Who is the world

"Drink! How dare you ignore us! How can you be so arrogant!"

"That's right! Hey! Little one! You don't even salute when you see us? Who do you think you are! No matter how big or small, you don't understand any rules!" A prince stretched out his hand to stop him dissatisfied and pushed him hard.

The boy who was caught off guard took a step or two back, stabilized his figure, and was still unmoved. He didn't even look at the other party before choosing his way to pass by.This kind of provocation is still within the range of his tolerance. He doesn't want his mother to worry about him and cry anymore, so he tolerates it.

"Hmph! Don't talk... I don't dare to answer when I ask you... Sure enough, a bumpkin from the countryside is a bumpkin, why don't you just stay in the country and want to fly to the branches? It's a good idea, and you don't even look at yourself What virtue! Is this where you came from! You are as shameless as the bitch who gave birth to you!"

The boy may not be able to fully understand these words, he only roughly knows that they are not good words, but he is extremely sensitive to the word in the last sentence - that word he has heard countless times since he was a child!

He suddenly jumped up like a cat whose tail had been stepped on, and his indifferent expression became furious. He rushed over and knocked the speaker to the ground, pressed his head firmly to the ground, and said viciously : "Apologize! You apologize to me! Don't speak ill of my mother! Apologize!"

"Presumptuous! Let me go!"

"You apologize to me! Did you hear that!"

"Say bitch! Bitch! Your mother is bitch! You are meaner than your mother!"

The boy was trembling with anger, and without saying a word, he punched him hard.

Although the boy is only nearly six years old, he is much smaller than his elder brother in terms of physical strength, but he has been fighting since he was a child, and he has never experienced any battles. My brother couldn't break free.

"Wow!" The prince, who had a stomach ache, waved his hands and feet indiscriminately and screamed in resistance, "It's reversed! Why are you still standing! Get him down!" He lost face, and was beaten for the first time, and it was still such a person he looked down upon, so he couldn't help screaming in anger.

"Little bastard, you don't want to live, you dare to do this to your tenth brother! Do you know who your tenth brother is? See if Aunt Xiang has peeled your skin!" The child next to him hurriedly pulled him down , "A wild monkey is a wild monkey, as cheap as the bitch who gave birth to you!"

The boy who was forcibly pulled away and beaten had his eyes red with anger, and he desperately resisted: "You bastards! You bastards! I don't have brothers and sisters! You are cheap! Get out of here!"

"Wow! This wild thing dares to talk to us like that! You are just a wild monkey, what qualifications do you have to say that! If you say it, we say it! We don't have a bastard like you as a younger brother! Do you deserve it!"

"Hit him! Teach him a lesson! Let him remember who is the prince and daughter here, and who is an animal that is not as good as a pig or a dog!"

The three boys swarmed up and smashed their fists down, while the two girls who were watching also booed.

The boy jumped up and fought the three of them recklessly, playing tit for tat.But he turns his anger into his anger and hates his hatred, but how can he really be against them? The three princes are all bigger than him, and their bodies are also taller and stronger than him. When they are hugged, they can't move. He covered his head and face, and tried not to hit his fist in a conspicuous place, because he didn't want to be discovered by his mother.

"What are you doing!" A scolding frightened the children, their faces turned pale when they saw the person coming, and they all retreated to the side.

It's Brother Wuhuang and Princess Li.

The boy who was lying on the ground raised his head, and for the first time saw Princess Li, who was as luxurious and gentle as a fairy, bathed in radiance, was so shocked.

From that moment, the boy's life changed completely.Princess Li is indeed a fairy of salvation to him.

It was also because of her that she knew Bai Lang. Princess Li begged her elder sister, Concubine Rong at that time, to help recommend Bai Lang to the emperor to teach the thirteen princes, and the emperor agreed.

In addition, at the same time, the boy finally got the emperor's special permission, no need to go to Lanxi Palace, but can stay in Xiayun Palace all day long, and Bai Lang teaches alone in Zichanzhai.

Everything seemed to be due to Princess Li's relationship, and Brother Wu Huang, who had barely seen him for more than half a year, gradually became concerned about him.

With the protection of the heroic and steady fifth prince and Princess Li, who is very popular with the emperor, the life of the boy and his mother has finally undergone earth-shaking changes. No one dares to provoke and bully at will. Dare to neglect.

"This is a piece of rough jade... If you carve it well, it will become a great tool in the future." The young and elegant man in white looked at the thirteenth prince who looked stubborn and guarded, and said indifferently.

Hearing this, the boy snorted rebelliously and remained silent.

"As expected of Sister Li's little thirteen! Ah! What to do! Sister Li loves our little thirteen more and more!" The girl on the other side smiled softly, bent over to hug the boy as a reward , the boy who is not used to this kind of intimate behavior naturally wants to avoid, but how can he escape, he is hugged patiently, although he is on guard, but after all, he did not make any effort to hurt the other party.

"However, Huigen does have wisdom roots, but it's a pity that if you don't change your temperament, you will suffer a lot..." Bai Lang pondered.

The boy still didn't completely let go of his defenses, opened his heart, and always kept an alienated attitude, no matter it was towards Brother Wuhuang, teacher Bai Lang, or Concubine Li Gui.But after all, he was born with unique talents, and with the accumulation of knowledge, he was no longer as unruly as a wild horse that had run loose before, and some concepts were gradually corrected by Bai Lang.

But the world is changing, such a peaceful and comfortable life has undergone slight changes, not long after, Princess Li became Concubine Li, Bai Lang has been frustrated since then, and Princess Li left with tears in her eyes.

Boys have become the only bridge connecting them.

And the person who became Concubine Li was still the boy's sister Li, the big sister who gave to him unreservedly.

That gentle and beautiful young woman patiently spent nearly a year and a half before he could fully accept her, but within half a year, she died because of him.

The black liquid continuously spouted from the beautiful and noble lady's mouth almost stabbed the boy's eyes.

The boy's world was once again on the verge of collapse, and the heavy and oppressive atmosphere gathered from all directions, shackling him and making him unable to break free.

Continuous nightmare, thick blood, distorted space, black and red world, and in the end, Princess Xin'er was covered in blood. The gentle woman who was smiling just a moment ago saw the bloody head rolling down her body in the blink of an eye. dropped on the floor.

The past, the present, and the overlapping and chaotic memories have always bound him tightly and entangled him. In the dark and suffocating silence, Xu Zixu ran silently and blindly alone, until he was desperately exhausted with nowhere to escape. Finally woke up, already in a cold sweat.

In the dark, he sat up and stroked his forehead.

I dreamed again, the memory in the cold palace, Aunt Li's death...and his fault...

never forget...

At that time, Aunt Li might also have played a role, and the emperor gradually became more appreciative of him because of his growing intelligence, and even got closer to his mother, and the number of visits to Xiayun Palace gradually increased. Gentle and caring and understanding, perhaps the emperor's forgotten sweet feelings were restored one by one, and soon there was even a rumor that she was canonized as a noble concubine.

The long-desolate Xiayun Palace seems to have a tendency to go straight to the sky, but the hidden danger is that it grows in this ever-increasing grace and glory-it just happens to be Xu Zixu's extraordinary intelligence and rebelliousness, and Concubine Yu's favor. What's more, he offended Concubine Yun who was faintly out of favor at that time.

That was when he was eight years old.A hot midsummer.

Because his mother was bullied again, he couldn't swallow this breath any longer, and he retaliated fiercely. He calculated that Concubine Yun's son had done something contemptuous to his half-sister, and cleverly made the matter public.There was a big scandal in the royal family, and the emperor was very disappointed with the seventh prince while being furious.

But it didn’t take long before the incident happened. Although Concubine Yun couldn’t produce any evidence, she insisted that he was behind the scenes. As a result, she only annoyed the emperor, alienated Concubine Yun, and became closer to Concubine Li and his mother.

From then on, Liangzi became more and more deeply connected, until during a royal flower viewing banquet, Concubine Yun and other concubines designed to frame their mother and son—the following is the saying of killing the prince with poison.

Those long childhood memories are so deep and vivid in the quiet night, as if they were yesterday, they are vivid in my mind.

Xu Zixu couldn't sleep anymore, so he simply got up and got out of bed, went to the window in the dark, opened the window lattice, and stood until dawn again.

Childhood memories are actually not very comprehensive until now, but the impression of being bullied is always so clear, the feeling of pain cannot be removed, and some real details are often clearer in dreams; The memory is clearly remembered whether sleeping or awake, and every detail is clearly and deeply engraved on the heart board.

The poisoning incident seemed to be unsuspicious, and Xu Zixu's mother and son couldn't argue with it.

The one who was poisoned was Concubine Xiang's son, the tenth prince, and the tenth prince made trouble for them two days ago.

The eight-year-old Xu Zixu had achieved some success in martial arts, but he obeyed his teacher's order and did not let anyone else in the palace know about it, so he did not fight back at that time, so he was injured by the Tenth Prince.It is not impossible to use this as a motive for poisoning revenge afterwards.

As for the poisoning itself, all kinds of doubts and coincidences also point to him.

The situation was very unfavorable to them. The infighting in the palace was cruel, and it was common for people to make trouble, not to mention that his mother was a dangerous existence for them.

No matter how Concubine Li and Concubine Rong defended it, as the saying goes, there are no flaws in the matter. For various reasons, it is not uncommon for the prince in the palace to be poisoned. They had to be sent to the Ministry of Criminal Justice for interrogation.

The emperor kept saying that he believed them, but still imprisoned them.

I don't know how many days and nights have passed. After they were confirmed innocent and released, the palace has already undergone earth-shaking changes.Concubine Yun and the rest of the people who participated in the incident received the most severe punishment. Concubine Yu was promoted to Concubine Yu, while Concubine Li was promoted to the next level, and she was about to ascend to the head of the harem. bit!

In the end, Concubine Yun, who had nowhere to go, jumped over the wall in a hurry, found an opportunity, and fell into a coma. He imprisoned him in a remote and remote place in the palace. The time was wiped out, and her son was also involved, while the other party was getting more and more prosperous, Li Guifei took revenge, only to die together.

That time, his lungs and veins were seriously injured, Bai Lang managed his pulse every day, collected various panaceas, and it took two full years of recuperation before he recovered. His aptitude has been somewhat affected, and his martial arts cultivation has been unable to improve since he was 20 years old.

But that time, he was finally out of danger, but Concubine Li died.

Concubine Li Gui, who was also seriously injured, gave him the last warmth, the last call, the last touch, the last love, and the promise he asked for when he was still barely conscious.

At that time, I didn't know that this was the moment of farewell.

After waking up from the boundless pain after a coma, what was his reaction when he first heard the bad news?

consternation?Outraged?grief?unbelievable?

"That bad woman! It's all that damn bad woman! I'm going to kill her!" After being extremely shocked, he was still weak and dragged his painful body to get out of bed. Yelling and cursing to rush out.

"Snapped!"

A slap hit him hard on the face, and the corner of his mouth hit his teeth and bled from the unexpected powerful impact.

He was stunned.

"How long are you going to be willful and impulsive! Hasn't this incident taught you a lesson? Yinli... Your Aunt Li's death, isn't it enough for you to understand!" Bai Lang scolded coldly with red eyes.

The cheek that was beaten was so hot that it hurt, and his face was already soaked with tears. He raised his face and pursed his lips tightly.

With tears in his eyes, Xu Zixu saw for the first time that this usually gentle and refined man had such a cold and angry expression, but his eyes suppressed violent and complex emotions, including heartache, anger, hatred, as well as sadness and helplessness.

At that moment, looking at such complicated eyes, he was vaguely touched by something in his heart, and he was speechless.

This person who has always been indifferent to him but reveals his liking and concern from time to time, this person who has always patiently taught him everything, is hating him at this moment...but not all hate...

"Xu Zixu, do you really think I don't know what you've done yourself! These hands—" Bai Lang grabbed his hands, squeezed them tightly, almost crushing his bones, and said ruthlessly, " How much cleaner do you think you are than the people you hate!"

Xu Zixu was shocked, and stared blankly at the person in front of him.

"How did I teach you! Do you use your ingenuity in this kind of place! How to calculate others and take revenge on others? That little girl, how did you offend you? Do you think your Aunt Li wants to see it?" Is he such a little thirteen!" Bai Lang's rare sternness shocked him deeply, "Xu Zixu, please remember your Aunt Li's words for me, and reflect on yourself, otherwise, instead of you going astray, you will go astray. If you want to perish, or be framed by others again, it is better for me to kill you with my own hands!"

The cold and earnest words of his mentor at the time still remain in his mind, Xu Zixu couldn't help closing his eyes and leaning slightly on the window lattice.

His grudges, his paranoia, his stubbornness, his rebellion, his narrowness, his wildness, and his viciousness.

He dragged his beloved Aunt Li into the dangerous whirlpool.

If he was willing to cultivate his sentiments, relax his mind, and deal with things calmly and maturely; if he hadn't been so impulsive to design and hurt the Seventh Emperor and Eleventh Emperor's Sister, and completely provoke Concubine Yun; Because he always had a grudge against the emperor's father, and because he was imprisoned, he distrusted the emperor's father even more, so he refused to answer properly, and instead repeatedly angered the emperor——

Then there will be no such incidents, and Concubine Li will not be involved in such incidents, and will not run around to understand the situation in order to prove their innocence, so that when the truth comes out, she will set up a dangerous enemy, and she will not be involved in such incidents. There will be subsequent tragedies.

Since then, consciously or unconsciously, he has begun to suppress his own nature, constantly broaden his horizons, make himself more stable and tolerant as he grows up, and learn to look at things from different angles.

As time passed, even he himself almost forgot what a cynical, paranoid and vicious person he was.

But now, he can no longer go back to the old him, and he doesn't want to go back, but he still fails...

Xu Zixu looked down at his hands, they were empty.Always empty, nothing left in the end...

Under the starlight, he bent down, hugged himself and sat curled up on the ground, made a movement that he only did when he was a child, buried his head between his knees, and remained motionless.

Xu Zixu's spirits were even worse during the day.

Chu Yi hadn't been here either, but when he was going to bed at night, the maid suddenly came over with a bowl of bird's nest, saying it was for him.

"My lord, please drink while it's hot!"

"Your Highness ordered?" Xu Zixu didn't take it, but raised his eyes and asked calmly.

"...Yes." The servant girl bowed her head and replied respectfully.

"Take it back."

"Please drink it, my lord! Otherwise, I will definitely be punished..." The maid raised her head and looked at him pitifully, with a look of horror and pleading.

Xu Zixu looked at it indifferently for a while, but still took it, just brought it to his mouth, but paused, then moved it away, looked into the bowl, and asked lightly: "What's in it?"

"No... I didn't release anything..." The servant girl was startled, hesitated a little, and lowered her head.

"I don't want to drink, please take it back!" Xu Zixu didn't say much, put down the bowl and got up to go back to the house.

"My lord!"

Xu Zixu turned a deaf ear to the maid's anxious call.

But at this moment the door creaked open, Xu Zixu turned around and looked at the other party with a slight sneer, it turned out that he had already noticed someone outside the door.

There was clearly another kind of medicinal smell in the bowl, but Chu Yi stood outside the door, making it clear that something was wrong.

Chu Yi waved the maid back, and sighed: "Didn't you sleep restlessly? The medicine is a formula for cold evil, it calms the nerves and regulates the breath. You can rest assured that there is absolutely nothing wrong with it."

But what Xu Zixu cares more about now is not the problem of medicine, but how does this person know that he can't sleep well at night?

"Let's leave tomorrow and go back to the king's city. Don't think too much, go to rest early!" Chu Yi looked at the other party, stretched out his hand to touch the other party, but was dodged by a dodge, he didn't mind, closed his hand and sighed "Look at you, you're already so haggard..."

There was an undetectable pity and some other deep emotion in the tone.

Xu Zixu didn't say anything, looked at the contents of the bowl again, and drank it all in one gulp.

Putting down the empty bowl, without looking at Chu Yi, he went back to the inner room.

Chu Yi smiled deeply behind his back, and also stepped out of Luoyangzhai.

sleepless night

May 2009, 02 midnight

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