pretending to be graceful

Gu Shui thanked the driver lightly, and dragged his still small suitcase into the Capital Airport by himself.

When he came back, he was wearing a decent windbreaker, and he had to be graceful when he was still and moving, as if he had carefully packaged himself to do things; but when he left, he put on a jacket and went out, even if he was going to see Yichi. Thinking about being more serious about dressing - if this return journey brought him anything, then the most important thing was to let him understand that he was not that calm at all, and sometimes he could really deceive himself if he did too much superficial work.

He took out his mobile phone from his coat pocket, and called Zhang Wei: "Where are you? I'm here, I'm looking for you."

Both Gu Shuiqing and Zhang Wei are used to leaving enough time in case of emergencies, so they got the boarding pass and passed the security check and customs. There is still plenty of time, so they can just find a place to have a good chat—— Zhang Wei is the trash can most of the time.

The two held a cup of hot coffee each, and sat quietly facing each other on soft seats.Gu Shui gently picked at the lid of the paper cup, but it was more comfortable to look at than when he just came back.Oh, he was full of displeasure at the time, feeling that he was burdened by a lot of things in the country, and he knew that he couldn't think or behave like this, and his whole being was a contradiction in capital letters.

Gu Shuiqing's matter is settled now - although Zhang Wei didn't think so, but looking at him like this, he thought again, maybe?

Zhang Wei said: "What's the situation? You said someone wanted to see you today? What happened next?"

Gu Shuiqing looked around, but couldn't find it, so he took out his phone and searched for a picture: "Do you know this person?"

Zhang Wei took a closer look, a little uncertain: "It looks familiar, is it a celebrity? I think I've seen a poster or something recently."

"Do you pay attention to gossip?"

"Ah? If you need my attention, I will." Zhang Wei didn't know why.

Gu Shuiqing smiled unsurprisingly, looking at this picture with a lot of emotion in his eyes: "Look again, can you see anything else?"

Zhang Wei knew Gu Shuiqing well, and knew that what he said was important.So sternly, he frowned and looked at the picture, but he was still puzzled for a long time: "No, why don't you just say it?"

Gu Shuiqing smiled helplessly: "Look, we really know about this kind of thing, and even you can't tell why."

"Don't give a shit."

"His name is Yi Chi, a star who became famous two years ago. The point is, he is a person who is very similar to me-do you understand what I mean? I mean, in terms of doing things, in terms of thinking..."

"Your kind? When did neuropathy become so common?" Zhang Wei doesn't understand what it means to be merciful.

Gu Shui sneered slightly, and took a sip of coffee: "Should I say that you are scolding me? I said 'like'. There is still a big gap with the same kind, right?" Under his modest and gentlemanly appearance, there was a haughty heart.

Zhang Wei just said it casually, and after a while he reacted and understood: "You mean that he also felt this, and then came to him? But this shouldn't be the case, he is a celebrity with a high exposure rate, so you can recognize him. He, how would he know you? There is some kind of magnetic field between you that can meet in the vast sea of ​​people?"

Gu Shui gently swirled the glass: "So the most exciting part of this story appeared. He knew me because he was Hua Yong's friend—oh, he used to be." According to Yi Chi's statement, he changed the use of word.

Zhang Wei's brain is a little short-circuited, he looks a little confused, and he is rebuilding the relationship between several things.

Gu Shuiqing also recalled, and then thought, maybe it was not an illusion at the zoo at that time, he was secretly photographed, and the person who asked to be photographed was Yi Chi.Yi Chi's target was not him, it should be Hua Yong, and then he happened to know of his existence - sensitively noticed something, and there was that interview.

The interview process was intentionally shortened by Gu Shuiqing. His lack of interest throughout the whole process made Yichi only talk about the part that deliberately induced him. Gu Shuiqing didn't know about Huayong.

And that doesn't make much sense either.

Zhang Wei knocked on the table, and Gu Shui lightly regained his senses. "According to what you said, Yichi came to you to show that he might see...and then he also..."

"Probably, who knows?" Gu Shui leaned to the side lazily, looking not very interested.

Zhang Wei: "You are stupid, you don't care about such things? Among other things, his behavior is to demonstrate to you, and then there is a great possibility that he will tell you..."

"—I am a substitute, replacing him." Gu Shuiqing finished the second half of the sentence for him, his eyes were a little cold, "Is that what you mean?"

Zhang Wei was so blocked by him that he couldn't speak. "You still know? During this period of time, do you think that what you saw, Huayong's enthusiasm, is just because of Yichi?"

Gu Shui shook his head lightly: "I don't understand feelings, and I haven't seen any good relationships, but I'm not stupid. Yi Chi's hostility is true, and what he said is also true, but doing it in front of me is a shame. There's no need—I've done and seen a lot of misleading people, and I know what he wants to do when I see his aggressive look."

"You mean he did it on purpose?"

"Of course. I don't care what happened between him and Huayong, what kind of feelings he has for Huayong, I can understand that he is different from me in terms of stalking and taking pictures. This kind of thing is trying to force the other party to control the other party I can't do anything in my life." Gu Shui said lightly, "And since he used 'zeng', it means that they broke up now. I know Hua Yong, since that person Hua Yong has done such a thing , proves that he understands who Yi Chi is—since he understands everything, how can he say "substitute"? I don't know if Yi Chi is stupid or impatient."

Zhang Wei was calmed down by what he said: "But it's not over yet, he sees that you are... coming to Hua Yong? What if he talks about it?"

"Don't say he doesn't dare to go," Gu Shuiqing changed his posture and leaned against, looking at the passing crowd, "Even if he went to tell Hua Yong and Hua Yong knew the letter, so what? Our contact is only One WeChat ID and one mobile phone number are limited, it is so convenient now, it is too easy for me to change one." Gu Shui lightly stared at a man who entered a convenience store, and after a while did not see him coming out, he looked away.Maybe he wants to stay a little longer, maybe Gu Shuiqing didn't notice when he went out——

The world is so big, it is too easy for a person to disappear.

Zhang Wei: "Tell the truth, even if there is no Yi Chi, are you planning to do this?" Gu Shuiqing is the most cruel person in the world, and he is willing to throw any memory into the recycle bin—whatever Bad ones, as long as they affect his life, he doesn't want them.

Gu Shui lightly threw the phone to him, and Hua Yong flipped through it, and sure enough, the WeChat icon had disappeared: "The first step is to block the contact method when I want to contact you. You see, it is difficult for me to make calls in country D." , the best way to contact me is WeChat. But since I have uninstalled it, I need at least two steps to download the software and log in. Within these two steps, it is enough for me to calm down and give up." He curled up his lips, knowing everything look.

"The second step is to keep a distance—this is easy to say. I went to country D and he was here. He didn't even know where I lived, and he couldn't find me even if I tried. It's so far away, so long, and impulse doesn't exist." The steps are clear and very light.

Zhang Wei is not too sentimental, and sometimes Gu Shui lightly says that he is too utilitarian.But when he looked at Gu Shuiqing, he felt that this person was more terrifying: he had feelings, and was even influenced by feelings occasionally.But when it's time to be cruel, he can uproot the existing feelings and leave nothing behind.

Zhang Wei retreated instead at this time: "Do you really want to go this far? Are you sure that he doesn't like you, won't like you? Why don't you try? What if, what if there is a happy ending? You Have some confidence in yourself."

Gu Shuiqing was in a trance for a moment—he thought of Hua Yong's figure standing in front of him, of how many times he had invited him out, of his inexplicable anger and fawning—

What Zhang Wei said is quite right. If he takes a step forward, he may not get anything.

"I'd like to share with you a proposition that I saw on the Internet a while ago. An anonymous netizen summed up the pros and cons of 'going forward or stepping back'." Gu Shuiqing was much more calm than him—out of chapter Wei Wei expected, he was prepared, "The other party is your very good friend, soulmate level, and then you find that you like him, and according to your observation, there is a 50% possibility that he likes you, and you are forced to There are only two choices of advance and retreat in the situation, what should be done at this time.”

"There are two possible ways to get in. One is that he really likes you, and you like each other—here the author brings up the second proposition, which we won't talk about for now; There is no way to go, even ordinary friends can't be - this is pretentious."

"The possibility of retiring is more complicated. Let's simplify it, that is, you can no longer be such good friends, and you can no longer talk about everything, but that memory is preserved, and you can even make up that story at will, such as when you were young. We fell in love frivolously, but for various reasons, we finally did not confess that we were not together—this is called self-deception."

"The article is quite long, and the author's brain is relatively big. A lot of things came out from one point, and some things ta also said to be added later... All in all, I agree with the main part. As for me, of course I choose I'm a member of the 'retirement', and I will not only choose to retreat to ordinary friends, but I can simply disappear directly. In this way, all other parts of the article that are derived from this will be ignored." Gu Shuiqing resonated with Zhang Zhang Wei explained.

"...There are so many wonderful things in this world." Zhang Wei could only respond in this way.

Gu Shui shook his head lightly: "It's not weird, it's just a conservative thinking habit - arrange everything, list and analyze all possible outcomes one by one, and then make a choice. Self-deception', I thought it was kind of funny."

It is better to deceive yourself than to be sentimental, he thought.

Zhang Wei said: "Don't make it so complicated. To put it bluntly, you can't accept that your sincerity is not understood, and you can't accept the problem after admitting to being gay, so you have nothing to do, right?"

"Simple and incisive." Gu Shuiqing admitted, this is the simplest result after ignoring all the thinking process.

"So, you just left poor Hua Yong behind like this? What if, what if, I mean, he likes you—you were denied me just now, it means you have thought about it, right?" Zhang Wei's question is always Hit the nail on the head.

Gu Shui was silent for a moment, and said to him: "It's okay, we've only known each other for a few days, if I disappear like this, I probably become the second Eichi, right? There will be influence, but sooner or later it will be fine. And... I also told him that after leaving, everything will be complicated and I don’t know what will happen. If this is the case, let’s understand it as disappearing.”

Hearing Zhang Wei's words here, he knew that it was useless to say anything - his love life was also like stagnant water, and he was really not qualified to comment on Gu Shuiqing.So he talked about the people and things he saw in the third middle school, and Gu Shuiqing occasionally responded to him, and the atmosphere eased a lot.

The boarding information was finally broadcast, and the two picked up their things and were about to leave, but Gu Shuiqing suddenly stopped, and his Adam's apple slid up and down twice—he really couldn't understand:

"Besides, it's not that I'm not sad or angry—"

He thought that he was so lucky in the vast crowd to meet a confidant who could accommodate him and see his thoughts at a glance, but he didn't expect that the so-called tacit understanding was just that he had understood it from another person.

The author has something to say:

"It's better to be self-deceiving than to be sentimental, he thought." This sentence that suddenly came to my mind one day led to the whole story of "Pretending to Be Graceful".And after two volumes, I finally wrote here.

Whether Gu Shuiqing is right or not? Everyone has their own ideas. I can only say that this is his choice after careful consideration.

Then about the article and its author mentioned in it, that is another very, very long story, and it should be written in a separate book.Those who are interested can guess, in fact, the author made cutscenes.

Continue tomorrow.