Bungo Playing Game

Hasumi hugged the trembling young man, feeling that this was an incomparably wonderful thing.He never hugged anyone, anyone, not once.

And still as someone else.

This is the first time.

Atsushi Nakajima was muttering something, and in a low voice, some words slowly crawled out from between his lips and teeth.Hasumi vaguely heard the words "leader" and "battle", and the rest was only something vague like smoke.

Hasumi seems to have only been in contact with the one from over there, but where is the other Akutagawa Ryunosuke?Hasumi thought that the two of them would be like conjoined twins, where one would go and the other would follow, but now it seems that is not the case.

The two should have been separated for several days, and they didn't hide the news of the former. Isn't it easy for the latter to find here?The other party either didn't want to look for it, or deliberately left some time.

Hasumi thought that the relationship between the two of them was pretty good...

Hasumi, who doesn't know what happened in their world, doesn't dare to determine the real relationship between the two.Maybe it's a friend, maybe it's just a companion.But how to say, everything is his personal idea.If you don't get the answer from the person concerned, you can't know the truth.

After a few minutes, probably because he felt that his faux pas could not continue, Atsushi Nakajima pushed, and then broke free from the young man's not-so-strict hug.He wiped the cold sweat on his forehead with the side of his palm in embarrassment, the sticky feeling was unbearable.

"Thank you." The other party's voice was as light as a feather.

The young man who has always been in clown mode in front of others hummed softly.The corners of his mouth curled slightly, down at first, then pulled up deliberately.

"Ha...it's nothing, I don't know how to comfort people at all."

Not only can't comfort people, but also can't chat easily with others.Every time he chats with others, he always chats with others with a trembling heart.Smile... even a crying smile will make people feel that the distance between the two has been drawn closer.

"Actually, I really like talking to others, but I don't always have time." When the other party said this, he kept rubbing his fingers against the side of his palm.When Hasumi used to think about things, he would often rub the knuckles of his fingers.Later, I found that this action was easy to be seen through, so Hasumi changed this habit later.

The other party is lying.This young man is very clear about this matter, and it is not "no time" at all.

"Promising to other people is also very tiring." The young man's hands hidden in his sleeves were uncomfortably clenched into two fists, and he was now speaking loudly in order to overcome his timidity.

Neither of them are very good at talking...

After a while, two leaves fluttered and fell from the tree. The young man suddenly said, "You are very different from Atsushi. His words are very enthusiastic, just like the passionate protagonist in the animation." Hasumi thought for a while After a while, I came up with a description that I thought was very suitable for the other party.

After finishing speaking, Hasumi felt that something was wrong again, and turned his head sideways, with a thin shadow on his face.

Atsushi Nakajima seemed to be smiling, with a small arc on the corner of his mouth.

"It's really enviable." He closed his eyes, as if imagining what the hot-blooded protagonist in the youth's mouth was like.But Dun couldn't figure it out, so the smile on his face turned into regret.

"I never felt for a moment that I could be that kind of person, and Akutagawa is also like a "protagonist". "

Atsushi Nakajima thinks Akutagawa Ryunosuke is that kind of person.

"It's amazing... very amazing," the young man also said in an envious tone.

"In the past, I have never encountered the opportunity to become a protagonist, as if that vocabulary is always missing in my life."

"I heard that adolescence is the easiest time to have everything, but flowers will bloom again, and people will never be young again."

"But if I were a teenager again, I'd still be the same old me."

How can a person look down on himself to use the word "old" to describe himself and his life?

The white boy intertwined his hands, fingers intertwined weakly.Just like Akutagawa felt before, he was like a plant without any breath.Atsushi Nakajima didn't look at the young man, but just looked in front of his feet.A bird actually flew to the ground in front of them, looking for something edible.It searched and searched, and finally found a crumb of bread.It was probably left behind by the people who sat here before.

"I have always felt that I am humble, because not only did I misunderstand other people's kindness, but I will never be able to escape from that horror." Atsushi Nakajima's eyes were a little dazed. He remembered many things, and when he was alive, Thinking of when I was in the orphanage, and thinking of my appearance in hell that I had dreamed about for several nights.He felt that everything was terrifying, and all the colors in this world became darker with every reminder of memory.There is a kind of consciousness in the world that seems to be unable to see him well. Whenever he realizes that he is about to have something, the horrible memory will be pushed out by a pair of invisible hands and placed in front of his eyes.

Every time he would think of the dean, the dean of the orphanage whom he had killed, and the unfinished smile on his rigid face before he died.

'78, congratulations, you graduated. '

The dean's last words have turned into a curse that will never dissipate.

"Everyone is helping me, but every time I fail their good intentions. Will they forgive me?" Atsushi Nakajima, who is obviously silent to others, seems to have countless things to think about when facing this young man. To tell the other party.It was the same before.Even though it was the first time he met him, Nakajima had the idea of ​​"wanting to protect the other party" and "must protect the other party".

It was weird, but he couldn't stop the mood from overflowing.

The young man's eyes became erratic.

"Would you believe me if I told you yes?"

He himself does not know.When he was young, he thought he could see the essence of people clearly, but as he got older, he would feel that he was the only one in this world who was stupid.Even the not-so-intelligent guys he used to look down on sometimes displayed intelligence that made him ashamed.

So ashamed.

Atsushi Nakajima couldn't answer.He was sick, but no one came to treat him.He has always been hung by the leader's order, and he has lived with difficulty like stepping on a tightrope by means of a rope hanging from the sky.

The young man took a breath, as if warming himself in winter.But the weather was not cold at all, and there was no cloud of white gas in the air.His breath disappeared in mid-air like this.

"I want to die. Or rather, I have tried to die several times, but without success."

Once he told the story of his own life, the tone of the young man's speech became illusory.He didn't feel like he was telling stories about himself, but stories he had heard from others.

"Twice I agreed to commit suicide with others, and three times I committed suicide by myself. At that time, I was always able to get enough sleeping pills."

"I've done things like hanging myself, and jumping into a river, but in the end I'm always the one left. Sometimes I wonder if I'm being punished by God, and I must live in this world to suffer."

"Finally died..."

Atsushi Nakajima's eyes moved. He felt that the young man was already a little too immersed in his memory, so it might not be wrong to say something wrong.

"I dare not, I cannot do it."

"I am very afraid of death, afraid of being killed, and even afraid of being hurt."

"In order not to be killed by death, I merge into death."

Only a person with courage can do this, and he is a coward who is too weak to even imagine death.

The two people with ailments chatted in this way, because they occupied the bench for a long time, and everyone who came and went here knew that there were two strange people who had been wandering around (referring to sitting here).

Can't sit here any longer.

Hasumi asked: "Is there any place you want to go? Because if you sit here all the time, there will be more and more people." Everyone came out at night. In the autumn season, everyone always likes to go out for a walk.

Atsushi Nakajima thought for a moment, "I want to go to the beach. I have never been to the beach just once, every time it was because of a mission or something happened."

So the two of them decided to go to the beach.

The beach is not far from here. In fact, as long as you stand on the tall buildings, they can overlook the edge of the sea.In summer, there are many people who come to the beach, and they often wave some fireworks sticks.That's beautiful.

But today there are very few people.The two of them waited on the edge for a while, and the only person on the beach left.

So there were only the two of them left here.

The waves hit the shore at a slow frequency, and a lot of the sand was wet, and there were still a lot of shells washed up on the sand.

Atsushi Nakajima wears waterproof boots, so when the sea rises, he will not be embarrassed by wet feet.But the young man only wears clogs, and inside the clogs are white socks.He didn't dare to approach, but hid far away where the sea water couldn't reach.

The air is so quiet, only the sound of water, and no human voice can be heard.

……

……

Akutagawa Ryunosuke lit the fire again and again, and the metal part of the lighter became hot.He found a pack of cigarettes and a lighter where he was sitting, and he didn't know who left it.

He is waiting for someone.

Akutagawa is waiting for Osamu Dazai, the "man in black" of this world.The other party seemed to have something to say to him.

When Akutagawa couldn't bear it anymore and wanted to leave, the young man in the sand-colored windbreaker came calmly.

"I've actually been wanting to talk to you, but haven't had the time."

"Life is really busy. For this and for that, my brain is really not enough."

Akutagawa did not express his thoughts at first.

Dazai said again: "I want to ask that, what kind of person am I on your side? Akutagawa-kun."

Akutagawa Ryunosuke felt chills when he heard this name.His dark eyes were fixed on the young man in front of him, and his tone was slightly disgusted.

"you are dead."

It was not Osamu Dazai in front of him who died, but Osamu Dazai from them.

"The ones who jumped off the stairs died. The ones who fell to their death."

Unexpectedly, there was still a moving expression on the young man's face.

Before, a memory flooded into Dun's mind, a memory of someone falling from a tall building.

In this way, you will be connected.

"It's a wonderful change. I've heard that you and Ton-kun work in the detective agency and the port respectively. To you, what kind of people are you in the detective agency?"

This time Akutagawa answered quickly.

"My subordinates believe that Kenji is a very smart person. He knows a lot about agriculture. He is also very strong."

"Edogawa is like a child."

"It was scary with Dr. Yosano."

……

"Mr. Oda is unpredictable."

When Akutagawa spoke the last words, the young man with black curly short hair raised his eyes.

He showed a smile like a wry smile.

"So, has he succeeded in writing the novel he wants to write?"

Akutagawa felt that the man in black in front of him was very strange, and he had been entangled in other people's lives.

"Let's go down."

Without replying, he got up resolutely and went out from the room.