Anomalous ability is Doctor Mori

40

Finally got it all sorted out.

As soon as she got into the car for the return journey, Alice collapsed into the seat and let out a long breath.But she still hasn't forgotten what Osamu Dazai said about being hungry just now, and she pressed the call button to ask the driver to drive to a high-end restaurant on the PortMafia site. She opened the small refrigerator on the stretched limousine, took two bottles of Coke, and handed it to Osamu Dazai took a bottle, opened the bottle in his hand, and took a big gulp.

Then he began to complain without the burden of the leader: "So, why should the meeting be arranged outside? It's hot and sunny. I don't understand it at all."

"Because if you're indoors, no matter where you are, the three parties won't be at ease." Osamu Dazai took the Coke and didn't open it, just played with it in his hand, while counting in a tone that seemed to be chatting, "Sniper, explosion/explosion Objects, eavesdropping...there are so many ways to count."

"I know that too. But it's too hot." And probably with the idea that "you wouldn't drink it anyway if you prepared a drink", she was baked under the umbrella for so long, she didn't even have a saliva. You should be cautious about the image of the leader, and you can't take off the black suit you're wearing.Fortunately, she is naturally beautiful now, she doesn't need makeup and doesn't sweat much, why don't the two on the opposite side see a female ghost with mascara and foundation flowing down together!

Still the air conditioner in the car is powerful.

Alice looked with satisfaction at the complete sound insulation from the driver after the front fender was lowered, and the windows on both sides were all blacked out so that only the inside could see the outside world. The seats were facing each other, and the interior of the car was spacious enough to lie down. It's worth the hassle.

The dead lunatic turned into a rich man, and finally let her regain a sense of the long-lost rich second generation.

Maybe even better?After all, before time travel, her brother would not give her money to buy such a luxury car.

Thinking about it, Alice happily kicked off her high heels, covered her coat on her knees, and hugged the queen pillow she left in the car, happily occupying a row of seats by herself.

Osamu Dazai, who also occupied a row across from her, laughed—it was a soft and lingering smile that was completely different from the cute and childish one just now.

But when Alice felt her eyes look over, the smile had disappeared.

Alice blinked, feeling like she missed something.But Osamu Dazai didn't give her time to think carefully, the boy blinked and then returned to his usual appearance.Qing Lingling stared at Alice for a while, then he suddenly said, "Alice, do you think I will live to be over 40?"

This is what she said just now.Alice thought.She didn't care about Dazai's address, he had always called her elder sister when he was a child, but in recent years he liked to call her elder sister mixed with Alice, she thought it was quite normal, after all, the little boy had grown up.Besides, Dazai was the only one in the family who could call her sister.Both Chuya and Ryunosuke called her Alice from the beginning.

But this question...

Alice put down the pillow, didn't care about her shoes and coat, leaned forward and left the seat, squatted in front of Dazai, put her hands in his hands, raised her head slightly, and looked into his eyes.

"Why do you ask?"

Probably because this is a small and airtight space with only two people, Osamu Dazai's eyelashes trembled. Speak in a real tone.

"I think... a little scary."

Alice then moved a little closer, and stretched out her hand to gently touch his unbandaged cheek.

"Because you're alive?" As if she was influenced by the young man, her tone was extremely light.

"Yeah." Osamu Dazai nodded slightly.

"Does Dazai feel that life is not good now? Are you unhappy with me and everyone?"

"Not really."

Not because of being unhappy, or rather, just the opposite.

[Oda Saku] once said to [Dazai Osamu], //Whether you are the one who kills or saves, nothing beyond your prediction will happen.There is nothing in this world that can fill your loneliness, and you can only wander in the dark forever. //

indeed so.He had thought so too.In this rotten world, in this absurd nightmare, there is nothing worth prolonging this dreary life to desperately pursue.

So, at the age of 11, he came to Yokohama [in advance], and planned to die cleanly after verifying something.

So, that day, he jumped into that river.

When he fell into the icy river, he only felt irony.One day in late spring when he was seven years old, two memories suddenly appeared in his mind inexplicably, two "Dazai Osamu", two "Different Routes to the Same Destination" life.Why give him these?Is it because he is Osamu Dazai?

——But whether killing people or saving people, [Book] or Yokohama, it has nothing to do with him.He hasn't met [Oda Saku] yet, and he doesn't understand the feeling of desperately wanting to save the other party.Whether it is a curse or a blessing, even if the world is destroyed tomorrow, what does it matter to him?

——Even if those are all [Osamu Dazai] and me, so what.

——Or because those are all [Dazai Osamu], all of them are "I", he is more sure that even if he continues to live, it is meaningless.

— can't find it.There is nothing in this world that can fill your loneliness.There is nothing worth prolonging this dreary life to desperately pursue.

Then let me go to sleep.I just need to go to sleep.let me sleep.Then you can "wake up".

He really thought so when he sank into the quiet, cold water—even though it was his first suicide attempt, it seemed as if he had tried it hundreds of times before.

However, he meets Alice.

Alice, who has a humanoid superhuman ability called Mori Ogai, who is out of tune with the whole world, who completely exceeded his predictions, and who can't help but wrap him in an unbelievably hot and thick warmth.

At first, he was just a little curious about the unexpected, beautiful and almost illusory existence.

But soon, that curiosity was replaced by something else.Beside Alice, in her clinic, Osamu Dazai is not [Osamu Dazai], he is really just a little ordinary boy who is a little bit smarter and a little bit mischievous.For the teenagers who need protection and even pampering in Alice's view, there is no wind, frost, rain and snow in this world, only trivial, ordinary and warm daily life.

That feeling was too strange and novel, and also too comfortable. 【Osamu Dazai】I'm afraid he never thought that he would be taken care of by "Alice" in every possible way, play tricks on Rimbaud, and be forced to instruct Akutagawa Ryunosuke to do math homework-why is he so bad at math?Obviously, he learned Chinese quite quickly-if he ate two more bites of canned crab meat, he would be reported by Akutagawa Gin.Even if he quarreled with the slug a hundred and eight times and was chased and beaten upstairs and downstairs, he would still come to him with a new game next time.When he was disliked by him for not knowing how to attack, he slammed the controller with bursting veins, and after a few minutes, he patiently asked for the secret of clearing the level in a low voice.Even if he scolded and shouted every time he was brought back from the tree, the river and other places, his ears hurt.But as long as he pretends to be hurt, he will feel guilty, and as soon as he sneezes, the orange-haired boy will immediately take off his coat and use it as a hood.

Now, even more so, everyone regards him as someone who needs to be protected. As long as they stand on the battlefield, no matter Akutagawa or Chuya, they will subconsciously pull him behind.

They are protecting him.They are protecting 【Osamu Dazai】.

Neither for duty nor for the use of his brain.Neither out of stubborn loyalty nor indispensable combat power.

Just because they are 【Family】, just because he is Osamu Dazai.

This is a feeling so novel that it makes people even feel terrified.

Not to mention, there is also Oda.

It was Alice who said, "Since you don't want to kill people, don't meddle in it. Didn't you mean you want novels, that's fine, you just go raise children and practice your pen." Odasaku of the orphanage that time bought.

——Alice was too busy at that time to tell the difference, and he directly handled the purchase of the orphanage.In the list of orphanages, he saw Atsushi Nakajima's name.

so good.At that moment, Osamu Dazai thought.This world is so beautiful at this moment, it's like an illusory dream.

And all of this is because of Alice.This girl with a fiery fire shining in the depths of her pupils has a wonderful ability to dye everything around her into a warm orange that is almost hot, and to imbue every hour of every day with a nostalgic atmosphere of fireworks.

It's like walking on a quiet and quiet street on a clear evening, the city's unique, huge orange sunset casts warm afterglow.You're drenched in that warmth, and the wind is the smell of the tide and appetizing dinners from nearby homes.

But you are not envious.Just feel at ease.Because you are on your way home.You know exactly where your destination is, and you know that there is a light and a person waiting for you to go back not far away.You'll open familiar doors and hear her say "Welcome back".Then, a bright smile and a warm embrace.

She is the link between you and the world, the anchor of your existence in the world.Your hometown, your safe house, the delivery room where you were born and the cemetery where you end up.

You know, with her, you'll never be lost.

This sense of security, which is so real that it can almost be turned into substance, may be what Alice calls happiness.

At that moment, Dazai Osamu thought so.Then in the next second, uncontrollable fear surged in his heart.

//As long as you think you don't want to lose something, you will definitely lose it.No matter what it is that has the value to pursue, it is doomed to be lost the moment it is obtained. //

- This can't be done.

He judged so for the first time.Then he fell into his own deep thinking, until he was awakened by Chuya shaking his shoulders.

He felt that his expression must have been particularly ugly at that time, because the slug looked like he had seen a ghost, but in the end it was just complicated eyes, telling him to take a good rest and not be too tired.And when Slug walked out of the office, he realized that the white paper in front of him was covered with handwriting in a mess—that was a code that only he could understand, each of which was a madness aimed at destroying the entire world in the shortest time. plan.

Therefore, if he loses the "happiness" he has now, he will probably really go crazy.

Osamu Dazai clearly realized this at that moment.

That would be horrible.

"Thinking that all of this might disappear one morning...Maybe it's just a dream, and when I wake up, it won't exist..."

That would be terrible.

"So..." The boy's kite-colored eyes stared at the girl's azure blue pupils, but it seemed as if they were looking through her, staring at somewhere in the void.His voice was so clear that it was almost transparent, deep in the unfocused pupils, there was a deep daze.

"Is it better to die now?"

At this moment, his whole body seemed to shatter if he touched it.

Alice sat next to him without thinking, and then hugged the boy tightly in her arms.

Osamu Dazai's hands immediately wrapped around her, firmly grasping the fabric behind her, like a drowning man grasping the water plants on the shore.

Alice stretched out her hand to press the back of his head, protecting his head around his neck like a child who had just been full moon, and then moved her other hand along his back.

"Not afraid, not afraid." She was really distressed.Touching Dazai's neck for a while, rubbing his head for a while, and reassuring him repeatedly, "It won't disappear. I am here. We are all here. Nothing will disappear. Even if it is ten years, 20 years , even if Dazai becomes a grandfather, you are still my raised child. Be good, don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid.”

"Absolutely, absolutely will not abandon you."

"...Sister..." The boy in his arms clenched a little tighter.His chin rested on her shoulder, his breath patted against her skin, making a sound like an insecure kitten.

Alice's heart ached and softened, and she was terribly sad.

"It's a bit idealistic to say so, but my sister will work hard."

Try to make everything better, try to hold you, and try to maintain our daily life.

"So don't be afraid. Look, I did a good job this time too. So Dazai has to work hard too."

Try not to give up, try to persevere.

"But……"

"No but!" You have an IQ ceiling!Be confident in yourself!Yang Xiaoqi had said that as long as Dazai didn't commit suicide, he wouldn't die if anyone died.

Alice is completely lost, she is a very simple layman, and she has no way to understand such delicate sensibility.what happened?It’s okay to die if you are unhappy, but you will still be like this when you feel happy.

It's terrible, the head nurse goddess didn't teach her what to do at this time.

Alice really wanted to keep this restless and fragile young man in her heart at the moment. She knew why there is a metaphor for petting in Japanese called "it won't hurt if you put it in the eyes". If it can make Osamu Dazai feel a little bit more secure If so, she really doesn't mind putting him in her eyes.

So, after thinking and thinking, she finally opened her mouth ruthlessly.

"If you're really that scared..."

If you're really that scared of everything disappearing and you're left alone.

"If my sister dies, you can die with me."

"……elder sister?"

Alice pressed his head heavily and sighed.

"I won't leave you alone."

Unlike other people, this Osamu Dazai, even if he is an adult, is still a child who will cry because he is alone.

Alice clearly realized this at this moment.Compared to this world, compared to other people in this world, the boy in his arms is too intelligent, sensitive, and fragile.

—He couldn't do without me.

——I want, always, to protect him.

In the girl's chest, heat surged like a flame.This is unprecedented, mixed with maternal love and protective desire, and other more complex and intense emotions.

Under such emotional agitation, she supported the boy's shoulders, pulled him a little away, and then, under his puzzled gaze, stretched out her hand and gently covered his exposed eye.

The boy closed his eyes reflexively, and there was a touch of the girl's palm brushing against the eyelashes.Then, the next moment, gentle heat touched his eyelids.

The boy's eyelashes trembled like the wings of a frightened butterfly.

It was an incomparably gentle and sincere kiss full of affection and cherishment.

Then, he heard Alice's voice very close.

"Dazai, no, Aji, don't be afraid—if there is a hell in this world, if the two of you go down together, I will protect you too."

"So," she smiled, "until my sister dies, you have to live with me properly!"

Osamu Dazai opened his eyes, and he saw that pair of familiar, clear eyes, as blue as the sky, filled with light that could make moths lose their minds, and just wanted to melt and throw themselves into it.

It's really...too beautiful.

Osamu Dazai didn't speak, but threw himself into the girl's arms again, tightly holding the cloth behind her.

It seems that as long as this is the case, [Light] can be grasped.