Beyond friendship is love

"Falling flowers are intentional, flowing water is ruthless, Shen Mingyan, you are stupid!"

"Ji Yiran, I don't remember offending you."

Why be so aggressive and embarrassing.

"Why don't you give up even though you know it's going to be fruitless?"

Shen Mingyan shouted angrily: "Ji Yiran, what do you want to do?"

Ji Yiran laughed.

"Angry? I just want to remind you to get out as soon as possible. There is no other meaning. Besides, I..."

Ji Yiran pointed at himself.

"I'm with you all the way."

"What?" Does Ji Yiran also like...men?

Ji Yiran walked back to Shen Mingyan's side and held out his hand.

"So, we should be able to be friends."

"You?" Shen Mingyan looked at the friendly hand reaching out to him, puzzled!

"Why, don't you want to?"

With hesitation, Shen Mingyan stretched out his hands to shake hands with him, and the clasped palms touched each other, feeling each other's warmth.

"Then, Mingyan, we will be friends from now on." Without waiting for Shen Mingyan to respond, Ji Yiran pulled him to the side of the violin stand, took off the violin, and carefully handed it to him.

"How about playing a song with your friends?"

"What?" Shen Mingyan wondered, the violin in his hand happened to be the one used in the last orientation meeting.

Ji Yiran smiled, walked to the piano and sat down.

"Then 'SongFromASecretGarden', shall we?"

He wanted to refuse, but the other party's frank eyes and sincere smile made him unable to say the rejection.

"it is good!"

The piano sounded first in the huge piano room, and the violin entered in a timely manner, with melodious and mournful sound.If there were audiences, perhaps no one would believe that this was an ensemble without rehearsal, let alone that the two people in the ensemble had known each other not long ago. After all, it was indeed very difficult to be able to fit so well in the first ensemble.

Both the listener and the performer couldn't help being so intoxicated that Shen Mingyan didn't notice at all when Ji Yiran stopped playing and when he walked up to him, and he didn't know why tears were streaming down his face.

Numbly, Ji Yiran took off the violin from his shoulders, gently wiped away the little tears on his face, and hugged him into his arms.

"What a fool. Knowing that it's a ball of fire, you still get close to it desperately. Cry a while, it will feel better, I will be by your side, always!"

Listening to the other party's heartbeat, words of pity, and tears falling uncontrollably, Shen Mingyan, who put aside all scruples, changed from low crying at the beginning to crying loudly. The grievances and emotions that have been suppressed for many years are completely in Ji Yiran's arms. broke out.

——Why not him, it would be great if you were him, why aren't you An Shixiao?

And Ji Yiran didn't care that his clothes would get dirty, he hugged the person in his arms tightly, patted Shen Mingyan on the back, and gave silent comfort.

But none of them noticed the pair of eyes outside the door.

An Shixiao and Fang You made an appointment to go out in the afternoon, but An Shixiao thought that Shen Mingyan hadn't eaten at noon, so he walked around with Fang You for a while, found an excuse to send him back to the dormitory, and went to a restaurant outside to pack some food. Shen Mingyan's favorite dish.I couldn't find anyone in the dormitory, and rushed to the literature and art department, but there was no one, and the phone couldn't get through.He was wondering where Shen Mingyan would go, when the sound of the piano came from the piano room.

In his opinion, the sound of the same instrument is actually the same, but he can accurately tell that it is the sound of the piano played by Shen Mingyan, but who is playing the piano?

Unable to disturb Shen Mingyan's interest, An Shixiao stood by the door and waited. He didn't expect that the other person would be Ji Yiran, that crazy freshman. When did Shen Mingyan become so familiar with him?

When he watched the two people in the door performing together, he occasionally looked at each other affectionately, and he also saw Shen Mingyan weeping inexplicably, crying silently, full of grievances, An Shixiao's heart suddenly seemed to have been severely beaten , the pain is unbearable.

What happened to his words, his words cried, a person who has been strong since childhood, actually cried, he, why did he cry?I really want to rush forward to hug him tightly to comfort him, tell him not to cry, I am so distressed, tell him not to cry, I will take care of everything for him.

But before he could make a move, Ji Yiran had already taken the first step, did what he wanted to do, said what he wanted to say, and cried in Ji Yiran's arms after he had never said anything willful in front of him for many years .And I can only stand outside the door like a statue, looking at the people embracing inside, unable to move.The song played by Shen Mingyan at the orientation meeting suddenly flashed in his mind, as well as the lingering expression during this time.

Secret love...?

Does Shen Mingyan like... Ji Yiran?

A seed called jealousy was growing crazily in An Shixiao's heart. He couldn't believe it and walked out of the door while shaking his head, whispering: "Impossible...No...No..."

The image of Ji Yiran hugging Shen Mingyan kept flashing in front of his eyes, it felt so...a good match.

Annoyed, he threw all the food he was carrying into the trash can, and kicked the corner of the wall with his foot.

"damn it."

how could be?It's impossible for his words to like that Ji Yiran, they've only known each other for how long, and the other party is still a man, it's love at first sight?Thinking of this, An Shixiao felt depressed. He never thought that something similar to love could happen between a man and a man. No matter how he thought about it, he felt absurd.

But even if Shen Mingyan likes the same sex, and he grew up with him, why didn't he fall in love with himself, but Ji Yiran who he only knew for less than a month?

The more he thought about it, the more angry he became, and the more angry his heart became, the more painful he felt. He didn't understand why he was so anxious, so he opened his mouth to inhale desperately, trying to relieve the suffocation.He thought, it must be because Shen Mingyan was dating someone for the first time, and the person was of the same sex. He was not mentally prepared, that's why he felt so uncomfortable. A boy who was by his side all day, suddenly another person appeared among them If you step in, you will definitely not get used to it, yes, you won't get used to it.Thinking that Shen Mingyan's position next to him would be replaced by another person in the future, who would become someone closer to Shen Mingyan than himself, his heart felt hollow and cold.

No, no, he wants to save Yanyan. It's wrong to like men. This is a wrong road. He can't let his Yanyan go on this road of no return. The two of them are together.

But An Shixiao didn't notice the despair in Shen Mingyan's cry, let alone know that the person who made Shen Mingyan cry was himself.

And that night An Shixiao didn't return all night.

In the early morning, Shen Mingyan woke up leisurely, and turned his head habitually to look at the opposite side. The person who was always sleeping soundly in the past was not here today, and the neat quilt was placed alone on the bedside.

Shen Mingyan was so sad that he turned over and buried his face in the quilt.Yesterday, for fear that An Shixiao would find out that his mood was fluctuating, he stayed very late before returning to the dormitory from the Department of Literature and Art.When he entered, the dormitory was not turned on. He thought that An Shixiao was asleep, but later he saw that he hadn't come back at all.

Called, turned off.Shen Mingyan didn't know where he went, so he could only wait helplessly, two o'clock, three o'clock... six o'clock... An Shixiao didn't come back all night.

Standing in front of the mirror, Shen Mingyan stared at the dark circles under his eyes, and smiled wryly.

——Shen Mingyan, you really are hopeless.

When the phone rang, Shen Mingyan was in the dormitory sorting out the data of the literature and art department preparing to recruit new members. The lit screen displayed a word "Xiao", which flashed and flashed, rang and rang again, and finally Shen Mingyan picked it up .

"Yanyan, where are you?"

"dormitory."

"Why are you still staying in the dormitory on Saturday, come out, I'll wait for you at the coffee shop outside the school."

Before Shen Mingyan could speak, the phone was hung up.

Shen Mingyan stared at the phone in a daze, helplessly.He didn't want to go anywhere, he just wanted to know where An Shixiao went and who was he with during the night he didn't return?

As soon as Shen Mingyan walked to the door of the coffee shop, he saw An Shixiao laughing with Fang You as if there was no one else around.

——It turns out that the two of them were together last night, heh, Shen Mingyan, don't you give up?

It's not that he doesn't give up, it's that he can't give up. The love for An Shixiao has been in his blood for so many years, how can he get rid of it?

Not wanting to see their sweetness and hurt himself, Shen Mingyan wanted to leave, but was caught by An Shixiao who was looking at the door.

"Yanyan, this way."

Shen Mingyan could only bite the bullet and go in, greeted Fang You seemingly naturally, and sat down.

"What did you two ask me to do on a date, to be a light bulb?" Picking up the coffee, Shen Mingyan forced himself to calm down, pretending to be nonchalant and making fun of it.

"No hurry, there is one more person."

"Anyone else? Who?"

An Shi Xiaoshen's mysterious appearance aroused Shen Mingyan's curiosity.

"Come on, say Cao Cao, Cao Cao is here."

Shen Mingyan followed An Shixiao's gaze and turned his head to look.

Who is this person, a strange woman, what a mystery.

"Yanyan, let me introduce you. This is Xiaoyou's classmate, Chen Ke, a beauty." An Shixiao pushes the famous words ambiguously.

Chen Ke was the first to extend his hand to show his friendliness.

"Hello, senior, my name is Chen Ke."

Shen Mingyan was extremely unwilling but could not be impolite and shook her fingertips back.

"Shen Mingyan."

"Hey, Chen Ke, why don't you call him by his name, senior? Speaking of which, we are one year younger than you." An Shixiao was like a matchmaker in ancient times.

Shen Mingyan was obviously a little confused by this situation.

One afternoon, An Shixiao took them shopping, going to the playground, eating, and obviously looking for a chance to let him and Chen Ke be alone. After finally staying up late, he proposed to go to the movies again. What's even worse is that I bought two couples seat tickets.No matter how stupid Shen Mingyan was, he knew that An Shixiao was helping him find a girlfriend.But it's not good to object in front of outsiders, refute An Shixiao's face, hold back his temper and finish watching the movie, and send Chen Ke back to the dormitory, yes, he sent it, not together, the movie ends , An Shixiao took Fang You away.

And Shen Mingyan suppressed his anger for a whole day, and finally broke out completely after returning to the dormitory.

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