abandon love

The day before my birthday, I sneaked out with him.

hotel?What are you doing here.

The door was not closed, I watched him and Wen Yan through the crack of the door.

Wait, Wen Yan and Yi Han.

They are kissing.

The two of them secretly got together, so what am I, I used to like my brother, my brother didn't like me, my brother liked Yi Han, now Yi Han confesses to me that he likes me, but he still likes my brother.

They are running in both directions, so what am I?

I didn't bother them, and returned to Yi Han's house, I was still doing what I did as usual.

When Yi Han came back, he leaned over and wanted to kiss me, but I hid for a while.

I asked him, "Have you played enough?"

"What?" He didn't know what I was asking.

I chatted directly: "Be with my brother, and come to be with me, what do you want to do?"

"Nothing, it's fun. It's just a game, why do you care so much?"

"And what about the things you said to me?"

"Fake, it's all fake."

"Then I'm your plaything, right?" I calmed down and asked him.

"If you want to think so, I can't help it."

"Then have you ever cared about my feelings? What am I? What am I in your eyes? I deserve it right. You don't love me. Why do you want to confess to me and play with my sincerity? Is it fun? You heard the words and still want to be with me, don’t you think it’s disgusting? What the hell do you want to do? Is it because you are sick or I am sick? Why should I promise you? Let’s just do it, I’m tired.” After I finished speaking, I and left.

Where are you going, do I still have a home?

I rented a house, which is very dilapidated, but barely able to live in.

I locked myself in the house.

I feel that God is unfair to me. After experiencing such a thing in my family, I have to experience it emotionally.

In this world, I give my heart, but no one loves me.

Does that still make sense?It's pointless, let's end it.

I took the sleeping pills out of my bag and drank them down with cold water.

When I woke up, I was in the hospital. My mother said that I was found on the road and sent to the hospital.

Can you open the door by yourself after taking sleeping pills?Is this a survival instinct?No, this is God trying to torture me.

My mother said why I can't think about it so much.

After going through such a thing, no one can think about it, who can think about it, can't they?

"Mom, I'm tired."

After a few days, Yi Han found me in a bar.

He asked me, "How are you doing?"

"Well, it's doing fine without you."

"Then why are you still in the bar?" He sneered.

"I'd love to, it's none of your fucking business."

Drinking, drinking, drunkenness came, I thought in the haze, no, my alcohol capacity is not that bad.

Fuck, was drugged.

In a coma, I felt that someone was pressing me on the bed.

He shouted: "Ah Ruo."

I was so kissed that I couldn't breathe, the drugs controlled my brain, I passed out, what happened in it, can I still not know?No, I was forced.

When I woke up, I was extremely sore.

Yi Han brought me a glass of water.

"What else do you want to do?"

He was silent.

"You already beat me, what tricks do you want to play?"

"Haven't you played enough? If you haven't played enough, can you stop looking for me? If you don't let go of me, what on earth do you want to do? I'm very tired now, can you understand? I can't mess with you, can I still hide?" ?”

In fact, I really can't hide it.

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