cat blues

Osamu Dazai has been nesting in his room for several days and hasn't gone out. When he first arrived at Butterfly House, he would go out for a walk, but these days he has almost fallen into a strange state of autism.If it wasn't for Yuji Maomao who brought him meals and cleaned his room every day these days, I'm afraid there would be mushrooms growing in his room.

During the recent period, Osamu Dazai could also hear a lot of people walking around the door wanting to find him, especially Oda Sakunosuke and the president. To his surprise, they were all driven back by Yuji Maomao.

It's not quite right to say rush, to be precise, it was declined by Yuji Maomao.

Yuji Maomao seemed to know that he didn't want to see people at all, and firmly refused all the people who came to visit him.

"Mr. Yukichi won't let us in, um, Dazai, as long as you're fine." This is the voice of Oda Sakunosuke, "If you're healthy, let's go out for a walk, after all, staying in the room all the time is not good for your health." good."

Oda Sakunosuke was still unable to grasp the key points as always, but his concern was straightforward and appropriate, which made Osamu Dazai feel a lot of comfort in his heart.

"Take care of your health." Fukuzawa Yujiro said in a calm voice, as calm as ever.

Feeling their straightforward concern, Osamu Dazai felt very happy on the one hand, but on the other hand, it made him feel more and more dark in his heart, and made him feel more and more self-loathing.

He doesn't understand why there is such a ghost killing team in this world. Human beings are creatures that can so easily spew out malice. Usually they hide these natures, but once they find an opportunity, they will suddenly flick their tails and kill the gadfly on their stomachs like those gentle cows on the grassland.”

But the Demon Slayer Squad was different, and the Ubayashiki family was so strange that he couldn't understand it at all.

It is indeed very pitiful for a relative to be killed by a ghost, but since they are still alive, why do they choose to kill ghosts?Obviously you don't have to do those things, you can choose an easier path, obviously...

There is also the obstetrician Yashiki Yazai, the family has been cursed for generations, and none of them can live past thirty. The head of each generation has taken over the affairs of the Demon Slayer Team since they were teenagers. They have to run shops to save money and manage team affairs. They have to send people to kill ghosts and do various things. While suffering from illness and curses, they also have to chase and kill evil ghosts.Why should such a depressing and hopeless life continue?

Osamu Dazai didn't understand, he really didn't understand, such a hard life with no future in sight, why did it continue, even generation after generation, for nearly a thousand years?

He couldn't figure it out, so he didn't go out at all, just like a gopher pretending to be dead, as if he buried himself in the soil, so he didn't know.

It's just that sometimes, he would remember that he actually knew it, but he just refused to admit it.How could there be such an absurd thing?How can there be such a person who goes against his nature and tries to survive, but not for himself?

Compared with such a person, how humble and hopeless is he?

During this period of time, Yukichi Maomao didn't ask or say anything, but just quietly accompanied him, which made Osamu Dazai improve a lot from his original self-loathing situation.

Just yesterday, Osamu Dazai heard the turmoil outside. He could probably guess that Mr. Ranpo's plan succeeded, but someone was still injured.

They worked hard all night, and it was not over until the day.

Dazai Osamu had no intention of going to sleep at all, even though Yukichi Maomao came over to comfort him for a long time at night, he fell asleep and couldn't make him fall asleep.

After the commotion outside subsided, it seemed that the treatment of the injured had been completed. Osamu Dazai stared at the ceiling in a daze, until he suddenly heard someone knocking on the door.

"Knock knock".

Osamu Dazai was stunned for a moment, and then he heard a familiar gentle voice at the door.

"Dazai-kun, can you let me in?" The voice of the man outside the door was so familiar, it was the man named Yuya Miyayashiki whom he had seen before.

"Mr. Yukichi, ah, I'm not talking about Mr. Fukuzawa, but this Mr. Yukichi who is by my side came to see me specially, hoping that I can see you." Yoya Shiki, the obstetrician at the door, said gently , "Mr. Yuji is very worried about your appearance. Although I don't know what he thinks, but he hopes that I can come and meet you. Then I think I should be able to help you and Mr. Yuji."

"..." Osamu Dazai was stunned for a while before he opened the door in disbelief. He saw the big black cat at the door and the black-haired man supported by the big cat. The purple marks on the man's face became heavier and heavier. , but it seems that the treatment with Yosano Akiko and Hu Dieren has had a little effect recently. Although the color has darkened, it has no intention of continuing to spread.

"You...you are the leader of the Ghost Slayer Team, right?" Osamu Dazai looked at Yukichi Maomao who looked innocent and seemed to know nothing, and couldn't help but scratched his head, "Just promise a big Is it really okay for the cat to come and meet someone like me who has nothing to do with you?"

"It's okay, cough cough, I'm sorry, can you let me sit in for a while?" Miyayashiki Yoya said with a smile, "After all, my health is really not very good."

"Come in..." Osamu Dazai, who didn't know what to say, invited a man and a cat in.

"Today's weather is nice, can you open the curtains? If you bask in the sun, you will feel very warm." After Yashiki Yoya sat down in Dazai Osamu's room, he spoke slowly.

At the same time, Yuji Maomao on the side had already prepared tea and snacks and put them between the two of them quickly. Then Maomao walked out sneakily and closed the door for them by the way.

"What a gentle and gentlemanly gentleman." Miyayashiki Yoya said with a smile, the teacup in his hand was neither hot nor cold, and he felt warm when holding it in his hand.

"You should be very clear, it's just a cat." Osamu Dazai said boredly. He never thought that Mr. Yukichi would let this himself be the last one at such a time, even after blocking so many visitors for him. People you don't want to see come to you.

"It is indeed a cat, but this does not prevent me from thinking that Mr. Yukichi has a gentle heart like a human being." Yoya Miyashiki said with a smile, and then showed a little apology, "Sorry, for you, I said Isn't it a bad word that Yukichi-san has a human heart?"

This is really a man who is so sensitive that people find it incredible. It is not the sharpness that can see through everything like Edogawa Ranpo, but because he is very good at considering others and has a gentle and sensitive heart.

"Then, my lord, who is always busy with everything, why did you come to see me, a useless person who can't help you with anything?" Osamu Dazai scratched his head and said in a self-deprecating tone.

"Mr. Yukichi is very worried about you. He seems to think that I can answer your questions, so he ran over and asked me to meet you." Yoya Yashiki didn't seem to feel that a cat came to him to answer another cat. There is nothing wrong with the situation of the stranger's question, he said with a smile, "I think this is something I can do, so I agreed."

There were so many gags in these words that Osamu Dazai couldn't help it, he actually felt that he could understand Nakahara Nakahara a little bit and kept complaining about their thoughts.

However, at this moment, Yuya Miyayashiki smiled and asked him, "So, can you tell me?"

"What are you afraid of?"

The other party's voice was not heavy, but pierced into his heart like a thunderbolt.

"I..." Osamu Dazai opened his mouth, but no sound came out.

The other party was also very calm, as if he was really just an ordinary person, and there were no trivial matters around him, and he just waited patiently for him today just to chat with him.

The two sat quietly in the room until Osamu Dazai suddenly stood up and opened the curtains to look out the window. He saw a black cat squatting in the corner of the wall, as if trying to eavesdrop.

Seeing Osamu Dazai suddenly opened the window to look over, he panicked to the point of being at a loss.

"Mr. Yukichi, don't eavesdrop like others." Osamu Dazai said maliciously.

Yuji Maomao immediately left dejectedly like an eggplant beaten by frost.

But Yukichi Maomao's departure didn't make Osamu Dazai close the curtains again, and the warm sunlight poured into the room, which made him feel inexplicably relieved.

Although he was forcibly pulled out of the soil, Dazai didn't feel uncomfortable.

He smiled, and then asked in a tone as if he had just woken up from a big dream: "Why did you continue to fight against Ghost Mai Tsuji for so long?"

"That's right..." Yuya Ubuyashiki replied without thinking too much, "Because, I hope that one day in the future, people will no longer suffer accidents because of evil spirits in the night."

"Even if the sins created by human beings are actually more terrible than ghosts?" Osamu Dazai thought of the time when PortMafia was raging two years ago. He dared not go out during the day, let alone at night. Yokohama might be worse now than it was two years ago.

"Dazai-kun, you are really a gentle person." Yoya Ubuyashiki said with a smile, he tilted his head slightly, feeling the warmth of the sun, "Indeed, many times human beings are scarier than evil spirits, even during the Warring States Period , During the Meiji period, terrible things happened all the time. But at the same time, good things continued. No matter what kind of suffering we suffered, human beings will finally stand up again and move towards a better future. This is not Ideals or expectations, but the instincts that all people are born with.”

"What will the future be like? Will tomorrow be better? Will the people I love so much still be able to smile calmly?" Yoya Miyayashiki showed a slightly expectant look on his face, "I think, Demon Killing Everyone in the team is moving forward with this idea, right?"

"Aren't you afraid of losing?" Osamu Dazai asked in a trance.

"Of course it will, but, even if you have bruises all over your body, even if you have nothing, you can still stand up and move forward, that's the human being." Yoya Ubuyashiki said gently and firmly.