pretending to be graceful

Zhang Yu thought, her parents thought it was ugly and didn't use the name given by Da Xian'er, they really shouldn't.In fact, she might as well be called "Zhang Buyu".

Her mother is a boat lady in Yuzhen, and her mother's mother may be similar. She has been in this place since she was born, doing this job peacefully, and supporting the boat to transport people and goods on the river.Ordinary work, ordinary life.

If it wasn't for her father's appearance, everything would have gone on so simply.

Zhang Yu’s father, Zhang Anliu, is a photographer—the self-proclaimed kind, who creates strange things that others don’t understand, and then calls himself an artist—no one will believe this in any big city. .The bad thing is that the isolated town of Yuzhen is too simple, and her mother is too easy to be deceived.

When Zhang Yu grew up, Yu Town was no longer that Yu Town. The children would more or less go to school to get in touch with the outside world, and tourists would come here later.But when her mother was young, it was not like this.

In the town, there are only a few houses that have a collection of books, and a boat lady will rarely come into contact with them.At that time, the Fang family invited a husband to teach Fang Miao, the eldest daughter of his family, while the maverick Jiang Fang went out to study, and his father was so angry that he wanted to cut off contact with her.

Little Bao'er—her mother only had such a nickname—naturally, she didn't have the conditions to have as many books and see so many worlds like them.

That's why she was attracted by Zhang Anliu who came from outside and brought many new things.The girl in Huaichun and the outsider full of freshness and mysterious charm are hopelessly in love.

And this n-class photographer Zhang Anliu, who accidentally came to Yuzhen to pick up the scenery while walking and taking pictures, also stayed in Yuzhen—Zhang Yu speculated that he would actually stay, maybe because he couldn't survive outside. down.

Who said no?As long as there is nothing wrong with the brain, compared to the closed Yuzhen, the eccentric world outside is more worth pursuing.

Forcibly enclosing people in this small place, they are out of place and cause trouble.

Fang Jing felt that he should not be called Fang Jing, but should be called "Feng Jing" after his father's surname.

Sealing the scene, sealing the scene, he wants to see more scenery.

The Fang family is a well-known family in Xiaoxiaoyu Town.Although Fang Jing, who grew up in it, didn't feel it, but felt that other people in the town were in awe of his family.

Very annoying.

He can't play as he pleases with whoever he wants, run wild and laugh, and "not know who he is."

But what is Fang Jing's identity?Fang Miao's son?But what's so special about Fang Miao, in that she has read more books than other people in the town?

Fang Jing didn't understand why after reading a lot of books, he became different from others and became superior to others.If you are superior to outsiders, you should also be superior to your husband.

The most pitiful person Fang Jing has ever met is his father, Feng Gu, a native of Yuzhen, who has never read any books, is ordinary, and the only characteristic is probably his good looks.

Fang Jing didn't understand the union of his mother and father.She doesn't understand why Fang Miao, who is so high-spirited, insists on finding someone to marry, and why Feng Gu, who has so many choices, chooses the domineering Fang Miao.

Fang Miao always has high standards and strict requirements on everyone. In her world, there is no compromise or understanding, but Feng Gu has to be patient and patient. He accepts all the ugly things that Fang Miao said, without saying a word, as if he has no temper.

Fang Jing could only sit in the study at this time, reading books or homework, and then his mind was empty, without any content.

His parents never quarreled.

But he didn't think it was a good thing.

There are quite a lot of children in Yu Town, but there are not many Fang Jing to associate with—no one, Fang Miao does not allow it.

She said that her son can't spend his whole life in Yuzhen doing nothing, can't be dragged down and polluted by the people here, and can't be contaminated with those habits.

Fang Jing could only accept that he felt sorry for his father, but he should also feel sorry for himself.Because like his father, he lived under Fang Miao's high pressure, silently enduring it but not daring to say a word.

His childhood playmate was only one——Zhang Yu.Oh, the reason for acquaintance is very simple, because Zhang Yu's mother is a boat lady, and Zhang Yu often follows her mother on the boat.Fang Jing would take a boat to and from school, so he happened to communicate with Zhang Yu.

Zhang Yu is often the subject of discussion in Yu Town—their family is also.

In the conservative town of Yu, someone actually left an outsider here and married him, and even gave birth to a daughter - it was a shame to the ancestors.

But Xiao Yu'er's parents had passed away, so no one thought about whether he would be ashamed or not.As for outsiders, they are outsiders after all, so if there is any discussion, just avoid it. Anyway, I am an introvert, so less communication is not a loss.

But in the eyes of a child of Fang Jing's age, Zhang Yu is full of mystery, and this mystery is attached to the title of "a person related to the outside world", which creates a fatal attraction for Fang Jing.

"Hey, what's your name?" This was Fang Jing's first sentence to Zhang Yu.

Although this little girl has long been famous in the public's discussion, and basically everyone in Yu Town knows everyone, but the young Fang Jing doesn't know how to strike up a conversation, so he can only ask this question dryly.

Zhang Yu looked at him curiously—the young Zhang Yu didn't know what it was to strike up a conversation, and naively thought that Fang Jing didn't know her: "My name is Zhang Yu." She saw in Fang Jing's eyes that she was different from other people s things.She couldn't tell what it was, but she felt more comfortable and relaxed with such eyes.Ha, he doesn't even know what his name is, so he must not know who his father is, and he doesn't feel that he is a "different".

"I'm Fang Jing."

"Fang..." Zhang Yu frowned.Obviously, the surname Fang would evoke an association in Yuzhen.

Fang Jing didn't know why, but hurriedly denied: "You heard wrong, it's Feng, Feng Jing."

"Oh, hello, Feng Jing."

The friendship between Zhang Yu and Fang Jing was established quickly.Two people who are similarly rejected by everyone for different reasons have many common languages.

Oh, Zhang Yu already knew who Fang Jing was, but Fang Jing stubbornly asked her to be called Feng Jing.Zhang Yu said, then my name is Zhang Buyu.

Zhang Yu complained to Fang Jing that his father couldn't carry it on his shoulders, and everything in the family depended on his mother, who took care of both the inside and the outside, and was exhausted every day.My father used some strange things to engage in so-called "work of art", and sometimes even looked crazy, but my mother still admired him hopelessly.

Fang Jing complained to Zhang Yu about his mother's high pressure and his father's uselessness.He said that he didn't want to study at all, and he was very tired from studying, but he didn't dare not to study, or even didn't dare to learn badly.He can't make mistakes, can't let his mother down.

Zhang Yu looked at him enviously and said, I really want to study and read, I really want to go to the outside world.

Fang Jing sneered, saying that there is nothing good outside, he is willing not to go out for the rest of his life and stay in the comfortable Yu Town, so that he can play indulgently without studying.

The two children looked at each other and smiled helplessly, both of them knew that what they said was impossible.

Then in this year, when they were both nine years old, several things happened in Yu Town.

First, Zhang Anliu died.

On the day of his death, Zhang Yu and his mother rowed to see him off as usual.After receiving Fang Jing, the two of them would chat secretly all the way, and then Zhang Yu and Fang Jing got off the boat and went home to help prepare dinner and clean up the house.

On such an ordinary day, she went home and saw her father's body.

Zhang Anliu's death was accidental and sudden, probably because he was crushed to death by a falling box while looking for something. After he fell down, he just lay there, and he didn't find out until his daughter came home.

After all, his house was like some kind of unclean place, no one came to visit, no one approached, even if he heard any movement, no one would come over.

I don't know what the result will be when someone came to rescue Zhang Anliu when he fell.

Assuming it's useless, he's dead anyway.Zhang Yu's mother cried to death, but finally for the sake of her daughter, she had to be strong and live on.So the days didn't change much.

It's just that the people in the town can write more scripts.Kefu, Kefu, Tiansha Lone Star, the imagination of this group of people is beyond the imagination of ordinary people.Zhang Yu got used to listening to it from an early age, and gradually became numb.When Fang Jing comforted her, he found that the girl hardly suffered from the loss of her father. After pondering for a while, he said to her, Zhang Yu, you also look weak and weak, and nothing else.

Zhang Yu gave him a gentle smile.

Later, the discussion on Zhang Yu’s family suddenly became quieter—oh, it’s not that the fools suddenly realized it, it’s because their focus was shifted—

That's the second thing.Jiang Yifang has returned to Yu Town.

If there is anything in Yu Town that is more worthy of "talking about" than Xiao Bao'er marrying an outsider, it must be Jiang Fang—these three words are enough.

If there is any "family" comparable to the Fang family in Yuzhen, it must be the Jiang family—the Jiang family of Jiang Fang.

Jiang Fang was a maverick since he was a child.Like Fang Miao, she originally invited her husband to teach at home, but one day she didn't know what happened to her, and suddenly announced that she was going to study outside, saying that she would leave home.

Her father quit at that time.Why do you, a little girl, want to go out to study, and there are crooked demons and evil ways outside, which will teach people to be bad.

Jiang Fang quit and ran out to school by himself after negotiating with his family to no avail.

Seeing that she was focused on going out, her father knew that it was useless to persuade her. He said that he still supported her because she was the daughter of the Jiang family, but it hurt his affection.

Jiang Fang didn't pay much attention to this.For her, the outside world is more important than the so-called family, and she doesn't blink when making choices.

During the vacation, she would come back occasionally, flip through the books in the study, and walk around, but she didn't communicate with others.

Later, when she returned to Yuzhen in the year she graduated from university, her face was full of magnificence and demeanor, which made people secretly startled—so the outside world is so nice?But before people figured out why, this man did something even more shocking—falling in love with a young man who was visiting Yu Town for inspection, and just left.

Her family was annoyed and announced that they would sever ties with her, and told her that no matter what happened in the future, you should not come back to us.Jiang Fang didn't take it seriously, so he left lightly.

At this moment, the people of Yuzhen thought that they couldn't send their children outside.I don't know what monsters and ghosts are out there, how can they make people like this.Sure enough, Jiang Fang is still Jiang Fang, and it is impossible to do anything good.

The Jiang family's great fortune could not escape the fate of separation. Not long after she left, the family fell apart after a lot of trouble, and everyone lived their own lives.Then, in the year Zhang Anliu died, Mr. Jiang also passed away.

That is, this year, shortly after Mr. Jiang's death, Jiang Fang came back.

Not only did she come back, but she also brought a son back.

This is so exciting—coming back after being away for seven or eight years, the man was away, and she was still with her son—what an exciting episode.Jiang Fang deserves to be Jiang Fang, who can always surprise everyone.

Married and had a child, then abandoned, unable to persist and came back; her husband died and couldn’t survive, and ran home in despair... Maybe the son didn’t belong to that person either!There are many possibilities!Jiang Fang naturally didn't care how others arranged his own, closed the door and lived his own life.No one knows what happened to her.

But this had a great impact on the lives of Fang Jing and Zhang Yu.

After Jiang Fang came back, there was one more person who went to school with him every day - Gu Shuiqing.

Fang Jing and Zhang Yu were very curious about him at first.This Gu Shuiqing, after returning, shared a huge part of the firepower. As the target who was often programmed, the two of them felt a lot easier.As a matter of course, they thought that Gu Shuiqing and they should be of the same kind, friends who could complain to each other on the road together.

But Gu Shuiqing never said it, he didn't seem to know that someone was gossiping, he didn't know how many versions of his identity there were in the story, and he didn't know how unbearable it was.

He didn't join the conversation between Fang Jing and Zhang Yu, and always sat on the boat and watched the scenery beside him—but it was the same, and he didn't know what he could see from it.

As time passed, Zhang Yu and Fang Jing couldn't say anything more, and chose to stay silent with him more often.

They could hear many voices related to Gu Shuiqing.From his mother to his father.People who have met or haven't seen can say a few words, obviously each of them is wrong, but these people can string together these things together, sigh a few words, and see no one else. Secretly laughing a few words-oh, children are not considered human beings, so Zhang Yu and Fang Jing heard more, but the versions are not the same.

They don't know how much Gu Shuiqing has heard - but they have heard many stories about themselves, and Gu Shuiqing probably must.

But he really didn't seem to know anything.

Not long after, one person was missing on the way to school—Gu Shuiqing went to boarding school, came back once a week, and showed up less and less.

The two people's journey resumed again, but Zhang Yu and Fang Jing seemed to be used to silence, even without Gu Shuiqing, they couldn't get back to the state of chattering all the way back then.

Later, Fang Jing went to junior high school, far away from Yu Town, in a big city, and only came back once a month or a few months.

Therefore, Zhang Yu and Gu Shui saw each other more lightly.

Without Fang Jing, she occasionally whispered a few words to Gu Shui.Unexpectedly, this person was different from what she thought, not indifferent, he would listen to her patiently and then answer, with a smile on his face that never faded.Zhang Yu thought, maybe he just has a quiet personality, and his words and deeds are obviously gentle.

Could it be that the previous impression of him being indifferent and difficult to get along with was wrong?

Maybe.

When Gu Shuiqing was chatting with her, he once lamented how good her Mandarin was, saying that he could only understand Yuzhen dialect but could not speak it.Zhang Yu said, because my father came from outside, he has been teaching me to speak Mandarin.

Gu Shui was silent for a moment, then nodded without saying anything.

He seemed to read a lot from Zhang Yu's words.Then he was very understanding and didn't ask too much, and didn't care.

Zhang Yu thought, this is a very interesting person.

They communicate occasionally, and more often look at others in silence.

Later, Gu Shuiqing also went to junior high school, Fang Jing went to high school, and they both went to the same school.So Zhang Yu spends more time alone.

My mother is old and overworked, so she has to do many things.Zhang Yu was more quiet and introverted, silently taking care of the whole family.

Compared with Gu Shuiqing, Fang Jing, who is already in high school, came back more often—Zhang Yu always felt that one day Gu Shuiqing would leave so silently and never come back.

The older you get, the more silent you become.

On the boat that once carried the most carefree time of teenagers, now there is only silence.Fang Jing no longer had the air of his youth, there was always an unresolved irritability between his brows, but he didn't let it out, just stayed silent.And the topics between the two of them have become so scarce that only Gu Shui can talk about it lightly.

"When was the last time Gu Shuiqing came back?" Fang Jing asked.Even though they come from a town and are still studying together, they seem to have never been familiar with each other, and they basically haven't spoken to each other.From the perspective of Zhang Yu, a bystander, she even wondered if Gu Shuiqing knew there was such a person as Fang Jing.

"It's been a long time, has it been a few months? I haven't seen him since he started school." Fang Jing and Gu Shuiqing never get together, but Zhang Yu can see him.

"Has he returned from vacation?" Fang Jing had no memory at all.

Zhang Yu thought for a while: "I'm back, but not for a few days. I left soon." Gu Shuiqing became more elusive.Like his maverick mother, she was unpredictable—but people rarely talked about Gu Shuiqing.

With the development of the times and more contacts with the outside world, people are gradually willing to send their children to study outside. In this regard, Gu Shuiqing is no longer an outlier.

And he is different from Jiang Yifang. His departure was not because of falling out with his family, but because he was supported to go out to study.According to the news from various channels, he seems to be studying very well.

People are always forgetful.Soon, Gu Shuiqing was no longer a "little bastard", but became a "child of other people's family"—the children of other people's family are always right.

And Fang Jing is used more and more for comparison-usually in the stories of "other people's children", there is an object whose future is gloomy because of not studying hard.

Unfortunately, that person in the story is often Fang Jing.

He complained less and less, but from Fang Jing's restrained tone, Zhang Yu could hear his unconcealable jealousy and - panic.

Fang Jing can't make mistakes, can't lose.

But how can learning ability be controlled by people?It is an absurd behavior to learn to evaluate a person himself.

Fang Jing is confused, Zhang Yu is helpless, Gu Shuiqing - Gu Shuiqing may not know anything.

This is where Zhang Yu is most helpless.The competitor that Fang Jing knew didn't care about Fang Jing at all.

She probably still has a part of the gene of an artist, and she always sees things with a strange transparency.

Fang Jing, who was three years older, turned out to be him chasing after Gu Shuiqing's footsteps - when he was admitted to a good university in the province, Gu Shuiqing was preparing to go abroad - he had already contacted him A foreign high school wants to study abroad.

When Zhang Yu told Fang Jing the news, Fang Jing was silent for a moment, and said something irrelevant: "My mother has been diagnosed with lung cancer, and it's terminal."

Zhang Yu was stunned.In an instant, many thoughts flashed through her mind, she didn't know what to do - she didn't know whether to say take care of her health and not be too sad, or...

No, no still.

Fang Miao left a year later, and she will be strong for the rest of her life, but she will not be able to survive the serious illness.

At that time, Gu Shui was quietly studying abroad and didn't care about what happened in Yuzhen; while Fang Jing settled his mother's funeral, then dropped out of school and went home to open a bookstore.

He has never liked studying, nor has he thought about changing his destiny by studying, and he has no lofty ideals and does not want to leave Yuzhen.

Everything is forced.

Now that the pressure is gone, he will naturally stop working hard.

Zhang Yu thought, without Fang Miao's high pressure, perhaps Fang Jing would not be so decisive.He left school more as a swearing-in indulgence than as a real hate.

Too much repression, so too much resistance.

He opened a bookstore and sold his mother's beloved books.Business is underdeveloped and there are not many tourists. He is purely for fun.

He dyes his hair and wears Shamat, and he can do whatever he wants in this traditional house.

Zhang Yu watched, then said nothing.If he wants to, that's fine.

Gu Shuiqing has been away for three years, and the number of times he came back can be counted on the fingers, and he didn't stay for a few days.Zhang Yu thought that the day when he disappeared completely might not be far away.

Unexpectedly, Gu Shuiqing not only came back, but also brought friends - a man and two women, and the two girls were always chattering.

Very disregarded water light.

But it's true, Gu Shuiqing's friend.

Zhang Yu thought, oh, I was wrong once.

So she sent them to see Fang Jing - why not try again.

Fang Jing suddenly stopped her that night.The two sat in the boat and floated on the river for a long time.

They were silent at first, but then Fang Jing started crying.Zhang Yu hadn't seen such an emotional expression from him for a long time.

Fang Jing didn't say anything, and she didn't know what Gu Shuiqing said to him.She cried with Fang Jing, and finally sent him home.

Always silent.

The next day Fang Jing locked the door and left Yu Town.

After another year, Gu Shuiqing and his friend came to Yuzhen again, and left the next day.

Zhang Yu thought that Gu Shuiqing would really not come back this time.

That is, in this year, Yuzhen began to commercialize.This small town that has been closed for a long time, a small town that thought the outside world was full of scourges a few decades ago, greedily absorbs outside cultures—good or bad.

Some people want to buy the house because of its investment value, some people want to protect its cultural tourism value, some people like Fang’s house and the bookstore, but they can’t contact the owner. ...it's a mess.

Later, with more and more tourists, Yuzhen became known as "the undeveloped Jiangnan landscape", and more boats were added on the river—to entertain tourists.

As for Zhang Yu - oh, she took a similar path to her mother.A writer who came here to find inspiration confessed to her that he fell madly in love with her, which even made Zhang Yu a little incomprehensible.But what does this mean, love is always unreasonable.

Oh, but unlike his mother, Zhang Yu wanted to leave Yuzhen with him—she had told Fang Jing many years ago that she wanted to leave.In the end it came true.

Before leaving, she and him took a stroll around Yu Town—it was no longer as clean as before.

"I remember that I was the first group of tourists to come here. At that time, choosing Yuzhen was still a very small and sentimental thing." Young artists always like to do this kind of thing.

"It's all changed." Zhang Yu looked at the people around him and said, "But I don't know if it's changed for the better or worse."

"It doesn't matter, it doesn't belong to us anyway." He smiled.

Zhang Yu nodded.She sold the house to neighbors who wanted to expand—oh, the neighbors who thought they had Feng Shui problems.Her greatest ideal has not changed for so many years, and she wants to leave.

That night, they walked around and walked to the bookstore called "Ping".He wondered for a long time why this bookstore with such a good location never opened.

Before Zhang Yu could explain, the door suddenly opened from the inside—Fang Jing and the two people outside were stunned.

Fang Jing changed into ordinary clothes, his hair turned back to black, and he became an ordinary young man.

Zhang Yu came to her senses first, she pulled the man over, and introduced to Fang Jing with a smile: "This is my boyfriend." Then she pointed to Fang Jing: "This is my best friend when I was young."

"Fang Jing, I'm glad you're back. But it's a pity that I have to leave, otherwise we can talk for a while. I'm leaving Yuzhen. I never thought that my childhood wish would come true."

Fang Jing was stunned and shed two lines of tears.

"Mr. Fang?" the man called him.

Fang Jing wiped away his tears, and suddenly called her: "I will never change."

"...Huh? Xiaojing?"

"Be happy."

"Well, you too. I didn't expect that we would go to the future we imagined when we were young."

"……Um."

"He is willing not to go out and stay in the comfortable Yuzhen for the rest of his life" - that is the comfortable Yuzhen, and she who gives people comfort.

The author has something to say:

The extra episode is over, and now it's completely over!Chirp!

The first completed novel is not easy.

The plan can't keep up with the changes, and two articles will be published simultaneously in the future.In addition to the old saying "Jinqiu", there will also be a new book "Sneaking into the Play". If you are interested, you can go to the homepage to have a look~

See you next time!