[Comprehensive] Yes, this is a university

After staying up all night, I finally brought this story to an end.

At first I wanted to write this article since my third year in high school.

At that time, I was reading Chinese early, and I was sitting in the first row holding up a thick ancient poem that must be memorized for the college entrance examination. I read "Born in Sorrow and Died in Peace" very soullessly, with no ups and downs in the tone, and a large sleeping area in the background Classmates.

Then suddenly, I turned my head and said excitedly to my deskmate: "Damn it, the name Baili Xi is so damn nice, I decided that the heroine will be her!"

It was very abrupt and inexplicable, so the girl at the same table who was confused by me let out an ah, and nodded confusedly following my meaning: "...Oh."

Encouraged (not ah!), I made up my mind to wait until after the college entrance examination to start writing this San Wu fan novel that only knows the name of the heroine.I have no writing experience and no brains, so I just started updating with a casual attitude.

At that time, I just entered the university, and I entered the gate of C University with a series of complex emotions such as longing, anticipation, and nervousness. I imagined all kinds of things that Miss Baili might encounter, and wrote without stopping. down.

At first, I just wanted to create a good-tempered young lady, similar to the combination of Luffy + Yinshi, who is popular and mature at the same time, and can handle everything with ease.There is also serious complaint skills, and the appearance of a good old man who likes to meddle in other people's affairs and save the beauty. In this way, Bailixi's girly image has gradually become plump.

Later, I wrote more than a dozen chapters of daily life, and Baili also met many people. I will soon have my first winter vacation since college, so I suddenly thought of her family.In fact, there was such a foreshadowing vaguely before, and I seemed to have unconsciously brought her into a more complicated story.

Is it a five-good family of brothers and sisters?Or a poor single-parent family where one parent died?

I think of my friends, my high school classmates, and many, many people, including myself.

Will not work.

Because she is a teenage manga protagonist.

The best way to create such a protagonist is not to be hindered by the family, and there will be no plot to rely on parents.Like the orthodox hot-blooded boy comics, the giants of jump, such as the pirate Naruto Hunter, are basically set up with both parents dead or separated from their parents since childhood, so that the male protagonist will not be limited to a narrow structure, he will Get out of the family and find your dreams.

The protagonists of my novels seem to have this characteristic. Thinking about it now, most of the reasons are also due to this, and of course there are also reasons from my personal experience.But Bai Lixi is very complicated. For her, I did not clearly write the setting of the death of her parents. Instead, I dragged her into the family's sorrow, and made her constantly tossed between her parents, hurt and punished.

The charm of Prometheus, a tragic figure in Greek mythology, is not only that he brought fire to the world, but that he was willing to be punished, tied to the Caucasus Mountain, and endured the wind, sun, and vultures’ pecking every day. Can't bend knees can't sleep.Everyone will remember him not because of the great contribution he made-this is very interesting, maybe such a story is more in line with facing the evil of mankind, describing the insurmountable weakness of mankind, and counting it as a real tragedy. The strength and depth of "torturing the soul".

Bai Lixi is like a Madonna, her humanity is less reflected, but she is like a compassionate Bodhisattva most of the time.But at certain times, she appears to be unexpectedly authentic, such as her longing for her parents, her usual lazy image, and her cold personality, which makes her look like a person when she goes around.

There were times when she couldn't hold on, there were things she was afraid of, and she felt sad and crying. Little by little, Bailixi gradually became a girl with flesh and blood from a name she accidentally discovered in a Chinese morning reading class.Then during this period, she met many people and things who saved her and was saved by her. She also changed from a cowardly and inferior child to truly gentle, truly relieved, and truly worthy of this name.

Thinking back, at first I just wanted to write a story about the daily life of the university. There were joys, embarrassments, gags, and dumbfounding in the story. Then it got out of control and broke away from the original daily circle and disappeared forever.

Maybe only daily life can't save her.

Saving a person starts from the heart, and something more impactful and worthy of change must happen.

It's not something that can be solved by saying [let's live happily together] [quickly break away from your parents and sever ties with them] [let me be friends with you].

Forgetting everything and starting again is just the first step. This time, let her remember nothing, and then get to know everyone, be healed by the people she once saved, and then live with a smile.In this way, even if you remember it, no matter how great the sadness is, let it go back.

Whether it is love, friendship, family affection, teach her to learn these feelings and truly grow up.

…………………………2019.10.24

Okay, it's college.

The university of life is nothing more than this.

From a freshman who didn't know anything, after three years of experience, my mood has changed too much.Sometimes the things I want to write are all kinds of strange, and the things that happen are also unexpected. I have tried to end in tragedy several times, and I can't even support it to finish writing it.

For some time, my spirit was in jeopardy.I can't say what kind of disease it is, it's just the normal state of human beings when they are in trouble, but my retribution may be more ferocious, making it too late for people to resist.

Then I thought about my parents and what they would do if I died.Just get out of the state of poor spirits, and look good again.

I always repeat this process of wanting to die, healing myself again and again.Why is this happening? Even I can’t explain it myself. Maybe some experiences are similar to Baili’s. Writing about her is like writing about myself.

I've always felt that life was boring, but the people around me were pushing me forward, and I saw something in them.

Because my parents were too busy with work, they basically ignored me since I was a child, and I used to run around in messy relatives' homes.Therefore, you can tell the reason for the word Jirenlixia, and it can be used as experience when writing Baili.

Many stories are copied from me, not to mention the university, it’s good that there are fewer scenes in school later, a lot of things happened, and I also lacked a lot of courage.

Reality and stories are different.

The original ending of this article is no surprise that Baili Xi Pianran wakes up, wakes up from a dream, from a mental hallucination, and finds that all these are his own illnesses.Without these people who accompany her, there is nothing but cold reality.

After all, it can be seen that I deliberately mixed the geographical location and information of the Celestial Dynasty in the beginning, just to express a subtle sense of disobedience, and finally when I was awake, I could perfectly separate imagination and reality.

Later, as I wrote and wrote, I felt an indescribable sympathy and sadness for this girl.If this is the ending, what is the difference between me and me? Nothing has changed.

Just let her take it seriously, let her come alive.

Let her always be that little sun Baili Xi, a chic heroine who will have a happy ending, and a beloved group favorite girl.

so good.

【We will all grow up and grow old. Some people will be thankful that the flame is dimmed, and thankful that the monstrous waves that envelop you are finally ebbing slowly. This can bring inner peace and tranquility. People who think they are mature will think that That's the way life is, but I'm glad I wasn't and never will be. ——"The Rhinoceros in Love"]

Of course, Miss Baili is not dead, she just went back to hell temporarily, so the next part will probably be all kinds of HE episodes√

So the text has come to an end here, thank you for your persistent company, thank you for witnessing Bailixi's growth story, and thank you girls in the group for chatting with me.Special thanks to great writers such as Yukio Mishima, Yasunari Kawabata, Soseki Natsume, Neruda, and Tagore, whose classic sentences are often quoted in the articles.Thanks to Zhang Yun’s real prototype—my friend Erqing, and to all readers who are willing to read such a long, long story.

…………………………2020.8.24