Ren Zhi

During the time before evening self-study, Chen Renzhi spent most of his time in the classroom, sometimes working on exercise books, and sometimes discussing a few problems with Jiang Fan.The time to go to the canteen to eat is generally no more than 10 minutes.Most of the people in the classroom brought their rice back, and at this time, all kinds of rice smelled together, and there was a sense of tranquility and serenity.

Chen Renzhi was explaining a problem in the physics exercise book to Jiang Fan when Sun Xiran walked in suddenly.

"Where's Zhang Yue?"

"Going to play football." Chen Renzhi raised his head.

Jiang Fan said a little unnaturally, "I'll see for myself first."

Sun Xiran went to Zhang Yue's seat and sat down, picked up Zhang Yue's math book and flipped through it.

Chen Renzhi turned around, "What do you need from him?"

"It's okay," Sun Xiran looked around absently, "just sit for a while."

Chen Renzhi ignored him and turned around to continue lecturing to Jiang Fan.

Cao Yuan has become a little familiar with Zhang Yue during this time. Since the first year of high school is not too intense, he goes with Zhang Yue every now and then to play football on the playground. Chen Renzhi naturally takes on the responsibility of helping the two of them Responsibility for carrying food.

When I went to the dining hall, I passed the playground. There were many people in the playground in the evening.

When you want to relax, go to a vast place, such as the sea, such as the blue sky.

In the three-acre land of the school, only the playground is the way back for many people.

Chen Renzhi saw Zhang Yue at a glance, he was so eye-catching.Because there are too many monks and too few porridge, the school's goals are not enough for so many people. When Zhang Yue and the others play football, they use a few mineral water bottles on both sides as the goal, and they must kick into that range.

Cao Yuan ran slowly behind. Chen Renzhi didn't understand these rules. He thought Cao Yuan should play as a defender.

As for Zhang Yue, he must be a striker!Standing on the track, Chen Renzhi quietly watched Zhang Yue gallop on the playground, as if he was the only one on the playground at the moment.

Zhang Yue fell in front of the "goal", casually took the mineral water used as the door frame, and drank a bottle in a few sips.

Chen Renzhi walked over and called Zhang Yue.

Zhang Yue sat up and stretched out his hand.Chen Renzhi froze for a moment, then pulled Zhang Yue up.

Zhang Yue's hands are a little damp~wet, which is a boy's unique state after exercise. His hands are well-articulated, and they look very powerful.

Chen Renzhi found that Zhang Yue had grown very tall, even taller than he expected.He unnaturally let go of Zhang Yue's hand, which was still stained with Zhang Yue's sweat and felt a little sticky.

"What do you and Cao Yuan want to eat? I'll bring it for you."

"No need, I don't want to play football today, let's go eat together." Zhang Yue smiled at him, and walked to the side to change clothes.Chen Renzhi turned his back.

In the end, Cao Yuan also decided to have dinner together.

The three of them were walking on the road, and Cao Yuan was chattering about things on the court. It was obvious that Cao Yuan had fallen in love with the sport.

Chen Renzhi couldn't intervene, so he could only walk silently.

Zhang Yue suddenly changed the topic, "Ren Zhi, do you have any plans to apply for the sports meeting next month?"

"I don't know, we'll see when the time comes."

When Chen Renzhi answered people, he used "I don't know" and "Yeah" the most. Zhang Yue had already discovered it, and he smiled.

Cao Yuan muttered, "Why is there no football match?"

When he was approaching the entrance of the dining hall, Cao Yuan stopped suddenly and said in surprise, "Isn't that Xie Meng from our old school?"

Chen Renzhi's body trembled suddenly, and he grabbed Zhang Yue's hand beside him.

Zhang Yue watched Chen Renzhi grab his hand, and gently shook it back.

"Zhang Yue?" Xie Meng walked over, followed by a boy.

"Why did you come to No. [-] Middle School?" Zhang Yue asked.

"Look for a classmate." Xie Meng pointed to the boy standing beside him, as if he didn't know Chen Renzhi.

Chen Renzhi held Zhang Yue's hand but did not let go.

After the lights were turned off at night, Cao Yuan started his chattering time again.

"I told you before that I saw Zhang Yue fighting with our school, do you remember?"

Chen Renzhi hummed absently.

"Xie Meng and Zhang Yue are in the same group. It is said that they were expelled for that fight, and later entered our school." Cao Yuan sighed a little, and even sighed.

"But you are also strange. Seeing that Xie Meng is so nervous, what are you doing, and you still hold onto Zhang Yue's hand? If you don't know, you may think that Xie Meng has done something to you."

"I usually see that you and Jiang Fan are still getting along quite normally. Why are you so nervous when you meet a man? Also, you sometimes talk to Zhang Yue. Why are you nervous?"

Chen Renzhi wanted to refute, but found that what Cao Yuan said seemed to be true.

This night, when Cao Yuan said he was tired and fell asleep, Chen Renzhi's eyes were still wide open.

He recalled holding Zhang Yue's hand on the playground in the afternoon, and he remembered the wet and sticky touch, and unconsciously he began to stroke his face with his hands.His face was hot, partly from the pleasure of lust, partly from the shame in his heart.

He felt that he was a bit abnormal, Cao Yuan's words sounded in his head, why is it so natural in front of girls, but so nervous in front of boys?

Chen Renzhi thought back, Xie Meng... Liu Siyang... and Zhang Yue.

His hands slowly penetrated into the quilt, his mind was full of Zhang Yue's face, he thought of Zhang Yue touching himself with his sticky hands that smelled of sweat, he thought of Zhang Yue's handsome face, Zhang Yue sat there with bangs soaked in sweat~wet.

Chen Renzhi was bored~ hummed.

He lay on the bed~, buried his face in the pillow, and cried silently.

In the next day's chemistry class, Chen Renzhi was called to answer questions, his mind was in a mess, Zhang Yue reminded him in a low voice.He recalled Zhang Yue sitting behind him in the chemistry class in the third grade. At that time, he didn't know what he was doing, and suddenly realized that it had been a long time.

"Chen Renzhi?" The chemistry teacher was a female teacher with a gentle voice.

Chen Renzhi came back to his senses, carefully looked at the questions on the blackboard, and answered the questions clearly.

After sitting down, Zhang Yue poked him with a pen from behind, and Chen Renzhi moved forward to hide without looking back.

When school was over, Chen Renzhi refused Cao Yuan's request to have dinner together.

He came to an Internet cafe next to the school alone. The Internet cafe was crowded with students, and faces could not be seen clearly in the smoky environment. Chen Renzhi paid at the front desk like a student in front of him, and took a card. Card.

He walked to a place in the corner, opened the web page carefully, looked around from time to time, tapped the keyboard lightly, and entered the three words "gay".

When it was almost two o'clock, a dialog box popped up in the lower right corner of the computer to remind him to renew the fee, and Chen Renzhi realized that the class was about to start.

He got off the plane in a hurry and walked to the school, his mind was full of what he just browsed.

When Chen Renzhi arrived in the classroom, class was already in session. He whispered a report and walked in.

This is a history class, and many people are drowsy. The history teacher just talks about the contents of the textbook, occasionally chatting a few words.

Chen Renzhi was lying on the table, with the chemistry book for the last session of the morning under his arm.

The phone vibrated suddenly, but Chen Renzhi ignored it. His mind was in a mess, like a ball of batter.

The phone continued to vibrate relentlessly, Jiang Fan sensed that something was wrong with Chen Renzhi, and bumped him lightly.

Chen Renzhi took out his mobile phone, and there were three unread text messages, all from Zhang Yue.He didn't want to turn his head away, he didn't want to see Zhang Yue's face, he didn't even dare to look at Zhang Yue when he thought of the dirty thoughts in his heart.

He opened the unread text message: "What's wrong with you?"

"What happened to you?"

"What's the matter with you?"

Chen Renzhi replied: "It's okay, I have a headache, I seem to have a cold."

He always seems to like lying to Zhang Yue.

Zhang Yue found that something was wrong with Chen Renzhi, so he walked to Chen Renzhi's desk during dinner time.Chen Renzhi has been lying on the ground all afternoon.

"Do you want to go to the school hospital?" Zhang Yue squatted halfway.

"No." Chen Renzhi said weakly.

"If you can't walk, I can carry you on my back."

"I said no, are you annoying?" Chen Renzhi didn't look at him.

Zhang Yue was stunned for a moment, he had never seen Chen Renzhi speak like this, including during the first days of acquaintance.Zhang Yue walked back to his seat embarrassingly, and took out the chemistry exercise book.

When Cao Yuan came back from the toilet, he saw Zhang Yue sitting there in a daze. He called Zhang Yue to play football together, but Zhang Yue refused without interest.

Chen Renzhi kept lying on the table and didn't eat dinner. Jiang Fan gave Chen Renzhi a cake from the meal she brought back, and Chen Renzhi waved his hand.

Zhang Yue felt that Chen Renzhi had changed back to the way he first met, but this time it was a little different.

The "sickness" of Chen Renzhi, a professional meal helper, caused Cao Yuan to cry in the evening self-study.Jiang Fan disliked Cao Yuan's groaning~moaning affected himself, so he changed seats and sat elsewhere.Chen Renzhi wrote English reading comprehension absent-mindedly, and the densely packed letters jumped into his eyes but turned into the words he browsed at noon.

He knew he had to learn to accept the fact that he was, he couldn't say the word.Although he dared not admit it, there are indications that he is indeed a different homosexual from most people.

Many people like to talk about homosexual patients, but homosexuality is not a disease. Chen Renzhi randomly drew new words in the article, thinking about his own future, he didn't care what others thought of him, he only cared about Zhang Yue.

Chen Renzhi opened the inbox and looked at the three text messages lying in the inbox. He really wanted to tell Zhang Yue, what's wrong with me?I like you.

But he didn't dare, he looked at the book that was drenched with ink, in fact, it was nothing.

It's just that Zhang Yue feels that he is a pervert, after all, even he feels this way.

Zhang Yue didn't eat dinner either, he sat in his seat as if he had lost his soul.He searched Chen Renzhi's recent encounters in his mind over and over again.However, after all, he couldn't stay by Chen Renzhi's side 24 hours a day, he didn't know what happened.The unknown frightened him.

Cao Yuan was moaning and groaning while sitting on the physics exercise book, Zhang Yue called him softly.

"Is there anything unusual about Chen Renzhi in the dormitory recently?" Zhang Yue asked with a little difficulty.

"He has always been like that. He doesn't talk when he returns to the dormitory, and goes to bed after finishing his homework. I often sing a one-man show by myself." Cao Yuan wailed again, "I must go to the supermarket to buy something to eat after class."

Zhang Yue continued staring at the books on the table in a daze.

"Oh, by the way, he didn't go back to the dormitory at noon today, so he didn't know where he went." Cao Yuan said suddenly.

"Have you said anything lately?"

"No, I just said that I met Xie Meng yesterday, and he didn't know him..." Cao Yuan smashed the pen in his mouth and frowned, as if he was stumped by the question.

"Ah, Zhang Yue, give me a sermon." Cao Yuan raised his head and looked at Zhang Yue.

"Xie Meng..." Zhang Yue said silently in his heart.

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