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While Joan was playing with his mobile phone, a boy who looked about his age also entered the lounge and sat next to him.Judging by his age, he should be an employee of the studio, but Qiao An always felt that the boy in front of him looked familiar.

The boy greeted Qiao An: "Hello, my name is Xu Nuo. What's your name?"

"My name is Qiao An." Qiao An turned his head to see the face of the person next to him clearly, and he remembered that the person in front of him was the good-looking boy in Cheng Xu's camera.

Qiao An felt that Xu Nuo was the kind of person who said that he was easy to get close to: "Do you know Cheng Xu?"

Although the employees here should all know Cheng Xu, the people who can be in Cheng Xu's camera must be very familiar with Cheng Xu.

Xu Nuo paused for a moment, then smiled again and said, "I know."

"Then I didn't recognize the wrong person. I saw the photos he took of you in his camera."

Xu Nuo seemed a little unbelievable: "Didn't he delete my photo?"

Qiao An felt that he was a winking person, and from Xu Nuo's words, he analyzed that Cheng Xu must have had something with Xu Nuo before, and there was something unpleasant about it.

Qiao An's embarrassment happened again, he didn't seem to know how to answer Xu Nuo's question.In Qiao An's mind, he thought about who was the one who chatted to death between him and Xu Nuo.

Xu Nuo saw that Qiao An was silent at the side, thought that Qiao An was a little sad, so he comforted him: "I... and him are in the past. I knew yesterday that Cheng Xu brought a boy home, so I specially took advantage of Cheng Xu this morning. Didn't come to see you."

Qiao An suddenly remembered that the sister walking the dog she met last night was called Cheng Xu's ex, Xiao Nuo, and the person in front of her was Xu Nuo!

Qiao An didn't know how to describe his current mood, the mixed flavors were not enough to sum up.Mainly Cheng Xu...but there seems to be some...

"Are you Cheng Xu's ex?"

"Yeah." Although Qiao An didn't have much conversation with Xu Nuo, Xu Nuo gave him a good feeling, and he couldn't understand why the two of them broke up.

"Has Cheng Xu always liked boys?"

"Huh? Aren't you his boyfriend?"

Qiao An shook her head with a feeling: "I'm Cheng Xu's neighbor."

Xu Nuo really didn't expect Cheng Xu to be so stupid, and then apologized to Qiao An: "Sorry, I misunderstood. Cheng Xu rarely got close to other people before."

"Maybe it's because we've known each other for so many years!"

Xu Nuo didn't believe this sentence. If Qiao An had known Cheng Xu very early, he would have known.

In fact, Qiao An has always had a question in his mind: "If... If I ask how you two broke up, will it be offensive?"

Xu Nuo smiled: "You are so cute! This is very complicated, probably because one day I found out that my goals in life are different from his, but I really don't like the way he gave up his ideals for me."

Qiao An didn't understand: "But isn't two people being together to accommodate each other?"

Xu Nuo suddenly felt that Cheng Xu was not worthy of Qiao An's simplicity.

"Do you know that Cheng Xu has always wanted to be a designer? He is very talented, which is why I fell in love with him in the first place. In our senior year, the two of us started a company together. I thought it was us The two were chasing their dreams, and later I found out that I was the only one enjoying it. Cheng Xu stayed with me all the time and didn't say anything, but even if he didn't say anything, I could tell that he didn't like it."

"Then why don't you two work together?"

"Because if I don't let him go, he will always be there waiting for me."

Qiao An felt that Xu Nuo's logic was a bit strange, but he probably understood some meaning.

"So you broke up because you wanted him to pursue his dreams. But after the breakup, he went back to his hometown."

"I didn't expect him to make such a decision. So I came today to let him return to the company and let him manage the company's design department."

Qiao An has seen many strange tricks between young couples. It is probably that you abuse me and I abuse you. In the end, they are all injured and then heal together.His roommate Zhang Pang and his girlfriend always like to engage in this kind of drama.

"Then do you still love him?"

"I don't love. After too long, you will find that the old habits have been changed. Whoever he loves now is his freedom. I can't stop it and I have no right to interfere." When Xu Nuo said this, his tone was a little low Qiao An could see that Xu Nuo was not as open-minded as he said.

"But he..." Qiao An originally wanted to say that Cheng Xu still loved Xu Nuo, but he thought of all the things before, and Cheng Xu cared about it.But it's strange that Qiao An can't say that Cheng Xu still loves Xu Nuo.

Xu Nuo smiled wryly, and said to Qiao An: "It's impossible for me and him. I've known him for so many years, and I know him well."

"Have you been together since college?"

"Well, when I was a freshman, I saw that he was handsome, so I took the initiative to provoke him. I used to think that I was very lucky, as if I really met someone who can be with me for a lifetime. He is really a very good person. people."

"Yes, he's fine..." Joan always felt a little uncomfortable.He thought he was really bad, and he didn't want Cheng Xu to return to Xu Nuo's company.Joan hated this feeling very much, it seemed to be an inexplicable jealousy.

Xu Nuo also chatted with Qiao An about Cheng Xu, and he found that Xu Nuo and Cheng Xu really loved each other before.They fell in love so much that Cheng Xu wanted to take Xu Nuo home, but in the end the two broke up before taking Xu Nuo home.

Qiao An was sure that Cheng Xu's mother didn't know that Cheng Xu liked boys, which meant that Cheng Xu didn't actually want to come out, but Cheng Xu was willing to come out to his family for Xu Nuo.With a little movement of his fingers, he knew that Cheng Xu loved Xu Nuo very much, otherwise he wouldn't have given up everything because of the breakup and would go back to his hometown to heal his wounds.

At first, Cheng Xu told him jokingly that he went back to his hometown to heal his wounds, and he thought Cheng Xu was just joking, but now thinking about it, he suddenly feels very heartbroken.

Xu Nuo looked at the time and said goodbye to Qiao An.Joan sat alone in the lounge and digested all the things he had just heard. The more he thought about it, the more annoying he became, and finally he just lay down on the table to force himself not to think about it.

What annoyed him the most was that he would be emotionally affected by Cheng Xu's affairs. He felt that he had to keep a distance from Cheng Xu in the future. He must have had too much contact with Cheng Xu to be affected by this matter.

When Cheng Xu entered the meeting room, he saw Xu Nuo sitting inside, and Xu Nuo was the only one.

"Are you the only one here?"

"Well, I came here specifically to find you. I want you to return to Suye. The company is going to open a design department now, and I want you to be in charge."

Cheng Xu was helpless: "Can you manage the company well? Don't do these things anymore, I won't go back."

"I haven't looked for you since we broke up. You know that I didn't ask you to return to the company because I wanted to get back together."

"Yeah, do you know how unfeeling it is for you to ignore it?"

Xu Nuo didn't know how to answer, both of them were silent for a while.The conference room was very quiet, after a while Xu Nuo said softly, "Cheng Xu, I need your help?"

Cheng Xu knew that Xu Nuo had always used many tricks, and he didn't believe that Xu Nuo would need his help.

"You are always like this. When we first met, you also found various reasons."

"Axu, I really need your help. At first I thought you would go farther after the breakup, but I didn't expect to hurt you so much. The company has been doing better and better this year, but the new design I don’t have anyone I trust. The company is just getting off the ground and I don’t want to take any chances.”

"Please don't take risks? Xu Nuo, I'm not as good as you think. And I don't need you to pave the way for me to be a designer."

"Axu, you were not like this before."

"Sorry, Suye's order will be completed as soon as I accept it, but don't mention the matter of going back to the company."

"You still hate me?"

"I just don't want to hate you. Suye's logo needs to be handed over to the studio, and I will design it. Let's meet less in the future!" After speaking, Cheng Xu left without looking back.

Xu Nuo looked at Cheng Xu's back, and smiled, a little ugly, and they ended up like this.

Cheng Xu left the conference room, called the supervisor and went to the lounge to find Qiao An.

Joan was still slumped on the chair trying to figure out what was going on with him.

"I seem to be free today. I'll take you around here."

Qiao An raised her head and looked at Cheng Xu's gentle face, feeling very angry again.He thought he should slap himself a few times.

"Have you finished your work so soon?"

Cheng Xu nodded: "I'll come back after talking with the supervisor over there."

Qiao An knew who Cheng Xu's Party A was this time, but he didn't understand why Cheng Xu still didn't want to face it after so long.I probably also saw clearly the axis of Cheng Xu's character, but Qiao An would have some inexplicable emotions when he saw Cheng Xu's inability to let go.

Qiao An stood up and asked Cheng Xu: "Let's go, take me there."

Along the way, Qiao An stopped talking nonsense, and only asked Cheng Xu a question and he answered half a sentence.

Cheng Xu wanted to put his hand on Qiao An's shoulder as before, but Qiao An dodged it, and Cheng Xu's arm froze in mid-air.

"An'an, what's the matter with you today? Did something happen?"

Cheng Xu is always like this, he treats everyone very well.Qiao An felt that Cheng Xu and Xu Nuo really matched well, both of them were very good-looking, and they were both kind of warm people.

"It's okay. I just think I should go home earlier. I think I should go to the company earlier. Although the chance of not being able to stay is very small, I still need to pay attention."

Cheng Xu thought that Qiao An was worried about work, so he was not very happy, so he comforted him: "Actually, I don't think you need to be so anxious, you have been smart since you were young."

There are graffiti walls around the studio. Normally, Joan would run around in a novelty, but today Joan's attention was not on the walls on both sides at all.

"I painted this wall." Cheng Xu pointed to a wall and looked at Qiao An.

Qiao An seemed absent-minded, and only after hearing Cheng Xu's words did he pay a little attention to the graffiti wall in front of him.

"Well, it's very individual. Do you speak alone? It's quite powerful."

"And my ex."

Joan stayed where he was, not knowing what expression to use to respond, so he said casually, "You guys are pretty good."

"It's all in the past."

"But you still haven't forgotten him." And Cheng Xu even took him to see this graffiti wall.

"An experience is an experience, and it cannot be forgotten."

"But you didn't let it go." After speaking, Joan turned and walked forward, "This wall is really badly painted."

Qiao An stayed inexplicably like this for a whole day, and Cheng Xu found that Qiao An tried his best to avoid even physical contact with him, and his words became much less.

They didn't play for long, Joan thought it was too hot outside and went home.Even Qiao An didn't eat a few mouthfuls of the dinner made by Cheng Xu, and avoided Cheng Xu after the meal, and didn't want to go out to play as agreed.

Cheng Xu wanted to ask Qiao An what happened several times, but Qiao An cleverly changed the topic.

They were fine when they went to the studio in the morning, so Cheng Xu sent a WeChat message to a friend in the studio to ask what happened to Qiao An in the lounge today.

"Brother Cheng, I also heard that Xu Nuo went to see Qiao An. Everyone is wondering if something will happen. It is said that the two seem to have talked for a long time."

Cheng Xu finally figured out why Qiao An was wondering all day tomorrow.Joan must have known that he was gay, so he was trying to avoid him.No wonder he habitually touched Joan all day long, but Joan dodged it skillfully.

Cheng Xu gave a wry smile when he knew the truth, he never told the people around him that he was gay because he was afraid of something like this happening.Generally, when encountering such disgusting people, he will not blame him or blame him, but such people will not be in his friend list.But this person turned out to be Qiao An, he couldn't bear it.

In the middle of the night, Joan lay in the dark and couldn't fall asleep for a long time.Too bad it wasn't easy to toss and turn on the couch, but he was really anxious.

He also found that he was out of shape all day, and unconsciously wanted to avoid Cheng Xu.He found that he seemed to like Cheng Xu a little bit.He never thought that he would fall in love with someone because of getting along with him for more than ten days, and he was still a boy!

He summed up the reasons for his anxiety. There are two points.The first is that he fell in love with a boy.The second is that the person he likes is Cheng Xu, and he can't forget the other person.Cheng Xu is also a fucking romantic and affectionate person, and was willing to come out for Xu Nuo.

He refused Cheng Xu's contact because he was afraid. He was afraid that he really fell in love with a boy, and what was even more afraid was that the first time he liked someone, it would be doomed to fail.

Qiao An stayed up thinking about this issue, and Qiao An looked at the sky getting brighter and brighter outside, comforting himself that he was finally troubled by love and couldn't sleep all night.

The alarm clock interrupted Qiao An's thoughts, but he decided that it's better to keep a little distance from Cheng Xu in the future, lest he get deeper and deeper, and finally make it impossible for him and Cheng Xu to maintain their current relationship.

"Why do you want to fall in love with someone who loves others!" Qiao An has always found it difficult to fall in love with someone, and he has never experienced this kind of distress for a day in the past twenty years.I can no longer indulge in Cheng Xu's gentle hometown.

Joan quickly packed her schoolbag after getting up and washing up.Cheng Xu also got up and prepared to send Qiao An off.

"You can sleep a little longer, I have called a car. The car will be here soon."

Cheng Xu watched Qiao An as he was carrying his bag and was about to leave, but he didn't stop him in the end.

"Well, pay attention to safety on the road."

Qiao An didn't dare to turn his head back. The moment he walked out the door, he really wanted to turn his head and hug Cheng Xu, but he managed to be rational in the end.

And... Cheng Xu didn't stop him.Perhaps in Cheng Xu's heart, he is not very important, after all, Cheng Xu doesn't seem to have any feelings of reluctance.

Joan watched the floor getting lower and lower in the elevator, and suddenly felt aggrieved.Why he fell in love with Cheng Xu, Cheng Xu loves Xu Nuo so much, he is like a clown, no one knows yet.

Joan’s eyes were red in the taxi. The key driver didn’t notice Joan’s appearance at all. He was still chatting with Joan about the food and attractions in Chongqing along the way. Joan didn’t eat either. He only went to one place. Act as a model for Cheng Xu.

In fact, the plane is not very early, it's just that Qiao An wants to leave Cheng Xu's house early.When Joan arrived at the airport, there were not many people in the airport.Joan found the singing bar in the airport and hid in, tears falling uncontrollably.The grievances accumulated throughout the morning finally vented.

Qiao An called her roommate Chen Shan.It took a long time for the phone to answer, and Chen Shan's voice was still hazy.

"An'an, what's the matter? Call so early in the morning."

Chen Shan heard the indistinct crying that day on the phone, and his voice became clearer: "What's wrong with An'an? Don't cry. What happened?"

"I like someone, but he doesn't like me."

"Huh? Who do you like? What if he likes you but you don't know?"

"Cheng Xu."

"That handsome neighbor of yours? Anan, you..." Chen Shan originally wanted to ask Qiao An when he started liking boys, but he thought it was not a good time to ask.

"I don't know why I like him. But when I think about him and his ex, I feel sad. I think it should be like."

"So is Cheng Xu's ex a man or a woman?"

"male."

"Is he gay?"

"I didn't know it before, but yesterday I saw his ex-boyfriend, who is very handsome...and excellent."

"An'an, you are also very good. Don't go to college and lose your confidence. But according to you, isn't your handsome neighbor single?"

"He is single, but he still loves his ex-boyfriend. As far as I know his character, he must still love his ex."

"An'an, if he still loves his ex, I suggest you let it go. If you are so good, you will find a more suitable one. If you like boys... I know a few, and I can introduce them to you. "

"That's different!" Qiao An couldn't explain why Cheng Xu was different.

"Where are you now?"

"Airport."

"Then don't think about it, I will ask the two of them to analyze it for you after you go home."

"Ah."

"Quick, give me a smile!"

"Are you stupid? You can't see the call we made."

"I have clairvoyance. Still not smiling?"

Joan smiled unconsciously listening to the voice on the phone.

"That's right, how cute it is to smile."

"I didn't laugh! You're so naive, I'm dead, bye."

"Well, be careful."

Sitting on the plane, Cheng Xu watched the plane take off on the runway in the distance, and suddenly thought that Cheng Xu asked him to come back in spring, but he didn't say that he would wait until spring.

The radio was prompting to turn on the phone to airplane mode, Qiao An picked up the phone and found that Cheng Xu had sent him a long message.

"An'an, I have always regarded you as my younger brother, so I will get close to you unconsciously. I don't want the relationship we have finally established between us to be broken for this reason. I have no other thoughts about you, I hope Don't get me wrong, I will still be your brother Xu from now on."

Joan immediately turned off the phone.He knew that Cheng Xu just regarded him as his younger brother, a childhood playmate whom he hadn't contacted for many years.

As soon as Qiao An closed his eyes, Cheng Xu always appeared in his mind. He wanted to forget Cheng Xu, but the more he thought about it, the deeper his memory became.

Joan finally fell asleep on the plane because of the wild thoughts last night.The stewardess woke him up and gave him lunch, but he didn't even ask for it, and fell asleep directly.