Beyond friendship is love

Seeing that everyone's emotions had calmed down, Shen Mingyan asked the question that had troubled him since he woke up.

"Mom, what happened to me? Also, he is..." Shen Mingyan was half lying on the hospital bed, his weak body could not move freely, and he could only look at the person who had been standing closest to him , I wanted to ask who he was, but I couldn't ask the question that was too straightforward.

However, as soon as the problem came out, it attracted everyone's horrified eyes.

"What..." An Shixiao felt as if he had been hit by something, his mind was buzzing, and his body unconsciously took a small step back, almost tripping over the table behind him.It never occurred to him that he prayed for someone who could wake up day and night, but he didn't recognize him when he woke up.Shen Mingyan remembered everyone, but he couldn't remember him alone.

"Yanyan, stop making trouble, I'm An Shixiao." He rushed to Shen Mingyan's bed in a panic, took Shen Mingyan's hand and put it on his face.

"Touch it, it's me, take a closer look, it's me."

But facing Shen Mingyan's unfamiliar gaze and defensive eyes, An Shixiao felt his heart sinking continuously, and refused to give up, holding Shen Mingyan's face with both hands.

"Yanyan, look at me. Think about it carefully, okay?"

Anxiously so anxious that he even spoke faster, An Shixiao leaned his somewhat exhausted body against the bed, like a criminal waiting to be sentenced.

An Shixiao...An Shixiao...An Shixiao...

Fragmentary pictures flashed before my eyes, numerous and chaotic, and the speed was too fast for people to grasp.

What happened to him?Is there something he forgot?Force yourself to think, what is it?Why does he feel that there is a big space in his heart?What is the meaning of those forgotten?

"It hurts, my head hurts so much, mom, my head hurts so much, I can't remember." The sudden severe headache made Shen Mingyan's forehead soaked in sweat instantly, and his whole body began to tremble desperately.

"Yanyan, Yanyan, what's wrong with you? Ah, don't scare mom." Mother Shen was so frightened that she could only tightly hold Shen Mingyan's hand, at a loss for what to do.

Seeing this, An Sihe opened the door of the ward and rushed out, trying to call the doctor over as quickly as possible, but because she was too anxious, she even forgot the call bell on the bedside.

"I don't want it, I don't want it, baby, we don't want it anymore, take a good rest, I don't want it anymore." An Shixiao hugged Shen Mingyan into his arms and hugged him tightly, patted his back lightly to comfort him.

"Go away, you go away." And Shen Mingyan obviously didn't cooperate, he yelled unconsciously, exhausted all his recovery strength, and pushed An Shixiao away, as if An Shixiao was such a terrible virus.

"Okay, okay, I'll go, Yan Yan, calm down, I'll go now." Fearing that Shen Mingyan would hurt himself, An Shixiao had no choice but to back away.

At this moment, An Sihe invited the doctor over.

"Doctor, please take a look. What's wrong with Yan Yan? Why can't he remember my brother all of a sudden?"

The doctor didn't delay for a moment, calmed down Shen Mingyan's emotions, and started the examination.

a long time.

"Did the patient experience any stimulation before the accident?" The doctor's expression was a little serious.

"This..." Everyone didn't know.

Seeing everyone's confused expressions, the doctor directly stated the result.

"Judging from the patient's current situation, it should be selective amnesia. During the patient's coma, he forced himself to seal up some painful memories, so as to reduce the damage after waking up."

"Yanyan...Doctor, is it possible for my son's memory to recover? Will the injury on his head affect him in the future?" Father Shen asked eagerly while supporting Mother Shen.

"His injury is alright. As for the memory, it may not recover for a few days, a month, a few years, or even a lifetime. It all depends on the patient himself. Now that the patient just woke up, I advise you not to worry too much. Wait. When the patient is better, try to guide him again."

What else did the doctor say, but An Shixiao couldn't hear him anymore, he stared blankly at his empty hands, and slumped on the chair in the corridor.

Has he actually become Shen Mingyan's most painful memory?Look what he has done before?How much he hurt Shen Mingyan, this bastard.

Burying his face between his legs, holding the back of his head with his hands, Anshi Xiao Ren's tears overflowed and soaked his pants.

He finally understands how painful that feeling is. The person you desperately want to protect completely forgets you and rejects you thousands of miles away. Even a small touch is afraid of the other person's resentment, so you can only suppress yourself emotion.

Is it because he has silently endured his words for more than ten years with such a mood?

Shen Mingyan's stab wound on his abdomen was slowly recovering during his coma. A week after waking up, he had another body check. There was indeed no problem, so he was discharged from the hospital and went home to recuperate.

During the week in the hospital, An Shixiao could only watch him from a distance, not daring to approach him, for fear that he would irritate Shen Mingyan if he appeared.But there is a lot to do, learn to make all kinds of soup, make it yourself, and then let An's mother take it over.

Fang You was also very peaceful, obediently staying in the Anjia Villa to wait for the delivery. She also wanted to see Shen Mingyan, but An Shixiao stopped her in the end. He really didn't want Shen Mingyan to suffer any more harm because of these things.

On the day Shen Mingyan was discharged from the hospital, An Shixiao did not go to pick him up, but sat in the coffee shop opposite the hospital gate, watching Shen's father and mother, Shen Mingyu and Shen Mingyan came out together, after a week of recuperation, Shen Mingyan's complexion improved. With the support of Shen Mingyu, the whole family laughed happily without knowing who said what.

Seeing Shen Mingyan get into the Shen family's car, An Shixiao immediately left the coffee shop and drove behind, he smiled wryly in his heart, why did he act like a perverted stalker.

The car followed unhurriedly, even if it was just watching from a distance like this, Shen Mingyan was in a coma for more than half a month, which made him extremely nervous. He was afraid that if he didn't watch like this, all this was just a dream. When he turns his eyes away, the dream will wake up.

In the evening, An Shixiao came to the Shen family's villa to celebrate Shen Mingyan's discharge from the hospital, and even Fang You also picked him up.Of course, it's not that he doesn't want to come, it's just that he is afraid that Shen Mingyan will reject him.

Unexpectedly, when Shen Mingyan saw him, he didn't have any surprising reaction, nor did he resist the day he was in the hospital. When he saw him, although he wasn't very close, he nodded lightly to show his welcome.An Shixiao was also happy. At least, it was better than before. He believed that after a long time, they would still return to the past.

Shen's mother and An's mother cooked a large table of good dishes. During the dinner, An Sihe looked at his younger brother and then at Shen Mingyan. It's not worth it for Shen Mingyan. During Shen Mingyan's hospitalization, I saw what An Shixiao did for Shen Mingyan, and I was worried for An Shixiao. Both of them are her family members. They both love each other, but because of an accident, become like strangers.

"Come, come, let's celebrate Yanyan's discharge from the hospital. Let's have a toast together." An Sihe stood up and took the lead to break the somewhat silent atmosphere.

"Alright, let's have a drink." Shen Mingyu also stood up.

The two families became lively in an instant. Of course, Shen Mingyan was banned from drinking, and he drank a glass of water instead of wine.As a thank you, Shen Mingyan made a piece of crispy pork ribs for everyone.

An Sihe saw the details that no one had noticed. When Shen Mingyan was sandwiching An Shixiao, he chose braised fish instead of the same pork ribs as everyone else.Why?Because An Shixiao has loved to eat fish of various flavors since he was a child, and his taste has not changed when he grows up.An Sihe looked at Shen Mingyan thoughtfully, without saying a word, and ate with doubts.

After dinner, everyone chatted in the living room, but An Sihe went to his room with Shen Mingyan as an excuse.

Taking advantage of An Sihe's inattention, Shen Mingyan put the childhood photo with An Shixiao on the table into the drawer.

Sitting opposite Shen Mingyan, An Sihe looked left and right casually, saw Shen Mingyan accepting the photo, and asked, "Yanyan, you haven't lost your memory, have you?"

When Shen Mingyan heard this, he shrank his hands and was almost caught when closing the drawer. He quickly calmed down and said with a smile, "Second Sister, what are you talking about?"

"Yanyan, there are only two of us now, so tell the truth, you never forgot about Shi Xiao, right?"

Shen Mingyan lowered his head and didn't speak.

"I don't mean to blame you, Shi Xiao has done a lot of excessive things, I know he is sorry for you, but..."

"Second Sister." Interrupting An Sihe's words, Shen Mingyan sighed helplessly.

"The day I just woke up, I really didn't remember it, but I slowly remembered it the next day."

"Then why do you..."

"Second sister, many things, isn't it better just like this? It's good for him, for me, for Fang You, for everyone, isn't it?"

"But Yanyan, Shi Xiao has changed. I can tell that he loves you too. When you were hospitalized, he was the one who guarded you day and night." Even she couldn't help but be moved by such affectionate feelings. Well, if it is said that An Shixiao doesn't love Shen Mingyan, no one will believe it.

An Sihe told the whole story from beginning to end to the four elders of the two families, and did not hide anything about the love between Shen Mingyan and An Shixiao. None of the four parents said a word of objection when they heard about this kind of love. if.Perhaps, having experienced so many things, in their view, nothing is more important than the happiness and safety of their children.

"Second Sister, that's not love, it's just because he feels guilty towards me. I'm very greedy. The love I want is wholehearted. The love I don't want me to get is based on compensation. Long before the accident, I had already decided to give up. I didn’t want to drag him on such a road. How difficult and painful this road is is not something ordinary people can bear. I’m afraid that one day, if he can’t bear those things Gossip, how can I give him a normal life? Second sister, I can't be so selfish."

If he was a woman, no matter how poor or ugly he was, he could stand beside An Shixiao openly. If he were a woman, he would have desperately confessed to An Shixiao. Push the other party into the abyss of public opinion.

"But Yanyan..." An Sihe wanted to persuade her, but was interrupted by Shen Mingyan.

"Second sister, you don't need to say any more, I have already decided to go on a study tour next month."

"What, why so suddenly?"

"Will it? The plan was made long before the accident, but it was just postponed. The company's business is to ask the second sister to work harder." Shen Mingyan smiled, still as gentle as before, but more unquestionable firm.

An Sihe didn't say anything in the end, if he wanted to blame God for teasing him, it was fate.

Why do we have to hurt each other when we are clearly in love, why do we have to push each other away when we are able to stay together?

She understood Shen Mingyan's thoughts, and also understood An Shixiao's love, but the two parties seemed to have entered a dead end, where no one else could get in, and she couldn't get out.Maybe give them some time.

There is a saying that time is the most powerful antidote.

And one month later, Shen Mingyan also left City A as part of his plan, and started his study tour without a destination.

Shen Mingyan left City A on the grounds of going out to relax and recuperate, and started his study tour career.He didn't tell anyone where he was going.And when An Shixiao heard the news, Shen Mingyan had already left for three days.

An Shixiao was sitting in Shen Mingyan's room. This room, which was so familiar to him, was empty at this moment, without a trace of warmth, as if he was also complaining about the departure of the master.

When he learned that Shen Mingyan had left, he frantically searched everywhere and asked everyone who might know about Shen Mingyan's whereabouts, but no one knew where he had gone, not even Shen's parents.It's just that Shen Mingyan will not stay in a fixed place, and will call every week to report that he is safe.

He understood that Shen Mingyan was avoiding him.He doesn't know about others, but he can clearly feel that Shen Mingyan may not have really forgotten him. He hurt Shen Mingyan so much that he had to end up in this way.

Later, An Sihe told him some of Shen Mingyan's thoughts.

Shen Mingyan, Shen Mingyan, that utter idiot, how could he think that his love was just guilt? How could a person fall in love with someone of the same sex because of guilt?It was his own fault that caused Shen Mingyan to lose confidence in him and withdraw his love for him.

But that idiot Shen Mingyan, in order to make his life smooth, left alone with this heavy love on his back, but he didn't ask him what he meant, he just made the decision for him unilaterally.He doesn't want the so-called correct life, he doesn't care about outsiders' opinions and rhetoric, he just wants to be with the person he loves deeply, only wants Shen Mingyan to look at him all his life, and only wants to spend time with Shen Mingyan happily For a lifetime, this is enough.

If there is no Shen Mingyan, no matter how normal life is, no matter how smooth the road is, what is the point?Without Shen Mingyan, how could those so-called happiness be complete?

Now that Shen Mingyan has lost his sense of security, he will give it to him. Shen Mingyan needs time, so he will wait.This time, for him to pay, for Shen Mingyan, he is willing.

In this life, Shen Mingyan and An Shixiao are destined to be entangled.

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