Who is the world

When Xu Zixu returned to the room gently, he found that the child who was supposed to be sleeping had already woken up.

There was a slight rustling sound in the dark room, and Xu Lichen sat up: "Father, you have been out for a long time..."

The child's coquettish and worried voice gently stirred Xu Zixu's heart, and the child had woken up a long time ago.He walked over, put on his loose clothes and went to bed: "Well, I'm a little hungry, I went out to eat something."

"Oh!"

Just as Xu Zixu got into the quilt, the child entangled him like an octopus. In the dark, he couldn't help smiling softly and pitifully, letting the child cling to him coquettishly.

The child slid into his father's arms with all his strength, holding on tightly as if he would never let go, Xu Zixu silently understood that the child was actually subconsciously anxious all the time.

I was afraid that my father would suddenly be like my mother, but disappeared when I woke up.

however……

Thinking of the decision made in his heart, Xu Zixu felt a twinge of pain.

The child here may not be aware of what his father is thinking at this moment. He groped for a while, and accidentally touched his father's hand, and couldn't help shivering: "Father, your hands are so cold." With his own little hand, he pulled his father's cold hand into his arms.

Xu Zixu felt the warmth passing through his fingertips and palms, and the stubborn behavior of the child who was shivering slightly from the cold but still refused to let go almost scalded his heart.

"Is it warmer?"

I could vaguely sense that the child raised his face and asked expectantly.

Xu Zixu was moved, and pulled out his warm hand to hold the child tightly in his arms, suppressing his emotions and whispering: "Well, it's very warm. Yi'er makes father feel very warm."

Even though he couldn't see the child's expression clearly in the dark, Xu Zixu could still feel the child's satisfied and happy expression.

The child rubbed his father's neck and cheeks affectionately, then relaxed his body and snuggled into his father's arms. The body temperature of the father and son fused together, and it seemed that even the cold winter night was warmed thoroughly.

Xu Zixu's chest was full of inexplicable feelings, painful and hot, tearing at his soul.

How much this little child depends on himself, values ​​himself, and cares about himself!But how long will it be before we can snuggle together like this?

There were all kinds of thoughts in his heart, surging, but he was speechless, hugging this small body even tighter.

I can't let go of this child no matter what, I can't love enough for this child, but he can't be a good father...

The only thing we can do now is to cherish this relationship before parting even more, and do everything we can to make this child happier in the extremely limited time in the future.

Even so, Xu Zixu also understands that these things alone are not enough, but there is no other way.

Time passed quietly, another five days passed, Chu Yi did not appear again, Xu Lichen was still very obedient, not noisy, and after that time, he never asked his father about his mother again, just clinging to him all day and all night Father, besides this, he will not make other requests, but just snuggle quietly, talk softly, and sometimes even comfort his father's inadvertently frowned eyebrows.

But such a well-behaved performance made Xu Zixu even more heartbroken.

How much fear and helplessness is actually hidden in the child's sensible and open arms during the day!

Almost every night Xu Zixu could find his son weeping quietly in his sleep, sometimes he even whispered to his mother, and occasionally he was woken up by the nightmare, and he didn't say anything, but leaned closer to his father's arms to absorb his warmth, I slowly calmed down, quietly, until I fell asleep again.

How much the child missed his mother, but the child no longer said a word.

Xu Zixu was sleepless every night, watching the child cry silently every night, and after waking up, he clings to himself even more, his breathing is short and disordered, but he doesn't say a word, and falls asleep again under his gentle pat.

This scene made him feel like a knife piercing his heart every night, seeing the childish child's true emotions in his sleep, but he couldn't do anything!I can only love him more and more. In these few days, I pour all my love on the child without reservation, and do everything I can think of and do to make the child happy. give him.

And the child seemed to have a vague premonition of something, and in the past few days he never left him, as if he was afraid that his father would disappear in the blink of an eye.

Xu Zixu saw all kinds of things in his eyes, and it hurt in his heart.

Today, no matter how reluctant Xu Zixu is, the prior arrangements must still be implemented.Leaving has already been fully prepared.

Before dawn, Xu Zixu, who had another sleepless night, looked at the sleeping child, full of sadness and reluctance, caressing his son's immature cheeks, couldn't help but leaned over to kiss him lovingly, his hands along his cheeks. With the forehead down, the outline of the child is carefully drawn, as if to firmly engrave the son's appearance on the heart board with eyes and fingers.

Xu Zixu knew that maybe after this parting, there was really no chance of seeing each other again.

Thinking of this, he couldn't help but want to postpone the day of separation for another day, but he knew he couldn't.

Xu Zixu's caress full of reluctance seemed to have disturbed the child's sleep, the thick eyelashes on the little face trembled slightly, as if wanting to wake up.Xu Zixu hesitated, but he flicked his hand cruelly, and the child who was about to wake up fell back into a deep sleep.

At this time, the east has already revealed its fish belly, and it is at the moment when light and darkness alternate. The somewhat gloomy scene seems to indicate that Xu Zixu's future is uncertain.

The door opened with a creak, and Bai Lang stood quietly outside.

"Wait a little longer..." Xu Zixu trembled slightly, then hugged the boy's small body tightly again, rubbing his face against his son's, but couldn't touch it enough.

Bai Lang glanced at him, didn't say much, closed the door and backed out.

The child has been sleeping quietly, unaware of what is about to happen.

After a long time, Xu Zixu struggled and finally went outside with the sleeping child in his arms, and handed the sleeping child to Bai Lang's hands.

Xu Zixu was a big gift to his mentor, but Bai Lang held him up with one hand.

At the moment when the master and apprentice's eyes meet, many things are already self-evident.

Xu Zixu bent down to kiss the child's cheek and hair for the last time, and stroked his head repeatedly, feeling extremely painful.

"Xu'er, you go with us, the world is so big, there is always a way to escape. For Yi'er, he would rather run away with his father than separate."

Xu Zixu was silent for a while, his expression moved slightly, his lips twitched a few times, and finally he shook his head lightly, and said in a low voice: "Everything is left to the teacher."

Bai Lang sighed, nodded slightly, held Xu Lichen in his arms, and looked at his lover again, without hesitation, he turned and left resolutely.

Xu Zixu's body moved slightly, and he raised his left foot, as if he was about to catch up, but suddenly he was shocked, and then he put it back, clenched his fist, and finally stopped still, silently watching the two of them leave.

This parting, I don't know when we will meet each other, and I don't know how the child will feel when he wakes up and finds that his father is not around...

Xu Zixu didn't dare to think anymore, enduring the dull pain in his heart, his eyes and nose were slightly sore.

I want to protect him well and not let him suffer a little bit of grievance, but I still hurt the child after all...

Throughout the morning, Xu Zixu was a little out of his mind, sitting alone in the pavilion and staring blankly at the snow-covered courtyard, the clear voice of the child seemed to be faintly echoing in his ears.

At noon, Chu Yi invited Xu Zixu to have dinner together.

Obviously he also knew the news that Xu Lichen had left, but he didn't talk much about it. Instead, he entertained Xu Zixu very kindly. Chatting leisurely as a friend, the words are usually relaxed, humorous, and even seem to know that Xu Zixu must be sad at the moment, and intend to accompany him.

For Xu Zixu, the arrival of Chu Yi rekindled his defenses, and invisibly diverted part of the sadness of parting.

Although he was on guard, his face was calm and he was not very talkative, but when he had to speak, he responded freely, appropriately, and with ease.

Even though Xu Zixu is in a delicate situation, even embarrassed, he doesn't want to lose his composure in front of this person again and make people laugh at him.Before he knew it, he had lost too many times.

One month was enough for him to wake up, not to mention that he was facing a deep and terrifying person like Chu Yi.

Xu Zixu couldn't help suspecting that in the past month, Chu Yi never forced him, but instead provided the opportunity for their father and son to get along without any interruption. One of his intentions may be to wait for him to return to his previous level.

One month is indeed enough.We should no longer let the pain affect our judgment and behavior, but be sober while suffering from pain.

Although Xu Zixu was taciturn during the banquet, he was no longer angry. He was indifferent and moody from beginning to end. He seemed to have returned to the former Jing Wang who was always calm and proud no matter when and where.

Xu Zixu also knew that he didn't need to do any unnecessary actions, just wait and see the changes. If his attitude changed too obviously, a shrewd person like Chu Yi must understand what was wrong, so it was better to face it with his usual indifference.

True and false, half-truth and half-false, once a little bit of falsehood is integrated into the multitude of truths, then, how many people can distinguish the truth from the falsehood?This is the same as the principle of hiding in the city.

Therefore, he will not, and does not need to deliberately cater to, as long as he shows what he should show under the current situation.

What is about to begin is a cruel mental battle. Who can find out who's true intention and win the first step, the key depends on who is more calm and who is more advanced.

Xu Zixu will wait for the opportunity.

After finishing the meal, Xu Zixu stood up to thank him for his hospitality and leave, Chu Yi looked at his back as he left, and couldn't help thinking deeply.

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