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"Are you a donkey?"

After talking about trigonometric functions three times, Jiang Yu finally couldn't help but exploded, dropped his pen, and looked at Zhao Cong with a frown.

Zhao Cong blushed, and said stiffly, "Obviously you are the one who speaks badly!"

Jiang Yu raised his fist and squinted at him: "Do you dare to say one more thing?"

The junior high school student was not afraid of power, snorted, and said, "You have been so diligent these two days, is it because that Xu Yanxin didn't treat you well?"

As soon as the words fell, Zhao Cong was punched on the right cheek. He groaned, held his face in his hands, and looked at Jiang Yu in disbelief. The person who beat him had already turned around and entered the toilet, slamming the door loudly.Zhao Cong slandered, those who didn't know thought that was here.

Jiang Yu leaned against the door and looked through Xu Yanxin’s space. The latest photo was a blurry picture of the venue’s gate, with an orange cat in the corner. ,come on!The previous one was: I signed up for two hours, and I really had nothing to do. After watching Dragon Ball, the boss next door was painting HMMT, and the pressure was huge...The previous one was: schimincke’s new paint looks good, but this month’s Pocket money is already pineapple pineapple [grievance]

Xu Yanxin's space is very ordinary, complaining about the teacher's procrastination, too many new competition papers, reposting some food and comics, talking about ordinary troubles, as if she is really so ordinary.

He flipped back and forth for half an hour before finally pressing the button to delete the visitor record.

180 minutes, the bell rang.

Xu Yanxin walked out of the examination room, looking at the misty sky, feeling a little dazed.The numbers on the test paper seemed to remain on his irises, and everything looked a bit mathematical. Those scenes were not scenes, and those people were not real people, but figures made of numbers.

After waiting for 2 minutes, he saw Xu Zhao, wearing a thick black wool coat, holding a paper bag in his arms, with a long baguette sticking out of it, like a pictorial taken on the streets of Paris, he immediately laughed He told Xu Zhao exactly what he imagined, but Xu Zhao couldn't understand his humor: "How did you do in the preliminary exam?"

He curled his lips and said, "I haven't solved one problem, and the others should be fine."

Xu Zhao immediately frowned, and said, "Why are there still some questions in the preliminary round?"

"In the past two years, the difficulty of the Zhixin Cup preliminary competition has increased, and the two combination questions..."

"You always make excuses, how to improve?"

The fog on the car window had condensed. He lowered his head and looked at his fingers. The pad of the middle finger was sunken. It was pressed by a pen, and the fingertips were still stained with ink. There was a black down jacket around the window. Candidates and their parents Chattering about how difficult the questions are, the parents smiled and didn't seem to take it seriously.He didn't know why, but suddenly missed his grandfather a little bit, turned to Xu Zhao and said, "I want to go to my grandfather's house, and I happened to ask him that question."

Xu Zhao held the steering wheel and pondered for a while, then said, "It's a long way to drive there. If you have any questions, I'll call Lin He and ask him to come over."

"Actually, I don't just want to ask questions. I miss my grandpa a little bit. I have been dreaming about my grandpa for the past two days. I always feel that he has something to say to me. Although we did meet, he just chatted with me casually." , but I don’t know why, I just feel a little uneasy..."

Xu Zhao paused for a few seconds, and said, "They have gone on a trip, and they will come back in two weeks. You should prepare for the rematch first, and we will wait until the results come out."

"But……"

"What did you promise me last time? I want to win the Zhixin Cup. And next time you meet Xu Yang's mother, don't mention the Zhixin Cup. I'm afraid it will be the same as last time, leaving everyone empty-handed." Have a good time."

Xu Zhao always had a way to make him speechless.He stopped talking, and shrank his neck to look at the fallen leaves outside the window. The winter in S City is very cold, but it does not snow, and a heavy snowfall can express the depression of winter in a mighty way.It's a pity that this city, like most of the city's citizens, is reserved and high-pressured, just like the sparrows that are now parked on the wires, walking on thin ice, and the condensed coldness gathers at the top of the city, looking crumbling and about to fall.

When he got home, Xu Zhao told him not to eat too much, so he just ate a little with the bread bag, and drank half a glass of milk before being sent upstairs.When it was time to eat dinner, Shen Feng had already returned, but it was rare for him to be reticent. The busiest person fell silent, and this originally quiet family became even quieter, only the slight sound of bowls and chopsticks colliding.Xu Yanxin quietly looked at his unusual father, only to feel that he was rather haggard.

But when asked, Shen Feng pressed his shoulders, smiled reluctantly, and said: "There are many things at the end of the year, and I am a little tired. By the way, Mr. Wei said the day before yesterday that Wei Xun came back from Italy. Anyway, he is a neighbor. I let him He taught you how to paint during the winter vacation?"

"Really? But Mom..."

"Let me tell you, learning to paint is not an infectious disease, so how can you suppress the source of infection? You just have to compete well, and your parents will take care of everything else, and I'm sure they will arrange it properly for you."

Shen Feng spoke generously, and after watching the child go upstairs, he sighed softly.

Xu Yanxin is by no means a delicate and sensitive boy, but he is always a little flustered, just like when he was in junior high school, he could vaguely feel a pair of pushing hands behind him.This time too, in the dark, he felt a force of savage growth, boiling and rolling in his heart, like a towering tree overnight, and like waves breaking through a river embankment.

The grandpa in the dream was a stranger, holding his hand and walking away, no matter what he said, grandpa never answered, after a long time, he even suspected that the hand holding him was dead wood, broken bones, without any warmth.When he asked in a trembling voice, the whole world shook, and the pieces of white collapsed. It turned out that they had been circling around a stone pillar.never forward.

When he woke up, he was drenched in sweat.

He glanced at the clock, and then at the wind chimes beside the bed.The wind chime was still hanging there quietly, a transparent blue was reflected by the moonlight. He looked at it for a long time before he pulled on his slippers and went out to find water. When he passed by Shen Feng and Xu Zhao's room, he heard a slight quarrel Voice.Although his parents always bicker, they actually have a good relationship. Shen Feng has a rare good temper, and he can always solve the little disputes in threes and fives.

But when he was attached to the door, what he heard was Shen Feng's high-pitched roar, while Xu Zhao kept that tone without emotion.

"If you continue like this, he will hate you and get farther and farther away from you. I really don't understand why?"

"What? If you hadn't stopped him in every possible way, he would have been in the juvenile class at the university. As for being pushed downstairs by those gangsters in that junior high school, would he have lived in the ICU for a year?"

"It was just an accident, but have you ever wondered how much he was expected to go to college at the age of 15? How much criticism he received? In order not to let you down when he was hospitalized, he never put down his books. If other mothers were born like this I think you want to kill him! Can't we be a pair of enlightened parents and let him do what he likes? What's wrong with a happy family?"

"Nothing is good!"

Xu Zhao roared, as sharp as fingernails scratching the blackboard. Xu Yanxin was startled when she had never heard her voice so lost in appearance.

"We are here to fulfill his dream of being a painter, so who will fulfill my previous dream? Xu Ruqing looks like the most democratic and generous grandfather and father-in-law in the world to you, but in fact he is no different from me. He forced me to learn Mathematics, he forced me to study law after finding out that I was mediocre. He did not allow me to marry early, because at that time my partner was a merchant family he looked down on. Now he is old, sick, forgotten, and has become so innocent. You, who came to our house, actually gave you a happy education. You ask your most respected academician Xu to agree or not? Oh, he is suffering from Alzheimer’s now, so he probably can’t answer you. It’s ridiculous for a scholar to suffer from this disease.”

"Xu Zhao! How can you say such a thing, he is your father!"

"But am I wrong?!"

All the voices stopped abruptly in Shen Feng's roar, and slowly receded like the ebbing waves, he could only see the thin white line receding further than the horizon.He withdrew his hand that wanted to unscrew the door, and slowly squatted down on the ground.

He was submerged in sea water.

On the day of the rematch, Xu Zhao sent him to the arena. He obediently accepted the admission ticket as usual, and said goodbye to Xu Zhao with a smile.

However, when he reached the corner of the second floor, he did not enter the classroom, but leaned against the railing and looked into the distance.The Mercedes is gone.He straightened his backpack strap, twisted the admission ticket in his hand into a paper ball, and walked straight out of the gate.He was wearing the new goose down jacket that Xu Zhao bought for him, it was so light that he couldn't breathe under the weight.

After walking two streets, he threw the down jacket Xu Zhao bought into the trash can.

He was so eager to be a bad kid that he emptied all his pockets and spent 200 yuan to buy game currency and read comics.But his heart was still thinking about his grandfather and Xu Zhao's harsh words.

When those punks knocked him to one side, he foolishly thought that being bad is also a kind of ability, and he has never mastered such an ability.The kind of ignorance and pride of disregarding the rules is something he can't learn no matter what. He is like a castle of building blocks in the middle of the game hall, square and regular.

He suddenly became depressed, and finally had to tell all the thoughts to the wild cat on the side of the road. The wild cat opened his eyes and looked at him lazily, as if chasing him away. Complaining, babbling about family affairs, telling it about Xu Zhao, telling it about grandpa, the last sentence he said was: "I used to think that I didn't do well enough to let her down. Now I just I know, it turned out that it was because she wanted me to experience her past pain. Moreover, I didn’t dare to see my grandpa, for example, what should I do if my grandpa doesn’t remember me? I’m so scared.”

When he finished saying this, he burst into tears, crying out of breath and guilt.Fortunately, the cat couldn't understand his words, and didn't know that he had arranged his mother in such a "bad" way.

When he came back to his senses, he had already walked to the wonton shop opened by Jiang Yu's mother.Through the greasy door, the aroma mixed with the sound of people's conversation floated in.He pushed the door open, ordered a bowl of wontons, and just sat down when he shed a tear. He was burned by the hot fireworks, so his tear glands lost control.After he finished crying and eating, he realized that he didn't have any coins on him. He was so anxious that a familiar figure sat opposite him.

Jiang Yu followed him all the way, from the competition building to the game hall, to the dark alley, to the wonton shop.

With a cigarette in his mouth, he picked up the down jacket that Xu Yanxin had thrown in the trash can, and saw the dots of sauce on the white collar hair. He put it in his pocket to watch Xu Yanxin crying and talking to the cat in the alley. Wipe a lonely and light shadow into the fucking wonton shop.

Jiang Yu couldn't explain why he appeared here, he couldn't say that he happened to pass by, he didn't even believe it himself.

Because he wanted to see him and was worried about the security of the neighborhood, he watched him get out of his mother's car for a few days, and then sit back in the fucking Mercedes after a few hours-such a thing, he couldn't say it.

Fortunately, the person in front of him blinked his eyes blankly with tears in his eyes, and asked, "This, is this my down jacket?"

"I'll take you to a place." Jiang Yu answered irrelevantly.

"No."

Xu Yanxin answered quickly this time, and seemed to be still sulking.Jiang Yu smiled in his heart. Not only did he not hate Xu Yanxin's pretended indifference, but he liked it very much.A person like Xu Yanxin, who can't act and is very angry, pretends to be a gesture for him, so it is something to be happy about, right?

But he didn't show it, he just propped his chin and said with a smile: "Oh, should I call the police? There seems to be someone here who eats the king's meal."

Xu Yanxin frowned, and looked at him in disbelief. He smiled softly, knocked on the table, and said in a low voice, "Come with me."

He walked out of the door on his own, and then turned his head slightly. The thin figure seemed to be fighting with heaven and man, but in the end he followed awkwardly and didn't look directly at him.

The two walked side by side like this, during which Xu Yanxin sneezed very slightly, Jiang Yu dragged off her coat and handed it to him, Xu Yanxin subconsciously waved her hand and said no, but remembered that they were still in a cold war, so they were very noble She glanced at him coldly and said no.

Jiang Yu sighed, as if he was really helpless: "How long are you going to be angry?"

"I've never been angry with you," Xu Yanxin's throat was filled with air bubbles, making him choke and aggrieved, "I've obviously never been angry with you, but you were annoying when we first met I also said that I had no intentions. Later, when I was in Qingshui County, I was fine, and I ignored me when I came back. I apologize to you. It doesn’t work to tell the hairy monkey. If I say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing, You should tell me too, do you know how sad this cold war will make me... How can you do this?"

He spoke in a confused way, with the words in reverse order, full of resentment, but Jiang Yu listened quietly all the time, and he felt that he was being manipulated like a seven-inch snake.

"I don't want to talk to you anymore," he said.

The headlights of the roadside cars melted Jiang Yu's face into orange: "Really?"

Jiang Yu's eyes also seemed to be golden, and something softer and warmer than the light came down, he sniffed, and said angrily: "Really. You are always hot and cold, I don't want to have sex with you anymore My friend, you give me back the clothes, I'm leaving."

Hearing this, Jiang Yu moved his arm. He thought he was going to hand him clothes, so he reached out to take it, but he didn't expect Jiang Yu to hug him tightly through the down jacket.Many people on the street looked at him sideways, and he stayed there for a few seconds before pushing Jiang Yu's chest hard, Jiang Yu's voice fell on his shoulder.

"It's going to be hot from now on, okay?"

"Xu Yanxin, you owed me a request when you were in Qingshui County, do you remember? I think about it now, can you..." Jiang Yu paused, and said, "Care me a little bit?"

Xu Yanxin didn't speak, but Jiang Yu knew his answer.

Compared with Xu Yanxin's smile, he was more afraid of his tears, those hot tears melted his mean and hard heart, his self-esteem was useless at that moment, all he wanted was to make him laugh.At that moment, he seemed to understand what the hairy monkey said, love can't use tricks.

His liking and self-esteem were cast into love in Xu Yanxin's tears, like tall buildings rising from the ground.

One day, Jiangyu's love will turn into a flood, into a beast, and sooner or later it will drown Xu Yanxin.

But before that, he was willing to stroke his back and be his knight.