao knows many small habits of Shen Mingyan. For example, he must drink a bowl of soup before eating, and he is used to walking on the right side of others. Shen Mingyan pushed him away, did that mean he didn't love him anymore?Then why did you call his name with such a fragile voice just now?

An Shixiao suddenly realized that after so many years of estrangement, he no longer understood Shen Mingyan?

Oh, who is to blame, isn't it all caused by yourself?

When Shen Mingyan came out, he looked refreshed after washing up. He wanted to tell An Shixiao that he was going out for breakfast, but he was stunned when he saw the suitcase at the door.

"What is this?" Pointing to the suitcase, Shen Mingyan asked An Shixiao sideways.

An Shixiao walked to the side of the suitcase, pushed it inside, and said with inexplicable pride, "The suitcase."

Hearing such an answer, Shen Mingyan rolled his eyes speechlessly and said, "You think I'm a fool, I'm asking, why is your suitcase here?"

"I packed it in the room I booked in the morning." An Shixiao opened the suitcase nonchalantly, dragged a coat out of it and put it on. Although it's already June, the morning in this city is still very cold, he guessed Shen Mingyan will definitely go out in a while, so hurry up and prepare your coat, lest he lose Shen Mingyan when he gets there.

Shen Mingyan said that he was speechless, and Shen Mingyan had learned from An Shixiao's rascal since he was a child.

Seeing An Shixiao consciously swaying around in the room he reserved, Shen Mingyan could only sigh, the matter will have to be resolved sooner or later, let's take advantage of it now, procrastination like this is not good for both of us.

"An Shixiao, what exactly do you want to do?" Walking to the sofa and sitting down, Shen Mingyan finally changed the topic, but he didn't have the courage to look into An Shixiao's eyes.

An Shixiao didn't speak, but walked slowly and sat next to Shen Mingyan. He wanted to reach out and hug Shen Mingyan several times, but he was afraid that he would reject him, so he finally gave up.He didn't know how to explain it to Shen Mingyan. The matter had been settled for so many years that it became impossible to talk about it.

The two of them are so silent, but the atmosphere is not as embarrassing as imagined, but an inexplicable warmth. When they were young, they often stayed in the same space like this. In the heart is a kind of peace.After many years, that long-lost feeling made both of them drift a little.

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