[The Twilight Saga·Carlyle] Hidden God

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Well, reading this chapter alone may feel a bit incomprehensible, so I recommend reading this chapter and the next chapter together, which is better.

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The Christmas night sky is silent yet bright. ——a large, milky-white full moon was hanging quietly in the dark leaden sky, squandering the silver light reflected from the sun.

Because the moon is too bright, there are not a few very obvious stars in the sky, even in the eyes of vampires.

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Edmund hugged the quilt (not because it was cold, but because he was used to it) and lay comfortably on the carpet in his room, resting on Carlisle's thigh and poking Carlisle's hand on his forehead boredly, looking up from time to time. The blond vampire who was reading a novel to him.

"Don't you want to hear the story?" After being poked 342 times, Carlisle finally moved away from the thick book in front of him, and turned his attention to the boy.

"Hmm.—Can we talk about me now?" Edmund narrowed his eyes and let Carlisle's cool fingertips gently stroke his cheek. ——It's very comfortable, so he likes Carlisle very much.

"You are the most special human being I have ever seen. Of course, you are also the most special vampire I have ever seen." Carlisle put his finger on the corner of the boy's eyes and nodded lightly, "I have never seen such a special vampire. Fascinating guy.——I really want to hug you and study it."

"Really? I like it when you say that about me!—it's a good thing."

"Yes.—perhaps it's not worth spending all my time on it."

Edmund looked at Carlisle's shining eyes, and suddenly thought of what Edward had said about Carlisle not long ago.

"...But you definitely didn't starve yourself like that for this reason." The boy said softly, "Well, I'm not forcing you to describe the scene to me...Of course, you can also choose to remain silent.— I was just thinking, since we are already together, shouldn't we help each other share something? As you said before, to give you a sense of security?"

"You're right." Carlisle put the book aside, lowered his head, and continued to stroke the other's cheek with his fingertips, "What do you want to know?"

"...Wait, let me think about it.——The memory at that time is a little fuzzy." Edmund blinked, turned to look at the night sky outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, and spoke after a while, "I remember that I seemed to be Hit by something... It hurt so much, I heard you and Alice... Then I didn't know anything until yesterday. - I really didn't realize that I slept for so long .”

Carlisle's fingertips that landed on the boy's face trembled slightly, then he raised it and pressed his temple.

"What's the matter?" Edmund asked nervously. "Headache?"

"Vampires don't suffer from headaches." Carlisle patted the boy on the shoulder, signaling him not to worry, "It's just that I suddenly recall the scene at that time...it's a little hard to accept."

"...Sorry, we won't talk about this anymore."

"It's okay, Edmund. - I think you have the right to know what happened at that time." Carlisle didn't seem to care much, he raised his hand, and gently rubbed Edmund's left abdomen. "...you were impaled by a piece of steel pipe that had been removed from the handrail, passed through your stomach, and pinned you to the floor. It must have been buried in the ground by... eight inches (approximately 20 how many centimeters)?—right here."

The boy touched the hand of the vampire parent. ——It feels as smooth as marble here, with a little warmth.It's hard to imagine it being pierced through.

"Sorry, we came too late. ——By the time we got there, you were almost lying in blood... so I had to break the agreement and turn you into a vampire in advance." Carlisle closed his mouth His eyes trembled slightly, "I asked Alice to hold you down and pull it out... Then, I injected you with venom. But—"

"no effect?"

"...I thought you were dead, Ed." Carlisle stroked Edmund's cheek tenderly, and said each word after a while, "Heartbeat, breathing and pulse all disappeared... no matter what first aid I did None of the measures worked. I kept calling for you, but you just closed your eyes so stubbornly, ignoring me at all—”

The boy's beautiful cat's eyes widened, almost bouncing like an electric shock, and he seemed a little flustered. ——He opened his mouth slightly, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't utter any syllables.

"...you can't imagine how I felt at that time." Carlisle took Edmund's hand, pulled him back into his arms, and stroked the back of the boy's neck soothingly, "that kind of... The feeling of being 'alive' again. No matter how strong I can bear it, I can't make myself... more rational."

"I'm sorry, Carlisle." Edmund lowered his head and snuggled into the arms of the blond vampire, and said almost in a whisper, "I... shouldn't have been so impulsive...causing you..."

"...Edward thank you very much." Carlisle said softly after a long silence. ——Perhaps because of the light, the boy felt that Carlisle's expression was a bit strange at this time, "Me too."

"Edward, I can understand, but...why are you..."

"If you hadn't done that, it would have been Bella who was impaled——her body is not as good as yours, and she might die on the spot, and we might not even have the chance to transform her, let alone how to Her parents explained why she left Forks suddenly." Carlisle put his hand through the boy's waist and hugged him tightly, "If she really died, then, according to Edward's character, he Might go to the Volturi myself."

"What are you doing with the Volturi?" Edmund raised his voice slightly.

"I think he might ask Ah Ro to take his life. — I don't want to see such a scene... It's a good thing you saved the girl."

The boy frowned, lowered his head and didn't know what he was thinking. ——Carlisle saw this, raised his finger, rubbed the other person's cheek with his fingertips, and then leaned forward and dropped a shallow kiss.

"If Bella leaves, Edward may not be able to live anymore."

"Then you would rather lose me? Or, would you rather bear the pain of losing the singer yourself than let Edward suffer a little setback?" Edmund asked loudly, seeming to find Carlisle's logic quite funny. "I don't understand, I really don't understand, Carlisle.—Really, this is the first time you've explained it to me and I still don't understand anything... I thought you'd blame me!"

"Of course I blame you, Ed.—but not because you saved Bella." Carlisle took the boy's hand and shook it gently in his own. "I blame you, Because you made another stupid mistake."

"……Do you really love me?"

"Why do you ask that?" Carlisle frowned slightly, "I thought the answer was obvious."

"As a normal...partner, or father... the only way you could explain that was that you were grateful that I sacrificed myself trying to save Bella? Or that I saved Bella, and thus saved' Fragile Edward?" Edmund shook his head. "I don't understand.—You know? I'm jealous.—I think you might love Edward a little more now."

After the boy said this, he pulled away Carlisle's arm that was holding him, and stood in front of the French window of his room with his back to the blond vampire, staring at the pair of blue pupils that were as bright as a galaxy, quietly watching the falling wind outside the window. Spruce tree with snowflakes. ——This is different from what he imagined.

Carlisle once again made Edmund feel that he was not the most important one in the other party's heart. ——He knew that this kind of emotion was childish and capricious, and emotionally like a girl...but he still couldn't help thinking this way.

"...Yes, I love Edward very much. But my love for him is only between father and son." Carlisle stood up from the carpet, walked to the side of the boy, put his arms around the boy's waist, "he It's my first son."

"I used to think that your love for me was limited to that between father and son." Edmund said quickly. ——The tone is so cold that it doesn't look like him. "I'm still your youngest son!—Wait, are you going to continue to adopt children?"

"Come on, Ed. Can you hear me out? - Bella..."

"Do you have to keep mentioning that girl's name in front of me, Carlisle?" The boy interrupted Carlisle with his arms folded and gnashing his teeth, "Must I have a deeper prejudice against her?— — Well, her good points are indeed obvious, but I can only remember her bad points. One of the most important ones is 'she will cause me to no longer be sure of my position in this family'. Sorry , I just can't like her, no matter how much Edward insists, I will never agree to him bringing her home... She slashed me once with a dagger, and then shattered my bone with that Mark2 Root bone. What an excellent girl, who was never good at sports, she can kill me accurately in just 2 minutes. Do you want to give her a reward, Carlisle? Did Edward praise her for being very capable after the incident? ?Sorry, I don't know why I had such a ridiculous thought but it just popped into my head with a 'whoosh'! - Please, Carlisle, can you stop putting other people's business in every time In number one? Can you stop hiding your feelings from me all the time? What happens when you say 'I don't actually want you to save Bella because you're going to get hurt'? Will the world end? I I don't understand why you want to thank me, do you really value Edward more?"

"Ed!" Carlisle frowned and interrupted Edmund, "Don't think so."

"I'm sorry, I can't be as selfless as you or Esme, I've never been more self-absorbed, or someone on my side, Carlisle. - Please don't tell me how Bella is, what's up please ?”

The blond vampire looked at the boy in front of him silently. At this moment, he suddenly didn't know what he should say. ——His original intention was not like this, but for some reason, at this moment, he couldn't even say a word of rebuttal.

The reason why Carlisle said that he was grateful to Edmund was because he didn't want the boy to pay too much attention to the psychological pain he caused him, but the other party misinterpreted his meaning, thinking that he was favoring Edward and Bei pull.But in fact it has nothing to do with them. ——This is the method he thought of for a long time, but it actually had the opposite effect.

Seriously, he cared more about Edmund than Bella (or even Edward).It doesn't matter who the girl is or what kind of relationship she has with me.

He always thinks first of all about his boy.

But he couldn't say that it was wrong for Edmund to save Bella, because apart from being Edward's girlfriend, that girl is also a life. If she doesn't save her, she will definitely die, but Edmund But there is still the possibility of surviving.Of course, if the boy did not choose to save Bella at that time, then he would not blame the other party. ——Because everyone has the desire to live [God Hidden], there is no need to die for someone who has little to do with him.

Because he cared too much about Edmund, he couldn't say something like: "Your behavior makes my life worse than death". ——He knew that if he said it, the other party would regret and blame himself even more.

Instead of this, how about letting the boy lose his temper at himself with this stupid sentence? —if it would make Edmund feel better?

But when Carlisle saw the boy's sad eyes, this thought was suddenly shattered with a punch.