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"Brother Xu, Brother Xu, Brother Xu, Brother Xu!"

"Okay. Tired?"

"A bit."

"Have a good rest, you will be going to work the day after tomorrow."

"Oh, I really don't want to go to work. I'm so tired."

"Then don't go to work, I will support you."

"I'm a gold swallowing beast, so you have to work a few jobs to afford it."

"Forget it, let's throw you away!"

"Hey! You are not sweet at all."

Qiao An and Cheng Xu chatted for half an hour before hanging up the phone, and fell asleep after a while.

The next day the group was extremely quiet, and no one bubbled up until three or four in the afternoon.

"Hidden fishing at night!"

After dinner, Fatty Zhang's girlfriend came, but Zhang Yuan didn't come.

"Why didn't brother Yuan come?"

Chen Shan: "He said he has something to deal with."

Qiao An went to the company the next day and did not see Zhang Yuan at his work station.However, he had just returned from the National Day holiday, and there was a lot of work to deal with, so Qiao An only sent a message to Zhang Yuan and didn't care about it.

Qiao An didn't see Zhang Yuan until lunch.

"Brother Yuan, where did you go this morning?"

"Are you eating?"

"Well, good." Joan knew it must be no small matter.

The two still went to the same shop before.Qiao An has been waiting for Zhang Yuan to speak.

"I quit."

"Ah? Why?"

"I'm going to take the postgraduate entrance examination. I always wanted to study finance, but I didn't know much during the college entrance examination. It was very easy to choose a major. Later, I thought this major was also good. But recently I discovered a truth, so I don't want to do this. "

"Is it that kind of poisonous chicken soup? Brother Yuan, I think it's a bit late to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination, and you still have to take the inter-professional examination. I think many of them are taking the postgraduate entrance examination while working."

Zhang Yuan smiled: "Our work doesn't even have enough rest, how can we take the postgraduate entrance examination?"

"That's true. Brother Yuan, why did you make such a decision?"

"Hmm..." Zhang Yuan smiled, "Because of you."

"Ah? You wouldn't make such a decision because of me. I'm the one who dares not take risks."

"I lied to you. I suddenly found that I have to pursue what I like, or I will miss it. I don't want to regret it again."

"Huh?" Qiao An originally wanted to ask Zhang Yuan what he missed, but it seemed that he didn't want to discuss it anymore.

"Then go ahead and take the test, I think you will be able to do it."

"Believe me that much?"

Qiao An nodded wildly: "Yes. Brother Yuan is very powerful."

Zhang Yuan smiled: "Thank you."

Qiao An didn't know what Zhang Yuan thanked him for, in short, he agreed with Zhang Yuan's approach, but if it was on him, he would not make such a decision.

In the days without Zhang Yuan, Qiao An felt more and more boring and difficult at work.Qiao An is seldom happy, not even Cheng Xu gave him a video.

Cheng Xu is also very busy every day, and he can only spare half an hour a day to make video calls with Qiao An, and spend most of the time listening to Qiao An complaining.Cheng Xu asked Qiao An to change to a less tiring job many times, but Qiao An was unwilling.

During the night video, Qiao An mentioned Zhang Yuan again. Cheng Xu knew that Qiao An was unintentional, but it was difficult to control when Qiao An mentioned others.

"Are you so inseparable from Zhang Yuan?"

Qiao An was a little stunned, as if he didn't expect Cheng Xu to say that.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have told you this."

It was only then that Qiao An realized that he had treated Cheng Xu as a trash can for a long time, and he was casually pushing negative emotions to Cheng Xu every day.He wasn't like this before.

"Brother Xu, I'm sorry, I know you're tired too. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have conveyed my emotions to you."

After Qiao An finished speaking, he hung up the phone. He didn't want Cheng Xu to see him crying, but he couldn't help it anymore.He was not like this before, but it seems that he likes to cry in front of Cheng Xu, but he doesn't like this appearance.

After Qiao An hung up the video, Cheng Xu called many times, but Qiao An didn't answer.He didn't want Cheng Xu to see this side of him, the person in front of Cheng Xu should be Qiao An who was smiling happily.

The next day, Qiao An took a day off, and his boss clearly told him that the attendance award for this month was gone.

Joan didn't wake up until after nine o'clock, and then went to the supermarket.This is the first time I went to the supermarket this month.Joan bought a lot of vegetables and some snacks.

Joan cooked a lot of dishes according to the recipe.It was around one o'clock in the afternoon that Joan finished the meal.

Joan made a comparison to the camera, with a whole table of food in the background.Qiao An sent the photo to Cheng Xu.

"Brother Xu, don't worry about me, I'm fine. Also, I love you."

Cheng Xu was a little worried about Qiao An's condition when he saw the message from Qiao An.All day long he regretted what he said last night.Qiao An's current state of reporting good news but not bad news made him even more worried.

"Yeah. Be happy."

Both avoided talking about what happened last night.

After eating, Joan called her parents and talked a lot, but Joan had already made a decision.

Qiao An seriously considered this matter when Zhang Yuan left the company, but he finally gave up.

It was the incident between him and Cheng Xu last night that made him realize that his state during this time was very wrong.Moreover, he didn't want Cheng Xu to be his trash can all the time, comforting him forever.

At night, Qiao An was lying on the bed listening to music, and Cheng Xu sent him a video call.Joan tuned down the song and picked up the video.

"Brother Xu!"

Cheng Xu looked at Qiao An like this, so there was nothing wrong with him.

"Is today's work exhausting?"

"I asked for leave today and didn't go to work."

"Well, it's good to take a break. Working overtime all day is not good for your health. I don't want you to be bald the next time I see you."

"It's not good!"

"An'an, I shouldn't have said that last night, it's just that I don't like you talking about others when you chat with me."

Joan nodded: "Yeah, I know."

"Also, if you have anything to tell me directly, I will always be with you."

"Well, I miss you so much..." Qiao An said so softly that Cheng Xu thought that Qiao An had fallen asleep and was talking in his sleep.

"How about I come to see you this weekend?"

Joan shook her head: "I'm so tired. I'll come and find you!"

"Do you not work overtime on weekends?"

"You are also drawing manuscripts on weekends, it's all the same. It's agreed, you come to pick me up, and I want to see your studio too."

"Okay, I'll pick you up when you arrive."

The next day, Qiao An went to the company with the letter of resignation. Before leaving, his colleagues gave him a box of biscuits to celebrate his escape from the sea of ​​misery.

Joan posted a sentence in the dormitory group: "I resigned."

It happened to be a recess, and several other people sent congratulations.

"I said earlier that your company is too tiring."

Joan: "It has nothing to do with whether you are tired or not. The main reason is that every night I think about why I work so hard and are not happy."

Fatty Zhang: "For salary."

Joan: "It's good to be able to support myself."

Hu Tianyu: "Then where are you going to work in the future? It should be difficult to find a job after you resign."

Qiao An: "Go home. I figured it out, at least I like that place the most now, maybe I'll discover other preferences in the future. Also, don't tell Cheng Xu about this."

Chen Shan: "What's the matter with you?"

Joan: "It's nothing, I just don't want him to see me like this. I let him fight, but I can't fight anymore."

Hu Tianyu: "It's a bit hypocritical. Your logic..."

Chen Shan: "Shut up!"

Joan: "Because I like the way he works hard. He will become an excellent designer one day, and I don't want him to give up because of me. If one day he feels tired and doesn't want to work hard, I will also be there Then wait for him."

Fatty Zhang: "So what if you tell him? He will know sooner or later. And if he really cares about his ideals so much, he won't give up because of where you are."

"I want him to feel like he and I are chasing dreams. And I'm also afraid... that he won't like me the way I am."

In the final analysis, it was because Joan had seen too many hardworking people, and he was always being a salty fish, so he would always unconsciously develop a kind of inferiority complex.But he hid his inferiority very deeply.He remembered that Cheng Xu once said that his hometown was not suitable for young people, and he was afraid that Cheng Xu would not like him who did not seek to lie down casually.

Qiao An actually had a lot of things to bring home, but after thinking about it, he didn't miss anything. His parents were not here, so he brought a small suitcase.

Qiao An went to Shenzhen to find Cheng Xu first.Cheng Xu also had drawings on weekends, but he picked up Qiao An at the airport early in the morning.

The moment Qiao An saw Cheng Xu, his emotions suddenly surged. He felt that he hadn't seen Cheng Xu for a long time.Now the Cheng Xu he saw could be touched, and he would habitually touch his head.

Qiao An hugged Cheng Xu for a long time and was reluctant to let go.

"Okay, everyone is gone, let's go to the hotel first."

Because Cheng Xu had another roommate, Qiao An booked another hotel, anyway, he only stayed for one night.

As soon as he arrived at the hotel, Cheng Xu immediately blocked Qiao An's mouth.Cheng Xu was wantonly venting his longing, and Qiao An also tried his best to respond.

"Brother Xu, I miss you so much, I miss you so much, I miss you so much..."

"Me too."

In the afternoon, Cheng Xu took Qiao An to the studio where he worked.In fact, it is a very large design company that has taken over many well-known brands.

"This is a logo I designed for a company."

"Yeah. Your designs are all good."

"But it was not adopted in the end."

"Come on." Qiao An couldn't think of any comforting words for a while, so he simply said something extremely perfunctory, which made Cheng Xu laugh.

"How can you be so comforting?"

"Then wait for me to organize a few words. Soon."

"Forget it. My brother will take you to another place."

"Okay, brother!"

There is a strong artistic atmosphere in the company, not because of the use of a lot of impractical but expensive decorations, but because there are many men and women with ponytails and oily hair sitting in front of the computer, Qiao An and the others pass by and no one pays attention.

Joan felt that the boss must be very relieved of these employees.

"Is this always the case for you?"

"Designing is often done without forgetting what's around you. But it's also nice to be completely absorbed in it."

Cheng Xu took Qiao An to an exhibition hall, where there were various design drafts and some models, and some models were displayed as 3D models on the screen without entities.

"Here are some sketches and rough models from the studio."

"These are so cool."

"Yes, a lot of it is conceptual stuff, but it's enough for me to learn for a long time."

"Suddenly think your job is so cool!"

"You just see the same and love the same."

Qiao An felt that what Cheng Xu said was not entirely correct, so she whispered to Cheng Xu, "That's not the case, I only love you."

Cheng Xu suddenly didn't know what to say, but he just felt that Qiao An had improved and would still say such things.

For dinner, Cheng Xu took Qiao An to a very remote shop, and the business there was actually pretty good.

"Okay, Brother Xu, I found this kind of shop not long after I came here. Be honest and tell me who brought you here!"

"I've grown. My roommate brought me here. He's a local."

"You still eat with other men!"

"I'll take you to the dormitory after dinner, okay?"

"Forget it, it's embarrassing!"

As soon as Qiao An finished speaking, he saw someone behind Cheng Xu walking towards them.

"Cheng Xu, are you here too? I thought you wouldn't come today, so I didn't call you. Is this your boyfriend?"

After the man finished speaking, he sat directly next to Cheng Xu. Qiao An looked at Cheng Xu, and then at the person next to Cheng Xu, feeling a little embarrassed.

"His name is Li Yuanxuan, my roommate."

"Hi, my name is Joan."

"Qiao An, right? I've heard from Cheng Xu a long time ago that she is really cute. According to Cheng Xu, she is still a top student, right? To be honest, the two of you are quite pleasing to the eye when you look at it from a distance."

"Li Yuanxuan, don't make such embarrassing things!"

"OK, OK. An'an, this is my WeChat. If you can't find Cheng Xu in the future, you can find me."

Before Cheng Xu could make a move, Li Yuanxuan stopped in time.

Joan sighed, "You two have a pretty good relationship..."

Li Yuanxuan put one hand on Cheng Xu's shoulder: "A half-brother!"

"Brother Xu has a brother... very handsome..." Qiao An added, "Married."

"It's boring! Cheng Xu, where are you going after dinner?"

"Take An An for a walk."

"An'an, do you want to play with your brother Li?"

Qiao An shook her head: "No, I want Brother Xu."

Brother Li quickly finished his meal and slipped away by himself, without disturbing the two of them's alone time.

"Your roommate is quite interesting."

"Didn't you still eat his jealousy just now?"

"But it's his words...you don't have to mind if it's his words." Qiao An wanted to say that if it was Li Yuanxuan, Cheng Xu would not be able to do the above, but he also felt that Cheng Xu would feel that he understood something extraordinary.He wasn't ready to do anything with Cheng Xu.

"Going to the beach tonight?"

"Is there a barbecue?"

"have it."

"Then go."

"Isn't it too late to eat barbecue after eating?"

"Walking on the beach makes me hungry, just like walking after dinner before."

"So you were hungry from your walk?"

"The point is not that. The point is, do you think it's romantic to take a walk together after dinner?"

"Huh? An An, when did you become enlightened?"

"Idiot...I...I've already figured it out...otherwise how could I...like you..."

"Is that so? Then say 'Brother, I love you so much'."

"You like to play this kind of game, don't you?" As he said that he wanted to punish Cheng Xu, Cheng Xu ran away quickly. Qiao An couldn't catch up, but Cheng Xu was always a little bit ahead.

Qiao An was a little tired, and when he turned around, he found Cheng Xu in front of him and brought him a bottle of water.

Qiao An took a sip of the water and threw the bottle at Cheng Xu: "Crazy!"

After talking about it, I was happy.

"Yeah, both of us are crazy." Then he laughed with Joan.

Qiao An discovered a benefit of the mask. Although the mask was uncomfortable most of the time, Cheng Xu and he could hold hands and walk on the road openly and aboveboard while wearing the mask.No one will feel any difference.

The sea breeze is blowing a little cool, and at night, only sporadic ship lights and the faint light of the lighthouse in the distance can be seen on the sea.The seaside is full of seafood barbecues, because he was too lazy to take off his mask, Joan, who had just clamored to eat barbecue, stopped eating now.

"When I take off the mask, others will find out that I am a boy."

"So what?"

"But we can't ask everyone to agree with our sexuality, so there must be some people who don't like us."

"We can't ask everyone to agree with us, but we must first agree with ourselves. If it weren't for the danger of taking off your mask, I really want to take off your mask, then kiss you, and tell everyone that I love you, It's a boy."

"Well, you're right."

After speaking, Qiao An dragged Cheng Xu to run along the sidewalk by the sea.I ran for a long time, until the surrounding noises subsided, and there was only the sound of passing cars.

Qiao An pulled Cheng Xu to sit on the ladder. There were still a few passers-by on the sidewalk, but few of them would look down.

Qiao An took off the mask and said to Cheng Xu: "Kiss me! Tell the stars and the sea first."

Cheng Xu took off his mask and kissed Qiao An. Cheng Xu didn't let go of Qiao An until Qiao An was having difficulty breathing.

Qiao An hugged Cheng Xu and said, "I love you so much. We will always be together."

"Well. I love you too."

Qiao An went back to the hotel with Cheng Xu when he was tired from playing.Back at the hotel, Cheng Xu and Qiao An lay on the bed and chatted, before saying a few words, Qiao An fell asleep in Cheng Xu's arms.

Looking at Qiao An's sleeping face, Cheng Xu was inexplicably greedy, and kissed Qiao An's forehead involuntarily.

The next morning, when Qiao An woke up, Cheng Xu had already bought breakfast and put it on the table.

"Get more sleep! It's still early."

Joan shook her head and sobered up: "No, I won't be with you for long."

"Am I better than sleeping in your mind now?"

"It's already done! I just sleep a little too long."

At noon, Li Yuanxuan asked them to have dinner at home, so Cheng Xu took Qiao An to the house rented by their company.

What Qiao An didn't expect was that the house was quite big, and Cheng Xu's room could accommodate his easel and paints.

As Qiao An expected, Li Yuanxuan ordered a table of takeaway.

"Do you two live in this house?"

Li Yuanxuan: "Well. The benefits of the company are quite good, except that they always make people work overtime."

Qiao An couldn't help sighing: "How can there be a company that doesn't work overtime..."

After speaking, Li Yuanxuan glanced at Qiao An's hair and found that it was quite thick: "Shouldn't you programmers be bald?"

"I am still young."

"One of you is a programmer, and the other is Cheng Xu, you are really a perfect match."

Cheng Xu: "It was changed overnight for him."

Joan: "Thank you. It's a pity that I resigned overnight."

When Qiao An left, Li Yuanxuan was still telling him not to book a hotel when he came next time, he didn't mind.Joan was a little jealous at first, but after getting along with her these two days, she realized that some people are really straighter than a steel bar.Not even his roommates.

Cheng Xu finally sent Qiao An to the airport, but Qiao An didn't dare to pick up the ticket before Cheng Xu left. Originally, Cheng Xu wanted to help Qiao An with luggage, but Qiao An persuaded him to go back.

When Qiao An was flying to Chongqing on the plane, he was thinking about whether to tell Cheng Xu about it.In fact, in the eyes of everyone except him, what he does and where he works will not affect Cheng Xu's judgment on him, but he is a little afraid to speak up.He was the one who asked Cheng Xu to pursue his dream at the beginning, and he was also the one who gave up halfway in the end.Although it wasn't his dream, but...

After thinking about it for a long time, I didn't think of what to say, and I can't tell my parents about it. If it comes to the relationship between the two, Joan doesn't know how to lie.Now he rarely mentions Cheng Xu in front of his parents.If the person he likes wasn't Cheng Xu, he might have come out of the closet long ago, and Cheng Xu had the same reason.When he was with Xu Nuo, Cheng Xu was ready to take Xu Nuo home.

Both he and Cheng Xu seldom talked about their parents' problems, anyway, Qiao An felt that it would be a good day to keep it a secret.