Conscience screenwriter leader Jae

Human beings are a collection of all evil thoughts and negative energies.

Lonely, sensitive, suspicious, restless, hypocritical, malicious, fearful...

The young, innocent and innocent child was just for the momentary curiosity and joy, so he cut it off and raised him for a long time, trusting and relying on him, the loyal dog's tail, those dark eyes even Having seen all the puppy's pain in his eyes, the child also grinned ignorantly and let out a "hahaha" laugh.

The virtuous wife, who works hard at home on weekdays, dresses up beautifully on a whim, but is suspected of cheating by her ridiculous and cowardly husband. The painful face and the corner of the bloody mouth whimpered softly on the ground...

Human beings are such creatures, ridiculous and pathetic, shameless and ignorant, obviously so insignificant, yet arrogant, thinking that they can control life and judge evil.

'The irony is that I am also a human being with such thoughts. '

'But... I am also like that group of people, a megalomaniac - what right do I have to judge them, say they are ignorant, say they are evil? '

'It was only at this time that I realized that I am also such a human being. '

'Born to be a sinner, I walk in the world in confusion and fear all day long.There is a body in the air, but it is quietly waiting to rot and stink, the world is nothing more than that. '

'It's so painful, I don't want to live, I want to die--'

'Let me get my wish and leave this unreal and rusty world. '

'Please, please. '

**

When he was young, the leader Zai once read such a book.

Although I only read it once, I can't remember the title of the book, nor who the author is, but the few sentences in it are deeply imprinted in the mind of the leader Zai.

"The moral bottom line of human beings and the perception of self-worth are a huge cage, which restricts all human behaviors. What can be expressed in real life and transformed into real actions is the free person outside the cage—human nature."

"It draws a red line between human nature and animal desire, but this red line itself is fragile and crumbling. Because human nature is developed by acquired consciousness, while animal desire is an instinct, which humans are born with and cannot be driven away."

"Sensitivity and suspicion from beasts, restlessness and depravity, alienation and self-destruction, extinction of hatred..."

"It can never be suppressed, and it will always exist in everyone's heart. It is quietly waiting for an eternal night, taking the opportunity to swallow people into the endless abyss."

The very theoretical and philosophical statement may seem a bit obscure to others, but now, the leader Zaimiao is facing such a situation.

He has maintained an inexplicably low state of mind for several days, and he could restrain it before, but after waking up in the warm sunshine today, when he saw the dusk outside the window again, for some reason, it was no longer restrained.

The leader Zai has always been an alienated person. This alienation flows in his blood, penetrates into the marrow of his bones, and blooms a strange flower that is easily burned by light and strangled by darkness. A heretic who is out of tune with the world, Shuji Tsushima.

After transmigrating to the main world, he didn't directly express this kind of estrangement that was separate from the world but really existed, but pressed it deep in his heart.

Perhaps it was because of the cat form, the alienated form could no longer give the leader Zai a sense of security.

In addition, under this state, the cat's instincts keep coming up, trying to cover his human consciousness again and again, doing things that he can't do when he is conscious, which also makes him more emotional. Undulating and tortuous, suspicious and restless like a small animal, frightened and fragile.

Those natures settled in the heart of the leader Zai were revealed again.

Cut it open directly, so bloody and naked/naked/exposed to the air, the coldness of the outside world and the pain inside made him tremble, he walked to the edge of the cliff of extreme thinking again, looked down, It is the darkness that shatters the bones.

Although the leader Zai realized that he was on the edge of a dead end again, he couldn't stop his speculation.

'Am I really loved? '

'Without being teased, considered a freak, or ridden with guilt? '

'... is it really possible? '

It is the total negation before the coming of self-destruction and extinction.

In normal times, once the leader Zai had the idea of ​​self-destructive tendencies, the world would pop up, trying to dispel his self-doubt, but for some reason, this time, the world did not appear.

'Did even He give up on me? Sure enough, that's the case. 'The leader Jae thought to himself mockingly.

Therefore, when Fukuzawa Yukichi looked at this originally proud and energetic long-haired black cat, he could only see him rolling himself into a black ball, looking sad and unhappy.

'Are you unhappy again? '

Fukuzawa Yukichi frowned and walked over.As a result, as soon as he got close to the leader, Zaimiao, he grinned and bared his teeth, and let out a low growl in his throat, trying to scare him away with a threatening expression.

**

What kind of cat is the leader Zaimiao?

After bringing him home and living under the same roof for several days, Fukuzawa Yukichi is still a little confused about his temperament.

Because compared to the leader Zai in human form, he in cat form is really difficult to deal with, and his temper is more arbitrary.

Especially after carefully testing Fukuzawa Yukichi's bottom line several times in a row, the leader Zai Miao became more and more arrogant.

It was obviously a lunch that tasted almost the same as the previous cat meals. After the black cat walked over with its head raised proudly, it lowered its neck and sniffed, and its whiskers trembled accordingly.There was no expression on that fluffy cat's face, but Fukuzawa Yukichi could tell from the movement of him raising his right front paw to slap the cat bowl away that the leader Zaimiao disliked this meal.

I was playing with Edogawa Ranpo before, but because Edogawa Ranpo was holding an infrared laser pointer and dangled in front of him after turning it on, the leader Zai Miao couldn't restrain the cat's instinct of jumping up and down, and followed it from time to time and threw it on the ground and walls. The red dots on the ceiling and even the ceiling leaped and flew, panting with exhaustion and being mercilessly laughed at by Edogawa Ranpo.

After realizing that this was Edogawa Ranpo's teasing, the leader Zai Miao directly played a small temper, jumped up, and kicked down several glass products on the table, the sound of "cracking" sounded, and the vase and The cup shattered directly, but he still didn't feel relieved.

"Wait, those are the flowers planted by the president, they are very expensive!!"

Under Edogawa's sluggish and panicked eyes and shouts, the leader Zai Miao took action on several pots of precious flowers and plants raised by Fukuzawa Yukichi. With such ruthlessness in digging the ground, the entire potted plant, including the flowers and soil, was destroyed by him. It was dug out, then dropped on the ground, and trampled several times.

Facing the mess in the room, the leader Zai Miao just snorted, flicked his tail boredly, and looked at Edogawa Ranpo with the eyes of seeing scum.

However, in the end, Fukuzawa Yukichi had to resist all the harm firmly.

When Fukuzawa Yukichi saw this chaotic scene after returning home, to the surprise of the leader, Zai Miao, he was not angry, but kept silent for a while, and then stretched out his hand to touch him.

But even this caress, which seemed to be a comforting touch, was avoided by the leader Zaimiao.

Even so, Fukuzawa Yukichi did not show any blame for the leader Jae's behavior.

——It is the same now.

Fukuzawa Yukichi just went over to see what happened to the leader Zai Miao, and stretched out his hand to hug him. The irritable leader Zai Miao couldn't threaten him, and when his brain got hot, he rushed up and bit his wrist , and hung on top.

Although the teeth of a cat in its infancy are not sharp, Fukuzawa Yukichi has not developed the secret skill of having skin as hard as steel, so under extreme force, the kitten's fangs easily pierced through Fukuzawa Yukichi. On the surface of Ji's skin, hot/hot blood dripped down little by little.

The leader Zaimiao hadn't let go yet, he could already feel the smell of blood in his mouth, but even so, Fukuzawa Yukichi was still as usual, and he didn't let go of the leader Zaimiao's embrace.

Calm like water, without waves.

'Is his endurance so strong? 'The leader Zai Miao hesitantly let go of his teeth,' won't you think I'm making trouble for no reason? '

Fukuzawa Yukichi did not have any intention of blaming the leader Zai Miao. Of course, he was not as tolerant and patient as the leader Zai Miao imagined, like a saint. After all, the leader Zai Miao is really annoying. If you get angry, it's all fake.

It's just that Fukuzawa Yukichi understands the disadvantages of genius.

In the process of taking care of and guiding Edogawa Ranpo to grow up, he has learned how to treat people like them.

Edogawa Ranpo is like this, and so is Chief Jae. In his eyes, they all need someone to guide them in the direction, otherwise they will inevitably lead to lost children.

Compared with Edogawa Ranpo, who is more optimistic and cheerful, there are a lot of things that the leader Jae needs to pay attention to.Fukuzawa Yukichi also understands this, and it is because of his understanding that he is as immovable as a mountain.

Fukuzawa Yukichi calmly observed the cat who was constantly testing his limits.At that time, he brought the leader Zai home out of responsibility. If it wasn't for him, would there be anyone who could accompany Shuji Tsushima and guide him on the right path?

Fukuzawa Yukichi dared not gamble.

Perhaps it is because of his different attitude towards Tsushima from ordinary people that Tsushima repeatedly tried to find out his bottom line, in order to come up with one, 'ah, so he is just such a person' conclusion.

As a proud swordsman, Fukuzawa Yukichi would not regret his choice because of such a trivial matter, and followed the leader Zai's wishes.

Of course, there is also the reason why the leader Zai turned into a kitten at this moment. Although Fukuzawa Yukichi knew that he was originally a human and an adult male, his attitude could not help but become soft because of his petite and cute appearance. And, it's just that this part of the bonus is not as big as the above reasons.

'Why not be angry? '

It's not that the leader doesn't understand, it's just that he doesn't want to believe it - he understands the human heart very deeply, and this is clearly a sign of Fukuzawa Yukichi's acceptance of himself.

But he was frightened and backed away.

Just like the fiery love leaked from the leader back then, his mentality changed.

The leader Zai is extremely contradictory. He hopes and longs for love, but he is also afraid of getting love.

If there is no relationship and bond established at the beginning, then the other party is just a stranger to him, a passer-by in life, and there will be no pain and sorrow to speak of.

'It's so boring, such patience. '

The black cat completely let go of its teeth biting its wrist, and landed lightly, leaving only a ruthless back for Fukuzawa Yukichi.

But Fukuzawa Yukichi clearly felt it, and before he let go, he licked the bleeding wound.

Does this count as his duplicity of gentleness?

Fukuzawa Yukichi didn't understand very well, so he didn't get entangled in this point.After simply treating the wound, he looked up at the time and realized that it was dinner time, so he went to the kitchen and started preparing dinner.

It's just that after preparing a dish and raising his hand to continue cutting vegetables, his keen ears heard an inconspicuous strange sound from the bathroom upstairs.

The sound insulation effect of Fukuzawa House is good. If Fukuzawa Yukichi hadn’t degraded his role as a “scavenger” within the government for many years, he probably wouldn’t have noticed it.

Fukuzawa Yukichi held his breath and carefully identified the intermittent sound.

It's a bit like... the sound of water? !

Fukuzawa Yukichi had a bad premonition in his heart, so he put down the things in his hand and went upstairs quickly.

And when he opened the door of the bathroom, what he saw was the clever and sensitive black cat in the past, whose hair was soaked by the water, rising and falling with the water in the bathtub.

It looked as if he was about to lose his breath.

It was a long-lost suicide by the leader, trying to drown himself in a bathtub full of water. As a cat, it was not easy to turn on the faucet, and it was even more difficult to turn off the faucet when he lost his strength. Fukuzawa Yukichi heard the sound of water flowing after overflowing.

While the leader Jae was in a trance, he finally heard Fukuzawa Yukichi's angry shout.

The pair of iris-colored cat pupils lifted up tiredly, in a daze, but it also accurately reflected the angry appearance of the silver-haired man.

'So, even you are disappointed in me...'