Pregnant with His Highness' cub before becoming a monk

Shifang followed the Queen Mother and the two princesses to the Buddhist hall to offer incense.

The Buddhist hall in this garden has always been taken care of by a special person on weekdays, so the incense is almost never cut off.

"There are Buddhist halls in the palace and in the garden." The queen mother said slowly after entering the incense: "So when I heard that you were going to practice in Qingyin Temple, the Ai family didn't quite agree. Since you plan to practice, you must If you have a pious heart, it doesn't matter where you go, why bother to look far away?"

Shi Fang knelt on the futon beside him and listened quietly, probably guessing what the Queen Mother was going to say to him.

Speaking of which, since Shifang is the adopted son of the Empress Dowager, he has no blood relationship with the Empress Dowager.Although he grew up in the palace when he was young, his time with the Queen Mother was not too long, because the Queen Mother devoted herself to cultivating Buddhism, not only with Shifang, but also with the other princes and princesses. limited.

But for some reason, the Queen Mother has always been partial to Shifang.

Although she is not connected by blood, she has a lot of affection for Shifang.

"But back then you had grown up and had your own ideas. Your Majesty and the Queen didn't stop you, and the Ai family couldn't stop you." The queen mother sighed.

"Why did the imperial grandmother bring up this matter again today? Didn't she say she was not attached?" Shi Fang said.

"Aijia is not an obsession, but I suddenly figured it out recently." The Queen Mother looked at Shifang and said, "The reason why you went to Qingyin Temple to practice was not only to avoid the prince, but also the idea of ​​becoming a monk? "

Shi Fang was startled, but nodded without denying it.

The queen mother was a little sad when she heard the words, although she said she was not persistent, she couldn't help but feel sad.

"Can you really be carefree?" asked the Queen Mother.

"When I went to Qingyin Temple five years ago, I brought up the matter of becoming a monk to my master. The master said that my fate in the world is not over, so I will wait until five years later." Shi Fang said slowly: "Five years later, I will bring up the matter of becoming a family again. , Master didn't continue to stop it. It's just..."

Shifang sighed, and said with a wry smile, "The night before I was ordained, I dreamed of His Highness."

"What did you dream about?" asked the Queen Mother.

"Your Highness... asked me why I became a monk without saying hello to him." Shi Fang still felt a little uncomfortable when he thought of that dream.

The Queen Mother thought for a while and said, "Then are you ready to tell him now?"

Shi Fang couldn't help feeling worried when he heard the words, the longer the words were delayed, the harder it would be to say them.

When he first entered the palace, he wanted to find out Li Yi's temperament first, and then confess when the time was right, so as not to annoy the other party.

Unexpectedly, things would develop into this way later, Shi Fang now often faces Li Yi, the guilt in his heart can't stop, and he can't bear to say what he wants to say no matter what.

"Perhaps you are really destined to die, but the Ai family is looking forward to you..." Halfway through the speech, the Empress Dowager realized something was wrong, so she stopped talking and did not continue.

Shi Fang meditated in the Buddhist hall for a while, and when he came out, he saw a small figure nestled in the corridor outside.

Hearing his footsteps, the little figure hurriedly turned to look at him, and called out, "Brother."

"Sheng'er." Shi Fang called out the other party's name with a smile on his face.

The second princess Li Sheng is the same age as the third prince, and they are twins.

When he was young, His Royal Highness the Crown Prince had always disliked the Third Prince, but only liked the Second Princess, so even Shi Fang loved the Second Princess very much.

"Brother, I heard what you and the imperial grandmother said, do you really want to become a monk?" The second princess asked worriedly.

Shifang smiled and said, "It's not a bad thing to become a monk. You will miss your brother in the future, so you can still go to Qingyin Temple to visit him."

The second princess sniffed when she heard the words, looking a little sad.

She has a temperament similar to Li Yi's, with a heavy heart, not as heartless as the third prince.

"Brother, will you have no worries after becoming a monk?" The second princess asked.

"People always have troubles, but if monks stay away from the world of mortals, their troubles will naturally be less." Shi Fang said patiently.

The second princess turned pale when she heard the words, as if knowing that Shifang's troubles would be less, she was a little happier.

"It's a pity that the second brother is the crown prince. He will succeed his father as the emperor in the future, so he can't become a monk." The second princess sighed and said, "He is alone in the East Palace all day, and he must have a lot of troubles. Brother... can you become a monk later , stay in the palace for a few more days, accompany me, and also accompany my second brother."

Shi Fang was taken aback when he heard the words, and couldn't help feeling a little bored.

Li Sheng has a delicate mind, and she can say this, which means that the prince in her eyes is very lonely.

Shi Fang knew that it would be best not to ask this question, but if he asked, it would definitely cause many troubles.

But he still couldn't hold back, and asked, "Your second brother... Is your life very unhappy?"

Li Sheng nodded and said: "I haven't seen him smile for many years. During the days when you returned to the palace, he laughed more times than the sum of all the years in the past. I know that if you become a monk, he may Never laugh again."

Li Sheng's words pierced Shi Fang's heart, making his heart ache.

"His Royal Highness will meet more important people in the future, who can accompany him, make him laugh, and make him happy..." Shi Fang said.

"Is the elder brother talking about the person who will marry the second brother in the future?" Li Sheng asked, "That's the sister-in-law... I just don't know when he will show up, but don't make the second brother wait too long."

Shi Fang wanted to comfort her, but he definitely wouldn't have to wait too long.

But he suddenly thought of the marriage he had "fought/organized" for the prince before, and suddenly became a little worried.

According to that posture...the marriage of His Royal Highness is really far away.

After returning to his residence from the Buddhist hall that day, Shi Fang was in a state of confusion.

For a while, I remembered what the queen mother said, and for a while, I remembered what Li Sheng said.

People in the world often say that there is a kind of fate called "debt collection". What was owed in the previous life will be repaid in this life.

This kind of fate is often used to describe the relationship between parents and children, but Shifang feels that Li Yi has come to him to collect debts all his life.

Shifang didn't know what he owed Li Yi in his last life, but in this life, he always felt that there was something incomplete.

Otherwise, why does he always feel guilty for no reason when facing Li Yi?

When the other party's eyes were red, he softened his heart.

I can't see the other party's grievances, and I don't want the other party to suffer.

Shifang had a lot of thoughts for a while, and he didn't bother to deal with it.

Today is hot, and when he returned to his residence, he was already sweating from the heat.

Yuxing prepared a change of clothes for him and led him to the bathroom.

Unexpectedly, the third prince who had just come over from outside the house hurriedly stepped forward and said to Shifang: "Brother, I'm hot too, let's go take a bath together!"

"There's not only one bathroom in the garden, you don't know what it means to avoid suspicion?" Li Yi didn't know when he came over, and pulled the third prince away from Shifang, and glanced at him coldly At first glance, it was a warning.

The third prince shrank his neck and said in a low voice: "Everyone is a man, there is nothing to avoid!"

"Are you going?" Li Yi asked.

"Let's go, let's go!" The third prince had just been taught a lesson by His Highness the Crown Prince today, so he didn't dare to openly disobey again, so he had to go to another bathroom honestly.

Shi Fang shook his head helplessly, only thinking that the two brothers were close, and didn't think much about it.

He was led by Yuxing to the bathroom, and just as he took off his clothes and entered the pool, he heard footsteps coming from outside the screen.

At first he thought it was the third prince who followed, but he didn't take it seriously.

After a while, Li Yi walked in, walked up to him and sat down with a calm face.

The tall and strong figure of the young man was unobstructed. Although Shi Fang had a clear conscience, he subconsciously avoided his gaze.Just because the masculine style prevails in big banquets, suspicion should be properly avoided between men, especially now that he already knows that Li Yi likes men.

And under Li Yi's questioning that day, he reluctantly admitted that he likes men.

To be precise, he liked no one, but his natural orientation was undeniable, and this was clear in his youth.

"Brother, let me just wipe your back." Li Yi took a cloth towel and moved calmly behind Shifang.

Shi Fang laughed and said, "Your Highness just told His Highness the Third Highness that you want to avoid suspicion, why did you turn around and come here?"

Li Yi didn't look sideways, and said: "I have known since I was a child to avoid suspicion, my brother taught me it myself, did my brother forget it?"

As soon as Shi Fang Jing reminded him, he vaguely remembered a certain past event many years ago.

Shifang was 16 years old that year, which was the age when a young man's mind sprouted.

What he learned in the book made him clearly aware of certain changes and growth of his body.

It was also in that year that Shifang knew that he liked men.

No one in particular, but he just got it...

In this kind of matter, some people are naturally dull, and they have to meet someone they like to be enlightened.

But some people are naturally sensitive, and they can tell the difference by themselves without any stimulation or reminder.

Shifang belongs to the latter.

That year, after he knew that he liked men, he realized that he had to avoid suspicion with everyone, including Li Yi who was clinging to him all day.

Just like when the child grows up, the parents will no longer live with the child.

At that time, Shifang felt that when he grew up, he should no longer live with Li Yi.

At that time, Li Yi was only 11 years old, just an ignorant young man. It stands to reason that Shifang didn't need to "draw a line" with him so early, let alone the two are brothers.But at that time, Shifang had undergone many physical changes, and the more reason for avoiding suspicion was actually the shyness of young people.

He was embarrassed to let Li Yi notice the changes in his body.

It's a pity that Li Yi was too young at the time to think so much, so when Shifang proposed to live separately from him that year, Li Yi was very displeased and refused to compromise for a long time.

"Later, why did His Highness suddenly agree to move out?" Shi Fang asked Li Yi.

Shifang didn't understand this problem at the time, and he still doesn't know the reason to this day.

Li Yi took a cloth towel and slowly wiped Shi Fang's back, and said lightly, "I woke up in the middle of the night and found that you were sleeping on a low couch in the outer hall." It made him sad, so he temporarily gave up the idea of ​​living separately.

But for a while, Shi Fangming still lived with Li Yi, but slept on the low couch in the outer hall in the middle of the night.

After Li Yi found out that night, he didn't sleep all night. The next morning, he heard Shi Fang whispering to the palace man to be careful when putting away the quilt, and don't let him hear it.

"Later, I heard the people in the palace talking about it, saying that it's time for you to discuss marriage. If you still live with Gu, you will be laughed at if it gets out." irrelevant things.

But when Shi Fang heard it, he felt distressed.

After that day, Li Yi never made a fuss again, and moved out quickly.

At that time, Shifang always thought that Li Yi suddenly wanted to leave, and moved out because he felt that he lived well.

But did not expect ...

"I felt sorry for you, so I moved away." Li Yi said lightly.

Shi Fang's heart softened, and he didn't say anything for a long while.

For other teenagers, maybe they were already very independent at the age of 11, not afraid of living by themselves, not afraid of falling asleep alone, not afraid of not being accompanied by anyone.But Li Yi's temperament has been sensitive, timid and even withdrawn since he was a child. Unlike other children, even at the age of 11, "living by himself" is not easy for him.

At that time, Shifang was only 16 years old. He really loved Li Yi, but he couldn't think of this at all.

He didn't realize what Li Yi went through when he was 11 years old until today when he heard Li Yi mention this matter.