little city

Another new school year has begun. Walking on the campus, everything looks joyful.The innocent faces walked into a new world, with expectations, longings and happy smiles on their faces.This world is both beautiful and cruel. I hope that after four years, I will not forget my original intention and leave with a smile.

I bought a Nokia mobile phone and wanted to give it to Jingshu. I exchanged it with my sweat.I stood at the exit of the train station, waiting for the train back to school.I waited anxiously, as if waiting for Jingshu was the normal state of my life, and I enjoyed it with peace of mind.

Time passed by little by little, until all the people on this train had left, and I didn't see Jingshu either. I thought I might have missed her with Jingshu, so I went back to school to find her.

The housekeeper aunt knew me, and she called the dormitory directly for me, saying that Jingshu wasn't here.I called Jingshu's house but no one answered.I don't know what happened, I just feel a little uneasy.

There was a couple next to me, and they were kissing heartily, as if no one was there.My heart was heavy, and I was so worried about Jingshu. At this moment, Jingshu's roommate Xiaoli came out.

"Jingshu has dropped out of school, don't you know?"

"Suspension of school? True or false? When did it happen?"

"Her father came to the school to organize it yesterday. It should be a decision made during the summer vacation."

I stood there blankly, recalling the scene of parting, and suddenly understood something, maybe Jing Shu had already made a decision.

I left the girls' dormitory and ran to the playground, crying bitterly while running.I always thought that I could bring Jingshu back to reality by waiting silently, but before I did my best, she had already gone in another direction, and it was difficult to turn back.How I wish I could turn back time and love her more.I always thought that the time is still very long, the days are still very long, and I never thought that life will change as soon as it changes.

I felt so much grief that I knelt down and couldn't help crying.

Back in the dormitory, Jiang Tao was not there. Dongdong saw me in pain, went to a small supermarket outside to buy beer and peanuts, and drank with me in the dormitory.

I didn't want to tell him Jingshu's story in detail, and he didn't ask too much, just kept telling me: "Isn't she just a woman? Let me tell you, after crying today, in the future, remember not to pay too much attention to women. Women are like this, if you treat them well, they will care less about you, and if you don't like them, they will feel sad for you."

Dongdong was like Jiang Tao possessed, and began to talk endlessly.I didn't speak, but the wine was in my heart and my tears fell like rain.

I was decadent in the dormitory for another week, using the same worry-relieving methods every time, watching movies, smoking, sleeping, and reading novels.Live life in a daze.

I blame myself, I feel guilty, and I spend every day in contradictions, just like moths, dragging their feet on life.Next to me is the little pig that Jingshu gave me, which is my birthday present.I hugged the little pig and cried, hugged the little pig and laughed, and hugged the little pig in a daze.I buried my head in the little pig's arms, where Jingshu's breath remained, and I fell into a deep sleep, just like hugging Jingshu.

A week later, I got a letter, and I nervously opened the envelope.

little,

Hello, how are you doing?Without my news, I know you must be very worried about me, but there is nothing I can do.

I just left, I don't know if you can forgive me?Do you understand my decision?But I believe that you can adjust yourself and live your life well.

You must be wondering where am I?what happened?Because my condition was getting worse and worse, my parents took me to a hospital in Beijing for an examination during the summer vacation. The result of the examination was moderate depression.The doctor prescribed a lot of medicine to let me work and rest normally, keep exercising, and reduce irritation.

When I got home from Beijing, my parents accompanied me to my grandma's house.This is a small city in western Sichuan, everything is pure, the sky is blue, the clouds are white, the air is fresh, the people are peaceful, I feel the long-lost spiritual release here.

The most surprising thing is that there is also a temple on the outskirts of the small town, and my mother comes here with me every day.The temple is also built on the mountainside, with a blue lake in front and mountains behind it soaring into the clouds. The two yellow fruit trees in front of the temple also have a history of thousands of years. The tall trunks and huge leaves shade the sun and protect one side.

I often come here to meditate recently, and after getting acquainted with the presiding abbot, I found out that the abbot and Master Zhiming are old friends.I think all of this is preordained in the dark.

The abbot gave me a lot of help. The suffering in life is the ladder to the world of bliss. In the world of Zen, if you cultivate your heart, be kind to others, practice hard every day, and make great efforts every day, you will surely achieve great success.

Suffering did not knock me down, and the scene of Yuchen's departure will always be a pain that I can't get rid of.Love is the best gift in life, and none of us can escape it.

What Professor Du did was the result of his impurity. After experiencing this incident, I think he will reflect on himself in the future, and he will still have great cultivation.

You have a big heart, and the greater your desire, the more pain you will inevitably bring.I hope you can persevere in your practice and never slack off.

During this month, my heart was very peaceful, and all the troubles of the past have been left behind. What Professor Du has done has inspired me to leave the secular society for a while. It is even more difficult for me to escape such a despicable thing from my inner desire and the shackles of love.

I really like where I am right now.I also hope you can be happy, as long as you are happy, I will be happy for you.

People's real happiness comes from giving and doing good, being kind to others, and saving all living beings.

Jing Shu

I quietly read Jingshu's letter, everything was as I imagined, but my heart was very peaceful.As long as she's okay and alive, I breathe a sigh of relief.

At this time, I developed a strong interest in guitar, so I continued to study. The guitar teacher, surnamed Yu, was a teacher at the School of Music at the school. He had three lessons a week.I put all my energy into music, playing the piano in the dormitory all day and all night, and my skills improved rapidly.Originally, I had a little foundation in guitar, so I stood out in this class, coupled with the melancholy temperament endowed by the pain of being broken up in a relationship, Teacher Yu and the classmates seemed to like me very much.

On weekends, Mr. Yu invited me to his music salon. In fact, it was a few music-loving friends who were also students of our school to chat in his music room.Teacher Yu said that we are the most talented among his amateur students in the past two years.Among them was Tao Zi, with long hair, introverted personality, and not good at speaking. At first, he didn't attract my attention. Later, Teacher Yu asked Tao to play a song, and I found out that he was a genius hidden in the corner.

That day, Mr. Yu told us about his music history, life insights, study abroad life, etc., which made us young people excited.Everyone discusses skills and discusses life together, and a group of like-minded people together makes me feel like I have found a sense of belonging.