please don't hold your breath waiting for me

12

The sound of New Year's cannon fire made Lin Sheng suddenly feel like it was the same New Year before his death. Xiong Pei came to look for him, his nose was red from the cold, like a frosted candy.

"How did you come?"

"I want to see you, and I want you to see me more. Lin Sheng, people can only see each other in this life, even if you are gone in the next life. So I am very reluctant and cherish it." Xiong Pei's body is full of wine Talking nonsense, when they graduated that year, Xiong Pei looked at him wronged like a child, with stars falling from the sky in his eyes.

Lin Sheng couldn't bear to cover his eyes, as if he was afraid that Xiong Pei would cry away his heart.

When he entered the kitchen, the pot on the fire had been burned dry, and he stood there without saying a word.

When Lin Sheng stretched out his finger and touched the wall of the pot, the hot metal quickly melted away a small piece of his skin. He looked at his part, as if it wasn't his hand, and didn't react at all. Putting it into the pool, the only thing in the air is the sizzling sound of white mist after the water accepts it, and then quickly merges with the surroundings.

The finger that melted away unconsciously like wax fell to the ground like a dazzling drop.

After tidying up the things at home, he planned to go to the store to keep watch, but when he reached the entrance of the corridor, his heart sank to the bottom of the valley.

"Lin Sheng" Xiong Pei stood up from the corner

"Xiong Pei, it's getting late, you should go home." Lin Sheng looked at him, afraid that he would say another word.

"Lin Sheng, don't chase me away"

"..." There were clenched hands in his pockets

"Lin Sheng" Xiong Pei stopped Lin Sheng and refused to let him leave half a step away, but when Lin Sheng turned around as if to go back, Xiong Pei grabbed his clothes tightly, and tears fell on Lin Sheng on the coat.

The two of them were silent in the corridor for a long time. When the lights in the corridor were dimmed, Lin Sheng suddenly sighed and said very gently, "Don't cry."Then he turned around and hugged Xiong Pei tightly.Resting her chin on his shoulder, the sound of breathing was in Xiong Pei's ear, hugged for a long time, "Xiong Pei, I like you."

That way, like a person who has lost to the point of no return.

But if life has already come to a place where you can't go any further, then even if there is no way to retreat, you can only retreat.

The New Year's cannon fire was still ringing, and Xiong Pei couldn't believe it because of this hug. Lin Sheng's voice entered his ears together with the sound of the wind amidst the cannon fire.

"I like you." He paused and said, "Always, always, very much."

The hot words knocked on his ears again and again, but the people around him seemed to be gone any moment, which made Xiong Pei's heart tighten.He held onto the young man in front of him tightly, Lin Sheng, you don't have to be with me, but it's too bad that I can't bear you anymore.

He may have understood that there is something driving me toward you in a world of utter boredom and pointlessness that ends up being pointless anyway, but I am willing to enjoy it anyway.

With the sound of the last gunfire, his world was filled with white light, and after that white light, he finally woke up from his bed, the white light outside the window was still dazzling his eyes, but he never saw the person next to him again. teenager.He had a very long dream, in which he was never satisfied.

If this half-dream of life is already stolen

I am more than happy.

The light shone on his face, and he sat on the bed smiling like a short poem.

In an era when he can't go back.

That boy is still playing lively

The girl next to him looked at him and smiled very nicely

The well-behaved girl behind her light hit her soft skin

The man on his left lowered his head and even his eyelashes came to life

And in the dream, on the way back with him, Xiong Pei changed the bottle of milk that Lin Sheng gave him to his right hand, and wanted to touch the back of Lin Sheng's hand with his free hand. Hold it tightly.

Sometimes, people can not be so lucid.As long as you can comfort yourself and make yourself feel better, that is to save yourself.

☆, extra

Extra:

When Anxi's parents first divorced, she didn't quite understand what it meant for them to start a new family.

I also don't know that after his father divorced, he chewed tasteless chewing gum, and everyone wanted to get rid of this trailing advertisement as much as possible.

After she remarried with her mother, she was injured in a physical education class at school, and the teacher contacted her family.She sat there obediently and waited for a long time, and finally saw the uncle who came to look for him from a distance, she happily ran forward to pull the cuff of the uncle without caring about the pain, and was thrown away before she had time to speak, A cold and rigid distance separated them.She blinked her eyes and trotted behind her uncle without knowing how deep or sad she was.

"In the future, she will have something to do at school, you go by yourself"

"what happened?"

"I almost ran into an acquaintance when I went to school today. If people see that we have a daughter as old as her in less than two years of marriage, what will others think of me?"

"Are you still wronged? If the court hadn't awarded her to me, how could I have married you? Isn't the condition for pursuing me better than yours?"

The quarrel that day quickly turned into a rage, and the neighbors around came to persuade the two adults, but they didn't care about the children holding their swollen hands to understand what they said.

It was too late until she couldn't help crying in pain, and no one cared about her.

When she graduated from junior high school, she walked home in a daze. She wanted to tell them that she seemed to be sick. When she walked to the door, she heard them celebrating her little brother's birthday. The laughter inside seemed to be floating, The night wind from the corridor rushed to her face one after another, making this summer night extremely bad,

She really didn't know how to get in at this moment, so she walked back into the crowd, following the loud voices towards the adults who were going to pick up their children from the examination room, as if at the end of that road, all the happiness would gather at There.

"Where are you going?" A teenager behind her grabbed her hand, and the warmth of his palm lit up this nasty night.

Anxi shook her head in a panic, but didn't know how to answer the boy's question.

He seemed to have seen the girl's unconcealable thoughts, and asked softly, "Are you homeless too?" The boy's gentle appearance carried a shocking taste, like a sea breeze, and he covered her with a cold air. Pulling off the blanket, the soft monster in her heart filled her entire chest with soreness, and she couldn't help but say something to this strange boy

"Actually, I really love my family, although they may not love me"

The young man looked at her, bent down, and looked a little out of breath, but he still insisted on saying something to coax her, "Someone will find you good."

That was the first time Anxi met Xiong Pei.

☆, extra episode 2

Jiang Xing has been friends with Xiong Pei since a long time ago, and he knows that Xiong Pei has a friendly attitude full of tension and free and easy, but in fact he has no expectations for the people around him, but asks people to let him be alone.

That's why he was the first to discover the difference in Xiong Pei's treatment of his deskmate, from the details to the subtle changes in tone, certain pauses, and the faint bite between sentences.

As long as people spend enough time with each other, many things cannot be hidden.

On a hot afternoon, Xiong Pei spent a long time tinkering with his bicycle in the sun alone. When Jiang Xing brought him a cold drink, he asked, "Whose car is this?"

"I want you to take care of it" Xiong Pei squatted there for a long time

Later, a young man came over and put on a hat.

Xiong Pei stood up proudly and couldn't hide his eagerness, "I just fixed it?"

He strode up to the man and looked at him, "You can't ignore me anymore" with a smile that seemed to be shining.

Jiang Xing couldn't bear to tell him how much he tried his best, which made people know.

The 17-year-old Xia Tian is very busy, with copies of various materials, test papers, books and exercises, and a tense study atmosphere.

But Jiang Xing didn't take these things to heart, and still lived a young and arrogant life.

It's not that he doesn't know that this kind of self is often evaluated as out of date, low in EQ, and unrealistic. They despise his childish communication methods and weird behavioral logic.

Occasionally there is a derisive smile out of their eyes, making them look rather stupid, and they speak with their worldly loose sarcasm.

This made him learn to cover up his weirdness with appropriate silence, and move forward alone with shameless stubbornness.

He really can't compromise and become a hypocritical, insincere, and insensitive adult who uses all kinds of grandeur to cover up his various desires or becomes angry from embarrassment.

He was still hot and burning, and he used his reckless running to drive his manic and violently beating heart to concentrate on the joy and the sorrow that covered his head and face.

Life wouldn't be perfect anyway, wouldn't it, he still had a lot to do, a lot to think about, a lot of guys to love, after all he was the chosen boy.

He squatted in the shop and picked up the keychain that he had been looking for for a long time, and asked the boss if he could customize an original metal knife, thinking of the boy who was celebrating his birthday and the straight girl like a knife, he laughed

The summer wind is just right, and everyone who loves it is there.