pretending to be graceful

Hua Yong probably knew that it was impossible for Gu Shui to take his decision lightly. After casually asking this person if he had any opinions, the two of them were going to drink Chaoshan casserole porridge.

And then of course the long wait.Silent waiting.

In fact, after Hua Yong said that sentence, Gu Shuiqing never spoke again.He has been sitting on the side very tiredly, listening to Hua Yong's various arrangements, followed silently, without saying a word.

Hua Yong guessed that he was sorting out his mood, and put all his energy into thinking of countermeasures.When he thinks about it, it is estimated that the peace will be gone.Hmm...what could it be?A superimposed attack of unfeeling words?

Hua Yong knows Gu Shuiqing very well - Gu Shuiqing is really thinking about what he should do.

It's not a problem to let it go, he can't allow himself to enjoy Huayong's goodness without responding.But he couldn't respond either, because once he responded, it would give Hua Yong even more hope.If you accept it...don't be funny.If Gu Shuiqing could accept it, what did he go back then, and what is he struggling with now?

He is not afraid of not loving, what he is afraid of is true love.But he Gu Shuiqing is a person who can love, but cannot accept other people's feelings and be with them.

He deeply knows that he cannot allow another person to intervene in his life, has the ability to control himself, and cannot accept constant criticism from outsiders, because his sexuality discounts other parts of him.

If he was allowed to like him silently, he might not be so stiff.

"Some things, I always feel that I have to make it clear today, otherwise I may not have a chance in the future." Hua Yong is still smiling, "I guess if we separate today, either you go abroad again, or I can't contact you again. Yes. Once such a time, Zhang Wei probably won’t help, right? He’s definitely on your side, this time it’s purely an accident, as long as you tell him, it’s nothing to do with me.”

"So this may be the last time. You let me say everything I want to say. We don't have to guess or struggle."

Gu Shuiqing just smiled and had no other reaction, Hua Yongquan took it as his acquiescence.

The hot shrimp and crab porridge was brought up, and the lid was removed. The rich rice fragrance wrapped the deliciousness of the shrimp and crab. Hua Yong first filled half a bowl for Gu Shuiqing: "Be careful it's hot." Then he scooped some for himself and started peeling the shrimp. At the same time, he said: "Our main task is to eat. For the rest, you can listen to it if you want to, and block it if you don't want to listen."

Hua Yong knew long ago that it would be better if he did not puncture, once punctured, it could only be the current situation.Gu Shuiqing wouldn't change his face in front of his face, but it was enough to show his attitude, and then, when he couldn't see him anymore, he would deal with it coldly.

He also knew that Gu Shuiqing didn't like cold treatment.There's really no other way to be pushed to this point.

"First of all, I have to explain about Yichi."

Gu Shui lightly shook his hand.Fortunately, the wooden chopsticks did not make any movement when they were knocked on the bowl.

"Actually, I know you don't believe what Yi Chi said, but I still have to explain some things. Ha, Zhang Wei also took the initiative to help me after listening to me. I knew Yi Chi three years ago, and I don't study it. The process, in short, is that he met someone who was interested in the entertainment industry because of me, and after getting in touch with me, he stayed away from me. Later, he used her to make a fortune. A year ago, he felt that something was going to happen to him, so he found someone to contact killed me, but I left him alone. We have never been in touch again."

"Speaking of which, I am also a victim. I was afraid of making friends for a while because of his actions, but why do I always feel guilty about it in the end?"

"It has nothing to do with you. What about Yi Chi, he is that kind of person himself, it's the same whether he meets you or not." Gu Shui lightly added a chopstick of green vegetables, and said leisurely.He has seen Yichi.But it is estimated that only he can see the strange place at a glance.Hua Yong didn't complain.

Hua Yong smiled bitterly: "Even so, you still mind. Don't blame me, you know, but there is nothing you can do about it. But really, I will understand some things when I see you. It has nothing to do with him .”

Gu Shuiqing was noncommittal.

Hua Yong was not affected by him: "I'll make this matter clear, the rest is up to the two of us."

Gu Shuiqing wanted to stop it for a moment, but it has been silent for a while, so let's continue to be quiet.

"In the past year, I have recalled the things from the first time we met several times. Thinking about why I like you." Hua Yong didn't shy away from this word at all, "Actually, I didn't think about it. I had a girlfriend— —You know, not to mention gender, you have no similarities in personality. You are not like my friends. Most of them are very extroverted, and there is no limit to their madness. And you are used to being quiet."

Gu Shuiqing felt a little numb.In fact, he doesn't even know what he looks like in the eyes of others—after all, he doesn't even know what he should look like.

"I like getting along with you very much. It's very relaxed and comfortable. You know some things so clearly that I don't need to say them, and you don't ask me things I don't want to say. I think that's what it means to like, this The person is excellent, you can get along with this person, this person makes you want to have it." When Hua Yong said this, he spoke eloquently, making people listen to him with no temper at all.

"You may be able to see that I am not very easy to get along with, and I seldom rush to do anything. But I really hope to get in touch with you. You may not know that when I saw you in Yuzhen What a delight—of course I might be good at faking it. I’m pretty good at it, too. I was desperate to get to know you—I didn’t know why at the time.”

Having said this, Hua Yong's voice finally trembled, and he also felt it, and pulled the corner of his mouth in self-deprecating manner. "If Lu Anke hadn't reminded me, I might not have thought in this strange direction. You know, I have talked about girlfriends, and I have never doubted them. I admit that the time of panic was very short, and I immediately entered into thinking. The state of chasing people. But I really think too simple. I don’t worry about the problem that I like a man, but I have to face up to the problem of its acceptance in this society. I can’t ask others to be as simple as me to think about."

"When I was chasing girls before, I was used to chasing girls if I liked them. If the other party refused, it depends on the situation. Anyway, it's not a shame to have a suitor—as long as you don't chase after the other party when they don't want to, it's generally okay. Accepted."

"But I seem to have transferred this idea directly to the same sex, without taking into account the feelings of the other party. It's a completely different thing, actually."

Gu Shuiqing subconsciously wanted to refute - but there was nothing to refute.Hua Yong thinks that the reason why he left seems to be different from the actual situation, but the fact is that if Gu Shuiqing knew exactly what Hua Yong thought of him, he would have left as well—so Hua Yong said That's right, his inability to bear the consequences is the root cause of everything.

Hua Yong fell into the memory, immersed in it, he couldn't observe Gu Shuiqing's current expression very well.Otherwise, he would see that Gu Shui's trembling long eyelashes were stained with water droplets.Then it was gone in the blink of an eye.

"Over the past year, I've been thinking about what method should be used to chase the same sex. The things to consider are very similar-one is love, and the other is being together. But for the same sex, being together is more complicated. "

Gu Shuiqing noticed that Hua Yong didn't care about "love" - ​​Hua Yong probably already knew what he was thinking and the reason for his escape.He closed his eyes.

Hua Yong laughed suddenly, with a sense of relief in his smile: "But after thinking about it for a long time, I found that it is actually useless at all. If you like it, chase after it. The only answer to this proposition is it. It is meaningless to say anything else—as long as Don’t want to let go, always let the other person know what you mean.”

"I like you—although you don't want to hear this sentence, but we can't be different friends if I don't say it, just listen to it, and treat me as self-willed-I am a self-willed person anyway."

No, it is not.Gu Shui laughed lightly.Hua Yong is not self-willed, he knows how to express emotions too well, and also knows how to speak to make people comfortable or uncomfortable.But his words made Gu Shuiqing unable to tell whether he should be comfortable or uncomfortable.

"I just did it according to my own ideas. I may be fine, and I will send you a message to tell you what I did, what I ate, and what fun I had. Maybe I will say what happened Difficulty, which idiot did something idiotic to make me very upset, or I like it really tired, I complain a few words...you don't need to talk to me. If you are interested in something occasionally, you are welcome to reply. Don't be afraid Such an approach will give me confidence that I shouldn't have—I know you so well, and I can tell exactly what you mean."

"...Of course," Hua Yong said after a pause, "If you feel bored one day, you can tell me. As long as you tell me, I will never look for you again. Stalking is the thing I hate the most , I will never do it, believe me." This is a bit sad - Gu Shuiqing knew that he should choose this directly, but he couldn't say it -

He is also selfish.

He likes Huayong—so for Huayong's liking, his cold treatment is already the limit.

What can we do?

"Eat, eat." Hua Yong smiled and pushed the char siu towards him, accepting the fact that Gu Shuiqing was not going to reply.

No expectations, no disappointment.Good.

"I'll just take it as your acquiescence, okay?——Then, don't leave. I won't show up to disturb you. If you don't want to block the online disturbance, it's fine. It won't take much trouble. Hide and hide Go, tired, and affect the plan, right?"

Gu Shuiqing was not dizzy by what he said, but was willing to follow his train of thought.Anyway, Zhang Wei will come back. It's no fun for him to be alone in country D, so he has to stay.It is impossible for Hua Yong to persist forever, as long as he does not respond, it will end sooner or later.What a happy ending.

So he replied in a daze, "Okay."

The author has something to say:

I am back.

There were too many things to do at the beginning of school, and then the military training was tanned a few shades, which was miserable.

I don't know how busy the class will be in the future, I will try my best to update the text!No pits!Will not cheat!