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If Gu Ruo grew up in an orphanage, almost no one knew about it.

Gu Ruo's mother's name is Zhang Zi, and she is just one of Gu Ruo's father Gu Heyuan's mistresses.

Not even the favored one.

When Zhang Zi met Gu Heyuan, Gu Heyuan was in his prime at that time, tall and straight, handsome and mature. Zhang Zi was quickly captured by his demeanor and charm, and quickly fell in love with him.

Zhang Zi is an idiot, she dreams of growing old together with Gu Heyuan, but Gu Heyuan just treats her as a side dish to try, and a side dish that is easy to get bored with.

Gu Heyuan went on several dates with her, bought her some beautiful jewelry, and did some "gentlemen's" trivial things - such as taking the initiative to open the stool for her when eating, or deliberately pretending to have a deep voice He smiled and praised her appearance.

The so-called gentleman's etiquette in the upper class is nothing more than a fake thing that can be piled up only by money. It is 100% purely hypocritical and has no sincerity.

It is more than enough to deceive Zhang Zi.

Within a week of knowing each other, Zhang Zi was tricked into having sex with Gu Heyuan, and within a month later, Gu Heyuan was almost addicted to her, soft and fragrant, and he couldn't think of leaving.

Zhang Zi hid her tenderness, and had already begun to secretly plan for her future with Gu Heyuan, but one day after a month, Gu Heyuan woke up early in the morning, and when Zhang Zi was helping him to dress and button his shirt collar, suddenly Hearing him say calmly: "Xiaozi, we don't need to meet each other in the future. This house has been transferred to your name, so it should be your compensation."

Zhang Zi's face was pale, her fingertips trembled, and she raised her head to beg Gu Heyuan.

Gu Heyuan was unmoved, and he did not appear again in the future.

But at that time, Zhang Zi already had a little life hidden in his stomach, which was Gu Ruo.

When Zhang Zi, who was in despair, learned that she was pregnant, she thought it was God's pity, and she was saved from desperation.

She used this unborn child to blackmail Gu Heyuan, thinking that a mother is more valuable than a child, and persuaded Gu Heyuan to change his mind, but Gu Heyuan smiled lightly and gave her two choices.

Either abort the child, and Gu Heyuan will compensate her for the loss of youth, or give birth to the child and let her raise it alone. Gu Heyuan will give her a maintenance fee every year until the child reaches adulthood.

Anyway, the meaning in the words is that he doesn't care about this child.

Even Gu Heyuan's assistant laughed at Zhang Zi's overestimation. Gu Heyuan has many children, and some of them may not have the opportunity to see their father in their lifetime. He didn't care about so many children before, so he would make an exception and care about this one?

Zhang Zi is a cruel idiot, she made the third choice.

She gave birth to the child, named Gu Ruo, and fostered her in an orphanage. She sold the property that Gu Heyuan gave her and went to country Y alone, trying to impress Gu He with her perseverance. far, keep his heart.

So when Gu Ruo was not yet full moon, she was already thrown into the orphanage by her mother.

When Zhang Zigang left Gu Ruo in the orphanage, he donated a huge sum of money to the orphanage and promised to take Gu Ruo to her side soon.

The orphanage was wary of Zhang Zi's status as a rich man, and at first treated the little Gu Ruo very well, taking care of him in every possible way.In addition, little Gu Ruo is cute, with a white and tender face, like a dough ball, and a pair of big doll-like eyes flickering, as long as someone teases her, she will giggle, and the staff in the yard are very excited. I like to hug her and tease her.

Zhang Zi promised to pick up Gu Ruo soon, but she didn't come for a year, and she didn't come for two years...

Gu Ruo could walk, talk, and call the orphanage staff uncle and aunt, but Zhang Zi still didn't come.

Everyone thought that Gu Ruo's mother would never come, so their concern for Gu Ruo became more and more perfunctory. Within three years, there was no special care for her anymore.

Anyway, her mother gave a lot of money, and there was not much more of her in the orphanage, and a lot of less of her.

Of course, Gu Ruo didn't have any impression of her mother in her memory.She only vaguely remembered hearing the staff mention twice that her mother was a very beautiful woman.

Gu Ruo's heart didn't fluctuate, he just listened to them talking about an irrelevant strange woman.

There are many children in the orphanage, healthy, disabled, and various, but the number of staff to take care of them is limited, and it is impossible to cover everything, so these children have their own society, class, and rules.

When people from society come to show their love, they are gentle, courteous and thrifty.

Usually, this rule is called: priority is given to the taller, the stronger the fist, and the stronger.

Delicious, fun, and what you want, all rely on robbing. If you grab it, you have to stay awake for 24 hours, otherwise the next day, your beloved may be in someone's hands, or it may be destroyed by a group of people. smash.

When Gu Ruo was five years old, she was selected to receive donations because of her beautiful and well-behaved appearance. She wore a shofar braid and wore a new floral skirt. When she was filming on TV, she got a rabbit-shaped puppet doll from an aunt .

Gu Ruo had never worn such fine clothes, nor had she owned such a beautiful doll, so she hugged her to sleep in her arms, and the next morning, the new clothes were gone, and the doll was gone.

Gu Ruo found the floral rags of her new clothes in the trash can, and saw her rabbit doll in the mud ditch downstairs.

The doll lay there quietly, no longer cute.

Its ears had been pulled off by someone long ago, and the stuffing cotton was exposed from the huge cracks, stained with mud, black and white, and looked like polluted brains.

Its stomach was ripped open, revealing the stuffing cotton, which was dirty, like viscera dripping out.

Its body was painted with red and black brushes so that the original color could not be seen. Gu Ruo could imagine those people smiling while painting.

Gu Ruo looked at it quietly, but didn't cry.

Because this is not the first time.

Don't cry, even if a tear falls, it will only make those who hide in the dark happier.

At that time, Gu Ruo was only five years old, and she already understood this truth.

……

Jiang Xinran snuggled into Gu Ruo's arms and listened quietly. After talking about such a trivial matter, Jiang Xinran already felt her nose sore and blocked. She really wanted to protect Gu Ruo, but she couldn't do anything. Tears filled her eyes. When he looked up at Gu Ruo, the man had a calm expression and even smiled.

"I haven't recalled these things for a long time, I thought I forgot."

Jiang Xinran felt sore in his heart, "Gu Ruo, if you don't want to say it, forget it."

"Let's finish." Gu Ruo lowered his head, kissed her forehead, and said with a smile, "I'll give you an explanation, and I'll give an explanation to myself."

So Jiang Xinran had no choice but to hold back tears and continue listening.

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Gu Ruo is very smart. When she was six or seven years old, she was already good at observing. She often watched the children fighting in the yard, and when she was free, she would think about how to kill others with one blow, so that they would be afraid once, and they would be terrified of her ever since.

At the age of nine, fighting and being beaten for Gu Ruo are already commonplace. She also changed the children who liked the staff most from infants and young children to the most wild and headache in the entire orphanage.

Gu Ruo grabs everything she can grab, toys, food, new clothes.She actually doesn't care about or like these things, but when she saw those people carefully staring at her from the corner of their eyes, with hatred and fear in their eyes, she couldn't express her happiness, smiled triumphantly, and called them trash .

In this way until the age of 12, Gu Ruo thought that this kind of life would last forever, and she also started to go to junior high school.

Gu Ruo is naughty, but also surprisingly smart. She studied while playing, and was admitted to the best junior high school in Linyuan City. But she is not focused on studying. What's the use of studying?She is not a wild child that no one wants, the orphanage can't afford her high school education, at most she can get out of junior high school and find some job as a waiter or wash dishes, get out of the orphanage, that's all.

But in this year, Gu Ruo's mother came back suddenly, and with tears in her eyes, she found the orphanage where she abandoned Gu Ruo, and took Gu Ruo out with drums and gongs.

Gu Ruo was stunned when she was embraced by a woman with thick make-up and pink, and the smell of perfume on her body choked Gu Ruoyi's nose.

"Who the hell are you?" Gu Ruo pushed her away and asked coldly.

Zhang Zi's tears were hanging from the corners of her eyes, her makeup was a bit sloppy, and she was shocked: "Xiao Ruo, you...you don't know me? I'm your mother!"

Gu Ruo was stunned for a moment, stood on the spot, pursed her lips, and secretly looked her up and down.

Sure enough, as the staff said, her mother was a beautiful woman.

All the children were lying on the railing, looking curiously at their mother and daughter.

At that moment, Gu Ruo, who was only 12 years old, felt proud and satisfied, her waist was straighter than usual, and she was swollen.

It seems to be showing off to other children, see?I'm a serious kid with a mother, not like you kids who don't have parents.

Gu Ruo willingly went out with Zhang Zi, thinking that she had a mother just like those happy children on TV, but Zhang Zi just threw her into a private noble boarding middle school and ignored her.

After a long time, Gu Ruo met her so-called "sister", Gu Qiong, and also realized her mother's original purpose.

Five years after Gu Heyuan abandoned Zhang Zi, he found a new woman and gave birth to his last child, a daughter named Gu Qiong.

This daughter is Gu Heyuan's old daughter, and she is pampered in the palm of her hand. She shouldn't be given such an unlucky name, but Gu Heyuan loves this apple of the eye to the core, and is afraid that she will not grow up. So I found a fortune teller to give her the name.

Seeing how Gu Heyuan pampered the youngest daughter named Gu Qiong, Zhang Zi suddenly remembered that she also had a daughter, and the orphanage sent her photos every year, and she was no worse than this Gu Qiong in terms of appearance.

So Zhang Zi thought of Gu Ruo again.

People like Gu Heyuan absolutely cannot have a daughter who grew up in an orphanage, so Zhang Zi spent a lot of money to send Gu Ruo to the best noble school, but she never thought about it. A more stringent and hidden chain of discrimination in

The disdain here does not need to be spoken out, but it makes people at a loss everywhere.

Gu Ruo stayed for three years, living at the bottom of this chain of contempt because of her lack of education, vulgarity and other problems. At the most sensitive age of youth, she walked alone and did not make a single friend.

When being ridiculed and insulted by people covering their noses, even fists are useless. These children don't need to do it themselves. Naturally, security guards patrolling anytime and anywhere will rush out and pin Gu Ruo to the ground with his hands cut behind his back.

Gu Ruo was forced to learn to restrain himself again, hiding the cruelty in his eyes, turning it into motivation, the motivation to study.

She found more fun in the depressing sea of ​​study than in the real world.

Those ancient poems with beautiful rhythms, those concise and refined ancient prose, those flexible and interesting mathematical formulas... There are also physics, chemistry, and geography that I never touched in elementary school...

Gu Ruo's grades are getting better and better.

When she took the first grade test for the first time, she couldn't wait to show the report card to her mother. She begged in the school security room, and was finally allowed to make a phone call with the landline, which was a number she knew by heart.

But after the call was connected, just after saying a few words, my mother hung up perfunctorily.

Gu Ruo's heart froze, and all the joy disappeared.

From then on, the last bit of hope for my mother was gone, and I just thought I jumped out of the cracks in the rocks.

In fact, it’s also quite good. One has no worries, no constraints, can do whatever one wants, is at ease, and others may envy her.

Gu Ruo comforted herself like this, but she knew clearly in her heart that no one would envy her.

People only envy children with happy families, no one envies children without families.

Just like the days in the orphanage, when all caring people went to see them, there was always pity in their eyes.

Just like the day Gu Ruo himself was picked up by his mother, he was also proud of himself under the envious eyes of all the children.

But what can I do if I don't comfort myself so much?

People always have a belief in order to support themselves to live.

Gu Ruo didn't think there was any point in living.

She just didn't dare to die.

Gu Ruo was admitted to Linyuan High School by virtue of her top score in the senior high school entrance examination, and escaped from the gorgeous cage of junior high school.

The children in that middle school do not need to study hard. Their road has already been paved, and it is a broad road paved with gold. They go to school, go abroad, and take over the family business after being gilded and come back, or become stars or Internet celebrities.Therefore, this private middle school has always kept a low profile. Since the establishment of the school, Gu Ruo is the first top scorer in the high school entrance examination.

No matter how you say it, it was an opportunity to spread the word, not to be missed. For a while, the school leaders and classmates became more and more attentive to Gu Ruo, but Gu Ruo didn't care.

She just went to her high school as she wished.

Adhering to her survival principles: walk alone, don't make friends, and don't get along with anyone to make trouble.

Until she met Jiang Xinran.

Jiang Xinran is a ray of sunshine in the frozen darkness, since then it has illuminated Gu Ruo's life and made her have the most real and close connection with the world for the first time.