Chestnuts are ripe

Chen Fang was keenly aware of one thing.

Since he agreed to date, Xue Lin has been trying his best to bring himself into his life.

On the day of the confession, I gave him the room card, and I wanted to go to the company to find him several times. I didn't mind showing myself in front of my subordinates, and even wanted to drag myself to meet his parents.

Compared with his passive coping attitude, Xue Lin is almost enthusiastic and impatient, wanting to participate in his life without any scruples, and doesn't even consider whether such a change is good or bad for him. good.

It was taken for granted, as if it was certain that the two of them would go to the end.

"You, you seem to have always wanted to bring me into your circle..." Chen Fang lowered his eyes slightly, and his voice became smaller and smaller.

When Xue Lin finished speaking just now and saw that he hadn't spoken for a long time, he felt something was wrong. At this time, he put away all the unscrupulous expressions on his face, and asked carefully and cautiously: "Don't you like this?"

"No." Chen Fang was choked by his cautious tone of asking for advice: This is obviously something that he should feel sorry for, but why is it that Xue Lin is so apologetic?

"why?"

Xue Lin was very patient, and he was not angry at all. On the contrary, he had a faint posture of introspection and self-criticism. This made Chen Fang feel even more guilty, and he hardly knew how to organize his words.

Sensing the slightly uneasy atmosphere between the two of them, Xue Lin gently hugged Chen Fang's leg, and after seeing that he did not object, he placed it across his lap, and then walked around his back with his hands, holding Chen Fang Fang wrapped himself in his arms, and continued to wait for Chen Fang to continue.

Chen Fang did not break away from such an intimate posture, but instead leaned on Xue Lin's shoulder, his whole body was enveloped by Xue Lin's aura, and the pleasant pine fragrance permeated the tip of his nose, inadvertently comforting him.

"I, I just thought, 'You're too good for me.

When Chen Fang looked up and saw Xue Lin's expression, he subconsciously swallowed this heartless sentence into his heart, looked down at his fingertips that were repeatedly rubbing because of nervousness, and whispered, "I, Just a little scared..."

Chen Fang actually didn't know what he was afraid of.

Afraid that even if he treats himself so well now, there will be a day when he will lose it?Or are you afraid that after you have tried such a good love, you will not know the essence, and you will no longer be able to tolerate other people's wills when you separate in the future?

Or, to put it more bluntly, is he afraid to admit that in this life, he may never meet someone who treats him better than Xue Lin?

He was afraid of too many things.

It was only now that he realized that his personality had never changed, and he was still so timid and fearless.

Even if he agreed to Xue Lin's confession, even if he could clearly feel the love from the other party, he would still dare not let go of the hands that were always holding his heart because he was worried that he would get deeper and deeper and eventually be unable to extricate himself.

In the end, is he the one who will be replaced?

Chen Fang thought more than once that the two would break up one day. Xue Lin took another man and asked him to leave politely. Every time he thought of such a scene, he would feel suffocated.

Xue Lin didn't know what Chen Fang was thinking at this moment. At that moment, he was only thinking over and over again, whether his behavior was too hasty.

However, he has controlled himself to slow down as much as possible.

Did it still scare him?

Xue Lin looked at the man in his arms who lowered his eyes and didn't dare to look up at him. Even though Chen Fang was a little scared, he was still willing to be hugged in his arms obediently at this moment. The trust revealed unconsciously made him feel soft-hearted He even condemned himself in his heart, it was indeed too unkind to shamelessly persecute a thin-skinned person like this.

Just when he was about to take back the words that he wanted to live together, he heard Chen Fang's voice that was so soft that it almost seemed to be talking to himself: "Can we really be together forever..."

After Chen Fang said it, he realized that he and Xue Lin were so close at this time, the other party must be able to hear it.But what can I do?Words have been spoken and cannot be taken back.

He lowered his head and waited for his own final judgment, but only heard Xue Lin's familiar sigh.

He suddenly began to regret, worried that Xue Lin's patience would really run out, and he was unwilling to accommodate such a troublesome self.I was also afraid that he would immediately say that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. Since you are so unconfident, then we should just end here, so as to save you from worrying all day... I just imagined countless ways Xue Lin might be Chen Fang's face turned pale when he said the reason for breaking up.

Xue Lin sighed, tightened his arms and hugged the person in his arms even tighter, for fear that he would run away in the next second: "I actually..." He paused, seeing the person in his arms wringing his fingers followed suit. After a pause, seeing how nervous he was, Xue Lin no longer held his appetite, and said slowly, "Actually, I don't have much confidence in myself."

As he spoke, he didn't try to guess where Chen Fang's thoughts spread after hearing the words at this time, and said sadly: "Although I came out to my family very early, but over the years, I have always been closeted." Single."

"I've lived to almost 30 years old, and this is the first time I've fallen in love with someone."

"Before I met you, I even wondered if I lacked emotion because I was too independent." Referring to the previous incident, Xue Lin's tone became helpless, "But who knows, I am already old, and suddenly I fell in love with you at first sight, fell in love with you?"

"You are so young, and so attractive, I..." Xue Lin looked at Chen Fang, who was looking at him with disbelief, and said with a wry smile, "I, I really..."

"You are obviously so much better than me!" Chen Fang didn't know that Xue Lin thought so, and couldn't hide the surprised expression on his face, "I've always thought that I have to be good enough to match you, Why do you..."

Xue Lin put his fingers against his lips to stop him from speaking.

The fingertips lightly brushed the little mole on the corner of his mouth that always unconsciously hooked him to kiss him over and over again, and a rare emotion grew in his heart that made him feel a little uneasy.

"I'm worried that the more outstanding you are, the more you will be favored and welcomed by more people," he pressed against Chen Fang's forehead, tearing away his usual disguise in front of him, revealing the secrets buried deep in his heart. Li's true thoughts, "I have tried to hide you at home more than once, regardless of your opinions, and will not let you go anywhere."

"But I can't bear it," Xue Lin whispered, "Chen Fang, I can't bear it."

He wanted to be the only one in Chen Fang's eyes, but he was worried that Chen Fang would eventually choose to escape because of his too many restraints.It was the first time he confessed his heart to Chen Fang like this, as if he was worried that he would change his mind, he buried his face in Chen Fang's neck almost regardless, showing a rare weak side, and said in a sad tone: "I I will work hard, so can you, don't choose to give up on me so easily..."

Chen Fang never expected that he would be so uneasy.Xue Lin, who has always been indestructible and protected himself from all ups and downs, is so fragile.He suddenly felt that he was too incompetent as a boyfriend.

He didn't want Xue Lin to worry about these things every day when he was with him.He wanted to comfort him, wanted to tell him that he didn't want to give up, but felt that no matter what he said at this time, it would be useless.

He wanted to hold Xue Lin's face up, look into his eyes and talk, but half of his body was sunk in the sofa because of the posture of embracing him just now, and he couldn't exert any strength at all.

He broke away from Xue Lin's hand, lifted his feet to the ground and stood up. When he turned around, he saw the flustered expression of Xue Lin who had no defense.

Chen Fang held Xue Lin's face in both hands, just like he did to himself, looked straight into the other's eyes, full of apology to him: "I never thought that you would take me so seriously..."

He knelt and straightened his waist, slightly taller than Xue Lin who was sitting on the sofa, and showed his heart preciously and piously: "It's also the first time I'm in love, talking about feelings. I, I'm stupid, maybe I can't do it like you did." good."

"There may be many variables in the future, but in my future, you will definitely be there."

"But you have to trust me, okay?"

These few words are a promise made by Chen Fang with all his sincerity and determination.He didn't know if such a serious matter could make Xue Lin feel completely relieved, he resisted the shame on his face, and never looked away from looking at him.

"Thank you for comforting me." The expression on Xue Lin's face hardly changed, and even his tone seemed to be politely thanking him.

Is it really useless?Chen Fang felt that he was reaping the consequences of himself now, and there was only indescribable sourness and helplessness in his heart for a while.

He was still holding Xue Lin's face in his hands, and suddenly felt that he was really useless, and the corners of his eyes could not help turning red.Xue Lin in front of him always looked indifferent and indifferent, which made Chen Fang feel that he just now, knowing that it might not work at all, but still made up his mind to make a promise, was stupid and stupid.

Guilt, remorse, grievance, powerlessness, a mess of complex emotions twisted into a broken can of shame, so angry that he couldn't help but grabbed the collar of the incomprehensible man in front of him.

"Isn't it cohabitation! I promise, okay!"

Xue Lin was taken aback for a moment, and his indifferent expression finally showed a bit of astonishment: "What did you just say?"

"What are you doing!" Chen Fang obviously wanted to speak harshly, but at this moment, Chen Fang sniffled and glared at him with what he thought was a vicious look, "I promised everything, and I will live under your nose from now on. , if you dare to tell me again, you don’t have confidence in what you say, I, I, I... oh!"

The words were blocked by an ecstatic kiss from the other party, as if afraid of his repentance, Xue Lin clasped his waist with both hands and pulled him into her arms. Rubbing back and forth on his back, as if he was holding some rare treasure, he finally began to softly coax the person in his arms who was really pissed off.

Seeing that Xue Lin had finally returned to his original appearance, Chen Fang was both surprised and frightened. After being kissed by him several times in a row, he couldn't get out of the emotion just now, and the grievance that he realized behind suddenly burst out : "You were the first to propose the confession, and you were the first to pursue me. You were the first to provoke me, how could you suddenly say that you don't have confidence in yourself, and then just, just give up!"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I won't say it again..." I just wanted to ask for candy, but Chen Fang broke his fortune and moved the whole candy store.After seeing the red corners of his eyes, Xue Lin knew that he was about to take it off, apologized in a low voice, coaxed him, and kissed delicately, waiting for him to calm down.

"Xue Lin," Chen Fang sniffled and said softly, "I want to make an agreement with you."

"What promise?" Don't say anything about the promise, Chen Fang can agree to it on the spot even if he wants him to dance for fun.

"The two of us, at the very least, when we are still attracted to each other, when we still like each other, we should not hesitate to like each other." Chen Fang's eyelashes were stained with little drops of water, and the end of his reddish eyes looked The whole person felt even more aggrieved, "If, in the future, one of the parties is tired and doesn't want to continue, then let it go, okay?"

Xue Lin wanted to say that he would not let go, but looking at Chen Fang beggingly at him, he knew that even if he said that, he would not believe it.The emotional world of adults is always rational and mature. Forever, this kind of unknown and impossible promise is too vague, so the next best thing is to fall in love, at least when you are still the only one in your heart, let’s love happily.

"Okay, I promise you." Xue Lin kissed him, and added in his heart: I will never let the day of letting go come.

If you don't believe in eternity, it doesn't matter, time will prove everything for me in the end.

"I love you."