I'm friends with straight guys

I wanted to break up with Lu Yibai, but he didn't even tell me that he had a girlfriend. I tightly held the business card in my hand, thinking about what that woman named Jiang Yicheng said just now, and instantly fell to the bottom.

YICHENG Entertainment, no one knows the name of Lu Yibai's company, I looked at the business card.

It's black, in line with his usual style. On the upper left corner of the business card is a company logo, YICHENGYULE. I don't know who designed it, but it looks very comfortable.

In the middle is a YC logo, and the lower right corner is naturally his name - Lu Yibai. To the left of these three words, there is a small head portrait and a string of English letters of Lu Yibai.

In addition to black, the whole has some light-sensitive blue.

All in all, it is high-end and elegant, simple and low-key but contains connotations.

Jiang Yicheng, is it so important?

Sure enough, I always knew that he was a straight man, but when one day he really had a companion, I would actually feel a little pain in my heart.

After struggling for so long, from the first time I saw him in freshman year, is this unspoken secret love coming to an end?

I'm not reconciled, but I can't help it. He's a straight man, so he's tried so many times, and hinted so many times, if he's a straight guy, he should have...

Or in other words, even if he is worth it, even if there is a slight possibility of being bent, he should have surrendered to me in the past few years. If he is not bent, he is not bent.

I decided that from now on I would walk on the road of being a straight man, and I could no longer be a gay man.

Isn't it just to become a straight man, who can't do it anymore, I never said that he was born curvy.

From now on, I have decided to stay away from Lu Yibai and cherish life.

Smelling the faint smell of green grass in the air, my wounded heart seemed to be healed a lot. I knew that the five-year relationship could be wiped away.

But I must start now, and I must make up my mind to stay farther than him and keep a distance from him.

The more I saw his face, the more I couldn't calm down. For so many days, I felt that I was avoiding him.

"Good boy, I think something is wrong with you recently." Lu Yibai blocked me in the stairwell, with his hands on my sides, this posture looks like a wall.

No, I didn't, I was just a little scared.

In the end, I was stuck in it alone, and you married a wife and had children and lived happily ever after.

Thinking of this, I even became depressed.

"Look into my eyes and tell me why, did I do something wrong?" Lu Yibai's voice was impatient, and I knew it was a sign of his irritability.

"Don't force me, okay?" Why do you look like this, don't you already have someone you like, and I don't care.

There is a saying that brothers are like brothers and women are like clothes. I have seen people who go out without hands and feet, but I have never seen people who go out without clothes, unless they are crazy.

I slid down and squatted on the ground. This decision seemed to take all the strength out of my body. I never wanted to see him again, because I was afraid that all my defenses would collapse as soon as I saw him.

Lu Yibai is very good, I admit that maybe I really don't deserve him, and I have no reason to ask a straight man to like me in order to maintain our friendship.

A person like him should marry a girl who is like the proud son of heaven, and then have a child to live happily together.

For someone like me who wants acting skills but no acting skills, looks but doesn't have good looks, doesn't make progress in what he does, how can he ask for him if he looks like a fool?

He and I were not from the same world from the very beginning, I should have known.

I escaped and locked the door when I got home. I didn't even eat dinner, and sat on the cold floor by the bed, with my head resting on the bed.

I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I'm thinking, I just feel that my body is very comfortable in this empty state.

Do nothing, don't think about anything, don't think about things that make you sad, it seems that the air has become a little fresher.

It was night, icy cold and frightening, even the only colored moon in the sky was so white, so white and desolate.

I wonder what would happen if I got a little crazy...

Since there is no way to be with him anymore, and there is no way to continue to be friends with him calmly, I think it's time for me to fight for my sake these few years.

"If you are rejected, you will be rejected. There is nothing to be afraid of."

"It's really just this time." My chest was tight like a stone, with a little tension and excitement, "I swear, if you reject me, I will definitely stay away from you after this time."

Of course I know how homophobic he is, I still remember that time when Jiang Sheng and...

After Lu Yibai found out about the two of them, they immediately severed their relationship. They couldn't even be friends, let alone good buddies.

"No, I still don't dare." I stood at the door and paced.

Isn't this what the saying goes, alcohol is strong and cowardly, I'm sure I can do it, one drink has no effect, and the second one is still the same.

"Could it be that I drink too much?" After drinking a whole bottle, I no longer knew the direction of east, west, north, south, and I was dizzy.

I happened to be opposite his house, and I knew the password of his house, so I entered his house as I should, and then sat on the sofa in the living room and waited for him.

At this moment, in the evening, there seems to be a fire-like cloud by the window. The color is so bright and flamboyant, it has become my favorite color, just like Lu Yibai.

Thinking about it, I actually fell asleep. At night, I drank a lot of wine so I was thirsty. I often come to Lu Yibai's house and I already know the furnishings of his house. Just as I was holding a glass of water, I just drank it, and then I heard There was a "click" sound.

I put down the cup and rushed over, hanging on him in a bear hug posture.

"Good boy?" Lu Yibai frowned, why is there such a strong smell of alcohol, "Good boy, you are sober, have you been drinking?"

"You're drunk, get a good night's sleep." Said that Lu Yibai had already got up, and he planned to leave.

No, no, no, how can I make him escape after all my painstaking efforts? I just got up and hugged him and kissed him.

Lu Yibai and I were both stiff, and we were in a stalemate on the bed for a minute.

"Good boy..." I could clearly see the disgust in those eyes.

I got up and pushed him down on the bed, sat on his waist, in other words, seduced him with all my strength.

"Good boy, are you crazy?" There was a tinge of scarlet in his eyes, how could I not see his obvious refusal, but if there is no way to spend a good night with him now, what is the secret love for so many years? Well, I want to draw a perfect ending to it.

I leaned down and kissed the lips that I had been coveting for a long time. To my surprise, he didn't resist. My hand stretched in from his shirt. It was a different kind of touch, not when I usually take a bath. It means rubbing his back.

"Hey boy, don't..." His voice was hoarse, and he was clearly as emotional as me.

He pushed me away and walked straight to the door, not even wanting to take another look at me.

......

"My head hurts." A night of hangover gave me a splitting headache. I struggled to stand up, and then looked around. I was at his house.

After getting drunk yesterday, intermittent images flashed in my mind.

No, no, I don't have time to think about it, if I wait for him to come back...

Before I came here yesterday, I had already packed my luggage before drinking, so I didn’t have anything to bring, just some clothes and commonly used documents.

"Lu Yibai, goodbye." Sitting in the taxi and looking at the apartment that was getting farther and farther away, I silently said in my heart...

"Dinglingling..." It was Lu Yibai's call, I pressed the left and right buttons to hang up, and there were some ugly words, what's the difference between listening and not listening?

However, he persevered and called more than [-] times in a row. When the driver looked at me suspiciously, I decided it would be better to answer.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

"You moved?" Lu Yibai's voice was on the verge of fury, and I could hear it like a dormant beast.

"Ah."

"So what happened yesterday should be treated as if it never happened, and you won't explain it to me?" With a slightly raised tone, it didn't sound like caring, but more like torture.

Even if I didn't see his face, I also know what kind of expression he looks like now, he must be blowing his beard and staring, but his face is also very beautiful when he is blowing his beard and staring.

"I'm busy, I'll get back to you later." Without waiting for his reply, I hung up the phone directly.

Looking through the car windows seemed to let the dreary air flow a bit more. Looking at the colorful light and blue sky outside the window, I didn't know what to do.

After all, it was my unrequited love that failed, no wonder anyone, until now, I still remember when I first met him...