Every time I finish my soul, I have to wipe my saliva on a loyal dog

Chapter 42 From the Perspective of a Nanny

The Liu family is a well-known aristocratic family in the south of the Yangtze River. The current head of the Liu family, Mr. Liu, has one son and two daughters.Last month, an aunt named Hanyue gave birth to another pair of twins, but unfortunately the aunt died of dystocia, leaving only a pair of twin daughters.

The master of the Liu family is nearly 40 years old, and he still has only one son by his side. In addition, he is not in good health, so I heard that he is looking forward to the child in Aunt Hanyue's womb.It was because of too much expectation, after seeing that the two daughters were born, it is said that he left without saying a word, and didn't even give the two daughters their names.

My nanny was also found by Mrs. Liu's family who asked the housekeeper to find me for the two concubines.The young lady's nanny has a higher status than those ordinary servants, but the two children I nursed are concubines, and they are not liked by the head of the family, so my nanny has no status.

Even so, I am very satisfied to be able to come to the Liu family to work. The Liu family has a great business and the wages are better than other places.As long as the salary is enough, I don't mind those who look down and ignore, just smile and say good things to everyone.Anyway, there is no such noble man's life, where is it not like this.

I just hope to raise the two ladies well, save some money, and save some money for my boy to marry a wife.

After coming to Liu's house for more than a month, I stayed peacefully in the small courtyard of the two young ladies.It is said that the small courtyard is actually much larger than my house, but the Liu family is different, a concubine who is not favored can live in such a good place, I really don't know how grand the place where the son and daughter of the doctor's family lives is.

It's a pity that before I came to Liu's mansion, my family told me not to wander around at will. This Liu family is rich and has many rules, so maybe I bumped into some noble person by accident.I want to look around and take a good look at the Liu family, but I don't dare to wander around. After feeding the two little ladies every day, I stay in the yard to bask in the sun after they fall asleep.Anyway, not only the master doesn't want to come to this small courtyard, even the servants don't like to come here, so I'm happy to be free.

I haven't seen the father of the two ladies, the head of the Liu family, for so long since I came to the Liu family.I only met Mrs. Liu once.When the eldest lady came, I didn't dare to look up, I only took a few sneaky glances, and felt that the jewelry on her head and hands was something ordinary people like us couldn't afford. It's beautiful, glistening in the sun.

"This seems to be the courtyard of the eldest brother's two new daughters. I... walked here without paying attention. Why, does Changle want to go back? Or do you want to go in and have a look?"

I was dozing off with squinted eyes on a chair in the yard, when I heard a pleasant voice in a daze, and woke up suddenly.I stood up from the chair quickly, and as soon as I stood up, I saw two people walking into the yard side by side.The teenage girl walking on the left looked like a fairy. It was the first time I saw such a beautiful woman, and even I, who was also a woman, stared blankly for a while.I can't tell what the man's temperament is all about on the right, but I just feel that this man is really a fairy-like figure, and even approaching him feels like a blasphemy.

Looking at these two people, I couldn't help but feel a little ashamed, I pulled my clothes restrainedly, and didn't know what to say.These two people must be masters, but I don't know which master they are.The head of the Liu family also only lived in the family of the elder of the Liu family, the second master of the Liu family and his daughter.Could it be that these two are the second master of the Liu family and his daughter?The woman's age is right, but the man looks only in his twenties, which is not at all the same age as the second master.And I think it would be more appropriate to say that these two are a father and daughter, rather than a husband and wife...

"Are you the nurse of the two little nieces? I am the second master of the Liu family, and this is Miss. Let's take a look at the two little nieces, please guide me."

It turned out to be the second master and his daughter, the second young lady of the Liu family!I thought in surprise and didn't answer for a while.It took me a while to react, and the two of them didn't show any dissatisfaction. The second master repeated it gently, but the second lady's expressionless expression made me a little uneasy. Could it be that the second lady is dissatisfied with me?This time I nodded quickly: "My husband's family name is Lin, so it's good for Master and Miss to call me Nanny Lin. The two ladies just fell asleep, so I'll take Master and Miss to see it."

This second master not only looks like a fairy, but also has a really good temper. I occasionally heard those little maids say that they would be beaten and scolded if they made a small mistake or their master was in a bad mood.It turns out that not all the masters of these rich families are like that. I sneaked another look at the young lady who had always looked cold, and found that she was looking at the two sleeping young ladies, her eyes were unexpectedly soft, and she even reached out to touch them. small face.

"What are the names of the two little nieces?" The second master looked at me for a while and suddenly asked me softly.

I was startled, and lowered my head subconsciously, lowering my voice: "Master didn't name the two ladies..." In private, I call my two children Da Niu Er Niu. I have only one son and no daughter. Nursing them, more or less regarded them as their own children, so they gave these two nicknames in private.But this kind of thing can't be said, otherwise I might be unlucky, no matter how unfavored, the names of the two young ladies can't be chosen casually by my nanny.

"No name?" The second master was a little surprised, but then he understood again, and sighed: "Brother really..."

I shrank to the side and didn't dare to talk casually. The second master looked at the young lady next to him again, "Changle, tell me, what should be the names for these two children? I think you might as well let you, the older sister, help them choose the names. Tomorrow, I will go and tell my elder brother that the two little nieces should not have proper names as they get older, so as to save elder brother from worrying about it."

It turned out that the second lady was called Chang Le. After watching for a while, I realized that the second lady didn't look like a villain, but the expression on her face was really scary.

"The sound of the piano, the rhyme of the piano." The second lady blurted out without even thinking about it. As expected of a literate lady, a random name sounds much better than an illiterate commoner like me.

"The sound of the piano is melodious and the rhyme is long... These two children will definitely have a thorough heart for the piano in the future." After the second master finished speaking, he looked at the two young ladies who were snuggled up and sleeping together for a while, and then left with the second lady. .

The next day I heard that the Grand Master named Miss Four and Miss Five Qin Yin and Qin Yun, and I couldn't help being happy for the two girls who finally had names.It's just that after that day, I never saw the second master and Miss Changle come to see these two ladies.

Until one day three months later, I went to the toilet and came back, and accidentally saw two people lying on the ground in the room of the two young ladies.It was the second master of the Liu family and Miss Changle. I was so frightened that I bravely stepped forward to test their breath.Finding that I was out of breath, I sat down on the ground, staring at the two corpses with a tight throat.

The two ladies on the bed were still sound asleep, and I was the only one in the yard, my mind was so buzzing that I didn't know what to do.Standing up tremblingly, he felt that his legs were too weak to walk, so he could only lean against the door.Suddenly there was a loud human voice outside the yard, I was startled, and when I saw the corpse in front of me, I suddenly became terrified. If someone finds out that I am the only one here, maybe I will be regarded as a murderer.

I listened to the movement outside in a panic, and hid in the closet in a panic, clutching my clothes tightly and not daring to make a sound.

"Hmph, so what if you escape here, you are still dead. If you threaten my position as Patriarch, blame you for being too ignorant, don't blame big brother for being cruel, ha, yes, who knows if you are My second brother. But it’s all over now, he’s dead, so I don’t have to worry about it in the future. Housekeeper, let someone bury the body properly. Let’s say that the second master died of a serious illness. As for the second lady, He also died of a serious disease while taking care of his father. Those servants who know about this, you know what to do, right?"

"Yes, because of taking care of the second master and second lady, he was infected with a serious disease and died."

"Well, not bad." The voice stopped, and suddenly there were footsteps coming.I was so scared that I covered my mouth and huddled tightly in the corner. When I heard what I said just now, I knew that the person who spoke was the elder of the Liu family, and what he meant was that he killed the second master and the young lady, and he wanted to kill those who knew this thing people.I don't want to die, I wish I didn't hear about it!

"These are my two daughters? They look pretty good, and they may be of some use in the future. Let Madam take good care of them so that they can be used to pave the way for Feng'er in the future."

"Yes, master."

It turned out that he didn't notice me, but was just looking at the two ladies on the bed.I just breathed a sigh of relief, and when I heard the words of the elder of the Liu family, I began to feel sad for the two young ladies, who would be used as bargaining chips by their biological father at such a young age...

I don't know how long I have been hiding, but there is no sound outside.I heard my own heartbeat in the small cabinet.Finally, I mustered up the courage to open the cabinet. It was getting late outside, and the sunset glow was as red as glaring blood.There was nothing left at the place where there were two corpses before, as if what I saw and heard back then was not true, I was in a trance for a while.

It's just that my hands are still sore from too much force, my feet are numb, and my underwear is sticky and sticky to my back... All this tells me that I have indeed heard an amazing secret just now.I approached the bed in a nonchalant manner, and I saw that the two young ladies had already woken up, looking at me with their dark eyes open, neither crying nor fussing.Thinking of what their biological father said, I had a sore nose and leaned over to hug the two children.

"The big girl and the second girl are good, it's okay..." The two children stayed in my arms quietly, and I shed tears all over my face, because I was afraid and felt sad for the future of these two children, but what did I say? Can't do it.

Later, every time I heard those people talk about the two masters and some servants who died of serious diseases, I felt chills in my heart, and I dared not say anything, and left in a hurry as soon as I heard these things.Dreaming back at midnight, I would always hear the conversation between the elder of the Liu family and the kind-looking butler of the Liu family. It was really scary to decide the life and death of those people so easily.

As time passed, I began to forget those things.An An will be my nanny with peace of mind. After the two ladies don't need to nurse, I will still be left at Liu's house to take care of them.The two young ladies are the most obedient children I have ever seen. They are always quiet and make people feel very distressed.But the masters of the Liu family don't like them very much, they can only grow up quietly in this small courtyard, with only me as a servant by my side.

Every time I see them playing and sleeping together so obediently, I feel sad.The old man said that such a child is always more troubled.If it is possible, I am really willing to reduce ten years of life to make them live better.Over the past few years, I have regarded them as my own children, watching them grow up and get better, but no one cares, they are alone in this yard, they never make noise for their parents, and they never even come out of this small yard One step... Seeing their obedient and sensible appearance, I can't help turning around and wiping my tears.

Fourth Miss doesn't like to talk very much, she always has no expression, but every time she sees me sad, she will come to hold my hand, and Fifth Miss is also relatively quiet, but she has a nice smile, and every time she sees me looking at them and wiping tears Will come with my sister and call me Mammy in a soft voice.

They have never seen the sky outside this small courtyard, nor have they seen their mother who died early, and their father doesn't care about them, and may even marry them off in the future... They don't know what these things mean, but I do, so I think sad.But listening to these two children leaning against me and calling me Mammy, and seeing their innocent smiling faces and expressions, I could only smile and say to them: "The big girl and the second girl are playing obediently, and Mammy is fine, it's just that I was blown away by the wind and sand." Lost my eyes."

When the two girls were nine years old, someone came to teach them how to read and write. The two girls are very smart and can learn quickly. I am relieved to see them like this. It is always good to learn more things. Then they can live a better life on their own.

Because of the excellence of the two young ladies, the elder of the Liu family also asked them to meet with them several times.At that time, I was always worried and happy in my heart. The happy thing was that maybe the elders of the Liu family would not marry them off casually when they saw how outstanding the two ladies were. Let them marry into more complex families.The two young ladies are innocent, kind, and ignorant of worldly affairs, how could they beat those shrewd housewives.

When I was free, I began to tell the two ladies some secrets about the inner house that I heard from other places, hoping that they would be mentally prepared for the place where they would live in the future, but I didn’t know much about it, so I could only warn them repeatedly They should be careful to protect themselves from being deceived, and don't trust unfamiliar people casually.

I did this more to reassure myself. Even if I just repeated these old words, the two ladies listened to me patiently every time, without any impatience.Why are such two good children born in this kind of family? If they are really my own daughters, I will treat them well, find a reliable lover for them, and live a solid life.Even if that kind of life may be poorer, I am not willing to let them suffer in the future.

No matter how worried I am, the days pass by day by day.When the two girls were 15 years old, the master made a marriage for them.Let the two ladies be aunts to some powerful prince.I heard that the prince's son is already several years older than the two ladies, and he already has many wives and concubines.So what if it's a prince, maybe it's better to marry ordinary people, maybe they can live a better life.

I started to cry when I saw the two beautiful young ladies, no matter how much they tried to persuade me, I couldn't persuade them.The two stupid children are going to be sent to that place by their father, but I don't know how to fight... But I also know that even if I fight, it's useless, their father doesn't care about them at all.

But are my two good ladies going to ruin their whole lives? They are only so young and haven't seen many things well.I'm really sad, it's like cutting flesh from my heart.

The two ladies were finally carried away by two sedan chairs.The night before, Miss Si, who never liked to talk, took the initiative to hold my hand and promised me that she would take good care of her younger sister.Fifth Miss stood quietly, watched me wipe my tears and smiled and told me that she would take good care of my sister. They all reassured me, but how could I be relieved.

But looking at the firm expressions of the two of them, I found that I couldn't refute it at all. I still have my own son to take care of, and my home is here.And the two ladies will return to Chang'an with the prince who came to Jiangnan for a visit in three days.In the future, Tian Gaoshui Chang will never see him again.In the end, I could only watch them with swollen eyes as they were sent away, leaving the small courtyard where they had lived for more than ten years, getting farther and farther away from me.

No decent wedding, no red wedding dress, no matching husband...

That day, I met a servant who used to be acquainted with Liufu, and she told me that the prince whom the child married died of a sudden illness, and the two children also died of illness.I don't know how they died, I only know that they are no longer there, the two good children I watched growing up died, the big girl and the second girl, and I can't even collect their bodies.

I have been blaming myself. Every night I dream of those two children sleeping in my arms when they were very young.Sometimes you called me Mama when you just learned to speak, sometimes you came to me when you learned to recite poems when you were nine years old, and sometimes when you were 15 years old, you were able to stand in a beautiful dress and say goodbye to me at the school gate for the first time. , and even looked like they were murdered and lying on the ground covered in blood.Every time I wake up, I can touch the tears all over my face.

Then, one day when I came home, I saw a letter and a box of silver on the table.There were only four words written on that letter: "We live." They also taught me a few words before they left, so I could understand them, and I could see that those words seemed to be written by Fifth Miss, my second written by girl.They said they were alive, alive...

I put the piece of paper on my chest and cried, my children are not dead, they are still alive and well.No matter where they are, as long as they are still alive, even if I never see them again, I know they are fine.

When I get old, I still think about those two missing children. I think the most regrettable thing in my life is that I can't see what they look like after they are 15 years old.

The author has something to say: Is there any girl who can't figure out who those two innocent, straightforward, obedient, sensible and kind ladies who died of illness after marrying the prince are? [It's breathless to say this sentence in one breath] The next chapter visually predicts that the princess will appear~