[Comprehensive] Tsunayoshi in the Dark Benmaru

dieersteliebeistwiederersteschnee;

erbleibtgewhnlichnichtlangeliegen.

First love is like snow, fleeting.

……

Sawada Tsunayoshi has never had insomnia because of anything, and now he has insomnia and doesn't know why he is insomnia.He just couldn't sleep, and felt that his day was wasted with nothing to do, and his heart was very uncomfortable. A very strong self-punishment made him breathless, and his heart beat faster.

After tossing and turning until midnight, he was tired of counting sheep, so he sat up under the warm blanket.A little dejected, she put on a fur coat, moved to the window, climbed onto the bay window sill, and opened a small section of curtain.Different from the dark room, the white moon reflects the snow outside, and there is a dark silver light coming in, like phosphorous fire flickering and mottled.

From the first snow to the snow-wrapped clothes, I didn't even need to sleep for a while.

It’s okay to enjoy the snow at night, but fortunately it’s hard to fall asleep, so it’s better to drag up the soft pillows and quilts, and pass the time by leaning against the window frame and leaning on the snow scene.Tsunayoshi Sawada thought of playing a video game or flipping through a manga for a while, but he wasn't in the mood; especially after finding himself staring out the window at a snow-covered corner of Honmaru, the moment was more relaxing than anything nerve.But after staring at it for a long time, some unreasonable thoughts settled in his heart like gently falling snowflakes.It may be a bit hypocritical to say it, Sawada Tsunayoshi was not such a delicate boy, but this does not mean that he does not have the unique sadness of human beings.

After tossing and turning, the old wounds and erosions of Shen Yan couldn't be pulled out in his head.

"Ugh."

When everything was quiet and only the rustling of snow was heard, Tsunayoshi Sawada let out a long sigh and raised his hands to rub his sore eyes.He is now like a blue wheat field under the snow, his pure and straightforward emotions can be interpreted by Lanbo.Apart from how to get home, there are only two things that upset him before, and it is the same thing after they are grouped together.He was a little thankful that Naz didn't have enough fun playing with the cubs who retired from the five tigers, and now he is sleeping in a ball on the first floor, so that he is the only one now, and he can look at the big snow with red eyes without fear of embarrassment. .

When the grief of death overwhelms the fear, there is really no feeling of fear.I just think about all kinds of life for no reason, why life exists; why these painful things happen to myself and the people around me... I will reduce my interest in participating in life-sustaining activities, I don’t want to smile or speak, just like a rotten tree Banku sat, examined himself, and looked at the world with his head and eyes that became extremely clear after that.

There are also recurring, involuntary, and intrusive painful memories, thoughts, and feelings that are lost to self-deceptive protection because they are too clear.As soon as Sawada Tsunayoshi closed his eyes, there was the back view of Tainori Taikoyo covered in blood and the back of Mu Ran Xiaosuo who finally said goodbye to him in Japan——

"I am grateful that you and your comrades came to my rescue.want to pay you back. 』

"If there is anything I can help you, please let me know."

"Help me get rid of these white bone spurs..."

"I can not do it. 』

"..."

That was their last conversation.

Knowing nothing at that time, he was only angry at Japan's deceit. His palm once touched the forest white protruding out of a solitary arc, and the spine that was no different from a pile of white bones. He could try it, but he gritted his teeth and closed his eyes. .What was he thinking at that time?Thinking that he is tired of walking on the road of life full of unhappiness and lies, thinking that this is the nomination certificate handed to him by Touken Fusangshen represented by the Japanese issue; The goodwill, pretending not to have the courage to accept the loyalty of a sword in the true sense, only thinking about myself.I don't want to be led by the government of the time to go on, I don't want to be a god judge, I don't want to form a contract.

However, at the training ground, he made a bond with Mori Toshiro, who longed to be alive, as he wished.It was only a day before and after.If it hadn't been for him to compete with the Japanese number, and to be angry with that free and easy man with purple pupils.Would it be more convincing for Japan to stand in front of other Token Fusangshin with the posture of eliminating the dark fall, and it would be more convincing, and those things would not happen later, and it would not lose its life.As soon as he regretted thinking of this, his heart ached, and tears welled up in his eyes, and in the blink of an eye, large and large tears would fall down without restraint.

It was his fault from the beginning.

He only thought that he was not smart enough, so he left everything to time to judge, but he didn't pay attention to whether others still had time to buffer.That's why he was forced to prove everything with his life, whether it was the Japanese name or Daeden Taiguangshi.What was he thinking at that time?protect yourself?Don't want to be tricked and fooled?But he has always been so useless, he can't do anything well, so what if he is deceived and fooled? !

What Sawada Tsunayoshi didn't realize was that the mental trauma he had suffered all this time was more serious than the physical injury that he would heal one day and fully healed.Having died before the eyes of Mitsuyo Ohnori, who sacrificed his life in order for him to escape from a combat prison, has caused him severe PTSD and has already begun to show three main symptoms "Intrusive symptoms" in the group.As a result, he will repeatedly have painful nightmares related to traumatic events, and will frequently have dissociative reactions such as flashbacks when he is alone, and emotional feelings will reappear like traumatic events.Although the first generation of Vengley had anticipated and taken precautions, he believed that if he didn't point out his retarded child, if he stayed for a long time, such and such mental disorders would naturally disappear.

Sawada Tsunayoshi is slow and clumsy, but he has inherited his mother Nana's abundant feelings and gentle empathy, and also has the buff blessing of "super intuition" that sometimes goes up and down. Less than a week after waking up from a coma, giotto thinks Let him know, don't want him to know, he knows it all.It’s hard to say whether he is as wise as the first generation of Vongola, but calm and rational as the strongest mafia leader——If Tsunayoshi Sawada didn’t understand it, he would take good care of his favorite blood descendants; I will stand aside and watch my child bravely and bravely overcome this hurdle, and see that he is full-fledged and growing.

It's not that Giotto is treating him harshly, it's just that this child is the future leader of the xth world of Pengo Lie after all.

No matter whether Sawada Tsunakichi is willing or not, in the situation where he is the only one left in Vongola's blood, there is no second way for Sawada Tsunayoshi to choose, unless he can give birth to a child before the ninth generation of Vengley abdicates. The child may also be raised by a biological brother.However, considering that Timoteo has shown more than once that he wants to retire as soon as possible and enjoy the urgency of providing for the elderly, the probability of success of these means is too low. Giotto said that "X generation, you want to prosper or destroy it is up to you", but it is also based on the default "Sawada Tsunayoshi is the leader of Vongola X", acknowledging his consciousness and giving him Vongola leader Identity led the Pengelie family to the direction and position he wanted to go.

In this different world and time and space, Giotto regards everything that the young Vongola X suffered as a test closer to the position of leader.If Tsunayoshi Sawada found out, he would definitely be angry again, shouting that he would never be the leader of a mafia family.Whether it was Ieji Vongola, who was implicated in the accident, or Liu Daoku, who came to him from a long distance, and brought him back when all parties were ready, they all cooperated with the work of Vongola's first generation.Perhaps both of them have selfish intentions, wanting to see Tsunayoshi Sawada more powerful and dazzling.

Only the young Fran didn't think so much.But his mind is immature, and the use of illusion here is harmful to his soul; now staying by Sawada Tsunayoshi's side is just a cute, cute and cute mascot.Oh, and by the way, it is also a nightmare suppressor, as long as Sawada Tsunayoshi has a nightmare, it will be automatically linked to his spiritual world.

In this case, Sawada Tsunayoshi's condition deteriorated as quickly as the naked eye could see.Insomnia and overthinking are just the beginning.If it weren't for the sudden appearance of a black shadow in the courtyard facing his window, he would have been alone in the darkest night before dawn until the light of fish-belly dawn appeared.

The snow is as thick as cotton.And from the deserted and lonely forest covered with white branches, the tall and thin man wrapped in a black robe walked out from there, leaving a series of footprints in the snow.Sawada Tsunayoshi didn't see when he came out of the woods where all kinds of monsters with teeth and claws could be hidden. When he noticed, that person had already stopped in the wind and snow, quietly facing his window. I watched quietly.

Sawada Tsunayoshi didn't turn on the lights after waking up, so the house was completely dark, and the stranger outside didn't know that he had been discovered.Full of curiosity and suspicion, at a time when he should have felt horrified or frightening, Sawada Tsunayoshi instead focused all his attention on that nameless and weird person.It should be the sword Fusangshen of this Honmaru, he thought, maybe it was from Mr. Kiyomitsu's school in California.

Here I want to first talk about something that Tsunayoshi Sawada has no reason to believe, which is very nonsensical.Even if he knew that the long absence of Nippon was because he had already left this world, and he has never seen or heard anything about the last thing about Nippon, but Tsunayoshi Sawada thinks that Nippon is not Kiyomitsu, who has moved to the back mountain of California they killed.Will take the initiative to protect, and even give up the "Godhead" equal to the soul to protect the human god judge. Sawada Tsunayoshi does not think that such a gentle and strong Token Fusangshin will harm his companions.What's more, if the Nippon was killed by them, Mr. Ikshin and the others would not lobby for the alliance of California Kiyomitsu in the first issue today.

Perhaps it is also based on this that Tsunayoshi Sawada is not so wary of strangers who sneak under his window late at night.With his chin propped and his cheek rested, his sore eyes from insomnia had no light and no emotional fluctuations. The young man just stared at the stranger wide-eyed, estimating what he was about to do.So through a window, without the person's knowledge, he and the man in black looked at each other from a distance, but there was no eye contact or emotional connection.

The deep sleep came nearly an hour after that.

The bright brown eyes are quietly closed, and only the eyelashes are left with a little pupil light pouring out.The exhausted and exhausted Tsunayoshi Sawada didn't bother to move down the bay window sill, and he was comfortable nesting here, his cheeks sinking into the soft pillow, rubbing against the fabric with the fragrance of violet leaves, and he would fall asleep without any resistance in the next second.And at this moment, the man in black who had been stubbornly standing in the snow and stared at him for such a long time finally moved.He seemed to take out something from his arms, stretched it towards Sawada Tsunayoshi, and then covered his heart.

Tsunayoshi Sawada didn't quite understand what kind of strange ritual it was, and he wasn't interested in reading any further.He turned his face slightly, and was about to ignore the stranger who fell below, and just passed by while he was sleepy.But at the last moment of consciousness, Tsunayoshi Sawada saw the handsome face of the stranger under the black robe, and the most unforgettable thing was his eyes——

A pair of eyes that made Tsunayoshi Sawada very familiar and deja vu.

Since then, where and where he saw these eyes, the question has been driving him to sleep, lingering in his subconscious, so that he can't forget it even when he is half asleep and half awake.So in this sticky, restless repeated thinking, in the flashlight, he finally remembered——

"Ah! It's him!"

The moment the answer slipped to his lips, Tsunayoshi Sawada suddenly opened his eyes and shouted loudly.This startled Giotto, who was stretching out his hand to hug him off the bay window sill, and also stunned Sawada Tsunayoshi, who suddenly saw the first generation of Vongola in his eyes.He looked at Giotto beside him, and was dazzled by the sunlight on the other side.He blinked his eyes stupidly, his neck and shoulders moved stiffly, and he turned his face and squinted to look at the scene outside the window.

The sun was three poles high, and the snow had stopped.

※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※※

★Recent update below is cool, don’t you guys love me anymore→→

◎The inscription is intriguing, Tsunayoshi is a certain blade's first love, the reminder is correct xd

◎Everyone can probably guess who is the strange man in black robe secretly staring at Tsunaki's window.