The daily life of the retired devil

So, on this night, Xie Feiyan repeated his old trick and knocked on the door of a certain general again.

The autumn night is cool and breezy, and the soft carpet of the night sky is covered with gemstones in the shape of stars, illuminating the earth extremely brightly, which contrasts beautifully with the night market not far from the capital.

Shen Ci's mirror image had expected him to come, sitting alone on the high platform of the General's Mansion, looking in the direction of the night market, with wine jars on his arms, but there was not much alcohol on his body, and his expression was not depressed.

Xie Feiyan glanced at it, sat down beside Shen Cijing unceremoniously, and said with a smile, "Why do you suddenly want to drink?"

Shen Cijing looked at him sideways, and subconsciously choked back: "I'm just drinking, so what's so strange?"

Xie Feiyan smiled and said, "It's nothing strange, I just want to know why you are happy, and want to be happy with you."

Shen Cijing felt a little hot on his face again.

The masked man in front of him didn't know what was going on, as if every word he said was from his heart.Obviously Shen Cijing thinks he is a serious person, but he will always be happy when this person says a few words, as if he is ignorant and easy to coax, which really makes him very unconvinced.

There was a voice of dissatisfaction in Shen Cijing's throat, and he subconsciously wanted to complain to this person about acting like a baby, but before he could speak, he realized that his behavior was not heroic enough, so he forcibly changed the subject, saying: "You Look at that place, the lights are bright, and everyone comes and goes like daytime... When I was still in the capital when I was young, I had never seen such a place. Later, I left Beijing for many years, and now when I returned to Beijing, I realized that there are everywhere here. It's not what I remember."

Xie Feiyan's smile under the mask was slightly restrained, he thought for a while, and said, "Are you feeling sorry?"

Do you feel regretful and lost because of such changes in things and changes in time?

"Not really." Shen Cijing turned her head and thought for a while, "I just thought, if I could have such a place when I was young, that would be great."

Xie Feiyan was a little surprised: "Really?"

Shen Cijing picked up a jar of wine and said: "You may know that before I was 14 years old, I was just a dispensable bastard in the mansion of General Zhen Guo... General Zhen Guo and his wife have always been loving, so I The existence with my biological mother was just an accident, a stain in a love story that has been passed down through the ages, but even so, the general Zhen Guo, his wife and the whole family did not treat me harshly, they just... can't see me."

"They couldn't see me, like I never existed, whether I was good or bad, they couldn't see and didn't care, so I often thought for a while, if only my mother was still alive... She will definitely see me, so I became suspicious of her death, spent a lot of effort to investigate, and even thought that it would be fine if she was forced to death by General Zhen Guo and his wife."

With that said, Shen Cijing turned to look at Xie Feiyan: "As a son of man, I would actually wish that my mother would be forced to death—do you think I'm despicable?"

"I've never thought about it that way." Xie Feiyan said softly, "I didn't before, and I won't in the future."

Shen Cijing's words may shock the world when they fall into the ears of others, and some people may even think that Shen Cijing's idea is the original sin, but Xie Feiyan doesn't think so.Because Xie Feiyan knows that such paranoid thoughts are the last self-help of a child who longs for love.

When a child is about to drown in the sea of ​​lovelessness, he will grab everything he can to save himself, and because he can't catch his biological father and aunt, he wants to grab his biological mother , grabbed the shadow named "Mother" and tried to save himself.He thought in his heart, if his mother was actually forced to death back then, at least it could prove that he was indeed loved by someone, but she was gone.

But that kid back then didn't grab any straws in the end.

So he went through the loveless sea of ​​suffering alone, and saved himself by himself.

Some children who have been treated harshly by the world will criticize the world when they grow up, and with anger or resentment, they will turn into the world's retribution for the world; but some people will never succumb to the suffering the world imposes on them , no matter how harshly you are criticized, your heart will not be infected with haze.

Shen Cijing is the latter.

And Xie Feiyan will always fall in love with such a person.

Xie Feiyan lowered his head slightly, feeling relieved and distressed at the same time, with a little bitterness in his heart.He knew in his heart that if it wasn't for him back then, Shen Cijing would have achieved detachment long ago, and he didn't have to come to the world to suffer life after life, and he didn't have to struggle again and again in this sea of ​​suffering.

But Xie Feiyan didn't know how to say it, let alone how to persuade him—or perhaps Shen Cijing didn't need others to persuade him at all, because when he could say all this frankly, it meant he had completely let go.

But Xie Feiyan is always the one who thinks too much, and the one who can't let it go, so Xie Feiyan can only pick up the wine jar at hand, and touch Shen Cijing: "Drink."

Shen Cijing took a sip of wine, his cheeks were slightly reddened by the smell of wine, and his eyes were still on the night market in the distance.

Xie Feiyan followed his gaze and said, "Do you like it?"

Shen Cijing nodded slightly: "Very good."

"You also think this night market is doing well?"

"Okay." Shen Cijing said, "Be lively."

Xie Feiyan was taken aback for a moment, only to realize that the two of them had misunderstood the point.

"You like to be lively?" Xie Feiyan was surprised, it was the first time he heard Shen Cijing make such remarks.

When he was a monk back then, Shen Cijing was notoriously cold to the outside world, so that his reputation for being unkind spread faster than the reputation of the number one beauty.Although Xie Feiyan knew that "unkindness" was just a misunderstanding of Shen Cijing by others, and Shen Cijing was at best not speaking human words, but it was true that Shen Cijing had lived in a house for decades or hundreds of years.

And such Shen Cijing, would he like to be lively?

Shen Cijing said frankly: "If I get along with them, I will definitely be impatient, but if I just watch them lively from the sidelines, it's not bad." Shen Cijing thought for a while and said, "Just watch, And I felt happy too.”

Xie Feiyan was silent for a moment, and touched Shen Cijing again with the wine jar.

"It will be more lively in the future. It will be like this day and night."

Shen Cijing took a sip of wine, turned his head to look at Xie Feiyan, and there seemed to be a smile in his eyes sparkling from drinking: "I thought you would tell me that you would always be by my side in the future, so that I don't have time to pay attention to it." The excitement of others."

Xie Feiyan laughed: "Did I give you the impression of such a flamboyant disciple?"

Shen Cijing snorted softly, confidently: "Isn't it?"

Xie Feiyan snorted and laughed: "Fool, I really like you!"

Caught off guard by such blunt words, Shen Cijing's face became hotter and hotter.

He pursed his lips slightly, then seemed to have made up his mind, put down the wine jar in his hand, and looked at Xie Feiyan.

"At this point, are you still refusing to tell me?" Shen Cijing said.

Xie Feiyan pretended to be stupid, and said with a smile, "What are you telling me? I don't tell you much."

Shen Cijing couldn't tolerate Xie Feiyan's jokes, and said seriously: "Your identity."

Xie Feiyan was speechless, before he could decide how to answer, Shen Cijing said again: "I like you, I want to be with you for a long time, but if you can't even tell me your identity, then how can I trust you? Even if I...want to believe you."

As Shen Cijing spoke, he leaned forward and approached Xie Feiyan, his eyes, which had been soaked in the smell of alcohol, shone brightly under the brilliant starlight.

Shen Cijing put his hand on the fox mask on Xie Feiyan's face, and said softly: "I want to believe you..."

He paused, as if pitiful and coquettish: "Can I trust you?"

Xie Feiyan looked at the face of this beautiful woman who was so close, his heart started beating wildly again.

"I...I didn't...deliberately deceive you..." Xie Feiyan said with some difficulty.

Xie Feiyan usually likes beauties, not to mention Shen Cijing, a beauty among beauties.On weekdays, in order to maintain the majesty of the general, Shen Cijing would not lie to others, and his body was full of evil spirits, making people only notice his murderous aura and hardly notice his beauty.But now, Shen Cijing is acting coquettishly to him in a soft voice. It's like a ferocious tiger stuffing its furry head into Xie Feiyan's arms, melting Xie Feiyan's heart so cute that he almost couldn't help but take off the mask directly. up.

But fortunately, Xie Feiyan still has the last bit of sanity left under the beauties.

"Ah Jing, I didn't hide my identity to deceive you...I just don't know how to tell you..." Xie Feiyan gently held Shen Cijing's hand, why, "My identity is too complicated...I'm afraid of you Thought I was using you..."

Shen Cijing's smiling eyes sparkled: "If you don't tell me, how do you know that I will definitely think so?"

Xie Feiyan said softly: "Because I value you, I don't want you to misunderstand me, and I don't want to take any risk."

Xie Feiyan knew that even if his identity was exposed, as long as he explained himself, Shen Cijing would believe him, but from another perspective, Xie Feiyan felt very sad when he thought that Shen Cijing would go through such a stage of doubting his intentions. , would rather delay this matter again and again.

He hoped that every time Shen Cijing thought of him, he would think of his intentions and love, not their identities and possible doubts.

Shen Cijing's eyes became brighter.The corners of his lips could not help but curl up, but he quickly pressed it down, and said awkwardly, "Do you like me so much?"

The brighter Shen Cijing's eyes were, the happier his expression was, and the hotter Xie Feiyan's face became, so those words that could have been said could not be said.

Xie Feiyan moved back uncomfortably, but Shen Cijing stepped forward more and more: "You like me——then how much do you like me?"

The temperature on Xie Feiyan's face spread to his body, and he couldn't help but move back again: "Just...just like that..."

"What is that like?" Shen Cijing refused to let go.

Xie Feiyan, who was ashamed to dissect his sincerity, became more and more uncomfortable, and almost wanted to jump up and hit this kid: Little bastard, don't push yourself too hard!

The system sighed in pity.

[Look, this is what happens when molesting a good woman and man.You know that your partner is smart, but you still teach him how to tease you, and teach your apprentice to starve to death of the master, why don’t you remember it all—]

"Mute!" Xie Feiyan blocked the system angrily.

Xie Feiyan stood up, decided to run away, and then thought about how to deal with this little bastard, but Shen Cijing refused to let him go, grabbed Xie Feiyan's hand, and pulled him back forcefully, and took another step forward himself. Only then did he get closer, enveloping Xie Feiyan completely under his shadow.

In the darkness, Shen Cijing's slightly drunken eyes sparkled, looking more and more like a coquettish big cat.

"You like me." Shen Cijing said happily, "I like you too."

Shen Cijing paused and said, "I want to kiss you, is that okay?"

At this moment, Xie Feiyan shouldn't be nervous, let alone be ashamed. After all, he has done everything he should do, so naturally he shouldn't be afraid to say it.But under Shen Cijing's wholehearted gaze, Xie Feiyan suddenly became very shy, and it was difficult for him to respond.

So Shen Cijing asked again: "Can I kiss you?"

"..."

"Can you?" Shen Cijing persevered.

Xie Feiyan finally became angry from embarrassment, and kicked Shen Cijing's calf: "Just do what you want, there are so many words."

Shen Cijing smiled slyly: "So you are also shy?"

Xie Feiyan frowned, and opened his mouth to scold him, but Shen Cijing had already gently removed his mask and leaned over to kiss him.

Under the shining starlight, all the embarrassment, cruel cunning, and clumsy sincerity all melted into this kiss.