drowning

After giving the recently made bungalows and doll models to the orphanage, Xu Yanxin sat at the final stop, the Second People's Hospital of City B.Walking through the vast crowd, I walked to yesterday's ward, but there was no one there. I asked the nurse and found out that Ye Yuqing had gone home.

He smoked two menthol cigarettes in a row in the smoking area before going back.Looking at the rickety street scene, he couldn't help thinking, Ye Yuqing was wrong, the person hated was not her, but him.He was indeed sorry for Ye Yuqing, for wasting her four years of youth for no reason.When he got home, he took apart the fruit bowl he had used to visit the sick, washed an apple and ate it, it was very sour.Even the owner of the fruit shop lied to him.

He bit the apple and walked to the desk. The flowers that were pressed in the book yesterday had been sucked away and turned into dry and thin pieces.He hid them in each book.Turn on the TV, it is a lively welcome party.He transferred five thousand to Ye Yuqing, only to realize that he was blocked, very much like Ye Yuqing's style.

Perhaps it is precisely because of this that he can live a good year with peace of mind.

Ye Yuqing doesn't care about him, that's great.

At midnight, Xu Yanxin couldn't help clasping his hands together and made a wish.Hope she is happy and well.Then I said to her from the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry.

However, Ye Yuqing, who returned to S City, had a good drink with her girlfriends in high school. After drinking until she didn't know who she was, she let go of her heavy defenses. Hate him, why can't he tell me bluntly that he hates me and will never like me. I waited for him for four years, more than 1000 days, I graduated, he was in the studio, I was promoted, and he was still in the studio, I was sick, and he was still in the studio, where the painting on fire was more important than me. The most ridiculous thing is that he is so dull that he doesn't even know who he loves."

"I hate him," Ye Yuqing cried out of breath for the first time, "I will never forgive him."

sizzle.

The flames almost reached the hem of his clothes.He choked thick smoke into his throat, coughed forever, and his eyes were sore and unbearable.He almost thought that he was going to die, when a force suddenly emerged from behind and pulled him out of the flames. He squinted his eyes and looked at the other party, only hearing the other party's low and angry voice.

"go!"

He woke up with a start.

Subconsciously glanced at the blue wind chime by the window, it was hanging there quietly.He touched the cold bell holder, and then touched his hot chest.After pouring three cups of cold water, his throat and chest cooled down.He looked at him in the full-length mirror, thin and pale.The edelweiss flowers behind the ears flickered.He gently stroked the tattoo behind his ear, and finally calmed down.

In recent days, he has been busy making videos, drawing pictures, and waiting for court leaflets.

On the eighth day of the new year, he received a summons from the S city court.He stuffed the summons into the book with a calm expression, and went downstairs to buy some breakfast. When he passed the flower shop, the sister of the flower shop stopped him and asked, "Do you want to buy a bunch of flowers for your girlfriend? You have been dating for four years. Are we really separated like this?"

Xu Yanxin said: "No, she deserves better."

"Are you not good enough?"

"It's not enough for her. But she can find a girl like her who is serious about everything. As long as she is willing to pay attention to her side, she will definitely find someone who loves her wholeheartedly." Xu Yanxin smiled at the flower shop sister.The flower shop sister looked at him suspiciously.

When I got home, there were quite a few people watching the excitement on Weibo.Most of them came through Minxin Weibo's lawyer's letter, addressed to Ruixin Firm.One of the Red Circle firms, his former unit.

According to a law No.20, civil lawsuits brought against citizens shall be administered by the people's court at the defendant's domicile, so S City was selected.He had originally planned to return to S City, but now he can only say that he is much ahead of schedule.He opened the website of Ruixin Firm, entered the list of lawyers, and turned four or five pages, but he didn't see the photo of that person.

Also.

How can there be such a coincidence?

It was him who overreacted.

Maybe they will never meet again in their lifetime, or in other words, this is the proper ending.

If we meet again, what expression should he use to face him?

However, when he really wanted to leave City B, he realized that his luggage was terribly short.As a believer who has broken away, I seldom shop, and everything from clothes to personal belongings can be kept simple.The most were actually his paintings and decorations. He received them all together and temporarily stored them with his sister in the flower shop, saying that they would send them to him after he found a good house.The elder sister of the florist agreed generously, but when she looked at him, she suddenly sighed: "A few days ago, you said that the florist had an extra flower, so you left. I still remember what you looked like when you moved in. It's almost the same as now, just a little more youthful."

"Maybe in a month, I'll be back in City B again."

"That's about the same frequency as we meet," the florist sister said again, "Then it's an agreement? Don't go back on your word, I'm still waiting for you to be the living sign of our shop."

Xu Yanxin stretched out her finger: "Pull the hook."

"By the way, before you leave, do you want to hug Mantou? Our Mantou is a little nymphomaniac, and he looks at you without blinking as soon as you come."

A white fluffy cat looking at him with open blue eyes.Xu Yanxin stretched out her hand subconsciously, but remembering the indifferent face and the majestic frown in her memory, she put her hand in her pocket and shook her head.

"Afraid of being bitten, do you want an injection?"

Xu Yanxin said: "No. I'm afraid I will cause you trouble."

She looked at him blankly, Xu Yanxin politely apologized to him, dragged the suitcase and boarded the taxi.

Looking at the street in the distance, he remembered the appearance when he first came to City B, and the silent carriage, it would not be an exaggeration to say that it was a prisoner.But all the unhappiness disappeared from the moment I saw him again.

But when he left the city, he was alone.

The convenient transportation infinitely shortened the time he missed, and he returned to S City in the blink of an eye.Back to the city where he was born and raised, but he left.After getting off the plane, the cold wind of City S seemed to blow into his bones. He was wearing a black horn button coat, a white shirt and a black wool vest inside, and Oxford shoes on his feet. His hair curled up when he woke up. He just wore a woolen cap, revealing only a handsome face.

The driver who drove him obviously regarded him as a college student returning home, and talked about his son with relish. Xu Yanxin looked at the high-rise buildings speeding past outside the window, only feeling that they were changing with each passing day.But the driver didn't let go of his ears, and said: "I didn't do well in my life, but my son is promising. This year, he was admitted to F University and studied finance. He can make a lot of money when he comes out, so I also I always tell people around me, what’s the use of investing in houses, shops, hobbies, or investing in children, and see how well they study, the college entrance examination scores are the last word, and when the children are well, can they still worry about retirement? Don’t you think so.”

Xu Yanxin smiled and said yes.

"Are you a college student too? Where did you go to college?"

Xu Yanxin said: "I have been working for several years."

The driver was quite amazed, and said, "I thought you were from the Academy of Acting, you are so handsome." Xu Yanxin said thank you, but the driver seemed to have endless topics about reading, and mentioned his cousin's son, saying: " Reading really depends on brains. My cousin’s child sits at the desk every day, making up this and that. Finally, he took the art test and went to other places. My son didn’t like studying since he was a child, but After taking the test, I got into F University. So, this IQ is very important. Don’t you think so?”

"Well," he smiled, "I have seen such a smart person."

As he listened, he thought of the person sitting in the last row sleeping on his stomach.

"He wanted to study a doctor at the time, but I stopped him. Now that he beats up so many doctors, how can he become a doctor? He made a lot of trouble, and I was like his enemy, but when he grows up, he will know that I am a doctor. For his own good. From now on, sitting in an office and collecting money will be much more comfortable than seeing patients in a hospital, won’t you?”

Xu Yanxin smiled, and just said, "Uncle, go into the neighborhood in front."

The driver looked up at the name of the community, and cast a surprised look at him.Xu Yanxin finally spoke when he arrived at the third villa, Shi Lin. When collecting the money, the driver said to him: "Before I told my cousin, what kind of acting should I learn, at least the families living in Xinlan Garden can do it." Accompanied by art."

Xu Yanxin smiled, and politely got out of the car to pick up the luggage.

Walking to the second villa, Xu Zhao's BMW was parked in the yard, but his father's car was not there.He hesitated, but rang the bell anyway.He was still nervous when he heard Xu Zhao's voice on the machine.When Xu Zhao opened the door and saw him, he was a little surprised, but soon returned to normal.Xu Yanxin raised a bright smile and called "Mom", while Xu Zhao grabbed the suitcase from him, said "um" calmly, and said, "Your father is still in the police station, Observe from above."

"Is the procuratorate busy recently?"

"I recently asked for a leave of absence. Your grandma was hospitalized with high blood pressure. It wasn't because she was tired from busy graduate interviews."

Xu Yanxin immediately said: "Does it matter?"

"It's nothing. Just take some antihypertensive drugs. It's your grandma who is suspicious."

Xu Yanxin smiled, tentatively put his arms around Xu Zhao's shoulders, and said, "If grandpa knew, he would definitely say that as a medical worker, she is still afraid of this and that every day."

Xu Zhao avoided his arms with a stiff face, took out a pair of new slippers from the shoe cabinet, and handed them to him.Xu Yanxin felt sore, knowing that she shouldn't mention grandpa, but she still smiled and said, "Where's my pair of slippers from before?"

"You haven't come back for so long, can you still wear it?"

Xu Zhao spoke calmly.He bowed his head and said sorry.

She didn't reply either, she just said: "It just so happens that your cousin and his family just came back from France and happened to be here to pay New Year's greetings. Since you're back, let's have a meal together, otherwise it's unrealistic to say that you are in Spain every year."

Xu Yanxin said yes, and went upstairs to tidy up the boxes.When he closed the door, he breathed a sigh of relief.His room was still the same as before, the corners of the table were covered with foam, and there were not many things on the table, not even a speck of dust on the trophies in the bookcase.He opened the suitcase, hung up his clothes, and finally left only his laptop and wind chimes. He hung the wind chimes in front of the window and stared at the dark blue glass absently.

Unfortunately, there is no wind at home.

Close it tightly.

Only one air freshener and whirring air conditioner.

In the evening, Shen Feng finally came back, hugging him with red eyes: "Stinky boy, do you still know to come back?"

The father and son talked with their arms around their shoulders. Shen Feng's eyes got wet when he heard that he was renting a house in city B and taking the subway.Xu Yanxin said dumbfoundingly: "Dad, this is very normal." Shen Feng pretended to beat him, and punched him in the heart, and said, "Why don't I know it's normal, I just can't help it. Brat, come back this time How to say? I asked my aunt to clean the Xiyuan apartment, and you moved there? I know that young people nowadays wish they could live by themselves."

Just as Xu Yanxin was about to say no, she heard Xu Zhao say, "The apartment in Xiyuan can be rented for 30 million a year."

Shen Feng said: "Why do you talk about this so well?"

Xu Zhao glanced at him and said, "He didn't want to practice, you said that."

Xu Zhao wore a close-fitting black sweater dress, and his whole body was covered in a dark air. He just raised his eyelids and looked at Shen Feng. Shen Feng's brows immediately relaxed, and he just muttered, "There are still four or five." A store, not short of this money.But Xu Zhao obviously didn't want to show his good looks, only Xu Yanxin said kindly: "Mom, let me help you arrange the dishes."

"No, have you thought about what to say later?"

Xu Yanxin was a little dazed: "Say what?"

Xu Zhao didn't speak, he looked at Shen Feng, and Shen Feng turned his head to the side with some shame.Xu Zhaodao: "Don't look at your father. I said that you worked in the United States for two years, and then you were sent to Spain for two years."

"Why...you say that?"

"Otherwise, how can I explain that after you graduated from the Faculty of Law of P University, you were fired by Ruixin to draw manga?"

"I resigned myself. I didn't draw comics because I was fired," Xu Yanxin said, "I am..."

Xu Zhao made a mocking smile: "You were fired on purpose, didn't you? You pretended to cater to us, and then killed us after graduation. How could I not know, it's exactly the same as when you changed departments."

Xu Yanxin looked at Xu Zhao, but was speechless for a moment.And Shen Feng said "I'm going to buy a drink" as if running away, then rushed out of the house, leaving him and Xu Zhao.But Xu Zhao didn't intend to speak, and silently folded the napkins.Xu Yanxin slowly approached Xu Zhao's side and said, "I'm sorry, I should have told you about Ruixin in advance, I just..."

"Want to draw manga?" Xu Zhao painted red lips, but there was no smile in the curved lips.

"I've never objected to your hobbies, but why does it have to be your industry?"

Xu Yanxin was silent.And Xu Zhao was not going to let him go, saying: "Since you were born, your cousin has been inferior to you in everything. CMO, school, and the cultivation of second interests. Didn’t enter No.[-] Middle School, but now. Are you worthy of me? Are you worthy of your grandpa? Do you dare to go to the grave of your grandpa and tell him that?”

"Scores don't represent everything. Mom, have you ever thought that I'm actually very ordinary? There are so many people who are talented in mathematics, and I'm just one of them. I can't realize the high expectations you have given me..."

"It's true that you can't, but the premise is that you are working hard in that direction?"

He looked at the end of Xu Zhaohong's eyes, chose to swallow the rebuttal in his throat, stood beside her and patted her shoulder lightly.However, when the doorbell rang, it was as if someone had pressed a switch, Xu Zhao sniffed, and it was the all-powerful Attorney General Xu again.

Xu Yang's family came in with large and small gift boxes, and Xu Zhao was busy greeting them.After seeing Xu Yang for many years, he realized that Xu Yang has changed a lot. In the past, he always stood shrunken behind his parents, but now he has a beer belly and a red face.The two shook hands, Xu Yang patted him on the shoulder, and said, "Which American company does Yanxin work for now? Google?"

Everyone looked at him, and he smiled and said, "I'm a freelancer."

"Oh, I've been working on the blockchain recently," Xu Yang said to him, "Do you know the blockchain?"

Xu Yang's mother immediately said: "Now Yangyang has grown up, and can earn several million a year. In the past, our Yangyang couldn't do anything. Every time we saw Xinxin, we went back to fight Yangyang, fight. Fighting, I didn’t expect it to be successful, and now I have opened a company in the financial center, and the annual rent is this amount.” Compared to five.

When Shen Feng came back, there was another burst of politeness.Xu Yanxin just laughed.

At the dinner table, Xu Yang talked about the blockchain, saying: "This blockchain technology is decentralized, and it has unlimited potential in the future. Those who say that Bitcoin is a pyramid scheme really don't know how to do it. Anonymity is the most valuable and useful.”

Xu Yang's parents also kept on catering, and Shen Feng ate with his head down.

Only Xu Zhao always had an unremitting smile on his face, and said: "Yangyang knows a lot now."

Then his parents compared five and talked about the rent again.In the past, Xu Yanxin had no opinion of Xu Yang, and now he still does.Just looking at Xu Yang's slightly red face after drinking, and his speech speed much faster than before, he felt in a daze that everyone had changed, but he hadn't.After drinking a lot, Xu Yang suddenly said: "Yanyu, did you have a student named Jiangyu in your school before?"

He tightened the glass, and Xu Zhao looked at him calmly.

"Ah."

"He, he is so awesome now, do you still have contact?"

His mother looked at him disapprovingly, and said, "This kid, why is he so rude at the dinner table?"

And Xu Yang looked at him as if he was watching an exciting game, and said excitedly: "He came back from Ouhua. Last year, Ouhua won the best M&A because he negotiated the acquisition of Snowfox." The title of legal adviser. This time he returns to China to become a partner of Ruixin, open overseas markets, conduct securities, mergers and acquisitions, and private equity investment and financing businesses. All major companies are rushing to cooperate with his team. I heard that he Just signed two top five hundred."

"I really underestimated him before. I never thought that a little bastard could reach such a height." Xu Yang raised his eyes to look at him, "Yanyu, I remember you two were inseparable before, why don't you ask him to help you?" you."

Xu Zhao smiled and said nothing, but Xu Yang's mother immediately patted her son's shoulder: "What did you say, our Xinxin still needs his help? If you want to be a doctor, you can find your grandma, and if you want to practice law, there are parents. Even if you really can't think about doing mathematics, you can just find the students of Mr. Xu before he was alive, not all of them are professors in famous schools now."

After Xu Yang and the others left, Xu Yanxin stayed to tidy up, but halfway through tidying up, he remembered Xu Yang's yearning words, "Natural lawyer"?He thought of the boy on the rooftop from afar, his large school uniform jacket was flapping in the wind, standing on a high place overlooking the whole city, like a king giving orders in the jungle, with a stern face.Even now, he can recall every conversation he had with Jiang Yu.

He said that he has no dreams, but just wants to live.