Unforgivable

"Everyone, the train is about to arrive at the South Station of City A. Passengers who get off at the South Station of City A, please prepare your luggage and get off—"

When the announcer sounded, every exit was already full of people, most of whom were young faces. At the end of August, students from all over the country returned to school with suitcases and schoolbags on their backs.

The speed of the train was getting slower and slower, and it stopped slowly after entering the station. Then Nan Shu got up to take down the luggage, and followed the crowd out of the station.

The journey was close to six hours, the car was full of people and noisy, and the smell of all kinds of smells mixed together made people feel uncomfortable. He almost slept with a mask on all the way.

The wind in the air was dull, the sun was hanging high in the sky, and the crowd dispersed after leaving the station. Nan Shu pulled his suitcase and walked directly to the south platform. Before the departure time, many people were waiting.

The sun was so hot, Nan Shu walked into a shadow, leaned his back against the wall, and raised his head slightly to look at the sky.

The sky was blue and the clouds were mushroom-shaped. It was a sunny and sunny day.

Same as the day I left five years ago.

Stopped at the red light, and the No. 117 bus drove a carload of students through an intersection.

Nan Shu was seated by the window. He stared at the wide road on the right, thinking that he had walked through it countless times, whether he went home alone after school, or walked home with that person.

The car didn't turn the corner and drove straight ahead.

It wasn't until he could no longer see that road that Nanshu looked away. He lowered his eyes and sat quietly.

This is the place where he has lived for 13 years since he was a child, and he finally returned after five years.

But he has no sense of belonging.

Because he has no home.

The bus drove and stopped all the way. At each stop, some people got off and others came up, and most of them were pulling suitcases.Nan Shu sat in the back and heard the two girls in front discussing the club activities of the university.

Nan Shu slightly raised his eyes and glanced at the people in the car. Judging from their appearance, they were all college students.

After living in another city for five years, he passed the university entrance examination in city A. He is already 1.8 meters five, with exquisite facial features. He has matured a lot in recent years.The tails of his eyes are upturned, and when he raises his eyes to look at people, he is very sharp. His slightly immature face does not show a smile all the year round, and his eyes are dull and dull, which always makes people feel uncomfortable.

These will always suppress that little immaturity, and the first impression he leaves on others has always been bad.

An hour later the bus stopped, and the radio announced that University A had arrived.

The first thing that came into view was the rows of private cars parked, followed by the crowded crowd. Banners welcoming freshmen were hung from the south to the north of the road. Nanshu found the welcome reception, completed a series of procedures, and received After getting the dormitory key, he carried the suitcase to the second floor in one breath, and the door was open, and intermittent conversations could be heard vaguely.

The room is not small, with bunk beds and separate bathroom.Nan Shu found his bed, looked at the layer of ashes on it, and turned around to look around.

His talking has stopped since he came in. Three parents who sent their children to school stood in this room, and they met and chatted with each other. Nanshu glanced at them.

Nan Shu didn't see any rags in the room, but a handsome-looking boy pinched a piece in his hand, and was looking at him blankly like everyone else.

Nan Shu's eyes stayed on his face for less than a second, and he glanced away lightly.

His unsociable, impolite and silent attitude made the three parents frowned at the same time, and then he walked out of the room directly under the gaze of six people.

The dormitory building was full of freshmen coming and going, and it seemed a bit crowded. Nanshu worked hard for several years to get admitted here. When filling out the college entrance examination, he didn't choose any university in C city, but only filled in A university.

He wants to come back here, to this place where he has been away for five years.

After returning to the dormitory, the three parents did not know when they left, and the dormitory was so quiet that there were only three people packing their luggage silently.Nan Shu went to the bathroom, picked up a rag from the corner and wet it with water, wiped the bed board clean, opened the cabinet after making the bed, took out the clothes and stuffed it inside.

The three people on the side introduced themselves briefly, and Nan Shu heard a boy say, "My name is Song Zhi."

Someone asked: "Who knows?"

"I know what I know."

Nan Shu paused slightly for arranging the desk, and turned his head to look over.Song Zhi looks clean, has fair skin, and speaks softly. At this moment, he is smiling, as if he has noticed Nan Shu's gaze, and turns his head to look at him for a few seconds.

Nan Shu withdrew his gaze and lowered his head to pack his things.

In the past few years, whenever he heard or saw the same three words, he would be in a daze for a while.

Song Zhi was still looking at Nan Shu who was standing there, with his back to him, quietly, without saying a word, as if drawing a dividing line with them.

He hesitated for a long time, and walked over: "That..."

The voice came from behind, Nan Shu didn't turn around, but turned his head slightly.

Song Zhi couldn't help being stunned by the sense of alienation and oppression that came over his face. He blinked his eyes, raised a smile, and said, "My name is Song Zhi, how about you?"

Nan Shu didn't speak for a moment.

His eyes stayed on Song Zhi's face for two seconds, then he looked lightly at the two boys who were staring at him a few steps away. I was taken aback.

"Nanshu." He said softly.

Song Zhi opened his mouth, as if he wanted to ask how to write, but Nan Shu had already turned his head and continued to clear the desk.

After chatting for a few words, the three of them got acquainted and were already discussing where to go for dinner. Another boy said, "Shall we go to the cafeteria?"

"What cafeteria are you going to? When I came here, I saw a lot of snack bars nearby." Zhang Yichen came to City A for the first time, and his heart flew out of the school gate, "Let's go out for a stroll."

Song Zhi didn't speak, but looked at Nan Shu who had just packed the suitcase.

He didn't bring too many things, a quilt, some school supplies and some simple clothes, these were almost all his belongings.

It was getting closer to evening, and the temperature was not as hot as in the afternoon. Nan Shu went to the bathroom and stood still in front of the mirror, staring at the person in the mirror without blinking.

He doesn't know how to describe himself now, it's nothing more than getting taller, and his facial features haven't changed much.But the eyes were too dim to see a gleam of light, and they often pressed the corners of their eyes and said nothing.

He couldn't even like himself when he looked in the mirror, let alone other people.

In fact, when he was in the first year of high school, his grades were not top-notch. Coupled with the discussions around him, he became taciturn and out of gregarious, and even the class teacher ignored him.During that time, he was in a daze, his mind was adrift, and he only wanted to go back to City A.

Back here to find his brother Shi Zhiyuan.

But he doesn't have the ability to be independent, he can only live in his uncle's house, but it doesn't feel good to live under the fence.In the first semester of high school, he used the pocket money he saved to buy materials, listened carefully in class, and studied until midnight. Instead of crumpling up the test papers and putting them in the bag, he put them in the folder after answering the questions and correcting the mistakes. .

His grades have improved by leaps and bounds, and even the class teacher is full of praise, but he sighs after chatting with other teachers in private, and finally ends with a sentence of "it's a pity".

When he walked out of the school gate, the three of them watched his back silently, and saw him walking directly to the platform as if he was going somewhere in a hurry, without even glancing at the stop sign, as if he was very familiar with this place.

Zhang Yichen curled his lips: "Don't you think he's weird? He doesn't talk to me, and he has a gloomy face. I wonder if his family is—"

Probably because the next words were too harsh, Zhang Yichen shut up in time, and Song Zhi saw Nanshu got on the bus, but didn't answer.

Nan Shu took the bus for half an hour to reach the Yujing villa area. After he got off the bus, he walked about 400 meters. Two security guards from the community were strictly guarding the gate.

The houses here are very expensive, and there is no poor family living here, so the property and environment are top-notch, and it is impossible to enter without swiping the access card.

Those two security guards were no longer the two old men from four years ago, but they didn't look too young either.One of the security guards saw Nan Shu stop at the door and asked, "What do you do?"

Nan Shu opened his mouth slightly, unable to answer.

He just used to live here, he doesn't have an access card now.

"You can't stay here, I think you're ugly." Seeing that he didn't speak, the security guard frowned and said, "You can't enter without an access card, so you should leave quickly."

Nan Shu looked up into the community, far away, he still saw the villa, but it was blocked by the previous one, he couldn't see if there was light in the house.

He looked at a small corner of the villa: "Excuse me, is there still people living in No. 168 of the villa area?"

The security guard didn't expect him to ask such a question, and looked at each other for a moment but didn't respond.Until Nan Shu's eyes fell on his face, the security guard thought for a while, and panic flashed across his face after a few seconds, and he waved his hands again and again, as if he heard something that shouldn't be heard: "Why ask this! Bad luck!"

Nan Shu's eyes were sharp, his lips were slightly pursed, and his gaze seemed to weigh a thousand catties.

"The house has been unoccupied for several years. What happened before caused the family next door to move out overnight, and the house could not be sold for several years. During that time, Yujing lost many new residents. It was because of that family. Damn it!" Seeing his strange appearance, the security guard asked, "What on earth do you do?"

Nan Shu lowered his eyes, turned and left without saying a word.

As he expected, Shi Zhiyuan no longer lives here, maybe he has already left after that incident happened.

But his uncle said that Shi Zhiyuan took over the family's company, so he must be living somewhere else.

Their family has more than one house. Their mother's family is very rich and has several houses in different communities.

Nan Shu raised his head and gradually accelerated his pace.

He ran non-stop for half an hour, and finally stopped at the gate of a community. The management of the community here is not as strict as Yujing, and there is freedom of entry and exit, and the security is purely for decoration.

Unit 3, Unit 101, Building [-], Nan Shu recited silently in his heart.

This building is so easy to find, within 2 minutes of walking into the community, he saw the number on the sign. When he looked down and saw the light in the house, Nan Shu jumped heartily.

His heartbeat was uncontrollable, getting faster and faster, so that his steps trembled slightly, and he was afraid.

For so many years, he has been madly wanting to see Shi Zhiyuan, wanting to return to him, but when it comes time to see him, his fear is far greater than his nervousness, and he doesn't even dare to think about what Shi Zhiyuan looks like now, what happened? what changes.

Nan Shu stood outside the cold door, as long as he raised his hand and pressed the doorbell, he might see his elder brother whom he missed day and night for five years.

Nan Shu stared at the small button tightly. He stood there for more than ten minutes, and the sky outside had already darkened.

"Ding-dong-"

Nan Shu felt his heart beating as loud as the doorbell.

The door hadn't been opened for a long time, and there was no movement inside. Nan Shu couldn't help but pressed it twice again. This time, he didn't wait too long, and the door in front of him opened. He raised his head and bumped into a pair of impatient black eyes. During the meeting, he clearly saw the man's staring gaze after looking over, which did not leave for a long time.

Shi Zhiyuan hasn't changed much, he is still the same as before, with delicate features and deep eyes, Nan Shu always remembers Shi Zhiyuan's gentle and gentle smile, always touching his head, pampering him, pampering and watching he.

But he is different from before.

The person in front of him had a strong stern look on his brows, his smile was invisible, and his handsome facial features were so powerful when his aura cooled down, making one gasp and want to run away just by looking at it.

They looked at each other for 3 minutes.

Nan Shu stared at him closely, not daring to blink, as if he would disappear in the blink of an eye.

He grasped the fabric of his trousers tightly and pinched it between his fingers, and opened his mouth: "Brother..."

Shi Zhiyuan seemed to have no time to change his clothes in the future. He was wearing a suit, and the astonishment in his eyes disappeared, leaving only the deep hatred. He spoke with a voice as cold as ice: "Who is that?"

Nan Shu heard the indifference in his words, and his heart sank.

Every day in City C, he thinks about Zhiyuan when he is awake, and Zhiyuan will appear in his dreams when he falls asleep.The elder brother in the dream is like before, leading him forward together, and accompanying him to piano lessons. He doesn't want to stay in his room at home, so Shi Zhiyuan will open the door and let him in.

It will also be the same as before, when Nan Jianming strikes again after being drunk, Shi Zhiyuan will firmly protect him behind him.

But Nan Shu knew that Nan Jianming's punches and kicks were not originally on him. At that time, he was only a few months old when he was brought here by Nan Jianming to form a remarried family. Since then, he has a seven-year-old elder brother.

Nan Jianming accomplished nothing, had nothing, and brought a newborn son with him, which was equivalent to marrying in. At that time, no one in Gao Meiya's family agreed to this marriage, but Nan Jianming was eloquent and best at coaxing women. Gao Meiya was overwhelmed by emotion. Dazed, she knelt down and begged her parents to give her the household registration booklet.

The family finally couldn't stop her, seeing her get her marriage certificate.

That is the countdown to the nightmare.

Nan Jianming only has a junior high school education and is not self-motivated. He likes to play cards and drinks all day long.At the beginning, when he was drunk, he would coax Gao Meiya when he was angry. When he was happy, he asked for some money and then went out to play cards. As Nan Shu grew up, his temper became more and more irritable.

At that time, Zhiyuan was seven years old. He hated this sudden father who coaxed his mother around, and he didn't even like this little life who cried every now and then.

He stared at the crying baby in the pram, walked slowly over to stare at him, and was so annoyed hearing him crying, he turned around and wanted to leave, but the crying gradually stopped when he turned around , Shi Zhiyuan looked back, and he still remembers that look to this day.

Tears were still shining in the little baby's eyes, and now the round eyes that had calmed down were staring at him.

From then on, he slowly accepted this little life, and also accepted this unrelated younger brother.

During the period of standing face to face, many images flashed back to Nan Shu's mind.During these five years, he couldn't sleep in the middle of the night and looked at the ceiling, thinking silently about what he would say when he saw Shi Zhiyuan, but right now, he couldn't utter a single word.

The only thing he can call out is that brother.

He turned a deaf ear to Shi Zhiyuan's rhetorical question, and tried to shout again: "...Brother."

He used to be ignorant, he never called his brother, and often used his name on his lips.Shi Zhiyuan would always correct him again and again: "It's not big or small, call me brother."

Nan Shu is always reluctant to shout.

But now he just wants to yell over and over again, to make up for all the so many voices he owed in the past five years.

But he seems to have forgotten—

"He died a long time ago." Shi Zhiyuan's voice was cold and sinister, he looked into Nan Shu's eyes, "Get lost."

The moment the door was about to close, Nan Shu's heart shrank suddenly, and he stretched out his hand almost subconsciously: "Don't—"

The snapping pain came from the fingers and hit the brain in an instant, but he hardly noticed it, he just looked eagerly at Shi Zhiyuan in the gap.

"Don't close the door." Nan Shu stared at him closely, but couldn't say anything else.

Let me look at you, look at you more, don't close the door, okay.

Shi Zhiyuan glanced down at his hands caught by the door. Those hands were slender and fair, with slightly powdered nails. They were good hands for learning the piano.

Nan Shu played the piano really well. At that time, he accompanied him to many places to participate in competitions. Once, Nan Shu was angry when he was late, and he coaxed him for a long time.

"open."

Nan Shu kept this action motionless, his eyes were sore, and he was almost on the verge of tears.

Shi Zhiyuan raised his chin slightly, his eyes were so cold, and the strength in his hands gradually increased.

He saw Nan Shu frowning because of pain, just like when he left five years ago, Nan Shu grabbed him and begged him not to leave him.

Shi Zhiyuan suddenly smiled: "There are two people I don't want to see in this world, do you know who they are?"

Nan Shu heard his own breathing, and he didn't know if it was because of the unbearable pain, or because he was trembling badly because of fear.

"One is your father who has been shot," he heard Shi Zhiyuan say, "the other is you."

He was pushed open by a force, and the door slammed shut.

Nan Shu's whole body froze in place, the pain in his fingers remained undiminished, and even his heart hurt like someone was pulling him.

He seemed to be floating in the sea, and there was no one to turn to for help.

"The murderer's son—"

"Your father is a murderer—"

"His father is a murderer, stay away from him!"

"I don't want to be in his class, his father killed other people's mother—"

……

The words he had listened to for five years rushed into his brain at this moment, causing him to squat down and cover his ears.

He remembered that Shi Zhiyuan's mother was beaten to death by his father five years ago, and he also remembered that his father was sentenced to death three years ago.

He always remembered that he had no home five years ago.

But he forgot how much Shi Zhiyuan hated and hated seeing him now.

He has no brother, he forgot all about it.