Abandoned cat effect

In the past two days, Zhou Pei started to tidy up the new home. On New Year's Day, Xu's parents came back, Zhou Pei moved out of his house, and Xu helped his teacher to tidy up. The smell of the new home was almost gone. Zhou Pei The sheets were laid out, and the two of them lay on the white quilt.

Xu Yan turned his head to look at Zhou Pei. Teacher Zhou's side face was shrouded in a thin layer of light, and there was a thin layer of fluff on his cheeks, which was too immature to look good.

Xu Yan raised his hand, and gently touched Zhou Pei's cheek with his fingertips, the flesh on his face sank slightly, Zhou Pei opened his eyes wide, looking at him with rabbit eyes, Xu Yan didn't know what he was thinking, he was a little bored , and a little uncomfortable, he leaned over, put his lips on Zhou Pei's lower lip, stuck out the tip of his tongue and licked it, closed his eyes, and his eyelashes trembled slightly.

Xu pushed back Teacher Zhou's hair, and kissed him on the forehead and around the corners of the eyes.

That day, Xu Yan made Zhou Pei cry.

The white sheets were stained again, Zhou Pei felt like he was in the clouds, but in the next second, he was pushed into the abyss again.

He was drowning, his body trembling uncontrollably, he was torn apart, and pulled ashore again, he seemed to be lying on a plain, his breathing finally calmed down, he calmed down, and his tears slowly stopped.

Then, he heard a voice, Xu Yan in his ear, with a very gentle tone like the wind in autumn night, he said: "I'm sorry, teacher."

On New Year's Day, it was the parents' meeting. This was the first time Zhou Pei met Xu's parents. He stood in front of the classroom podium and spoke, bearing the scrutiny and scrutiny of the parents.His gaze swept across the corner by the window, that was Xu Yan's seat, and now sitting there were Xu Yan's parents.

The parent meeting said a few points in total, that is, to ensure a good mentality of the students, there must be pressure but not too much, and there are some students who do not take the college entrance examination and continue to study in the world, but only need a graduation certificate.

After the parent meeting was over, Zhou Pei stayed in the classroom and looked at the college entrance examination intentions that had been sent out just now. Half of the remaining twenty or so students said that they would study abroad after graduation. After looking at Xu Yan's name, his gaze was fixed on the word "study abroad".

Xu Yan is also leaving.

Zhou Pei looked at those two words and thought for a long time. It was hard to describe his mood at that time, as if he was sunk into the deep sea, he couldn't breathe, his chest was swollen, he couldn't help but grab the collar, trying to catch his breath Come, I bent down with some difficulty, but my legs softened first, and they hit the ground abruptly.

After that day, Zhou Pei did not take the initiative to contact Xu Yan. The child should know that Mr. Zhou must have seen the college entrance examination intention filled out by his parents. He will not stay here in a few months, so it is really fun to play. It's just for fun, all the love words you say are just for fun, it's interesting if you don't take it seriously, it's boring if you take it seriously.

The day before the winter vacation, Zhou Pei talked to the students on the stage about some things to pay attention to during the winter vacation. The audience was noisy and excited, but they couldn't listen, so he said everything he wanted to say very quickly. When it was over, he waved his hand, "Let's leave school then, go back and pay attention to safety, don't forget to return to school on the [-]th."

After he finished speaking, he left. Li Ran sat down and looked at Zhou Pei who had left the classroom. He turned his head to look at Xu Yan. Master Xu was nestled in the corner. He had caught a cold for the past two days, with a scarf wrapped around his neck, and he felt dizzy against his head. Lie down sleepy.

Li Ran pushed him, and Xu Yan opened one eye. Li Ran lowered his voice and asked, "You really broke up with Teacher Zhou?"

Xu Yan didn't respond, Li Ran was really curious, and asked again: "Did you say you broke up? Who mentioned it? You said it? What's going on? I see that Mr. Zhou has lost a lot of weight in the past two months. , you are too bad."

Xu Yan was annoyed by the headache he caused, he raised his chin, glanced at Li Ran, and said, "I didn't say anything, on the day of the parent meeting, he should have seen my intention after the college entrance examination, I will not stay in China Yes, he probably understood, I didn't look for him after that day, and he didn't contact me again."

"that's it?"

"that's it."

"It's so frustrating."

Li Ran spit out four words, Xu Yan looked at him sideways, "Who do you think is aggrieved?"

"Who else? Rabbit Zhou, I met such a bastard like you."

Li Ran pointed at Xu Yan's face, and Xu Yan leaned against the wall. Because his nose was stuffed up, his voice was muffled. He thought for a while and replied, "I also feel quite suffocated."

After the winter vacation, Zhou Pei was completely relaxed. He didn't go out very much and stayed at home all day. The road section of the new house was more prosperous than the previous one. When he opened the takeaway software, there were shops around.

When his spirit relaxes, he will think of Xu Yan, and now he understands that he is indeed a bad boy, has no moral values, is self-centered, and can easily pat his ass and leave after cheating. He didn't seem to care about anything, he was heartless.

Zhou Pei's breakdown happened on a certain night.

He was lying on the bed at the time, and the quilt on his body had just been dried in the morning, exuding a smell of sunlight. Xu Wei joked before that it was the smell of scorched mites. Zhou Pei sniffed the smell, and suddenly pulled the quilt away, Throw the whole quilt on the ground.

He sat up from the bed, hugged his body, covered his face with his hands, and felt a dull pain in his heart.

What Gao Kuo said was right, Zhou Pei just didn't grow up.

His time seems to be still in his own school days, even though the time is long, he is still a child, he has never grown up, always full of affection, innocent, can't learn hypocrisy, his love has always been pure Seriously, whoever treats him well, he plunges headlong into the south wall, without thinking about how much it will hurt afterwards.

He couldn't understand, why did that child Xu Yan play with him like this? Since he didn't consider him in his future from the beginning, why did he say the promise with affection, why did he say "I love you" over and over again? , he didn't understand, and couldn't understand.

In the middle of the night, Xu received a call from Teacher Zhou. He looked at the caller ID, hesitated for a few seconds, and then connected.

The phone was connected, and there was a long silence, Xu Yan said softly: "Teacher?"

Zhou Pei's voice sounded slowly, and he asked: "Xu Yan, is there anything you want to tell me?"

Xu Wei was silent for a moment, he turned on the small lamp beside the bed, the light was dim, the facial features became blurred under the weak light, and one-sided shadows were projected on the wall, slowly spreading.

Xu thought for a while, and responded: "Teacher, I'm sorry, I lied and lied to you. I'm with you because I haven't dated the teacher before. I want to try..."

After saying this, Zhou Pei on the other end of the phone didn't answer, Xu Wei paused, "The matter of studying abroad was decided early in the morning."

Zhou Pei never thought that a person's truth hurts more than a lie.

Xu Yan's words were like a sharp awl, piercing a hole in people's hearts. Zhou Pei heard his true thoughts bit by bit, the hole in his heart opened wider and wider, and it hurt more and more.

Xu Wei didn't know how long it took Zhou Pei to pick up the phone, open his message, and dial the number.

He is a person who takes his feelings so seriously, but Xu Yan's love is too wanton and sloppy, he can't bear it, he feels that his love has been desecrated.

It's like a treasure in his own chest, he is reluctant to show it to others, but when Xu Yan came, he said he wanted this thing, he said he would keep it well, he would cherish it, so Zhou Pei believed it , Holding his hands in his hands, he foolishly gave him his best and most precious things. Xu Yan took it, looked at it for a while, and then threw it away casually.

Only then did Zhou Pei realize that he didn't care at all.

All the good things about Xu Yan, what he said and what he did are just a way of coaxing people at his fingertips. He did it effortlessly and even enjoyed it, but for Zhou Pei, it It is so cruel.