Sentinel to Special Operations Team

Yi said, "Sometimes I don't even know if I have any regrets."

"You know that when you regret it, you actually regret it," Shi Wei said in a daze, "just like me now." Her soul was wandering, and she saw another universe in a trance, where Sheng Yutong was still with her around.

"But I don't want Sheng Yutong to regret it even more. She has me in her heart and the soldiers who saved her, but she doesn't have herself. I can't let her be without herself."

Long Yi raised the coffee cup on the table and clinked glasses with Shi Wei.With two cups of coffee, the two drank their spirits.Long Yi said: "I understand you. In this world, we are like the same plant. Although not the same seeds germinate, but if someone dissects them, we are the same kind. I am very tired now, and I think you are too. But I think you are right, just like us, people who live today without tomorrow can’t make any promises. So it’s wrong to turn a living person into a bunch of decorative flowers in a vase.”

Shi Wei suddenly felt that these flowers were not only talking to herself, but Long Yi might also be talking to herself.Once thinking this way, Shi Wei began to feel sleepy.She lay on the table and rubbed her temples: "Longyi, stop talking, I'm tired, I'm really tired."

"Then let me just say the last thing, Shi Wei, how did you live the seven years before you met Sheng Yutong again, okay? Without news of her, wouldn't you be just as well?" ?”

"It's not the same, Long Yi. Although there was no contact before, I think there is still hope. Now I can't see hope," Shi Wei said weakly, "My heart seems to have no color. It's the same for you , in the world, if there is someone you like very much, and she tells you that I am willing, there will be no one in the world who can break your heart."

Long Yi said after a while: "Yes... I can't go back, I can't even go back."

81: tears

After suffering from insomnia for a week, Shi Wei was forcibly assigned a psychological counselor by the alliance.She has no right to refuse.Yan Rujue directly removed Shi Wei's senses and brought her to the League Central Mental Health Center.

"Shi Wei, listen up, you have to pull yourself together."

Yan Rujue grabbed Shi Wei's arm through the thin clothes, she said: "Seeing that I treat you so well, but you never appreciate it, please cheer up a little bit, okay?"

"Actually, I'm fine." Shi Wei said.

"I can see that you're not happy."

Shi Wei stared into the distance.During this time, Yan Rujue often saw Shi Wei showing such a lost expression, as if she was expecting someone to fall from the sky.So she knew that Shi Wei didn't listen to anything.

At the Alliance Central Mental Health Center, a guide in her 40s received Shi Wei.The guide has nearly 20 years of experience in the industry, and his experience can be described as rich.And another significant advantage of her coming to treat Shi Wei is that she used to be Shi Qiang's therapist.

"I have seen the former Chief Sentinel of the Alliance," said the guide, "I saw her from you, and I saw you from her. I will give you a right, you can call me at any time without accepting my treatment." stop."

She said: "correspondingly, I hope we can talk like friends today."

Swi agrees.The guide led her into a small closed room.And Yan Rujue waited anxiously at the door, she didn't know what kind of state Shi Wei would lead to today's treatment?

She wanted to change, but she hoped that nothing would change.

The guides working in the psychological center have independent treatment rooms, which can ensure the privacy of the patients and allow the guides to enter the treatment state as soon as possible.As soon as Shi Wei stepped into the room, the bright yellow walls lit up in front of her eyes.Bright yellow is the main color of this room, and two colorful butterflies are painted on the wall.The sofa placed against the wall is also in a tone between grass green and lake blue, an ambiguous color favored by impressionist painters.The only thing that stands out is a single metal chair, but there is also a soft orange puppet rabbit on it.

It is extremely quiet, like a hidden fairy tale world.

Shi Wei is still hesitating to sit there, the guide has already found a seat for her.She said: "Please sit down." Pointing to the sofa, she made a "please" gesture to Swirling.

As soon as Sylvie was seated, she turned and closed the door, and sat down on another metal chair.She opened with a decent smile: "Shi Wei, I am your psychological counselor assigned by the alliance. My number is 56. During the period before you go to the front line, I will be mainly responsible for your mental health. First of all , I want to ask you, have you received comfort therapy before?"

"The mental stability given by the guide is mainly to prevent mental madness. I don't know if this is..."

Swie wasn't so sure.The spirit of the sentinel is relatively fragile, and the comfort of the guide can calm the turbulent part of the sentinel's body. Shi Wei has also accepted it a few times, and she is used to it, but she can't respond with certainty.

"The mental stability you mentioned is the physical therapy in our sentinel psychotherapy. What I'm going to treat you today is another kind," the guide said. "I want to ask you next, why did you choose to receive psychotherapy?"

Shi Wei lowered her eyes and took a deep breath.She said: "Because I have severe insomnia. I have not managed to fall asleep for a week. The sleeping pills have not worked for me."

Every night, when she closed her eyes, she looked like Sheng Yutong.She didn't want to wake up, but her body was in unbearable pain.

The guide looked attentive.After listening to Shi Wei's narration, she paused and said, "When you can't sleep, do you think about things?"

Shi Wei lowered her head and said in a low voice, "Yes."

"What is your main thought?"

"I guess I'm sorry for her."

"Why do you have such emotions for her?" asked the guide, "Who is this she?"

Shi Wei raised her eyes.She saw the two closed windows through the rain on the day when Tianshu Pagoda School was torrentially raining.She seemed to see Sheng Yutong opening the window and waving to her.

If the two of them had been together seven years ago, would everything have been different?

At least Shi Wei would not agree with Sheng Yutong going to the Third Army.

"Shi Wei?" The guide called softly.Shi Wei recovered, but refused to speak.The guide didn't force it, but changed the subject: "Let's talk about yourself, what kind of person do you think you are? Use one word to describe yourself."

Shi Wei raised her head slowly, thought for a while, and said, "I don't know."

"Have you no opinion of yourself?"

"No, I haven't thought about what kind of person I am."

Shi Wei seems to hate this question.

"Can you give me a review?"

"what?"

"What do you think I am?"

Shi Wei raised her head, and she sized up the guide.The guide smiled: "I've been talking to you for so long, do you still have to rely on your eyes to see what kind of person I am?"

"Maybe," Sylvia said, "maybe I don't believe in myself."

"You don't believe in yourself, but you look with your eyes, are you a very cautious person?"

Not to be cautious, Shi Wei used to be very sloppy, often forgetting everything.Now that she lives alone, she is indeed much more careful.But this is different from prudence, she was forced, not voluntary...

"I don't know." Shi Wei's eyes were covered with a thin layer of mist.

The treatment was difficult for both of them.Shi Wei felt like she had run a marathon, and her whole body was about to fall apart.The guide is still cheering up and assigning homework to Shi Wei.

"...write a few lines every day, starting from what you remember and continuing until you don't want to."

She took out many beautiful little books and asked with a smile: "Which one you like, just take it back."

Shi Wei's hand stayed on the pink flamingo-shell diary for a while, but she didn't take it, and went to get an olive green diary instead.The guide asked gently, "Why didn't you choose the pink one?"

Shi Wei smiled: "It seems that the olive green book is more in line with my temperament."

"Pink suits you too," said the guide. "You are a gentle person. Choose your favorite."

Shi Wei stretched out her hand hesitantly, and just touched the flamingo on the cover of the book, she retracted suddenly.She smiled apologetically: "I thought about it, but it still doesn't quite fit."

The guide simply inserted the pink diary into Shi Wei's arms. "I'll give you both. I feel like your story will be very, very long." She said lightly.Shi Wei looked down and smiled without burden for the first time today.She said, sister, thank you.

"You're welcome," the guide said softly, "I hope you won't hold back from me next time."

Sweeney paused, she whispered: "Actually, I have no reservations about you, do you believe it?"

The guide shook his head.

"I don't believe it," she said, "open the dusty door in your heart, I want to hear your deepest voice."

The deepest voice in my heart is like a charade.Shi Wei thought, isn't what I'm thinking at the moment not my truest thoughts?She tried to think hard, but her heart suddenly throbbed, as if she had touched something that shouldn't be touched...

Shi Wei took the subway back home. The house has not been cleaned for a week, and there is dust and dirt everywhere.Shi Wei jumped over the rubbish piled up on the ground, stretched out her hand and opened the curtains that had been closed for a week, and the sunlight outside the window shone into the living room again.For a moment, the dust danced in the air like elves, almost dreamlike.

She cleaned at home until the afternoon, sorting out garbage as high as a hill.She went downstairs and threw it several times before finishing it.Then, she was hungry and wanted to go to the attic to get compressed biscuits, but when she passed the refrigerator, she suddenly stopped and opened the refrigerator door to take a closer look.

There's an egg and a bag of squares in the fridge