pretending to be graceful

Zhong Qu suddenly felt a little guilty.He looked at the group carefully, and found that he could recognize everyone except the people in the class—all of them were not familiar, and the names of the other classes in the same year and department were all unfamiliar.It may not be useful for Zhang Wei to find him.Zhong Qu also doesn't believe that Zhang Wei can narrow the scope of the people he is looking for to those he knows. After all, if he can really narrow it down to this, it is estimated that Zhang Wei will do it himself, and there is no need to look for him.

But he also knows that Zhang Wei is a person who likes to do things that are sure, and it is not easy to be forced to find him at this time.for what?Zhong Qu was extremely curious about the person his former roommate was looking for.

Lu Anke finally found a chance to catch Hua Yong this day and asked him to treat him to dinner—of course Mr. Hua was "in a hurry"—the ghost knows when he has no class in the afternoon, so he simply found a cafeteria to eat. When I invited him to eat the famous delicacies in their school, Lu Anke could only admit it, after all, he was looking for someone to play with.

The two of them were chatting about meals, chatting one after another, making an appointment for a while to play basketball while there was no class. "Heh, you agreed quickly." Lu Anke smiled coldly.

Hua Yong: "Tsk, is this the same thing? Playing basketball is a necessary activity for exercising your body. Is it comparable to eating? You can eat as much as you want. There are not so many problems."

"You're just lazy." Lu Anke broke Hua Yong's little thoughtfulness in one sentence.

Hua Yong denied: "I am adapting in advance. It's okay now. I heard from the seniors that there are too many things in the third year, and there are too many things. I really don't have time to spend in the cafeteria. Now that I have practiced, I will be fine later. "

"Nonsense. Why don't you say that you can enjoy yourself while you have the opportunity? And is your news reliable? Who said that?"

"Why is it unreliable? Why did I drop out of school after a year of school, okay? There were a bunch of my classmates in the last class."

"...Can you stop being so proud. You took a year off from school, neither due to injury nor illness, and you didn't do anything except play around, so that others will not beat you if they hear it?" Lu Anke I don't like Mr. Hua, who doesn't look upright - how can a person who is obviously quite capable always make people think that he is fooling things.

To put it bluntly, over the years, Lu Anke has also seen that Hua Yong has really put his heart into Gu Shuiqing - he has selectively ignored that certain person.

"What else? Just study hard? You know that I don't have much time to live, and I'm under a lot of pressure among a group of study freaks from all over the world." Hua Yong said, "It's not that I don't agree with them. Most of the people who can pass the exam here are not nerds, but I don’t accept it, you know?”

"I know, I know." Lu Anke and Hua Yong have similar backgrounds, and of course it is easy to understand, "Speaking of it, people like us are naturally lacking in hard work, because the journey is so smooth, and we don't have to pay so much. A good harvest. There is more than enough to keep, but not enough to develop.”

It was time for dinner, and the cafeteria was overcrowded. Lu Anke looked around leisurely, pointed to one place and signaled Hua Yong to look: "Look over there is a very obvious example. He frowns so much while flicking his phone while eating. I guess it’s not for entertainment and relaxation, is it? I’m probably still reading some articles or thinking about it. When I was in school, I had a roommate like that.”

Hua Yong followed the direction of his finger and looked over, amused: "I really know this person. Let me tell you, others are possible, but this person is probably not studying. His name is Zhong Qu, and he is in the second class of my freshman year. Yes, a native of H city. I study hard while studying, but I never spend too much time on it, and I don’t like socializing, but I really like playing basketball.”

"Isn't this very similar to you? Are you familiar?" Lu Anke said.

Hua Yong shook his head: "Unfortunately, no. It's just an acquaintance. We played together when we played. It seems that he really doesn't communicate with people much, but he should have a good EQ."

"Your place really has everyone." Lu Anke sighed, "It's a good thing I didn't pass the exam back then. I didn't have that high IQ, and I didn't work hard. It's not like you have such a good mentality. I guess it will take a while to learn." No more."

Hua Yong disagreed: "Now that everything is over, I would say that. If you also go to school here, you won't feel so."

Lu Anke was thoughtful: "Your year is different."

Hua Yong was not obviously stunned for a moment, his fingertips trembled slightly.He's especially sensitive about the "one year" period—especially when Luanke brings it up.

"Why?" But he still replied as nonchalantly as possible.

Lu Anke smiled meaningfully: "Look at you, haven't I said anything yet? I really just want to say that you have become very student-like and much calmer this year when you returned to school. Let's put it aside, You will never give up any chance to ridicule me, and you must say that if I were with you, I would have died a long time ago, and by the way, boast about myself. Are you stimulated by someone outside the world?"

Hua Yong was helpless.Lu Anke said something "just wanted to say", he knew that he had to poke his heart as soon as he opened his mouth. "You are a person, either on purpose, or because you are really unpleasant by nature. Let me tell you straight, this matter has nothing to do with me coming back to school. It's because of Gu Shuiqing."

"I recalled when our relationship started to go wrong. I ruled out all possibilities. It must be said that it was on the day of KTV. I drank too much because I was struggling with my excessive possessiveness towards Gu Shuiqing, and it was broken for a while—I Guess what I said at the time. Then you dragged me to analyze for a long time. I should have fallen in love with him. I was too shocked and excited, so I didn’t think about what happened at that time. But I didn’t know my feelings at the time, I What can you say? You haven't heard anything, so it's not particularly exciting. So what else?"

"Gu Shuiqing..." Hua Yong supported his head, shaking the juice, his eyes were a little wandering - the action seemed to be tasting some fine wine, but he had already vowed that he would never touch alcohol again on non-essential occasions, "He doesn't do anything I won’t say anything, I won’t show any emotions, and it’s even less likely to act excessively when I don’t know if I’m drunk—so it’s still my problem. You said, when he left later, my attitude was very No, so I guess, I should have sent all the discomfort in my heart to him, making him feel that this friendship...is different from what he thought. "

"I always thought that I could express the most appropriate attitude no matter what the situation was, and it was different for different people and situations, but I could make everyone as comfortable as possible. But it turns out that I can do it when I am awake, but it doesn't mean that I am really Yes. The direction I am learning and my future goals make it impossible for me to guarantee that I can stay sober forever. My drinking capacity is like this, and it is difficult for me to change, so I change my mentality and calm myself down. I owe it to me I know, so I changed it, I can say a few less words if I can."

Lu Anke's expression changed a few times, but finally he nodded: "Actually, that's right. Do you know what's wrong with you? You're too straightforward, and you're too tolerant. You always try to figure out others with kindness, knowing that the other party has What bad thoughts, if you know it in your heart, you should not see it, try your best to seek common ground, and think about everyone being happy, and you will handle the matter. Love to make friends, you know that some people are not sincere, you have to learn from others Find something good, and then appreciate that part. So you can mix well with a lot of people-but you have a problem, that is, you have too much heart."

"There is a word called 'acting on the spot', you don't like drama, you always want to find something real in the drama. Generally speaking, it's pretty restrained. But think about it, a Yi Chi, a Gu Shuiqing , at least these two times, you are too serious, right?"

Hua Yong smiled while listening: "Look, I'm just learning. But some things are 'plays', and I can 'make plays'; It's not a play, you know? Even if it's my wishful thinking—it's not a play."

Zhang Wei made an appointment with Zhong Qu for the next day, so he planned the remaining half day by himself.Zhang Wei was not used to being idle, and couldn't figure out why the name Yichi sounded so familiar to him, so he put it aside for now, planning to find Yichi first.

It is impossible for a living person to evaporate.Although he was full of rumors a year ago, he had a lot of fans who would never give up or believe him. It is not difficult to publicize this kind of crisis-even if everyone knows that it is public relations, at least it has given some people psychological comfort.

Moreover, after Yichi's accident, he met Gu Shuiqing by appointment, and he was in a good state at that time, he didn't look like he was hit - this kind of person is too difficult to be hit.Zhang Wei is really clueless.

What's more, Yichi's company was in a situation where no one could praise him except Yichi, and it was impossible to give up him-what is this company doing now?Any new entertainers?He hurriedly inquired, but found that there was none at all.But judging from the original resources of Yichi, this is not a grass-roots team, and it is impossible to collapse so quickly.

Zhang Wei had no choice but to find someone to look up the company's registration information, and decided to go there first—but when he received a call from his father's assistant, he felt that the other party's tone was a bit strange: "Young master, I'm afraid you won't I know how to do it, so I checked some more information. I think this company..."

Zhang Wei's stay in the country exceeded Gu Shuiqing's expectations - he thought it would be the same as last time, and he would come back as soon as he finished.Zhang Wei's move made Gu Shuiqing feel a little wrong, and even flustered.But in the end it's just intuition, he doesn't care what Zhang Wei wants to do.

But all Zhang Wei did was because he chose to return to China in the future.What about yourself?Follow out, then follow back?Gu Shuiqing didn't take this matter seriously since he went abroad, he would never starve himself to death wherever he was not alive.

But this time back—after chatting with the strange author again, Gu Shuiqing felt that it would be better to be far away—but the imperial capital is huge, with a large population, and everyone is in a hurry every day. Met by chance?Hiding so far is just an excuse.

It seems that the farther and farther away, the less danger, it's not because he didn't want to contact each other on purpose, but the environment doesn't allow it.This keeps him quiet.

But Gu Shuiqing kept reminding himself that this violated his long-standing code of conduct.He should let it go from the bottom of his heart and not care about all of this. Whitewashing peace with distance is not the solution—his first reaction is always to solve the problem, and then hand it over to the cleaning system if it can’t be solved. After a long time, things won’t exist.

But it's been a year.

Gu Shuiqing was as he said, he retreated to the end and used the simplest and most rude way.But the form is the form after all. He knew that the next step was called "self-deception", and he could make up stories to deceive himself, but the process stalled.

He chose the optimal solution very lightly, but he didn't admit it in his heart.Gu Shuiqing discovered that this is actually called "self-deception" - telling himself that he doesn't love and wants to quit, but actually desperately hopes that there will be an external force beyond his own responsibility to push him and move forward.

Gu Shuiqing wanted to tell the author that the road to "retire" to the "self-deception" defined by him was not so smooth.