those years

The next day Lin Fan woke up to the sound of cooking in the kitchen. Seeing that Qi Tian was still asleep, he got out of bed and went to wash up first. Then he went to the kitchen and saw his mother busy there. Three or four dishes have been placed.

"How do you do so much early in the morning?"

My mother smiled and flipped the frying spoon in her hand and said, "Your classmates came here for you. You must treat them well. Besides, it's Chinese New Year. I didn't do anything in the morning because I was afraid that you wouldn't be able to eat."

Looking back at Lin Fan, he said, "Your father went to your grandma's house to pick up sauerkraut, and I'll make you a good meal at noon."

After Lin Fan's surgery and chemotherapy that year, although she was not in good health for a while, she gradually recovered well. The doctor said that as long as there is no problem with regular reexamination within five years, the chance of recurrence in the future is very small.

My mother has worked as an accountant for many years. Although she can't compare with the professional women in Beijing, Shanghai and Guangzhou, she still has a restless temperament. After her health recovered, she went to work again, and her spirit also improved.

"Our house is not big, so you two won't be crowded together?" Mother Lin asked.

"Not crowded, quite spacious."

"That's good, I'm afraid you two young men won't be able to sleep." He smiled while talking, and then asked, "What's your classmate's name?"

"Qi Tian." When he said this name in front of his mother for the first time, for some reason Lin Fan's heart beat violently, as if he was about to be found out, so he turned around and walked out of the kitchen and said, "I'll go wake him up first. Have a meal……"

Back in the bedroom, looking at Qi Tian who was still curled up sleeping there, he couldn't bear to cry softly: "Get up."

After calling again twice, Qi Tiantian dimly opened his eyes, first glanced around, and then saw Lin Fan sitting on the bed, his eyes fixed there and smiled and said: "Good morning!"

"It's getting late, it's almost 9 o'clock."

"Isn't that too early?"

"My parents usually get up at 6 o'clock..."

As if suddenly thinking of something, Qi Tian suddenly sat up, got out of bed and put on his clothes and pants.

"What are they doing? Not in the living room, I haven't washed yet."

Seeing Qi Tian's flustered look, Lin Fan couldn't bear to lower his head and smiled before saying, "My dad is out, and my mom is cooking in the kitchen."

"It's okay, I don't want to give people a sloppy first impression."

Lin Fan actually wanted to say, you are handsome no matter what, but he didn't say this because it was too bitter.

I saw Qi Tian gently opened the door, poked his head out through the crack of the door to make sure there was no one in the living room, and then quickly flashed into the bathroom.

……

After less than 10 minutes of work, Qi Tian tossed out of the drawer a small mirror to take a good look around, then turned to Lin Fan and asked, "Is it ok? Is it ok?"

Lin Fan got up with a smile, and pushed him out of the room, "It's very good, don't dawdle, the meal is almost ready."

When he came to the door of the kitchen, Lin Fan first greeted his mother and said that his classmate had woken up, then Qi Tian appeared from behind him, and said to Mother Lin with his signature sunny boyish smile, "Hello, Auntie!"

Lin Fan's mother probably always thought that her son was handsome enough, but when she suddenly saw a taller and more handsome son, she couldn't control her expression for a while, and her shovel in her hand stopped rolling, she widened her eyes and said, "This boy is too energetic. .”

Lin Fan lowered his head and chuckled, thinking that Qi Tian's goal had been achieved.

Qi Tian hurriedly laughed and said: "Auntie is so young, I said who does Lin Fan look like, so the roots are here."

"This kid can really talk..." Mother Lin turned to Lin Fan with an embarrassed smile as she continued to turn the shovel and said, "It's just right for me to get up, and the dishes are all ready, or I'm afraid it will be cold, Xiao Fan, put the Put all the dishes on the table."

Qi Tian also wanted to work with Lin Fan, but Lin Fan pushed him on the seat by the dining table and said: "You just wait, or my mother will feel uneasy watching the guests busy."

……

As soon as the food was set, Lin Fan's father also came back from outside.

Lin Fan took what was in his father's hand and introduced it to his father, "Dad, this is my classmate, Qi Tian."

The first meeting between men always has a formal element and has nothing to do with seniority. Qi Tian restrained the ingratiating smile just now, stood up straight and greeted Lin's father seriously: "Hello, uncle! I'm Qi Tian, ​​come here Your family is disturbed."

He has worked in the government for many years, and Lin's father has always been very carefree in receiving people and things. When he saw his son's classmates, he was even more easy-going and said, "Okay, okay, don't disturb. We are glad that Xiaofan has a classmate coming over. Please sit down quickly."

After sitting down at the table for four, Qi Tian looked at the six main dishes on the table, and whispered to Lin Fan embarrassedly: "This breakfast is too rich..."

Knowing that this scared Qi Tian, ​​Beijingers always have soy milk and fried dough sticks as standard in the morning, but they don’t know that breakfast in the north is as formal as lunch and dinner.Suddenly wanted to tease Qi Tian, ​​so Lin Fan restrained his smile and said solemnly: "During Chinese New Year, we eat breakfast and lunch together, and we don't eat dinner until 6 o'clock in the evening."

Qi Tian looked at the 9:[-] clock on the wall, then looked down at the dishes on the table, and then nodded in understanding.

Seeing that Qi Tian was staring hard at the dishes, he was already ready for a big meal before the battle, Lin Fan tilted his head and smiled and endured it with all his strength.

"Don't listen to his nonsense, he's just teasing you, this kid..." Mother Lin glared at Lin Fan, then turned to Qi Tian with a smile and said, "This is breakfast, and I'll make something delicious for you at noon, so let's deal with the food first." Take a bite, I don’t know if you are used to it.”

"I'm used to eating, I'm used to it, it looks delicious." Qi Tian nodded with a smile and glanced at Lin Fan before he picked up his chopsticks and began to eat.

I don't know if it was too cold or because he didn't eat at all last night, when Lin Fan's mother asked him to serve Qi Tian a meal for the third time and Qi Tian didn't refuse, he finally couldn't help but said: "Don't wait until it's too late." ..."

"Auntie's food is really delicious. I haven't eaten such a delicious meal for a long time, why do you think so?" Qi Tian asked naively, as if puzzled.

Lin's mother smiled happily when she heard it, and said, "If you like to eat, eat more, there are better ones for lunch."

During the meal, Lin Fan told his parents about his idea of ​​going to scenic spots with Qi Tian. His parents knew that Lin Fan was always popular and had many friends, so they naturally happily agreed, and asked them to find a better place after they got there. Don't be tricked by a black hotel.

……

After leaving home, Lin Fan took Qi Tian to the best shopping mall in the city center and bought him a suit from inside to outside. Qi Tian looked at himself in the mirror and said: "Warm is warm, it is this life. I haven’t worn such a thick one, so I don’t feel like I can move.”

Lin Fan beside him was overjoyed, "It's good, I'll let the miniature girls on our school website see if the bear version of Qi Tian is more attractive."

"Why do you think I'm attractive?" Qi Tian approached him and asked.

"Do you need me to think? Are there any girls at school who don't know you?"

"Jealous?" Qi Tian asked with a smile.

"...You think too much..." Lin Fan pulled him and said, "Let's go, don't you want to pick out gifts?"

Qi Tian followed up and said, "I've always wanted to ask you, if your house is so cold, if you are in a hurry to go to the bathroom outside, will you freeze the bird after peeing..."

"I found that you are a person who can turn away the chatter at any time..." Lin Fan turned his face and said seriously.

Qi Tian was having fun on his own again, and then pulled Lin Fan forward a few steps, "Hurry up, pick out a gift for me."

……

The two went from the first floor to the top floor and then back to the first floor. After more than an hour, Qi Tian still didn't pick the one he liked. Lin Fan wondered why he didn't notice that this person was so ink-stained before.

Finally, he strolled to a shop specializing in sandalwood jewelry. Qi Tiancai pointed to a pair of oval pendants on the counter with bright eyes and said, "This one!"

The waiter took it out from under the counter with a smile and said, "The handsome guy has really good eyesight. This is ebony wood with an extremely dense structure. It will not wear out and deform after many years. It is also anti-corrosion, and the outer ring is inlaid with silver. It is also very comfortable for young people to wear." Fashion... Our family is self-operated and self-sold, and we do not make too much, and this pendant is the only pair in the country."

Lin Fan took one of them to have a look. The front is a piece of black sandalwood with a slightly glossy texture, and the outside is seamlessly surrounded by a silver hollow pattern. The pattern of three-dimensional branches stretches from the bottom to the top, like a tree sprouting new branches. It also exudes vitality. Turning over the back, the sandalwood is completely wrapped in plain silver, with smooth lines and carefully polished edges. It is tied with a very textured leather rope. It is indeed a good thing.

Look at the piece in Qi Tian's hand, except that it is slightly black, it is exactly the same as the one in his hand.

The waiter explained: "This piece is pure silver, and the piece in his hand is Qianzutai silver, both of which have a silver content of 999, but that piece has more antique effect, and it is also very popular now..." said Wan added: "These two pieces are made from the same wood. It is very suitable for couples to wear. You can give it to your girlfriend. We can also engrave it for free."

Hearing this, Lin Fan's face turned green. Although he really wanted to turn his head and leave, but seeing Qi Tian standing there, he could barely pull his eyes out, so he said to the waiter, "Just the piece in his hand..."

"Both!" Qi Tian looked at him and said.

Lin Fan put his hand to his mouth and coughed lightly, "Just buy a piece, I don't have this for a man..."

"I didn't tell you to buy it. You bought one for your girlfriend, and I happened to buy one for my girlfriend." After speaking, he winked at Lin Fan, then turned to the waiter and said, "I want this."

The waiter hurriedly smiled and said yes, handed them the receipt and said, "It's really a pleasure to be your girlfriend."

……

Lin Fanqing walked out of the shop with a sullen face and said to Qi Tian, ​​"Can you stop making trouble?"

"What's the fuss about this? You already bought me a piece, and you have the heart to let others buy that piece, and bring the same couple's style as me?"

"...Didn't you want a key chain..." Lin Fan turned his head and asked.

"I want to change the rope into a key chain, and I'm a bit reluctant right now." Then he said to Lin Fan excitedly, "What would you like to engrave on it?"

Lin Fan stopped in his tracks, "You really reminded me that you are absolutely not allowed to say engraved names later, the risk is too great!"

"The name doesn't work?" After thinking about it, he said with a smile, "Let's spell it..."

"Pinyin is not good, you are afraid that others will not find out what happened!"

"Is this all right?" Qi Tian rubbed his hair and pondered for a while and said, "Then let's start with the initials, one T and one F, this is my bottom line, and I must be satisfied."

Thinking that there should be no risk in this way, it is estimated that most people would not think of it even if they saw it, so Lin Fan tacitly agreed.

Coming out of the shopping mall, Lin Fan took a deep breath, feeling that the shopping mall was too hot just now, his back was sweating, and looking at Qi Tian, ​​he had already hung the slightly darkened pendant with F engraved on his neck.

It was only now that Lin Fan realized that he had neglected a serious problem. It would be too far-fetched to say that the two of them are brothers with such brightly identical pendants...

Sighing, I thought to myself, I can only hide my part carefully.

Qi Tian happily pushed Lin Fan and said, "Don't be dazed, go home quickly, you are still waiting to eat the big meal made by your mother!"

……

At night, when he saw that the table was full of eight dishes that were completely different from the morning and noon dishes, Qi Tian supported his stomach and said, "I figured it out, how did you gain weight in just a few days?" ..."

After dinner, Qi Tian made a fuss about Lin Fan looking for a photo album for him, but couldn't stand the fuss and had no choice but to find it for him.

Lin Fan's family has a habit of taking a single photo and a family photo of Lin Fan every year on his birthday. This habit has continued since he was one year old.

Seeing Qi Tian flipping through the photos lined up there one after another, his eyes were a little teasing from the beginning, and gradually turned into sincere envious eyes.

Lin Fan saw it, and stretched out his hand to snatch it away, saying: "What's so good about such a small photo, you won't be able to recognize any child's photo if you give it to you..."

Qi Tian hid and continued to flip through: "Of course I've seen enough of your own photos, I haven't finished flipping through this yet... Look at how skinny you were when you were young, and you looked like you were malnourished. I'll put two of them on our school website later. , to see if you can maintain your school grass image."

I don't know what Qi Tian saw, he suddenly laughed and said, "I thought you were kidding me when you said you were 1.5 meters high in high school, hahaha, it's really hard for you to be able to jump so high, hahaha..." He pointed at Show him photos of Lin Fan when he was still a child in high school.

Seeing that Qi Tian's mood had recovered, Lin Fan was also happy, stepped forward and shouted, "I don't want to show it to me, who begged you to see it..."

The two were laughing and joking, Lin Fan's mother came in, Qi Tian quickly got up from the bed and called auntie with suppressed laughter.

"What are you talking about? It's fun for you two..." He handed something to Qi Tian and said, "Auntie saw that the waist of your shoes is too short. The cold snow is also thick... I was afraid that you would freeze your ankles, so I found new wool and knit a pair of ankle wraps, which will keep you warm when you wear them, and you won’t be afraid of snow getting into your shoes.”

Seeing Qi Tian reaching out to take it, Lin Fan still smiled and thought that Qi Tian probably had never heard of it before, but when he turned his head, he saw Qi Tian's nose flapping slightly, and there seemed to be something transparent in his eye sockets. to leak out……

Lin Fan hurriedly got up and said to his mother, "Got it, mom, he won't be frozen with my care." Then he said that you should go to bed early after a busy day, and then let Lin's mother out.

After closing the door, Lin Fan didn't say anything, just sat next to Qi Tian.

After waiting for a while, Qi Tiancai took a deep breath and said with a smile, "I haven't thanked Auntie yet."

Lin Fan patted him on the shoulder and said, "Tomorrow, there's still time."

……

Lying on the bed with the lights off at night, the two of them were so quiet and didn’t talk. The night in the north is very dark. There are not so many colorful neon lights of high-rise buildings and car lights in a line on the road. I feel that everything is so quiet in the dark. People feel that it is very safe.

"Lin Fan, your family is really nice." Qi Tian said in the dark.

Lin Fan knew that Qi Tian was not talking about this 90-square-meter ordinary furnished house, so he asked Qi Tian, ​​do you want to chat?

After a long silence, it was so long that Lin Fan thought Qi Tian was asleep, and then he heard him say: "When I was young, I thought my brother was very powerful and could do everything well, so my mother treated him very well. Very good, always praise him. Do you want to learn from him? I also want to learn from my brother, and I also want to do well..."

"I remember once, maybe in the kindergarten, the teacher said that I would make a gift for my mother on Mother's Day... I did it in the kindergarten for a whole week, and made a bunch of flowers with colored clay, each with the color of the petals They are all different, and I specially found a beautiful bottle and put it in... When my mother came to pick me up from the kindergarten, the teacher told her when the teacher sent me out, this is a Mother's Day gift made by Qi Tian for you. I won No.1..."

"I remember her expression was very beautiful at that time, she said she was so beautiful, and she knelt down and told me that she liked it very much. I was very happy at that time, because as far as I can remember, she didn't seem to be praised by her very much. Not in vain... When the nanny was packing up the things the next day, I saw that the bouquet of flowers and the vase were still in the garbage bag. He looked at me strangely and said, Madam told me to throw it away..."

"You know, there are a few very big boxes in my house, and they are still there. They are all things my brother made when he was a child, the pictures he drew, the awards he won...all of them are kept well."

After he finished speaking, he paused, as if to calm his breathing, and then continued: "I later found out that she treats me the same as my brother outside, and she treats my brother the same when she returns home, and she treats me just the same." ...Just ignore it, she doesn't care what I do anyway."

Then he laughed at himself and said: "Later I started to do it, fighting and causing trouble. I didn't understand it when I was young, but I understood it later when I grew up. Maybe I just felt that I couldn't see it when I was done. Every day, I always made some noises." Right. But it’s not very easy, I feel like I can do anything as long as I don’t tear down the house..."

Even though he didn't believe it himself, Lin Fan still wanted to find an excuse for Qi Tian's mother's attitude: "Maybe she just favors your brother."

"I thought the same way when I was a child," and then seemed to think about how to say it, and then said after a while: "Until I went to my grandma's house for the New Year in high school, the old lady was still alive at that time. Originally, my brother Let me go upstairs to ask her to eat, and when I passed by the door, I heard her say inside..." Qi Tian paused for a long time before speaking again: "She said that a child born to a wild woman can be compared to our Xiaosheng... ..."

After saying this, Qi Tian pretended to be relaxed and said as if he had finally let go of his burden: "So all the truth is revealed, but it's because I haven't fully understood it since I was a child..."

Lin Fan thought about the indifference and alienation of the relatives in Qi Tian's family, and thought about his parents ignoring him because of busy business and other reasons, but he never thought that it would be this reason, and he felt a little pain in his heart. What kind of expression is the sky, he only knows that his tears are slowly overflowing a little uncontrollably.

After a pause, Qi Tian said as if to comfort himself: "But my brother is so kind to me, I feel he should know, but he still helps me to carry things. When I grow up, I sometimes work hard. He was the one who went for me, but he was five years older than me. I was in elementary school and he was in middle school. He went abroad when I was in middle school. My dad was busy with his career and couldn't go home, so I didn't want to be at home. Stay and move out later.”

……

In the dark, Lin Fan looked in Qi Tian's direction, wondering if Qi Tian would be able to speak to someone else if he hadn't come to his home to see his parents, even if he couldn't see the other party's expression even if they were close at hand. Say these words like a story.

Suddenly, at that moment, he fell in love with every aspect of Qi Tian's personality, irritable, sensitive, clingy, and deliberately alienated from others... everything stems from the one that made him unable to experience warmth and love. , even hypocritical, repelling his home.

Not wanting Qi Tian to feel his emotional fluctuations, he didn't care about the wet pillow towel, Lin Fan slowly stretched out and grabbed Qi Tian's hand under the quilt, trying to convey something, suddenly he felt that hand turn his back He clenched it so tightly that his hands hurt so much that he didn't let go for a long time...