The spare tire of the male protagonist is inappropriate.

The two looked at each other for half a minute.

In the end, it was Shen Yan who spoke first: "Don't you think there are other people in this house besides the four of us?"

Xu Rang paused.

Then, he pointed behind Shen Yan, covered his mouth with his eyes wide open, as if he saw something.

"Behind you...behind you..."

Shen Yan's whole body was stiff, his lips turned white, "Yes, yes, yes... what?"

Xu Rang expressionless: "Nothing."

"..."

"Hahahahahaha!" Zhou Xuekai laughed at Shen Yan while eating breakfast, "Brother Yan, how can there be ghosts in this deep mountain and old forest? Even if there are ghosts, they will be suffocated to death by this broken signal."

Shen Yan: "..."

He became angry from embarrassment, and there was still a little blush on his neck, "Are there any more?"

Under pressure from his boss, Zhou Xuekai immediately changed the topic.

The day is spent in small talk.

Xu Rang actually cared about Shen Yan's stay in the closet - if he was only afraid of ghosts, he wouldn't have that expression.

But in the next few days, he didn't have the chance to go to Shen Yan's room again. The other party woke up earlier than him and sat in the living room early in the morning.

The four young men stayed at the villa for a week.

On the way back, Zhou Xuekai felt relieved and started playing games in the car: "If I haven't registered for a week, my teammates must think something happened to me."

Su Lin: "If you want to be open, maybe they changed teammates the next day."

Zhou Xuekai: "..."

He will change his name to "Classmate Zhou Xuekai who is good at being teased" in the future.

Xu Rang plugged in his earphones. He was not too sleepy this time. He was playing a small game all the time. When he looked up occasionally, he found that it was Shen Yan who had been staring at this side.

?

Xu Rang thought that he also wanted to play this little game, so he handed the phone in front of him: "You can find it in WeChat."

Shen Yan's eyelids twitched, "...it's okay."

Why don't you sleep this time?

He was ready for shoulder pain.

As a result, Xu Rang played the game for four hours in a row without even yawning.

The car drove to the door of Xu's house.

After several people got out of the car, Xu Rang said to the driver: "Please send them all back, I will give the address—"

Shen Yan: "No need, I'll be with Zhou Xuekai."

When Xu Rang turned his head, he saw the phone in his hand vibrate suddenly.

Shen Yan was also taken aback, looked at the screen and hung up the phone.

Xu Rang: "Don't answer?"

Shen Yan stuffed the phone into his pocket casually, and said casually, "Harassing calls."

Xu Rang didn't ask any more, and gave the driver the address of Su Lin's house, and took Zhou Xuekai to pick up the car that was originally in Xu's garage. Shen Yan even made a cool gesture to him before leaving.

"..."

Xu Rang hardened his fist, but he still watched them leave before going back.

When Shen Yan arrived home, Mr. Shen had prepared meals and was waiting for him at home.

"Did you dye your hair back?" Shen Zhi was away from home last time, and he didn't see Shen Yan dyed his hair.

Shen Yan flicked his hair, "How is it? Do you think that no one is worthy of your grandson?"

Shen Zhi glanced twice: "It still looks like a person."

Shen Yan: "..."

What is this nonsense?

The nanny wasn't there, and the grandpa and grandson were the only ones eating in the living room. The Shen family didn't have many rules. Shen Yan told him what happened in the past few days while eating, and the atmosphere was warm.

"Yes, Grandpa, I have something to ask you."

After Shen Zhi finished listening, he stroked his beard: "For my own happiness, do you even want to use your grandfather?"

Shen Yan: "..."

It was indeed the truth, and he couldn't refute it.

Shen Zhi spoke again: "It's not that you can't use it. However, I have something to tell you here."

Shen Yan rolled his eyelids, "Ten at most, no more."

Shen Zhi: "...Who told you about your grades? With your grades, you can still drop by ten places? Is there still room for decline?"

"..." Shen Yan pouted, "What is that?"

Shen Zhi: "Your mother and your brother have returned to China, a few days ago."

He looked at Shen Yan while talking, there was no surprised expression on the other side's face.

"Have you seen them?"

"Not yet, but it's probably coming soon." Shen Yan absently picked the soup next to him, "Call me today."

Shen Zhi immediately sulked: "Why are you calling? Didn't I tell them everything?" After speaking, he looked at Shen Yan again, "You must not go out with them, did you hear me?"

Shen Yan let out a "hmm".

The atmosphere was not as warm as before. The two stopped talking and went back to their rooms after eating.

Shen Yan took a shower, and before he came out to play the game, the phone rang again.

He glanced at the caller ID and his expression darkened.

Finally accepted.

"Hello." Shen Yan's voice was not warm.

The attitude on the other end of the phone was completely opposite: "Xiao Yan...you finally answered the phone..."

Shen Yan: "Is there something wrong?"

"We returned to China two days ago." Lin Jingya was overjoyed when she heard her youngest son answer the phone, "I went back to the old house these days, but your grandfather... anyway, your father and I want to have dinner with you. "

At the end, she added another sentence: "There is no Zike."

When the latter name came out, Shen Yan's eyebrows became sharp instantly.

"No need, it's not easy for you to go back to the country, so don't make yourself unhappy."

Lin Jingya's voice immediately became crying, almost pleading: "Xiaoyan...can you have a meal with mom? I beg you, I haven't seen you for a long time..."

half an hour.

Shen Yan's low voice came from the phone.

"understood."

The next afternoon.

Lin Jingya's restaurant is located in the East District, and it is a members-only Chinese restaurant.Mr. Shen was not at home, so Shen Yan just didn't need to make up excuses to lie to him.

I took a taxi to the place, the decoration of the restaurant is very sentimental and retro, and the patterns are exquisitely carved.

Shen Yan went to the front desk, and the waiter asked him if he had made a reservation in advance. Shen Yan reported the box number and then went up to the second floor.

The waiter walked people to the door and left.

Shen Yan knocked on the door a few times, and the door opened immediately.

Lin Jingya's eyes were full of joy, and she took his hand: "Xiaoyan, you have grown so tall!"

Shen Yan paused, but did not let go of her hand: "I was only this tall last year."

Lin Jingya was a little disappointed. Her son didn't seem very happy, but he was still overwhelmed by the joy of the mother and son's reunion: "Your hair has been dyed black again. It seemed to be yellow before, but black still looks good."

Shen Yan said "hmm".

"Come and sit!" Lin Jingya pulled him to the seat next to her, "The dishes haven't been served yet, we'll serve them later when everyone is here. Your father is in the bathroom, he'll be here soon."

Shen Yanchao scanned around, the box could seat about ten people, but from Lin Jingya's description, it seemed that there were only three of them.

Just right, you don't have to sit so crowded, lest everyone be unhappy with each other.

After waiting for about 10 minutes, Shen Daoran pushed the door open and came in. He saw Shen Yan at a glance and paused, but it was only for a moment, and his expression immediately returned to normal.

"You came."

Shen Yan: "Yes."

Shen Daoran sat down, taking a seat between him and him: "How is your study recently?"

Shen Yan casually said, "It's okay."

Shen Daoran frowned: "Is it okay to count down?"

Seeing that the atmosphere was not right, Lin Jingya quickly changed the subject and stopped Shen Daoran: "It's enough to make progress."

Shen Yan snorted coldly, and didn't follow the steps at all: "No progress, it has been very stable."

Lin Jingya's smile froze at the corner of her mouth.

Just when the atmosphere was awkward, the door behind him was suddenly pushed open——

"The Shen family is probably just you, so you can stay at the end with peace of mind."

As soon as the voice came out, Shen Yan's entire back froze.

He turned his head slowly.

Not seeing each other for two years, Shen Zike has also grown taller, his face has opened up, and he has become more handsome and easy-going.

Of course, this is only the surface.

Both Lin Jingya and Shen Daoran were surprised: "Why are you here?"

Shen Zike sneered: "It seems that I'm not welcome in this family, I don't even have a share of a meal."

Lin Jingya quickly grabbed him and asked the waiter to add more dishes.

No matter how impatient she was, Shen Yan finally sat down.

It's a pity that the bowls and chopsticks have not been delivered yet, and Shen Zike has already walked up to Shen Yan: "I remember that your grades were not very good before? Why are you stable and countdown? Or do you feel ashamed and can't pretend to study?"

The hostility and irritability between Shen Yan's brows suddenly burst out, he stood up suddenly, clenched his fists, his eyes were cold: "What did you say?"

Shen Zike met that gaze without the slightest timidity, and the two looked at each other.

Shen Yan could see those cold and sharp eyes under the mask of his fake smile.

"I just care about you, don't take it for granted and become a waste."

Shen Yan clenched his fists tightly, and the veins on his arms bulged, as if his fist was about to hit Shen Zike's face in the next second.Lin Jingya called him immediately: "Xiao Yan!"

Shen Yan let go, bowed his head, "I'll go first."

Lin Jingya: "Xiaoyan, can't you have a quiet meal?"

Shen Yan: "It seems impossible."

After speaking, we will go to the door.

Shen Daoran: "Shen Yan, sit down!"

As the head of the family, he spoke with due dignity: "Do you know how much thought your mother put into this meal? Shen Zike, since you're here, sit down quietly and have a good meal together. Just don't say it."

Lin Jingya was already crying: "Xiaoyan..."

Shen Yan paused.

After a while, he heard Shen Zike's Ruoyou chuckle.

"You are also my younger brother, so it's fine to have a quiet meal together." With a mocking smile on the corner of Shen Zike's mouth, he put his finger on Shen Yan's shoulder, and put his lips close to his ear, "I said it earlier, I have forgiven you gone."

At the moment of touching, Shen Yan's temples throbbed, he couldn't bear it anymore, turned around and grabbed Shen Zike's collar fiercely.

"roll."

After reacting, Shen Yan had already arrived at Shen's house.

Shen Zhi was sitting in the living room waiting for him, and there was a prepared meal on the dining table.

"Stinky boy, I know you won't listen to me! What can you eat with them, come here!"

Shen Yan exhausted all his strength, and slowly walked to the dining table and sat down. He had just seen those people and had no appetite at all. With a pale face, he still took a few symbolic mouthfuls.

He apologized to Shen Zhi: "Grandpa, I'm sorry."

Shen Zhi knew what was going on just by looking at him, "Why are you making trouble for yourself? Some people don't want to see it, so don't see it. It's fine, it's okay. The face is like a dead man's face. It's annoying to look at it. Go back upstairs go to bed."

Shen Yan dragged his feet upstairs, his body was weak, and he threw himself on the bed as soon as he entered the room.

What happened just now is still vivid in my mind.

Very messy.

Shen Daoran and Lin Jingya stopped him.

He shakes them off.

out of the restaurant.

Lin Jingya followed out crying.

He didn't look back at her once.

……

Shen Yan took a cold shower, and when he got out, his phone kept vibrating, and he didn't even think about who it was.

He turned off his cell phone and covered himself with a blanket.

At ten o'clock in the evening, the whole world was plunged into darkness.

Shen Zhi looked at the food on the dining table that had cooled but hadn't touched a few mouthfuls, and sighed.

The nanny next to him said cautiously: "Do you want to heat it up again?"

Shen Zhi: "Pour it down, he won't eat."

The nanny nodded and didn't speak any more. She just packed up the meals and was busy in the kitchen.

She came to the Shen family five years ago.

At that time, Shen Zhi still lived alone. Occasionally during festivals, Shen's parents would bring their two children to visit.

The two children look alike, the elder brother Shen Zike is two years older than Shen Yan, although he has just entered puberty, his face has a handsome outline.

Shen Yan was only 13 years old at that time, and he was as clean as a glutinous rice dumpling. He followed Shen Zike all day long, and occasionally went to play with the dog in the garden mischievously.

At that time, Shen Yan's hair was still black, his grades were excellent, and when he was praised, he was so shy that his ears turned red.

Later, when she saw Shen Yanshi again, her hair had turned yellow, her voice was slack, she often skipped classes, and her grades plummeted.

The whole person's temperament has changed.

She probably knew the reason for Shen Yan's change.

Even if the news was blocked by spending money, the news about the Shen family was almost spread by the insiders.

Two years ago, there was a kidnapping incident in the Shen family.

Both Shen Zike and Shen Yan were kidnapped. The kidnappers called the Shen family and demanded a huge ransom in exchange for the two children.

I don't know exactly what happened in the middle, but there was no danger, and the two children came back, and their lives were not in danger.

It's just that Shen Zike's temperament has changed drastically, and it seems that he has been hurt psychologically. Whenever Shen Yan gets close, he will throw things at him, and even yell at him——

"You just want me to die!"

"I don't have a brother like you!"

"Go away!"

The two brothers could no longer get along like before, so Shen's parents took Shen Zike abroad, and Shen Yan was sent to Shen's old house to live with Shen Zhi.

In the beginning, Shen Yan was not like what he is now, and would video chat with Shen's mother every day.

But later, for some reason, there were very few calls from there.

Shen Yan also completely changed his appearance.

The nanny had speculated about the reason for Shen Zike's sudden change in temperament—maybe it was because Shen Yan abandoned him when he was kidnapped and ran away first. It was indeed cruel, and it is possible to leave psychological damage.

But there's no need to leave Shen Yan with the old house all the time.

For two years, no one from the Shen family came to see Shen Yan once.

"The water is coming out."

Shen Zhi's words brought her back to her senses, she quickly turned off the faucet, and apologized: "I'm sorry, I will definitely pay attention next time."

"It's okay." Shen Zhi sighed, and glanced at the closed door on the second floor, "Go back when you're done."

The nanny finished the work quickly and stopped thinking about it.

Shen Yan slept very restlessly, as if something was pressing on him, and he couldn't break free.

It was a winter night.The temperature is very low, and the moonlight shines on the road, casting silver gauze on the ground.

But Shen Yan didn't have time to appreciate these.

He was led by someone, and ran forward desperately, his throat and ears were sore from the cold wind, like ice skates tore apart, the wind squeezed into his lungs, his whole body was paralyzed, and he ran forward only by consciousness.

Suddenly, he tripped over something and fell hard to the ground. He felt faint heat flowing down his chin and right cheek.

It hurts!

But he didn't have time to care about this, there were still people chasing them behind.

He had to get up immediately, and he had to hold the hands that held him before.

However, when he raised his head, those hands were gone, leaving only a receding figure from his back.

He wanted to call to stop him, but his throat was so sore that he couldn't make a sound. He wanted to stand up and leave with him, but the other party didn't look back once.

Gradually, even that figure disappeared into the alley.

The blood all over Shen Yan turned cold, and his ears were sealed by the cold wind. With his last strength, he crawled into the trash can by the roadside.

The stench inside was reeking, but the temperature on Shen Yan's body rose slowly because of the crowded trash can.

Hearing the footsteps of the group of people from near to far, he trembled so badly that even his teeth chattered from fear.

He didn't dare to breathe loudly, for fear of being heard, he tensed up his whole body.

But the footsteps are still gradually approaching...

……

Shen Yan woke up from the dream, covered in cold sweat.

He had a splitting headache, and the air conditioner made goose bumps on his arms.This kind of dream is too familiar, it has appeared repeatedly in the past two years.

Since being kidnapped, he has spent every night in insomnia and nightmares.

After waking up, I just kept my eyes open until dawn.

Memories flooded in like a flood.

That night, he hid in the trash can, heard the footsteps gradually receding, relaxed for a while, and slowly fell asleep.

After waking up, he was already lying on the hospital bed, and Lin Jingya was guarding him in front of the bed.

Shen Zike fled all the way to the highway, and when he was about to be captured by the kidnappers, the police happened to pass by.

And he got away with it by hiding in a trash can.

After she regained her composure, Shen Yan remembered that she was abandoned by Shen Zike after she fell down.

For a moment he was helpless and confused, but he could understand Shen Zike.

Under such circumstances, it is normal for the other party to abandon him because of excessive fear.

Shen Yan kept hinting to himself and comforting himself - that's human nature, it's a panicked reaction.

But he couldn't lie to himself.

As an elder brother, Shen Zike is a tall and excellent existence, a role model he yearns for and yearns for, and a little hero in his heart.But this hero abandoned himself at the most critical moment.

Shen Yan's fingertips sank into the flesh.

If it were him, if it were him, Shen Zike would definitely not be left behind.

He had no injuries other than partial frostbite, so he followed Lin Jingya to Shen Ziyan's ward.

But when he just entered, before he had time to question, the other party yelled at him——

"Get out! Don't come here!"

"Why did you leave me alone!!!"

……

Shen Yan was dumbfounded.

He was obviously the one who was left behind, so why did the other party question him in turn?

He tried to explain—

"He left me! He left me!"

He couldn't accept such grievances, and grabbed the closest people around him, trying to make them believe in him.

He was the one who was abandoned.

Later, he overheard his parents' conversation.

"The doctor said that his head was injured, and the psychological blow was too great, and his memory was confused. He thought he was the one who was left behind... What should I do?"

"Let's break up and take Zike abroad, where I happen to know a psychiatrist."

"How about Xiaoyan?"

"Let him go to his grandfather first."

"But...is there no other way?"

"Zi Ke became sick like that, as you have seen, not only towards Xiao Yan, but also towards us and the doctor. If this continues, not only will his injuries not heal, but he will also be ruined. I know ...I know this is unfair to Xiao Yan, but... there is nothing I can do."

……

Shen Yan lowered his eyes.

It turns out they all know.

But know what?

He was abandoned again.

……

After drinking a glass of ice water, Shen Yan finally stopped sweating, but he was lying on the bed, but he didn't feel sleepy at all.

After coming to grandpa's place two years ago, Lin Jingya, who was far abroad, still made video calls for him every day.

But just after he said a few words, Shen Zike's roar came from the other end, followed by the sound of glass breaking.

He's almost insane—

"Mom! Why are you still calling him! He almost killed me, don't you know!"

"What kind of good student is he worthy of?"

"Mom, why can he show off his grades to you, while I am here to treat illnesses!!"

Sentence after sentence, accompanied by Lin Jingya's crying.

Shen Yan was bored.

He knew that Shen Zike was seriously ill, that's why he didn't say a word of complaint when his parents left, but this kind of farce appeared in front of him time and time again, which made him really tired.

later.

He always hung up on Lin Jingya's calls in a hurry.

He dyed his hair yellow.

He started skipping classes, and every time he did badly in the exams.

Shen Zike seemed to be gradually satisfied.

……

The time before dawn, the sky is the darkest.

Shen Yan tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep. Like a walking dead, he got into the closet again.

During the two years when he was neglected and discarded, he spent almost all nights here. It was dark and cramped, but it gave him the greatest sense of security and kept him away from the invasion of nightmares.

Shen Yan curled up his arms and legs, like a trapped animal with nowhere to seek comfort.

And today, it seemed that even hiding in the closet could not stabilize his mood.After seeing Shen Zike for real, those dark, cold-blooded thoughts began to breed and spread, and he rehearsed the action of destroying Shen Zike over and over again in his mind.

He hated himself like this.

Shen Yan began to frantically want Xu Rang.

This will calm you down.

He could think of Xu Rang's appearance on the first day he came to class, the embarrassed face when he mentioned the love letter, the raised eyebrows and eyes when he handed him strawberry candy, and... the expression when he cried for him.

Xu Rang always comforted him inadvertently.

"Brother Yan, thank you."

"Brother Yan, do you want some candy?"

"Brother Yan..."

Shen Yan picked up the mobile phone next to him, and with this impulse, dialed Xu Rang's number at four o'clock in the morning.

...It rang a lot.

Probably wouldn't answer it, Shen Yan lowered his eyes, his profile was reflected on the phone screen.

At this point, only a lunatic like him hasn't slept yet.

Just when Shen Yan thought that the other party would not answer, the "beep" sound stopped.

From the other end, Xu Rang's familiar and slightly sleepy voice came.

"...Hello, Brother Yan?"

Shen Yan's throat was dry, and his heart was beating like thunder. His body and nerves, which were originally tense, relaxed at that moment.

He has a lot to say to Xu Rang——

I miss you very much, I like you very much.

But when he opened his mouth, he only called out his name softly.

"...Xu Rang."

He was afraid that the sound would be too loud and scare the other party away.

Xu Rang: "Hey, why hasn't Brother Yan slept yet? What time is it—"

Suddenly there was no sound from the receiver, Shen Yan was stunned, he pressed the phone indiscriminately, and the screen didn't turn on again.

out of battery.

Shen Yan rushed out of the closet and quickly found the charger.But while waiting for charging, a sense of frustration suddenly came to mind, Xu Rang must have thought he was going crazy.

Called in the middle of the night and hung up without authorization.

But after hearing Xu Rang's voice, Shen Yan missed him even more urgently.

Not just the voice, he wants to see Xu Rang.

……

Shen Yan put on his shoes and went straight out the door. He didn't dare to ride a motorcycle for fear of alarming Shen Zhi.

There were no taxis in the villa area, so he ran along the trail without daring to turn back.

The moist night wind blew on his cheeks and ears, and the moonlight shone on the ground.

——Extremely like the night that was left behind.

Shen Yan couldn't breathe, the path was clear, he was running, but suddenly caught a glimpse of a figure not far away.

After seeing the figure clearly, Shen Yandun stayed where he was.

Under the street lamp, Xu Rang was also walking towards him.

Shen Yan's heart was beating violently, and finally, he was not left behind.

There are crisp birdsong in my ears.

The wind blows the rustling of camphor leaves.

The sky turned white, revealing a ray of dawn.

Shen Yan finally got through that period of darkness, he strode towards Xu Rang against the light.

Hold tight.

……

As long as I hug Xu Rang, the night hiding in the closet will not be so difficult.

The author has something to say: This chapter has been revised several times back and forth, sad~~~