deep trap

Even if we pay New Year's greetings, it is because normal people should walk around during the New Year and holidays, not because they are close from the heart.

Since high school, she has discovered that Ji Mingze's world view is different from that of other children, but she did not forcibly correct it, but chose to guide and protect.

Although she disapproved of many things he did.

For example, blocking that stone for Lu Can.

Ji Mingze pushed the door open and entered the office. Professor Chen was wearing glasses and was watering the pots of green plants on the window sill.It can be seen that the old man has been more relaxed recently, his body is a little plump, and his complexion is not bad.

After not seeing each other for a long time, the teacher and the student chatted about the current situation and Yuntu's latest scientific research progress, and turned to the wound while talking.

"The once-in-a-century winter is finally coming to an end, is your back feeling better?" Professor Chen asked.

Ji Mingze replied, "It's much better."

"I see that you have lost a lot of weight. Are you busy recently, or that kid named Lu is torturing you again."

Some time ago, Mr. Lu Can and Mr. Ji Mingze appeared in the Third Hospital respectively. It was obvious that their relationship was in crisis. It was difficult for Professor Chen to know.Ji Mingze paused, "It has nothing to do with him, it's my own choice."

What is "one's own choice", it is better to just say that you are willing to be tossed by others!

Professor Chen threw down the watering can, angrily saying, "I'm not saying you, Mingze, there is a limit to liking you. You have already paid enough for him, look at your current appearance——"

Speaking of this, the voice stopped abruptly, and Professor Chen suddenly stopped talking and looked behind Ji Mingze.

At the door of the office, a boy in a jacket stood there quietly, his eyes were confused, it seemed that he had been here for a while.

Ji Mingze also turned his head back, with a calm tone, "Have you finished talking about business? Come in. Teacher, this is Lu Can. Cancan, this is Professor Chen."

Lu Can walked to the center of the office as he said, without saying hello, but asked, "Professor Chen, you said just now that he paid a lot for me...what's the matter?"

Professor Chen has always had great opinions on Lu Can. In her heart, Lu Can is the culprit who caused her favorite student to be almost disabled. "It's nothing, it's just a lifetime of discomfort."

Lu Can was even more confused, and wanted to continue asking.He opened his mouth, and was interrupted by Ji Mingze frowning: "Teacher, as I said, that is my own choice."

"Okay, it's your own choice, I won't talk about it," Professor Chen also knew that he was a bit too much, "Have you eaten yet? The cafeteria made dumplings today. They taste good. Go and have a taste."

Professor Chen was afraid that he would not be able to control his emotions and would tell something that he should not tell, so he euphemistically issued an order to evict the guest.Ji Mingze took a step back and led Lu Can out of the office.

Lu Can was always in that dazed state on the road, and he slowed down a little after getting in the car, and grabbed Ji Mingze who was about to start the car, "Mr. Ji, what did Professor Chen mean just now? What did you pay for me?"

"She is my class teacher," Ji Mingze said, "I always missed my homework to visit you in the third year of high school, which made her very dissatisfied. She felt that you were affecting my studies."

"Then why did she say that you will suffer forever?"

"She couldn't accept that I like boys, and felt that I would be criticized and looked down upon." Ji Mingze looked into Lu Can's eyes, "Then I told her that it was my choice."

If an ordinary person is exposed to be gay, he will inevitably be judged by the people around him, not to mention the rapid development of Yuntu Aerospace.As the helm, Ji Mingze will receive more and more attention, and of course he will also face more and more scolding. It is normal for Professor Chen to be angry.

But for some reason, Lu Can always felt weird, but couldn't find out what was wrong.

Forget it, I just said yesterday that I have to give Ji Mingze time, I can't break my promise, if not, I can talk to Professor Chen someday.

After making up his mind, Lu Can no longer pursue Ji Mingze.

Ji Mingze took the opportunity to change the subject and asked what project he and Yaya were talking about.

"About public welfare," Lu Can said, "yaya wants to set up a public welfare association dedicated to serving orphanages, and regularly organize activities such as teaching and summer camps. The radiation area is relatively wide. If I participate, I may occasionally go to other places."

To be honest, Ji Mingze wished he could handcuff himself and Lu Can, so that he could stay under his nose forever.But he knew that he needed to give Lu Can some space, so he had to stipulate: "You can't walk too often, and each time can't be too long."

"Of course not, I'm also reluctant to leave you." Lu Can tugged at the corner of Ji Mingze's clothes.

Ji Mingze's face softened a little.

After spending two hours in the orphanage, it was already dinner time. Lu Can was afraid that Ji Mingze would be tired and didn't want him to cook, so he had an idea and asked Ji Mingze to stop at the street ahead.

There is a fusion restaurant in the small street. Ji Mingze praised its delicious food, so it can be packed and taken home, saving time and effort.

Ji Mingze stopped the car as promised, Lu Can jumped down with his mobile phone in his hand, and looked back when passing by the barbecue restaurant that was still under renovation, Ji Mingze also got out of the car, and was smoking not far away.

Smoking not only hurts the body but also affects sexual function, Lu Can thought, in the future, he must find a way to get Teacher Ji to quit smoking, and if he continues to smoke like this, what if he has lung problems?

He walked forward absent-mindedly while pondering, just about to get out of the range of the green network of the barbecue shop——

The wooden plank standing against the wall didn't stand upright, and it was caught off guard and fell down on him!

Everything happened in the blink of an eye, and Lu Can had no chance to run out again.Fortunately, the board is relatively thin, so it shouldn't be damaged. He stretched out his hand to protect his head.

In the next second, Ji Mingze rushed to his side at an extremely fast speed, and hugged him tightly in his arms!

In the early spring evening, the streets, barbecue shops, and fallen wooden boards.

In summer, there are mountain tops, dilapidated houses, mudslides, and collapsed stones.

The two figures quickly overlapped in front of his eyes, and Ji Mingze walked out of his memory, and in the same posture, he used his back to support Lu Can with a glimmer of light.

No wonder—no wonder—with a "buzz" in his head, Lu Can completely understood.

Chapter 59 Instinct For human beings, living is an instinct.For Ji Mingze, loving Lu Can is instinctive.

Lu Can suddenly remembered the accident.

Because of the heavy rain and the delay in rescue, his wound became infected, and it was three days after he woke up from a coma.

When I opened my eyes, my father's assistant was guarding the hospital bed. At the same time, Duan Yuyang was also there. Except for some abrasions on his arms and face, he was not injured anywhere else.

At that time, Lu Can was very puzzled. If such a big stone hits his body, even if it can't break the bones, it should leave some skin trauma.

But after all, he was his own savior, especially when Duan Yuyang held his scarlet eyes and said affectionately to him: "Xiao Can, please don't thank me, the blocking stone is nothing, I can give you my life" , He felt deeply ashamed for his suspicion of Duan Yuyang's behavior.On the day she was discharged from the hospital, she agreed to Duan Yuyang's confession.

Thinking about it now, I was such an idiot back then.

Seeing that the plank hit someone, the decorator hurried out of the house to apologize.Lu Can looked around and found that Ji Mingze was not injured. He didn't care about the decorator, so he pulled Ji Mingze into the car and stepped on the accelerator to go home.

When he opened the door and entered the room, he pushed Ji Mingze onto the sofa without taking off his shoes.

"...Lu Can," Ji Mingze sat up straight and stabilized his body, "what's wrong?"

"Ji Mingze, I'm an idiot, are you also an idiot?" Lu Can's voice trembled uncontrollably, with his hands resting on the back of the sofa and on both sides of Ji Mingze's body, "Why are you standing up on your own, why didn't you tell me?"

Ji Mingze had an ominous premonition, "What are you talking about?"

"Stop fucking pretending!"

Lu Can wanted to scold liars, sickness, and water in his head, and wanted to scold all the dirtiest words in the world to vent his resentment, grievance, and dissatisfaction that he had kept in the dark for so many years.But when the words came to his lips, he was reluctant to vent to Ji Mingze.

In the end there was only one "Fuck."

"Fuck..." Lu Can ripped off his clothes one by one while cursing, until it almost turned into a tear, and he tore out several cuts on the good quality cotton T-shirt.

With the sound of "Zi La", his upper body was completely naked, and he knelt on the sides of Ji Mingze's legs. He stretched out his hands involuntarily and regardless of obstructions to the scar that Ji Mingze had been preventing him from seeing.

The moment he touched the scar, Lu Can's soul began to tremble with pain, "Mr. Ji...Mr. Ji...don't lie to me...if you lie to me again, I'm going to die... ..."

He hugged Ji Mingze tightly, and pressed his forehead against Ji Mingze's forehead. After a few seconds, Ji Mingze felt salty, wet and warm liquid flow onto his face.

"Tick", "tick".

"Mr. Ji..." Lu Can was so choked up that he couldn't speak, "Don't lie to me."

......

After tossing from the living room to the bedroom, from the bedroom to the bathroom, and from the bathroom back to the living room, when Lu Can finally stopped crying and became quiet, it was almost two o'clock in the morning, and it was dark outside.

He lay on his side on the carpet, nestled in Ji Mingze's arms, his voice hoarse: "I'm so hungry."

Ji Mingze couldn't tell how he felt now, since Lu Can shed the first tear, he knew that the last secret had been lost, so he kissed the top of his head with a complicated expression, "What do you want to eat? I'll get it."

"Hmm... want to eat instant noodles, hot and sour, with two poached eggs and more coriander."

There are quite a lot of requests, Ji Mingze patted his forearm, "Let go."

Lu Can had no choice but to let go of Ji Mingze reluctantly, blinking his eyes, staring straight at Ji Mingze putting on his pants and going into the kitchen naked.

It turned out that the scar was so long, he couldn't help recalling the feeling when he kissed it just now, 87 stitches, like a road sliding into the abyss, beyond redemption.

Indeed, it's not good for Ji Mingze to like anyone, but he just likes him, so it's a bit of a disaster, right?

Lu Can laughed at himself.

Lie down on the carpet and count the time second by second, and when you start thinking about Ji Mingze, the second hand goes by 120 seconds, 2 minutes.

Lu Can couldn't bear it any longer, turned over and slowly got up while supporting his waist. Originally, he wanted to put on his underwear to find Ji Mingze, but as soon as he stood up straight, he felt uncomfortable all over because of the sticky feeling.

At the end of the first time, Ji Mingze took him to the bathroom to clean up, who knew that while cleaning up, he filled the bathtub with a lot of water, and his stomach was bulging.

The current mess is all thanks to that incident, Lu Can blushed and ran into the bathroom, and washed it a little.When he put on his T-shirt and went out, Ji Mingze had already cooked the noodles and was about to put coriander in them.

Lu Can hugged Ji Mingze's neck from behind, and jumped onto his back, "My legs are sore, I don't want to stand, so carry me on my back."

Ji Mingze hooked his bare knees as he said, "Why don't you wear a pair of pants?"

"It takes a long time to put on pants, I can't wait," Lu Can said, "I miss you."

Ji Mingze couldn't laugh or cry: "I've only been in the kitchen for less than 10 minutes."

"That's not okay, I just want to see you."

"Okay, you see now."

Ji Mingze walked to the refrigerator with him on his back, "Open the door of the refrigerator and pick some tender cilantro."

How can Lu Can tell which coriander is tender and which is not?One hand hugged Ji Mingze to maintain balance, and the other hand pulled out a few larger leaves and more beautiful shapes with the other hand, "Here, the coriander flowers I gave you, look good."

"Just say you miss me, and finally give this?"

Lu Can then turned Ji Mingze's head and kissed him on the lips, "Change to this?"

"Not enough." Ji Mingze said.

Lu Can's bare feet rubbed forward along Ji Mingze's waistline, staying between his waist and crotch, "How about this?"

Ji Mingze glanced at Lu Can, "Don't you want to eat?"

"Think about it... I was wrong!" Lu Can hurriedly withdrew his feet and obediently fell behind Ji Mingze - he didn't want to appear on the social news section tomorrow - a young man surnamed Lu died of horse wind or something.

Instant noodles are the best gift in the middle of the night. Drink the hot soup with green vegetables, and bite off half of the soft-boiled egg at the end. All the fatigue will disappear completely.

After eating, Lu Can was still not sleepy. Ji Mingze was sitting on the bay window. He leaned on Ji Mingze's thigh, looked at the crooked moon outside, and suddenly asked, "Mr. Ji, what were you thinking about when you were in the most pain?"

Thinking what?

At that time, Ji Mingze was also confused - he didn't know that he liked Lu Can before blocking the stone for Lu Can.

"Thinking about the definition of emotion."

"Then do you think it's worth it? In order to save me from being disqualified from going to the military academy, I can't be a pilot like your father." Speaking of this, Lu Can's heart began to throb, "Is it worth it?"

"Who said that only pilots can fly, this question is meaningless," Ji Mingze snorted, "Yuntu's products can fly higher and farther."

His tone was calm, as if he was describing an ordinary matter rather than a major scientific research achievement.Lu Can raised his head and looked at his lover under the moonlight. For a moment, he even saw Ji Mingze's back growing wings, flying and flying to a very high and far place.

"And," Ji Mingze paused, "As long as it's related to you, I never consider whether it's worth it or not, it's all out of instinct."

Instinctively paying attention and approaching again and again, rushing out again and again to save him.

For humans, living is instinct.For Ji Mingze, loving Lu Can is instinctive.

Lu Can wanted to cry again, he propped up his upper body, stared at Ji Mingze seriously, "I love you."

"Ah."

"It's love, love that is many, many times more than liking."

"I see," Ji Mingze said, "Thank you."

Ji Mingze doesn't know how to talk about love, or in other words, he doesn't know what love is.He has received too little love since he was a child. If people are described as machines, his raw materials are so poor that they can only produce a little emotion, and all of that emotion is given to Lu Can.

Lu Can didn't mind whether he responded or not, and secretly thought, thank you, I will love you more in the future, can you thank me!

"Then will you regret it? After the passion passes." Lu Can turned over and continued to ask.

"I have a little regret." Ji Mingze said.

No way, it's only been a long time since we've been together and I regret it. Are those comments on the Internet that "scumbags don't cherish it when they get it" all true?Lu Can raised his ears vigilantly, like a small animal who is afraid that the food in his nest will be taken away.

"I've been hiding it for so many years," Ji Mingze smiled wryly, "I messed it up with my own hands."

So that's the case... Lu Can's heart fell back into his stomach, "Are you afraid that I will be with you out of gratitude? It's the same for Duan Yuyang, but for you..."

He repeated, "I love you."

Ji Mingze: "Yes."

It was very quiet outside the window, and Lu Can felt that he talked a lot tonight, as if he wanted to finish the ten years he had missed.

He took Ji Mingze's palm and placed it under his left face in an extremely dependent gesture, "Mr. Ji, I want to change houses."

"Tell me what you want to change."

"Golden house, use it to hide your beauty."

Ji Mingze pretended not to hear, apparently not planning to argue.

"Okay, okay, you're not Jiao," Lu Can looked at him with a smile, her eyes sparkling, "I want to change to the first floor, but it should be a little bit off. Don't be in the city center, the city center is too noisy."

"The new house needs a big yard. There are two cherry trees planted in the yard and a puppy. In summer we sit under the cherry trees and watch the stars, and in winter we can build snowmen together... Oh yes, I also need a boxing room When we have conflicts, don’t move your mouth like ordinary people, just go in and fight, whoever wins, listen to whoever wins, and talk with your fists.”

It's hard to understand his request: "Are you sure you want to fight?"

"I think you can't bear to hit me."

"Yes, I am reluctant to hit you, but I am willing to fuck you."

...Damn it...this man is actually talking dirty! ! !Lu Can's eyes widened, shyness in shock, fear in shyness, and a little eagerness to move in fear.

Teacher Ji's way of whispering nasty words is really charming, and he's fucking Shi Geng again.

But the pain in his back was like a broken one. For the sake of sustainable development, Lu Can decided to endure it a little bit.

He changed the subject and continued to imagine his new house: "The house should preferably be two floors. There is a big kitchen on the first floor. I will peel potatoes and beat eggs next to you while you are cooking. Leave a room on the second floor for you to use as a study. One can be used as a recreation room for me, and if you ask Xiao Mao and the others to come and play, it won't disturb your work...the rest seems to be nothing."

"Mr. Ji, are you satisfied with my arrangement?"

Ji Mingze gave a "tsk" sound, then smiled and said, "The requirements are so high."

"Actually, I can lower the requirements."

"How low?"

Lu Can said: "A floor is barely enough."

"What if you can't find it yet?"

"Then I will lower it."

"How low is the lowest?"

"It's fine with you." Lu Can said.

Sparse shadows slanted, they kissed under the witness of stars all over the sky.