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It was gray and dark outside the window, and there was no light at all, only the sun shining on his face was warm yellow.

Xu Yanxin half-closed her eyes, as if she hadn't slept yet.Someone poked him on the back and raised his chin to indicate the back door.He walked and saw the familiar standing posture.When Jiang Yu saw him, he tore his back off the wall and stuffed the paper bag in his arms, "I want to exchange it for your record player." Xu Yanxin didn't move, sticking her slender fingers to her waist side.

The tall boy asked, "Are we still in the Cold War?"

Xu Yanxin whispered: "I don't know either." They pretended not to notice when they finished their morning exercises two days ago.The river island was so high that when he stood in front of Xu Yanxin, Xu Yanxin couldn't get a little sunlight outside the house, making his face even more bloodless.Jiang Yu felt that he was thinner than before, and he must have no flesh in his arms.Jiang Yu twitched his Adam's apple, "It doesn't matter if you don't change it, anyway, the Chinese New Year is coming soon, so let's pay you a New Year's greeting in advance."

Xu Yanxin still didn't answer, and he didn't think his self-deprecation was funny enough to relieve embarrassment.Jiang Yu seemed to be irritated by his silence and suddenly lost his temper. He squeezed the paper bag and threw it into the trash can. Xu Yanxin moved, hugged his strong arm, and looked at him reproachfully.

The boy wanted to laugh, but said impatiently: "Anyway, it's yours, so throw it away if you don't want it." Xu Yanxin was forced to take the paper bag in her arms, staring at the boy's back as he disappeared into the corridor .He muttered, why pretend to be cool.He eased his finger to unpack the box, thinking that Jiang Yu must have made up his mind that he would like it, so he had to suppress his curiosity.

When he looked out of the window again, the sky was gray and the trees were black and white, but the students coming and going were colorful, yellow, green, all colors, like paints on a canvas.He stuffed the paper bag into the innermost layer of the schoolbag, with a dozen books pressed on it.When he got home, he lowered his head and behaved like a man, for fear of running into Xu Zhao, but this time he came back unfortunately, Xu Zhao was waiting for him at the door, "Did Wei Xun buy you some snacks?"

"No."

"Well, I have to eat later," Xu Zhao said, without moving, still blocking Xu Yanxin's way upstairs, as if preparing a set of statements, but the last thing came out was to ask, "Your phone is hanging on the phone. What is it?" Xu Yanxin replied: "A pendant." Xu Zhao frowned, and said, "How old are you? If you hang a lamb on your phone, others must laugh at you behind your back." Hearing the dissatisfaction in her tone, Xu Yanxin just raised her head, swept her brows hastily, and said, "Let them laugh, as long as I like it."

Both of them were silent for a long time, but they were thinking of different things.

After dinner, without Xu Zhao's approval, Xu Yanxin picked up a coat and went out with her schoolbag on her back.After walking seventeen steps, he saw Wei Xun standing on the steps with a smile on his face. He walked up quickly and put the schoolbag in Wei Xun's hand.Wei Xun weighed it twice and said, "There's a child in it, so it's so heavy?"

Xu Yanxin said: "You haven't forgotten, have you? Uncle Wei asked me to supervise your completion."

Wei Xun hooked his shoulders and laughed at him: "What about you, how about doing a few sets of questions by the way? Even if you have a good brain, overuse your brain and be careful of premature aging."

"Stop comforting yourself with this theory, first pour me a glass of orange juice, I want to drink."

"All right, all right, who made you my ancestor."

It is true that Xu Yanxin is an ancestor. Wei Xun grew up watching him. Although Wei Xun often asks Xu Yanxin, a primary school student, to help him with homework, all of Xu Yanxin's comic books, record tapes, and CDs are given by Wei Xun. More or less the meaning of revolutionary friendship.

However, Wei Xun's level of revolution is really not high. He just unpacked a box of paints, and there was nothing to paint, so he showed off to him first: "McHardin's Chinese cinnabar costs ninety dollars for a little bit. Do you like it? Call brother!" , my brother will send you off."

Just as Xu Yanxin was about to succumb to the power of lust, he remembered Jiang Yu's words, "Do you call everyone brother?" These words made him look like a dog's leg.He pursed his lips, feeling proud and arrogant, looked back at his homework, and said, "I'm not jealous, and I'm good at writing questions, at least I won't be illiterate."

Wei Xun pinched the nape of his neck, and put his head on the back of his neck, "Who are you saying is illiterate? I want to see what's hidden in your schoolbag. I don't believe it. It's all tutorial books. There must be a small book hidden underneath." People's books." Xu Yanxin wanted to say, it was really all tutorial books, but suddenly thought, Jiangyu's things were still in his schoolbag!However, Wei Xun was also tall, so Xu Yanxin couldn't touch his schoolbag when he stood on tiptoe.Wei Xun threw his tutorial books on the sofa one by one like a treasure, and even mispronounced two words on the cover during the process.Just when he was wanting to spare Xu Yanxin, he touched the paper bag.

There is a sticker of a lamb on the mouth, which is a sentimental meaning.Wei Xunxie opened it with a smile, regardless of Xu Yanxin who was fluttering around, but when he saw what was inside, he was taken aback.

"It turned out to be a new limited paint set from schimincke? Who said that my pocket money has bottomed out? This set is not cheap. To be honest, did you get married behind my back? I guess, Is it a little girl who belongs to the sheep? Or is her surname Yang? Come, come, tell me the truth."

Xu Yanxin didn't care about Wei Xun's yelling, and snatched the things back with a blushing face. After three meters away, she sat down with her back to Wei Xun, very angry.Wei Xun guessed that he really guessed the cat's tail, and was a little distressed. He walked slowly to Xu Yanxin's side and coaxed: "It's my fault, I shouldn't have rummaged through your schoolbag, but I also care about you. You said you are such a high-quality How can you not let the pigs arch you? At least he has to be a man with two legs who is rich and rich, right? Oh, it can barely be counted as three legs."

Xu Yanxin couldn't bear to push him away, "I'll leave if you do this again."

Wei Xun raised his hands high and said with a smile, "All right, all right, I won't ask any more. Xinxin can fall in love with whomever she wants. Anyway, your brother and I are holding the number plate of love, waiting for you to look back."

Every time Xu Yanxin heard him pretending to be crazy, she calmed down.

Xu Yanxin looked at him helplessly: "You, can you do the final project well? Also, do you still count on the one you told me in the car earlier?"

When it came to business, Wei Xun was rarely serious, restrained the smirk on his face, and said, "The cartoon you drew for the Black Bear Protection Association was really good. I contributed the manuscript for you. The Academy of Fine Arts wants you to go to Participate in the competition in Lower City B. If you can win an award, you will be able to enter their school next year. Your comics are very good in terms of storytelling and drawing skills. I think you are guaranteed to win the award. thing."

"But……"

"Worried about your mother's troubles, right? You have to think about it yourself, after all, it involves your future life," Wei Xun paused, rubbed his head, and smiled, "But don't worry, Regardless of whether you are a famous mathematician in the future or a street artist named Xu, I am proud of you. Don't panic. If you are really worthless, you can be a millet bug to me."

Xu Yanxin put his hand away and said, "I only eat one bowl of rice for a meal now, and I always turn a corner and say that I eat too much." Wei Xun touched his thin frame with emotion, and said, "No wonder you are so thinner than before. Too much, it doesn't feel good to hold, let's eat a black pearl later, and make him fat."

Xu Yanxin muttered: "Heizhuzhu can't get enough."

Xu Yanxin was dragged by him to chat idly for a while before letting him go home. Before he left, Xu Yanxin kept obsessing about his paper bag, and didn't even leave the stickers on it. Wei Xun pinched his face and said, "It's really useless."

Xu Yanxin returned home bouncing around, only to see Shen Feng sitting on the sofa watching the football game, and seeing him back, he didn't say hello.

He bypassed his fatherless father and returned to his room, only to feel that the whole world suddenly became enlightened. He played with the limited set of paint boxes, facing the mirror, the window, and the desk lamp, back and forth. Look, I'm afraid he might miss a little surprise.However, when he calmed down, he realized that he had something more to worry about.

Should he go to the game?

If grandpa is not sick, it will be fine... Before going to bed, he thought so.

At that time, he hadn't realized that life was a hard journey from which he could not turn back.

All fairy tales come to an abrupt end.

The next day, he treasured the paint box in a secret treasure box under his bed, took out the record player inside, dusted it carefully, and took it to school.However, as soon as he arrived at school, he found that everyone was looking at him with gossiping and curious eyes. He touched his face, but he didn't see ketchup, so he entered the classroom in a daze.

The atmosphere in the mathematics class was originally oppressive, but now everyone gathered together and whispered. However, when he walked into the classroom, everyone shut up and returned to their seats.He scanned the expressions on everyone's faces and saw only a hint of joy.Only Ye Yuqing still looked angry and gave him a cold look.

However, this gaze did not end until the lunch break.He picked up the record player and was going to talk to Jiang Yu about it, but he was stopped by Ye Yuqing halfway.Ye Yuqing just stood in front of him, frowned at him, and didn't stop him, with an inexplicable arrogance, which was very similar to Xu Zhao.Xu Yanxin thought for no reason that he could always see the shadow of Xu Zhao in Ye Yuqing.

Ye Yuqing's slender eyes scanned the things in his hands before returning to him.

"Are you looking for Jiangyu again?"

Xu Yanxin didn't answer, it was a tacit consent.

Ye Yuqing raised his chin proudly, and said, "Stop associating with that kind of guy. How can a student like him, who has ruined the school's reputation, continue to stay in No. [-] Middle School? He is now called to the principal's office. I guess he is far away from being arrested. It’s not far to drop out.”

"what?"

"You still don't know? He... And he still works in that kind of bar. It's unimaginable that there will be such a person in No. [-] Middle School. If you keep in touch with him like this, you will be dragged into the water. I advise you to be the last Don't worry about it, even if you-"

That was the first time Xu Yanxin experienced resentment. He knocked off Ye Yuqing's shoulder, interrupted her long sentence, and ran to the principal's office. He opened the heavy and solemn door, and the people inside saw it. He was stunned for a moment.

Only Jiang Yu didn't, he looked at Xu Yanxin with heavy eyes, as if saying, you shouldn't come.

The middle-aged woman who was interrupted glanced at him with disheveled hair, and said in a babbling voice: "Teachers, principals, he will change, he will really change, please don't let him drop out of school, if he is dropped out now Where will I go to school in the future, won't this life be ruined?"

Immediately, his knees softened, he knelt down on the ground, took out a thin red envelope from his pocket, and said with trembling lips, "I'm not educated, but all the teachers are. How can I leave a mark on a child when I'm in the third year of high school... I beg you, I kowtow to you... He is ignorant, from now on he will definitely study hard and behave properly, Jiang Yu, come here and apologize to the teacher on your knees..."

"Mother Jiangyu, get up first..."

All the teachers had never seen such a situation, so they got up and pulled.

"If you don't agree to me, I won't get up! Jiang Yu's illness will be cured, and it won't affect other students. I swear...he just got confused for a while, so he dared to say that. I, I gave birth to him How can you not know that he is the same as all ordinary children..."

Xu Yanxin froze at the door, staring stupidly at the farce in front of her.Liu Rong grabbed Jiang Yu's trousers, wanting him to kneel down together, but the strength of the middle-aged woman could not shake the tall boy, like a mayfly shaking a tree, Jiang Yu still stood straight and refused to bow his head.

Xu Yanxin thought that before he came, Jiang Yu must have told all the teachers that he had done nothing wrong, so he didn't want to apologize.

In the end, Wang Qingshi yelled at him to let him go out, and he closed the door as if he had just woken up from a dream, leaning his back against the wall, listening to the intermittent crying inside.

For some reason, Xu Yanxin remembered Jiang Yu's words, all the tragedies he saw were lively.

After an unknown amount of time, the bright red door was opened, Liu Rong was crying, her hair was messed up, and when passing by Xu Yanxin, he could smell the essence of wonton soup. He thought that the poverty in this world would be like his. Every flute player and qin player who passed by was as glorious as the moon, but they didn't know that most of the pitiful and vulgar people in this world walked together.

A group of teachers headed by Wang Qingshi only glanced at Xu Yanxin and then hurried away, with a gesture of hesitation.

Jiang Yu was at the end. Seeing him, Xu Yanxin immediately grabbed his arm and asked, "What's going on? Why did it suddenly come to this point?"

Jiang Yu skipped all the explanations and suddenly said, "I'm gay."

Xu Yanxin was startled, as if he didn't understand, but subconsciously withdrew his hand. He stared blankly at the palm he withdrew, a little frightened. He clearly knew that Jiang Yu needed his approval now, but he still He did this subconsciously, and when he was about to put Jiang Yu's arm back on without showing any trace, Jiang Yu turned his body sideways and smiled softly.

Xu Yanxin was upset by the laughter.

"You, is this what you wanted to tell me last time? Then you..."

He wants to ask, do you like me?

Of course Jiang Yu understood, and said with a smile: "How could I like a kid like you, stop daydreaming, we gays also have to pick and choose, but if you mind... I will stay away from you in the future .” He said more and more quietly.

Xu Yanxin quickly said, "Of course I don't mind! Really."

Jiang Yu hummed and said, "That's good, then I'm leaving? I still have something to do."

"Oh, okay, remember to find me if you need my help..."

"Ah."

As soon as they answered, they fell into a long silence.Finally, Jiang Yu asked: "Do you like the gift I gave you?"

Soon, Jiang Yu's figure quickly disappeared from his sight.Xu Yanxin realized one thing at that time, he was always looking at Jiang Yu's back, disappearing into all kinds of streets and alleys, he never followed Jiang Yu.

Just like this time too, it turned out that he couldn't help Jiang Yu with anything.

He always thought that he could pull Jiang Yu out of that small and difficult world, but he never thought that he was the ignorant who was placed in the tall building, and Jiang Yu was the passerby who told him what he saw and heard.

He had expected all the pain to come with great fanfare.It turns out that all the sorrows happened so quietly.

It turned out that Jiang Yu was not mean and pessimistic.

The person who was trapped in the fairy tale world, who didn't know the misery in the world, who didn't know good or bad, had always been him.