[Comprehensive] Yes, this is a university

Why do you always carry fruit candy with you?

Bailixi himself didn't quite understand.

In my vague impression, when I met "Who" for the first time, the other party gave her a hard candy in a shiny package, sour and sweet, so I can't forget it ever since.

The little girl was puzzled, her fingers clenched the backpack strap behind her, her face was full of confusion.She walked under a row of ginkgo trees in the shadow of the moonlight, and the slanted shadow magnified and devoured the missing light backwards.The black hair is jumping around the shoulder blades, the side face is silent, but the eye sockets are still slightly red.

"Are you still angry?"

The girl glanced at the pink-haired boy who was talking, shook her head silently, but squeezed Akashi Seijuro's right finger tightly, and her thin figure looked particularly weak.

Children's emotions usually come and go quickly.

"Are there any discomforts?"

Shaking his head again, perhaps understanding his situation, Bai Xiaoxi turned his face to look at Natsume Takashi behind him, the youth's clear pupils still had undiminished worry and sadness.She watched this emotion, and quickly looked away before the person found out, pretending to be nonchalant.

No one spoke for a while.

After a long silence, the little girl's soft voice suddenly sounded again: "My second aunt's house has a frying pan, and frying eggs with it will burn your hands, do you know why?"

cold joke?

tell a story?

Several teenagers were pondering in their hearts, but their faces remained calm.Akashi directly lowered his head and gently tugged at her wrist, with a long ending, as if coquettishly following the girl's words: "Why?"

Baili didn't look at him, but looked up at a certain light-haired boy. The hem of his shirt, which was dyed light yellow by the street lamps, swayed in the wind, and his expression was bewildered and gloomy.She stared straight into those amber eyes, and said softly, "Because the handle of the pot is broken, people will get burned every time they grab it."

——You got hold of me, but please don't use it to hurt me.

Natsume froze for a moment, then stopped in a little shock.He didn't know if the meaning of his guess was the voice of the person in front of him. If he were to be compared with the same kind, it would be too cruel to this girl who was struggling to live and was born to the light.But the experiences of the two are obviously similar, and it is difficult for him not to have feelings of suspected sympathy.

It is disrespectful for others to have such thoughts.

The young man shook his head, he suppressed the strange emotion in his eyes, and smiled firmly and relaxedly: "No." As if afraid that the other party would not believe it, he shook his head sharply again, and repeated: "Of course not." .”

After getting an affirmative answer, Miss Baili breathed a sigh of relief. She pressed her other hand to her heart. When she lowered her cheeks, the shadow of her bangs covered her eyes, and an incomprehensible mist rose from inside.

She's grown up like an adult at such a young age.

It is rare for Saiki Kusuo to show unbearable emotions. Normally, this superpower always shows others with a paralyzed face, and he himself cannot arouse his interest in the things around him, so he always appears cold and indifferent.

Obviously when we first met, he looked stupid, laughing and laughing all day long as if there were endless things to laugh about, and had countless friends, as heartless as a child.But as time went on, he got to know her more and more, and gradually realized that this kind of character was only on the surface.

[Past] [junior high school] [parents] and other words like these are scars that cannot be mentioned, and they are thorns in the heart that will reveal rotten flesh.

The scene that hurt her a few hours ago is still vivid in my memory. Even if I apologize, my heart that has been injured for the second time will definitely feel sad.Furthermore, the routine of the remaining two people is simply known to Sima Zhaozhi: one person yearns for the righteous savior in his bones, and vows to get it;

Qi Mu sighed helplessly, lifted his forehead hair in a self-defeating manner, and a few strands of bangs fell in front of his eyebrows, half covering the purple pupils under the goggles.

He no longer wants to wade into this muddy water.

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The blue at night is deeper and farther than the sky, the moon hangs high, and the yellow edge near the outside of the moon has lost its color, and is gradually submerged in a dark blue.The moonlight falling on the earth did not have time to cast a moist and clear glow, and was engulfed by the heavy warm and humid air. The sparse stars seemed to pierce the sky and fly away, but in the end they could only emit a faint light, like bullets shot into cotton.

If time is used as the line, then the girl will recover every four hours.The opportunity is the moonlight. The length of bathing and Bailixi's own wishes determine the age of the elder.

When the girl who was estimated to be fourteen or fifteen raised her long hair behind her ears, it meant that the clock had struck eleven o'clock, all the shops on the street had closed their iron shutters, and the streetlights became even darker.At this time, she is almost the same as her future appearance, except that she is a little shorter and her face is more youthful.

The cold light from the silver laurel fell on the girl's long black and thick hair, vaguely showing a thin and pretty side face, and she was still holding the drink that others bought in the supermarket a few minutes ago.She lowered her head and flipped through the phone contacts expressionlessly: "...There is no Lin Ye."

The name is familiar.

At least that's true for Saiki and Akashi.

The girl sighed, and looked at the other three with a paralyzed face: "I should go back to the dormitory."

"...Hey, has Baili recovered his memory?" Natsume involuntarily straightened his back and became nervous.

"Well, almost."

Looking down at her face, Akashi suddenly asked, "Where do you live?"

Baili Xi was slightly startled, then shrugged and said helplessly: "345, I don't even remember my dormitory number." The girl faced the boy's probing eyes calmly, and those black eyes were covered with a layer of mist , reflecting his indistinct red pupils.Her eyelashes are very long, her wrists are too thin, and her pupils are slender and flexible, but there is no expression.

Maybe it really came back to memory.

Akashi Seijuro thought so, lowered his eyes, but the heart on the left chest was beating, pulling the nerves in his brain.He let go of the palm that had been holding the girl's arm, and took half a step back to distance himself.

She half closed her dark eyes, subconsciously closed them, and when she opened them again, her vision was clear.Baili looked around slowly, put his phone into his pocket calmly, glanced quickly at the lights outside the school gate, and then said word by word: "Anyway, I'm going first, thank you."

The attitude is very cold.

Natsume blamed it on being in a bad mood because someone knew the secret. He hurriedly explained, trying not to look sideways: "It's okay, it was also my problem, Baili, go back and rest."

The girl was obviously taken aback, an unnatural look flashed across her face, and the blankness was fleeting. In order to cover up the momentary dumbness, she nodded indiscriminately, waved her hand casually, turned around and ran towards the school.The figure was thin and small, with long black hair bouncing on her back. She looked around while crossing the street, and she barely stopped until the three handsome teenagers were no longer in her field of vision.

"what……"

The 15-year-old Baili girl was holding her knees and panting, Qu Hei's eyes were filled with impatience.She took out the mobile phone in her pocket and fiddled with the fingerprint lock to open the lock screen mode for a long time, staring at the several APP programs on the desktop without blinking——

"WeChat 345 dormitory group... Sure enough, you guessed right..."

The harmless expression that was deliberately shown before disappeared, and Baili squeezed the phone case and let out a cold snort, narrowed his eyes and said to himself: "Meddling in other people's business, who is it, the inexplicable person."

It was almost midnight and the roads were sparsely populated.The only cafeteria and supermarket with lights on was about to close. The girl touched her pocket and found a few hundred-yuan bills, and immediately raised half of her lips and smiled strangely.She casually threw away the unopened beverage bottle she was carrying, went straight into the supermarket and swept away snacks and mineral water from the shelves, took another utility knife, and a soft-sided book to check out.

The girl unwrapped the bag of potato chips, ate a couple of bites and found it unpalatable, then crumpled it into balls and threw it into a green trash can not far away, accompanied by the bang bang sound and her flat voice : "It's so boring——"

The turf under her feet was rubbed hard, she took a mouthful of mineral water, and the girl walked away step by step.The utility knife opened and closed in her hand, and the sound of clicking and clicking resounded in the quiet night. She slightly raised her head to look at the wordmark on the wall, then threw the water bottle in her right hand and smashed it hard into the glass window on the first floor of a certain dormitory.

"Whoa-"

The sound of the entire window breaking was loud, and transparent fragments fell radially into the room.

"Hahahaha, it's time to wake up, it's dawn—" the girl covered her stomach and bent over laughingly, her raised eyes were domineering. The corners of the face and mouth evoked just the right arc.

"I care about your mother, are you sick!"

Baili Xi ran away with unbearable joy. She held up the utility knife in her hand and shouted excitedly: "It's so interesting, it's so funny!" With one swipe, blood flowed profusely immediately, and bright red liquid swarmed from the blood vessels and dripped on the concrete floor.

The blood-stained blade gleamed strangely, was rubbed left and right like a baby girl, and finally put it in the pocket.The corners of the grinning mouth were instantly straightened at this moment, and the narrowed eyes were empty, returning to the expressionless face, and she pulled her hair: "Tsk, it's so boring."

The bags of snacks he just bought were all opened, and they were randomly thrown everywhere like a goddess scattered flowers. Baili hooked the mouth of the plastic bag in his hand with his index finger, spun it continuously to hang it in the air, and then let go suddenly.The tin can of coffee stored in it was thrown [-] meters by the centrifugal force, just hitting a distant lamppost, and the brown liquid inside also splashed out.

After finishing all this, the girl slowly climbed up to the sixth-floor teaching building, sat on the bench on the roof, and tore the soft-sided book: press the corner on the left, press the corner on the right, fold it in half, turn it over, fold it in half again, and make a triangle... Ah, Wrong stack.Knead it into a ball and throw it under your feet, tear another piece of paper, press the corner on the left side, press the corner on the right side, fold it in half, and turn it over...

The night wind stopped, the moonlight on the wall weakened, dark shadows invaded, and the blades of grass under the trees shone strangely.

The black-haired girl was lying flat on the dusty rooftop, holding a paper airplane in her left hand, staring blankly with her dark, unfocused eyes, motionless.If it weren't for the rising and falling chest that proved the existence of breathing, it would look like a corpse.

I don't know how long it took, but the body moved.

She squinted at the dark trees at the bottom of the building, stepped on the bench and jumped up, sat on the railing of the roof, dangling her legs.About 10 minutes later, the girl suddenly got up and stood on the guardrail, with her arms raised flat, and she walked unsteadily along it. If this dangerous movement was performed during the day, countless people would definitely watch it.

"In order for you to hear me

my words

sometimes fine

Like the footprints of seagulls on the beach

Necklace, Drunken Bells

To your grape-smooth hands

I look at my words in the distance

they're more like yours

They climb like ivy on my old pain

as they climb up damp walls

You are the one who started this bloody game

They flee from my dark lair

You're full of everything, you're full of-"

She recited the poem aloud, with a smile on her face, then vigorously threw the brand new paper airplane, swayed from side to side, turned around, turned her back to the empty space, and leaned back, with most of her body suspended in the air.

then.

Fall from a height.

The whistling wind was all around my ears, pouring into my clothes, into my mouth and nose, with an extremely calm expression on my face, without nostalgia.

——If it ends like this, it seems good?

Such thoughts occupied my mind, but unfortunately before it lingered for too long, the girl's body was hugged tightly, with warm palms leaning against her back, a familiar yet unfamiliar breath penetrated into her nostrils.There was a flash in front of my eyes, I don't know when I fell from mid-air to the ground at the bottom of the building, followed by a sting on my face.

"Snapped--"

A few seconds later, the sound of palm touching her cheek was heard. The girl was completely stunned, and looked up at the boy in front of her in a daze.

"...Are you tired of even being alive! Use your brain to think about the stupid things you did!" The pink-haired boy picked up her collar, the front of her chest was clenched into a ball, and her toes were almost pulled away. ground.Anger actually appeared on his usually calm face this time, his brows were furrowed, and his tone was extremely bad.

Baili Xi stared at the purple eyes hidden under the green goggles, moved his lips blankly, and uttered a few words: "You... When did you..."

In the field of vision against the light, the figure surrounded by the warm light of the street lamp overlapped with the imaginary.The young man's fingers clenched and turned white, and he almost shot out flames from his eyes. He gritted his teeth: "I have always been by my side!"

At the beginning, I didn't think it would be useful for her to be invisible, so whether it was going to the supermarket to buy a utility knife, smashing the window with a mineral water bottle, or self-mutilation, climbing to the rooftop on the sixth floor...he always stood by her side, watching with all this.

The black-haired girl opened her mouth in disbelief, and she didn't make a sound for a long time. After a long time, she gasped incomprehensibly: "Is there something wrong with you?! Even if we meet in the future, this kind of relationship is not good. It’s time to instruct you to save me, obviously you approached me out of sympathy, don’t say such words to deceive people!!!”

What was hidden in the grown-up girl's body finally came to light again. Her inferiority, sensitivity and fragility were all in front of her eyes. She opened the heart and showed him, where were the ventricles, where were the blood vessels, and where were the arteries.

Saiki Kusuo felt that the girl in front of him was simply unreasonable, he firmly grasped the cloth under his hands, lowered his head and approached her cheek, even breathing was within easy reach, and all the words he spit out fell on it——

"It's not sympathy. I didn't get in touch with you for such a ridiculous reason. Do you have to explain it clearly to understand? If it's not just because you like "Baili Xi", who would want to continue the friendship until now! "

"You put yourself down too low when you're with people, with unnecessarily excessive kindness and a low self-esteem that hides corners...you're good enough, you don't need to change...everyone is proud of you, they think Bai Lixi is a kind and gentle girl, she deserves the best relationship in the world, and she deserves to treat each other with heart, so - don't force others to give you reasons to love!!!"

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The poems appearing in this article are selected from "Twenty Love Poems and a Song of Despair" by Pablo Neruda