I am wholehearted with Jotaro

185

Only the long darkness and waiting remained in Miss Zero's memory.

Until I appeared beyond my control, went to various worlds to collect her body and soul fragments, and put her back together in my own body.

And Miss Zero really kept her promise.

When she was in Academy City, she regained consciousness briefly, and then began to try to erode my spirit base.

And I, as a novice Heroic Spirit, relying on the huge magic power of the Holy Grail—actually Miss Zero’s magic power—turned myself into a mobile power station, supplying magic to the Heroic Spirits of the singularity.

I was defenseless against Miss Zero.

And so dependent on her.

186

I re-watched this trip to another world from the perspective of Miss Zero.

From this small size, she saw that I was a little silly when I was young, youthful and enthusiastic, reckless about everything, and seemed not afraid of anything.

She doesn't understand, and can't understand.

187

I feel what she feels.

She didn't understand why I embarked on this journey; she didn't understand why I chose to become a Heroic Spirit; In her view, it must end in death.

I never knew that she had been telling me from the bottom of her heart: Give up, everything you do is meaningless.

Even if a miracle happens, you can't do anything, you can't save anything.

Why force yourself?You are not a savior, you are just an ordinary 17-year-old girl - just enjoy life, what does the destruction of the world have to do with you?

So in order to understand me, in order to understand the meaning of my actions, she began to look through my memory.

188

After she watched my first episode, she was silent for a long time.

I couldn't understand her feelings during that time, because it was too complicated.

...As an ancient god (beast) who has never been in touch with people and entertainment, Ms. Zero was actually impressed by the rich manga, light novels, and game inventories in my mind at first.

After being brainwashed by the illusory culture of human beings, Ms. Zero gave herself the current name-in fact, it is not the middle two I complained about at the beginning, but she herself believes that she is an existence that dies before birth.

Exactly zero.

Before becoming one, all possibilities were forever obliterated, but it was finally difficult to return to the peace of death, a sad life that had to stay in the world.

——Well, sure enough, even now I can't get her mood at that time, and I still think she is a second child.

189

After reading my experience, Miss Zero is full of confusion about the existence of human beings.

Weak and pitiful, struggling to survive, unwilling to die.

It is a pitiful and lovely existence.

Then she strengthened that determination even more.

Take away my body, liberate me from the fate of saving the world, and then bestow chaos on the world and liberate all life.

Whether it is good or bad, it will eventually return to zero.

Then the world will welcome the Mother Goddess of Creation again, and the Mother Goddess will give birth to a new life again, allowing the world to complete a huge reincarnation.

190

Miss Zero thought firmly.

"This is my destiny!"

191

I covered my head as I watched, thinking to myself.

——Sure enough, I shouldn’t have watched so many other-world fantasy anime back then!

Look at the premise of not being properly guided, what kind of animations have taught the children squatting at home!

Well, I hope Xu Lun will not be like Miss Ling in the future.

But Jotaro should be fine.

Well, Jotaro will be fine!

192

"I really don't understand where your strange trust in that heroic spirit comes from." Miss Zero suddenly appeared behind me, her eyes swept across the darkness around her indifferently, and then she looked over, "I obviously liberated you, and As a thank you, I sent you to the world where you have the highest sense of happiness, acquiesced in humanity and summoned heroic spirits to guard you, even prepared a new body for you, and protected your soul, so that you can reach your destination intact. "

"But Fujimaru Tachika," she looked at me seriously, "I gave you life, but why, you who once shouted to save the world just to live, voluntarily chose to die out of fate, and returned to life again In front of me?"

"Are you going to be the savior?"

193

I shook my head firmly at Miss Zero.

Miss Zero frowned, and continued puzzledly, "In this case, why did you come back? Isn't it good to end your life in that world? Marrying the man you like and raising you and his daughter is not what you humans yearn for. The so-called happiness?"

I fell silent under her questioning, and then suddenly asked, "Miss Zero, why do you want to save Tiamat so much?"

Miss Zero's face was hidden in the darkness, and as a human -- or a half-baked Heroic Spirit, I really couldn't make out her expression now.

But I sensed her puzzlement and confusion from her sudden silence.

After a long time, she answered, "Because that's my mother."

"She is the only mother in the world who empathizes with me and loves my mother deeply."

"Even if I was about to be exiled to the sea of ​​void, the mother who left me in this world..."

194

After she finished speaking, there was another silence between us.

After a long time, her voice sounded, relieved and calm.

"I see."

She came over.

His face was full of pity.

"It turned out that I sent you on this road—" she sighed.

"If I had known this, I would have sent you to an even more distant era."

195

I laughed, then shook my head, and replied, "No, even if you stop me, the world won't fall into chaos as you hoped."

I pondered for a while, and then said again, "Miss Zero, what exactly is the chaos you are expecting?"

She didn't seem to have thought about such a question. She opened her mouth, then closed it in confusion again. After thinking about it, she finally answered with doubts, "Pull the world into darkness...and then, let everyone Feel the way I used to feel.”

"It's darkness, it's pain, it's nothingness."

196

"Even as you said, Tiamat's love will always be with you, do you still feel lonely and miserable, and empty?"

Miss Zero looked at me and replied, "...You must know that no matter how deep the love is, it will eventually be submerged in the darkness."

197

I watch her.

I did not speak.

Instead, she watched me look more and more vulnerable.

Finally, she shivered and said softly, "Am I wrong? My mother's love is with me, but after thousands of years, I can no longer feel her love. There is only darkness and pain, I even hope that my mother will take me to the Sea of ​​Imaginary Numbers together! Not like now... not like now..."

She covered her face with her hands.

"Not now—"

198

I added the last words with her.

"Lonely."

199

Miss Zero looked up at me.

"Fujimaru Rika."

She calls my name.

"If your soul is swallowed by me now, at least you will die as a savior." She said softly, "My body and your spirit foundation have already begun to fuse, and now they are cocooning."

"You chose to suppress my soul, but your spiritual base has been deeply eroded by me, and even the most fundamental legends will leave me a place."

"You are no longer the savior."

"Even so, do you choose to go back?"

200

I stretched out my hand to Miss Zero and said with a smile, "I'm not a savior in the first place."

She looked at my outstretched hand and looked closely into my eyes.

As if a little unwilling, she asked again.

"Even if you will become the enemy of the world, do you choose to go back?"

I nodded, and memories of getting along with everyone emerged in my mind.

The wedding between me and Jotaro surfaced.

The days I spent with Xu Lun emerged.

"Yes. Miss Zero." I looked at her without flinching or fear, "I choose to go back."

"No matter what happens, I will go back."

201

"Go back to the people I love, and the people who love me."

202

Zero-san stared at me deeply and closed her eyes with an expression that looked like she was about to cry.

"I'm tired," she said softly.

"I'm going to sleep for a while."

"When I wake up..." She paused, "Show me the perfect ending like those stories in your memories."

203

The streaks that appeared on her body faded.

Moth wings disappear into dots of star marks.

The huge horn gradually shrinks.

In the end she turned into a girl with long blue hair.

204

She is nothing like me.

205

My consciousness gradually rose up and regained the dominance of this body.

The Cave King seems to have been watching the fusion and battle between souls in my spiritual world without gunpowder.

I couldn't see his figure and cloak, but I could see a warm orange dot drifting away.

The faint smell of smoke disappeared into the air.

206

I opened my eyes again.

What came into my eyes was the blue sky of Uruk with gunpowder smoke and war flames.

Not too far ahead is a team headed by Li Xia and Matthew, followed by the big brother of Paradise and Anna and the other heroic spirits.

Da Vinci and Doctor Affinity are vying for the projection position.

Da Vinci held up the tablet that once belonged to me and shouted, "Lixiang's card face—Lixiang's card face has changed!"

207

I am very playful.

I made a standard meditator's action in mid-air, and then recalled the appearance of the villain when I watched cartoons with Xu Lun many years ago, laughed exaggeratedly, and then opened my hands to the sky.

"Hahahahahahaha—start now, let the world reincarnate!"

208

The world was eerily quiet.

Behind him came the sound of wind and black mud rolling.

Then from Lixia's camp, there was a 'poof'.

Then, Gilgamesh, who has now become a Caster, laughed out loud while sitting on what could be called a rudimentary frame.

"Hahahahahahahahaha, for miscellaneous cultivators, this is really an excellent performance! Hahahahahahahahahahaha."

209

This is too disrespectful.

I retracted my arm in embarrassment, then pretended nothing happened, and waved to Lixia.

"O Doudou! I'm back!"

Li Xia looked up at me, let out a long sigh of relief, then smiled helplessly, and said, "Welcome back, sister."

210

I jumped out of my cocoon in midair.

Then fluttered Miss Ling Ling's pair of moth wings.

In the end, because he was a purebred human being, he failed to fly and fell screaming.

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It was too late yesterday, then I fell asleep OTZ

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