meet by chance

The whites of Xu Zhou's eyes magnified infinitely. Holding the back of Zhou Linye's head, he stood up in an instant and retreated to the bed, almost falling off the bed.

"What are you doing?!" Xu Zhou's voice was hoarse, full of doubt and surprise.

Zhou Linye rubbed the back of his neck, got up belatedly, and turned his back to Xu Zhou.

The window was not closed, and the wind on the top of the mountain lifted the white curtains in an arc, as if they were just lifting the machine without emotion, and the bulging curtains returned to calm again. This happened several times, and Zhou Linye's heart went up and down, and the cool breeze The burning face that could not be blown away made Zhou Linye even more afraid to look back.

"Zhou Linye," Xu Zhou behind him spoke slowly, sounding unreasonably calm, "I'll take you to the station tomorrow."

Zhou Linye wanted to say something, but he bit his tongue when he opened his mouth, couldn't help hissing, and nodded as if accepting his fate.

After turning off the lights, Zhou Linye wrapped his whole body tightly. After a while, he felt hot again. He pulled himself out of the profuse sweat. When the wind blew, he felt cold again. He pulled up the quilt and covered it, like going to a sauna. , It was so hot, alternating hot and cold, Zhou Linye was so angry that he stepped on the soft mattress.

Xu Zhou on the side seemed to be belching, without any movement at all.

Zhou Linye picked up his mobile phone and swiped aimlessly. There are people posting their achievements in Space and Moments, with the caption "Thank you for the hard work you did back then".

Zhou Linye clicked his tongue in the dark.

bother.

Inexplicable, unreasonable irritability.

Xu Zhou remained silent all this time, lying quietly on the bed without any movement.

"Xu Zhou?"

Zhou Linye tried to call him.

Xu Zhou didn't answer, Zhou Linye continued to call: "Xu Zhou?"

"I know you're not asleep."

Xu Zhou had nowhere to hide, "Why?"

Zhou Linye didn't know what to say, he will go back tomorrow, where is he going?

He can plan a whole day's trip, what time to do, but he doesn't know where he's going next.

He can talk to Xu Zhou about the beginning of his heart, from the north to the south, from ancient times to the present, but he really doesn't know what to say now.

Meeting by chance, no matter what you do, it seems extremely irresponsible.

"It's nothing, go to bed early."

"Ah."

……

In the early morning, the two washed up, and in order to hurry, they took the cable car down the mountain.

Through the glass window, the mist lingers in the forest, the greenery rolls into waves, and the retrograde ink painting seems to be practiced for this encounter.

When the feet land on the ground, the feeling of floating in the void is still there, and the soles of the feet are soft, as if stepping on the clouds, reaching out to touch the sky, so far away from the ground, holding a breath, fearing that the breathing will be heavy, and it will fall from the sky and fall to the ground. To pieces.

unreal.

like a dream.

It was as if he had never been to the southern county, and he did not repeat his studies in a fit of anger.

But the sound of the whistle in the ear is so harsh.

Xu Zhou suddenly grabbed Zhou Linye's wrist and yanked it in front of him. His tone was suppressed and slightly angry: "You don't look at the traffic lights when crossing the road?"

"Who do you think you are? Why do you affect other people's mood so casually?"

"Who are you showing this look to? Fuck!"

A car just sped past Zhou Linye, looked up in a daze, the red light flashed three times, then the yellow light came on, and several people walked across the road.

Green light, you can go.

But no one moved.

Zhou Linye stared at Xu Zhou's face, his cheeks were thin, his lips were pale, and even the hand holding his wrist was a bit uncomfortable.

"I didn't think about it that much, just..." Zhou Linye glanced at Xu Zhou's lips, which was the city he fell to last night, "I just kissed if I wanted to."

"I mean, I...that was a kiss without a penis."

"It's just that you are very good. We have had a good time getting along these few days."

"Well... I hope you will always be happy."

"Gone."

Xu Zhou let go of Zhou Linye's hand, and piously kissed Zhou Linye's forehead, like a superficial touch.

"Thank you, Zhou Linye, I am very happy now."

Xu Zhou's tone was brisk, and he sounded really happy.

Zhou Linye raised the corner of his mouth, "Me too, then I'll go back to the hotel to pack up and leave in a while."

"Okay, when you leave later, send me a message, and I'll see you off at the station."

"Ah."

The two parted ways, and after this farewell, it may be difficult to see each other again.

The northbound train was about to set sail. Before entering the station, Zhou Linye glanced back at Xu Zhou. He was not submerged in the crowd. His tall and straight figure and three-dimensional facial features allowed Zhou Linye to find him in an instant. The two were separated by a sea of ​​people. Looking at each other, Xu Zhou waved his hands with a smile, and slowly backed away with a smile.

Zhou Linye watched Xu Zhou retreat to an open place, only to realize that Xu Zhou is so thin and tall, but in fact he is relying on the advantage of his skeleton to stand upright.

Why did Zhou Linye feel that Xu Zhou was muscular when they met for the first time?

Goodbye, Xuzhou.

……

In the few days when he returned home, Zhou's father and Zhou mother didn't dare to tell him how to fill in the application form, and let him rely on his own preferences. The ridiculous thing is that Zhou Linye still chose to study medicine.

My grandparents were born in traditional Chinese medicine, and my parents are also doctors. The whole family is studying medicine. It’s not surprising that I want Zhou Linye to take this path, but Zhou Linye doesn’t like it. He wants to be a painter. He saw his works in the coffee shop, and he can hold a painting exhibition. , can go wandering.

But to be honest, he didn't have confidence in his paintings, but it was the white coat that gave him a real sense of control.

Zhou Linye imagined that if Zhou's father and mother were not so tough in letting him study medicine, he might choose to practice medicine in the first year of the college entrance examination.

Maybe he doesn't hate medicine, he just doesn't like it, and someone dictates his decision.

When freshman started again, Zhou Linye suddenly found it funny that his classmates from the same college became brothers and sisters. It seemed that the extra year was just a dream, and that trip was just a painting in the dream.

☆, (Xu Zhouxiang)

(Xu Zhouxiang)

I'm Xu Zhou.

It was a cloudy and rainy day, and I had just come out of the hospital, clutching the crumpled test sheet tightly in my hand.

The doctor said the condition worsened.

When I was diagnosed with bone cancer a year ago, I pretended not to care, it was fine, it was just a misdiagnosis, and such a small probability event would not happen to me.

But the pain and swelling of my joints and elbows in the middle of the night forced me to face the reality. I clutched the quilt, trembling with fear, tears slipped silently from my eyes, I covered my mouth tightly, not daring to let the sound of crying pour out , Grandma is still next door, what should I do?

When I was taking a nap at school, I would be woken up by a sudden pain, and then I would look at the dark classroom, and I was the only one sitting. During class, I would suddenly burst into tears, and I couldn’t wipe them away .

I really don't know what to do.

In the third year of junior high school, after my parents died in a car accident, only my grandma was by my side.

Before I got out of the pain, I had to accept the reality that I was sick.

Staying in the boxy classroom every day, I felt like I was sitting on pins and needles. I couldn't hear what the teachers and classmates were saying. I only knew that I was going to die.

Almost twists and turns, dropped out of school, did not dare to tell grandma, went out early in the morning, went straight to the Internet cafe, played games in self-defeating, always felt that all this was fake, I was just dreaming, and when I woke up, everything was wrong It's getting better.

One day, I heard my grandma coughing. The old man was very old, and he was reluctant to buy medicine for a cold. He said that drinking some hot water would be fine.

When I came out of the Internet cafe, I was so decadent that I thought, I'll find a lighter part-time job, improve the food for my grandma and me, and then... let's do this first.

I thought about going for treatment, but the medical bills are so expensive. Besides, if grandma knows, she must be very sad. She no longer has a son or daughter-in-law, so don't let her worry about her grandson.

I acquiesce to myself as a healthy person.

When I quietly added food, grandma couldn’t help asking me why I bought such an expensive dish. I smiled and told her that I bought it with my scholarship. Grandma smiled from ear to ear. Let me study hard, get into a good university, find a good job, and marry a wife. If possible, she can also visit her great-grandson and see grandma enjoy the beautiful future. I really can't bear to poke her dream.

Grandma, I dropped out of school, so I can't get into a good university. I like men, but I can't marry a wife. I'm not in good health, and you won't see your great-grandson.

I even thought despicably, it would be nice if grandma died before me.

In this way, she will enter the earth with beautiful and happy fantasies, and I don't have to try my best to hide it.

I went to the hospital again for reexamination, and the condition really got worse. The doctor advised me to start chemotherapy immediately. I walked out of the hospital numbly and expressionlessly.

I can't hear anything, I can't see anything.

I suddenly felt that this world is so unfair. Why do some people have happy families and good health? Why do I have to go through this?

I was so angry that I kicked towards the fence on the side of the road. I smashed the mobile phone in my hand to the ground, and the screen instantly shattered. People passing by me looked at me like a madman.

madman?

All tm are crazy!

Hey!

Why would I want to live like this? !

I was walking down the street and suddenly I heard, "Hey, handsome, how about a portrait?"

……

He said his name was Zhou Linye.

The name sounds nice, and it looks like it's not in the same world as me.

He drew a portrait of me. I don't have any artistic skills, but it looks like me anyway.

I took him to evade the fare on the trail, and he followed me home.

He seems to be very reluctant to part with me, haha, I actually like getting along with him very much, I feel very relaxed and happy.

I secretly took pictures of him, I wanted to take a good look at him in the few moments I had, but he found out, but he didn't mind, he even took the initiative to take several pictures.

I confessed to him a part, which I didn’t want to say at first, who asked him to tell me that he had repeated his studies, then I would tell me to drop out, and I anxiously waited for his reaction, okay, he doesn’t seem to care?

I want to leave a good impression on him. When I recall it in the future, it will be my beautiful appearance. It's possible. I didn't leave him with any impression, but it doesn't matter. We met by chance.

He kissed me? !

He actually kissed me? ?

What do you mean?

Does he like me?Or did I tell him about being gay and he was interested?Is he interested in gays, or in me?

We've only known each other for a few days, why did he just kiss me? Does he treat others like this?

My heart beats so fast and my joints ache.

However, I am so happy.

Zhou Linye left, I sent him to the car.

He was alone when he came, and let me see him off when he left, so that he would not be alone.

Goodbye, my Zhou Linye.

I love you till the end of my life.

☆, Fanwai (Zhou Linye)

(Zhou Linye)

I went home and looked it up and wrote down those few words. There were dozens of medicines in the ingredient list, and I couldn’t find out what disease could be treated by just one medicine.

Thinking of Xu Zhou and his grandma, he should be fine, right?

In the summer of my sophomore year, I went south again. I stayed in the county town for a few nights, and now I watch it again, and I don’t feel familiar.

Walking on the street, looking around, I seem to be expecting, I hope someone will stop me, greet me with a smile, and tell me why I am here.

But after shopping around and around, no one stopped me, and I didn't see anyone I was familiar with.

I tied the tie-dye cloth I bought on my black schoolbag. It is very awkward, but I like it very much.

Returning in vain, I chose to return lonely. Before entering the station, I looked back and saw that the crowd was crowded, but I didn't see that person.