doomsday exile

"Do you have any idea?"

"...Uh, I'm quite lucky."

Lu Di glanced at Professor Xia, and decided to tell the truth.

"Lu Yun's more than a dozen sub-personalities quarrel every day, and only reluctantly stop in public places. If they don't need to maintain Lu Yun's life and work, they are all separated from the main body and gain the freedom of independent existence... I dare not Picture that picture, luckily I ran fast."

Lu Di seemed to look for a job early and get rid of it early, and whoever lives with his brothers and sisters is a fool.

Professor Xia didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and rubbed between his brows.

Because Lu Di was right.

When they were observing Hu Qin and Jiang Yu before, they didn't realize that the sub-personalities would quarrel every day.

This has a lot to do with the existence of Huqin.

Hu Qin is the personality responsible for dealing with interpersonal relationships, she will not quarrel with Jiang Yu, but it is different when Ah Ruan comes.

A drama of three personalities.

A Ruan doesn't like Huqin or Jiang Yu. She seems to be a catalyst, turning "calm and stable" into "accelerated and lively".

Lu Di sighed, and looked at Professor Xia sympathetically: "Believe me, if you add another personality, it will be more lively."

"Is the huqin not well coordinated?" Professor Xia asked with interest.

"...How should I put it, Hu Qin's responsibilities determine that she will be smooth and follow the crowd."

Lu Di "sat" down on the chair opposite Professor Xia, stretching his arms relaxedly.

In fact, all the personalities belonging to the "thorn head" don't like Huqin.

Because once there is a conflict, no matter what is right or wrong, Hu Qin’s principle is not to stand on the opposite side of most personalities. There is a feeling that there are more people on the other side. Even if he tries his best to coordinate and smooth things over, he will not please.

"Well, I really don't like Huqin, but Jiang Yu is more annoying... So Huqin is just average with me, and the relationship is relatively ordinary."

Professor Xia listened very carefully, and even took out a notebook to record.

This made Lu Di a little embarrassed.

"Professor, you don't have to..."

"It's okay, it's useful to study psychology."

Professor Xia obviously regarded "Lu Yun and his sub-personality" as a subject. Although he was only responsible for the study of spiritual life forms, regardless of the part of psychotherapy, as the chief person in charge, Professor Xia believed that he must fully understand the situation.

"Xiao Lu, can you talk about your relationship with other personalities?"

"..."

Lu Di looked at the ceiling uncomfortably, and said embarrassingly, "I can't relate to any sub-personality."

Professor Xia continued to ask in a business-like manner: "Do you have anything to say to Lu Yun's first split personality, Ruan?"

"Oh, she's pretty simple."

That is a little girl who loves to play and play, has a very sweet mouth, and can make the elderly happy.

It is said that such a little girl is very popular wherever she goes.

— except for those who hate children.

Lu Di thinks he is.

"The disadvantage is that it's hard to reason, loves to cry... I think you have fully understood these days, right?"

Professor Xia nodded.

Ah Ruan's mind is that of a six or seven-year-old child, and it is difficult to communicate.

Lu Di smiled self-deprecatingly: "She always thought it was because of me, because I was too powerful, causing the main character Lu Yun to fall asleep. So let's not meet each other, otherwise I suspect that she will directly pounce on me and scratch my face—although It doesn't hurt me at all, but it's loud enough to cry, and I suggest not to make such a noise."

"So it is."

Professor Xia was thoughtful, he put down his notebook, and said kindly, "We originally arranged for you to meet because I thought that A Ruan, as the first personality, had a special status in multiple personality cases. help."

Lu Di hesitated to speak.

Professor Xia had an encouraging look on his face: "Actually, Yan Long helped me analyze it, and you feel in your heart that Lu Yun and the other [-] personalities are in close relationship, and you belong to a superfluous existence."

Lu Di is an accident, and accidents are always repulsive.

"... We learned about Lu Yun's past from Hu Qin, Jiang Yu, A Ruan, and we have a deeper understanding of your thoughts." Professor Xia patted Lu Di's gloves on the table.

Lu Di's expression was subtle.

Although Lu Di knew that this day would come, he was still a little uncomfortable being analyzed by others.

Lu Di thought for a while, and then said: "You should already know why Lu Yun split his personality."

Professor Xia nodded slowly.

He knew that if he didn't tell the details, Lu Di was unwilling to mention Lu Yun's privacy.

According to the authoritative theory, the great harm suffered in childhood will lead to the emergence of multiple personalities.

The number of female cases is more than half that of male cases, mainly because girls suffer more sexual assaults.

But this does not include Lu Yun, the real violation that Lu Yun encountered happened when she was in her 20s. Her first personality was not a protector, nor a bearer of pain, but a cute little girl who was loved by everyone. girl.

Of course, it is an exaggeration to say that everyone loves it.

When Lu Yun was six years old, she split into her first personality. How could she clearly know the exact definition of "everyone loves"?

"Ah Ruan has a prototype."

In Xingtan Town, there is a girl who is the same age as Lu Yun, surnamed Ruan, she is the apple of the eye of the family, there is only one girl in four generations, basically she can get whatever she wants.

If you investigate Lu Yun's past and don't go deep into it, but just look at the files, you will find that she is very ordinary.

Both parents are well-rounded and excellent in character and learning.

But that's not the case.

Lu Yun is an unwanted child.

Her story is ordinary, and at first glance it doesn't sound too painful.

A left-behind orphan whose parents work part-time. Her grandparents dislike her, so she can only live with her widowed aunt.

The problem is that this aunt died too early, and Lu Yun didn't have the complete mind to bear it.

Six-year-old Lu Yun, squatting in his aunt's mourning hall, listened to the quarrel among relatives, looked at the faces full of undisguised disgust, and silently lowered his head.

From that day on, she suddenly changed from a taciturn character to a sweet-mouthed, smiling, very likable person.

But that's what the neighbors think.

Neighbors can give an old dress from the east, and a bite of food from the west, but who wants to raise another unrelated girl?

Lu Yun is more than six years old and is about to go to school, and no one will pay her the tuition fees for going to school.In the end, the old factory director of Xingtan Town took Lu Yun and Zhang Le, another orphan, to his home for them to go to school.

Originally, the story ended here, Lu Yun's psychological trauma would gradually heal, and Ah Ruan would slowly disappear.

But the time of happiness and tranquility is very short, and misfortune follows everywhere.

Zhang Le and Lu Yun were on their way from school when a large truck driven by a tired driver crashed into the railing on the side of the road, and Zhang Le was also caught under the wheel.

All this happened right in front of Lu Yun's eyes, and she was also sent to the hospital because of a head injury, and she recovered after half a year.

The driver is from the factory, and the family can't afford the money, so they can only go to jail.

On the day Lu Yun was discharged from the hospital, the old factory manager was diagnosed with cancer and died half a year later.

The old factory manager never formally adopted Zhang Le and Lu Yun, he just looked at the two children as pitiful, and the inheritance was naturally divided among his own children.Fortunately, the old factory manager made arrangements before his death, and entrusted Lu Yun to a female teacher at the school, and gave him some money.

The female teacher, surnamed Hu, is very capable and often goes to other places to solicit sponsorship. She is the prototype of Huqin's personality.

Xingtan Town is a small place, and there is no orphanage or welfare home. Teacher Hu stayed in this place for these children who are not orphans but are no different from orphans. Some children are younger than Lu Yun. Entrusted to the most intelligent and sensible Lu Yun.

Lu Yun admired Teacher Hu very much when he was a child.

But the conflicts between a group of children are too difficult to deal with. The Huqin personality that Lu Yun split out is just an imitation of Teacher Hu.

Teacher Hu is a good person, but he is not an expert in child psychology. When a group of children have conflicts, it is the side with the most people.Children, fight today and make up tomorrow, as long as you don't make a fuss, as for who has been wronged, who is right and who is wrong, I really don't have the energy to figure it out.

Knowing that money is limited, Lu Yun skipped a grade twice and graduated from junior high school at the age of 13.

But this made her less and less popular among children, and she was almost isolated in the end.

There was an aunt in Xingtan Town who saw how pitiful these children were, so she came to help out, doing some trivial things like mending clothes, cooking and shopping.

The auntie has a good heart but a bad mouth, and scolds any child who makes a mistake, forming a strange cycle in which whoever does more makes more mistakes.

Lu Yun was scolded the most, and other children also laughed at her. She couldn't bear or understand this situation, and her personality was split again. This personality would silently do housework without complaining.

When Lu Yun graduated from junior high school, Mr. Hu was robbed and was stabbed seven times because he was unwilling to let go of his wallet. The rescue failed and he died.

Among the children under the care of Teacher Hu, those who were older than Lu Yun didn't go to high school, and went out to work directly, as if they couldn't wait to leave Xingtan Town.

Lu Yun was too young to get a part-time job, and he had no money to continue his studies, so he was delayed for a year.

People from the county interviewed Teacher Hu's life and found a group of children who had no money to go to school and were in trouble. After being published in the newspaper, it aroused strong repercussions. Those young children were adopted or arranged for orphanages in other places. I got a stipend and went to a boarding high school in the county.Since then, Lu Yun has continued to live on part-time jobs and scholarships.

Discrimination is inevitable.

Those sympathetic eyes made Lu Yun even more embarrassed.

Because she is the "no one wants" child.

Compassion everywhere can destroy people's mind more than discrimination.

Lu Yun has relatives and both parents, but she has no relatives.

For various reasons, those who really cared about her and cared about her eventually left her, leaving Lu Yun to live alone in the world.

Among Lu Yun's seventeen sub-personalities, except those "functional" personalities, the other personalities are like a lie.

A lie to deceive herself, to prove that she was not alone.

She has imaginary little friends, a mother who is strict but willing to take care of her (same as the aunt in memory), a father who understands righteousness (same as the father actor in a certain hit TV series), and a father who is very similar to the old man. The factory manager's elders, a teacher who loves her, and older and more responsible brothers and sisters...

Because he did not have a good educational environment and a stable mental state, Lu Yun failed to be admitted to a well-known university in the end.

Re-study is impossible, no money.

If you go to study abroad, you will also need money.

Applying for student loans is conditional. Lu Yun's parents and grandparents have income, and it is not low, which is very difficult.

Unless it proves the fact that parents abandoned in disguise, but this kind of situation is too common in Xingtan Town and its surrounding areas, no one can control it, and Lu Yun is unwilling to open the wound again. The branch school of this university was willing to give her a full scholarship, so Lu Yun went.

Lu Yun originally would not return to Xingtan Town, but his grandfather passed away, and the old house that belonged to his aunt was taken away by his grandfather. The title deed was kept in the unit of the old factory in Xingtan Town. Her name is now about to be demolished, and relatives have come to persuade her to write paperwork to give up property rights.

"Jiang Yu's personality was born because of this incident. Lu Yun fought for it once in her life. She refused to let those relatives get what they wanted."

Lu Di lost his mind for a while, and then said, "But everything was wrong, and many sub-personalities felt that without this house, Lu Yun would not return to Xingtan Town regularly, and would not take that house. A minibus that broke down will not encounter misfortune on that snowy winter night."

In fact, Professor Xia had already heard about Lu Yun's past from Hu Qin, Jiang Yu and A Ruan, but they described it from different angles and had different views on the matter.

Lu Di is the fairest one.

"I don't want to bring up Lu Yun's past, because Lu Yun has always felt 'abandoned' is a shame, but I am not Lu Yun, I will not make decisions for her. If she can really let it all go, the real choice To live again, that's fine."

Lu Di said calmly, "Most of the sub-personalities symbolize the people that Lu Yun cares about, and I am not included, so I have no influence on the psychological treatment process."

Professor Xia's heart is heavy.

The healing of multiple personalities is when the main personality realizes that he does not need the help of this personality, and it is also to persuade the sub-personality not to help the main personality take responsibility, and then reach a "reconciliation" so that the sub-personality disappears and returns.

But with Lu Yun, this is absolutely impossible.

Even if Lu Yun is willing to expose this self-made lie, she is absolutely unwilling to see "these people" disappear from her life again.

then--

"We are very worried that too many independent personalities will affect Lu Yun's master personality, and whether she will lose part of her ability, or worse." Seeing Lu Di's calm look, Professor Xia couldn't help it. Keep asking, "You seem to have the answer."

"When Lu Yun was asleep and our three personalities could be independent, the seventeen sub-personalities have been studied."

Lu Di looked as if he had been blamed for a long time, he hesitated and said, "I haven't seen any other cases of multiple personalities, but I still think Lu Yun is very unusual. Her brain waves seem to be similar to those of our seventeen sub-personalities." It's completely separate, and I don't know how she does it, but it's amazing."

Professor Xia pondered for a while, then raised his head and asked Lu Di: "Those three personalities said that Lu Yun has a secret, and only you know clearly that this secret is an ability they don't have."

"Nonsense, they also know." Lu Di replied subconsciously.

Then he looked at Professor Xia, and found that Jiang Yu and the others were very cunning, deliberately pushed the matter back, and there were traps in their words.

"Well, it's true that only I 'know' the specific situation, and what they know is just knowing." Lu Di said angrily, "Why do I think you already have the answer, Professor?"

"Oh, Yan Long mentioned this possibility."

Lu Di's eyebrows twitched, it was Yan Long again, did he have any secrets in front of Yan Long?

"Yan Long said, you can see things different from others, I don't know if it's the characteristic of 'ghost', or..."

"It comes from the 'abnormality' of the protagonist Lu Yun, but to me, probably because of the spiritual life body, it has become an upgraded and enhanced version of the ability."

Lu Di took a deep breath and whispered, "Lu Yun is a 'synesthete'."

The author has something to say: the naming rules of Lu Yun’s sub-personality, if there is a prototype, follow the prototype’s surname, if there is no one, the surname is Lu

Lu Di is not the only one whose surname is Lu. There are also personalities who do housework and suffer from pain. They are basically functional personalities.

As for the names are all musical instruments, someone in the comment area guessed it right. It comes from a childhood dream. When I grow up, I want to be a musician. Everyone is busy building a song and dance troupe

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The world of synesthetes is different from that of ordinary people. The numbers and words they see have specific colors, the sounds they hear have flavors, and even touch can have different sounds

This article has superpowers. Although this superpower is useless, Lu Yun will hear the thoughts repeated three times in other people's minds at close range. For example, relatives think she is too troublesome and despise her.

My friend thinks she is too annoying and wants her to disappear

In Lu Yun's eyes, people who hate her may have a different color from others