no crossing the line

Jian Qin was at home in the afternoon, but Wang Juan didn't leave because of this. She didn't bring Aunt Zhang home until Ji Jinglian came back from get off work and the four of them had finished eating.

Before, Ji Jinglian had always been on guard against Wang Juan, and didn't dare to let the two of them stay alone for too long? Today, she didn't say anything because Aunt Zhang was here.What I didn't expect was that before Wang Juan left, she actually asked her to talk to Jian Qin well, saying that Jian Qin is not easy.

Ji Jinglian was very grateful for Jian Qin not only forgiving her and Wang Juan, but even being willing to live in peace with Wang Juan after accepting her.After all, even her? Being a daughter sometimes?

After Jian Qin accepted her again, she tried her best to prevent Wang Juan from interfering in their relationship, and she was determined not to tolerate Wang Juan's slighting Jian Qin.

Ji Jinglian never expected that Jianqin not only got along peacefully with her mother, but even really aroused Ms. Wang's concern.Except for Aunt Zhang, this was the first time Ji Jinglian saw her mother showing a trace of sincerity.

"Jian Qin, what did you and my mother talk about?"

As soon as Wang Juan and Ji Jinglian were sent away, they couldn't wait to ask Jian Qin, but all they got was a faint smile.

"No? What, why do you ask?"

"Why didn't you say? What? My mother is not only self-centered, but also very guarded. It is difficult for her to be true to someone. But before she left today, she secretly asked me to treat you well." A little bit, this is so rare."

"Then I have to thank Auntie."

"What are you thanking her for? Even if she doesn't say anything? We are still inseparable, very good."

Jian Qin looked at Ji Jinglian with a funny face: "Then I don't want to thank Auntie, but thank you?"

Ji Jinglian hugged her: "No, I have to thank you."

During the time when she and Jian Qin just broke up, Ji Jinglian didn't go out for a few days.She doesn't want to accept this? As a result, she doesn't know how to change it.

This is not only beyond her life experience, but also beyond her way of thinking and behavioral logic.Jian Qin said that she thought she was omnipotent, but only Ji Jinglian knew how helpless and hesitant she was at that time.

She knew that she might be able to hide in that small space that belonged to her like every time in the past, close herself for a day, two days, or longer, and then pretend that nothing happened? ? Past life.

She can do it, but she doesn't want to do that at all, because she knows that losing Jian Qin will leave her heart permanently empty, and no matter who she meets in the future, it's impossible to fill it up Full.She will always think about this "white moonlight", and unconsciously make comparisons. In the end, she either destroys herself or others.

She thought about it for three days and three nights, and finally made this decision. To be honest, she was not sure that Jian Qin would forgive her at that time, let alone in such a short period of time, but she knew that she would If you don't do this, you will regret it for the rest of your life.

On the outside, she may belong to the rational school, while Jian Qin is more emotional.But in fact, the two were just the opposite, and Jian Qin made a more rational decision than her.

Both of them have been stupid before, so she cherishes all the hard-won things now.

"Okay, shall we? Don't thank you? Thank you. You can go take a shower, you have to go to work tomorrow."

Ji Jinglian hugged Jian Qin from behind, resting her chin on her shoulder and refusing to move.

"I don't want to let you go, let's sit for a while."

"Dangtang Ji always likes to act like a baby, if the employees of the company know about it, she might lose her prestige."

"I don't care," Ji Jinglian rubbed against Jian Qin's neck, and the tip of his nose brushed Jian Qin's earlobe from time to time, "Jian Qin, I only care about you and Shan Dan now."

Because of her few words, Jian Qin felt soft-hearted, reached out and stroked her chin like a puppy, Ji Jinglian squinted her eyes enjoying it, and didn't feel anything wrong at all.

"Jing Lian, I can't do it? If you are like this, I still care about many, many people."

"I know, so I will also care about the people you care about. I think this is very good." Ji Jinglian kissed her with a smile, and said on a whim, "Jian Qin, let's take a bath together."

Jian Qin immediately knew what she was planning: "No, I want to look at Shan Shan..."

"Single has already fallen asleep. For a short time? I won't wake up. Let's put the phone in the bathroom so we can see her condition."

"But……"

Jian Qin was a little moved, but also a little uneasy.

"We haven't taken a bath together for a long time... I promise you, nothing? We won't do it. Let's take a bath together."

She said it was pitiful, and Jian Qin thought about it. She endured a few simple times, and finally agreed to her soft-heartedly.

Did the two wash for an hour? Did they come out? Or did they simply wake up? Did they have to rush out?Jian Qin was very angry because of Ji Jinglian's breaking her promise, and finally punished her to sleep in a small bed with Jian Jian.This small bed was added after Jian Jian began to recognize people, and even adults can lie on it.In this way, after the simple coaxing to sleep, there is no need to be afraid of waking her up by moving back and forth. The two sleep on the big bed and want to do some exercise without shocking the baby.

It's a pity that Ji Jinglian was punished to sleep with Jianjian tonight, no matter what kind of exercise? She has no chance.

Ji Jinglian forgot when she started to develop the habit, and when she realized it, she found that she had become dependent on the dark and narrow space.Just like Ji Jingxi used "unrestrained waves" to vent dissatisfaction and emptiness, she also chose a way to relieve stress.Compared with such a "brother", she thinks that this method is safe and healthy, not only the cost is extremely low, but also does not harm anyone, so she never thought of going to see a psychiatrist.

Ji Jinglian usually has a very rational way of thinking, and only at this time will he indulge himself in his feelings.In the dark, she can cry unscrupulously, laugh hysterically, and be silent without meaning. No one will come? Leave her alone. She can also pretend that she is not connected with the whole? World. When? After the stress and emotions were almost gone, she could go out and be that decent and proud Ji Jinglian again.

This is a secret that belongs to her alone, and only two people broke in to pass it.

She liked Xu Jing, maybe it was inseparable from this opportunity, but Xu Jing was just a passerby, she stayed in the closet for three days, and finally moved forward successfully.

But now, at this very moment, she couldn't move forward one iota.When she thought that there would be no Jian Qin in the tomorrow she was about to enter, she trembled with fear.She thought of Jian Qin's appearance again and again, the haggard face she had just given birth to, the words she said, her determination and tenderness.

Jian Qin left Ji Jingxi's inheritance to her, which is the greatest revenge and ridicule for her.

It hurts too much.

She was in pain because of Jian Qin, because she had gained and lost her, because she loved her and was loved by her, because she had been enveloped by the most gentle light but fell into darkness again.

She can't make it through, every time she thinks of Jian Qin, she wants to kill herself, the stupid self who cheated Jian Qin.

She finally understood how love is so painful, but there is no way to break free from this almost desperate quagmire.

She cried every tear of remorse, hopelessly making calls that could not possibly be answered, deluding herself into imagining that there was still Jian Qin's breath in this small cabinet.

Her regret, grief, pain, pain, pain and pain, failed to get? Bit by bit to slow down.

Her heart harbored a despair darker than darkness, overflowing from her body continuously, and finally filling the entire?space?.

She couldn't forget Jian Qin, and couldn't accept losing Jian Qin. Even if she just lived in the memory, she was far happier than imagining a future without Jian Qin.

Better to die.

For the first time, she had such a real desire to disappear from this world.

How can she prove her love to Jian Qin, how can she prove the difference between herself and Ji Jingxi?How could she prove to Jian Qin that besides selfishness, she also cheated her for her sake?

Only dead?

If she can't be loved after all, if she loses her only love, why not just die like this.

Just like Ji Jingxi, she should also be a person who has no sense of responsibility.

Rather than being slowly forgotten by Jian Qin, it is better to die now and let Jian Qin remember her forever.

Will Jian Qin blame her, blame her, or regret it?

Jian Qin is so kind, she must feel guilty all her life because someone died for her, right?

That's good too, that's good.

Even if Jian Qin is sad, miserable, and regretful for a lifetime, it is better than letting Jian Qin forget her, because she is such a despicable person.

This? Crazy idea took root in her mind, one day, two days, three days... Then, she seemed to really die, and completely merged with this "small space".

Can't feel? Hunger, can't feel? Pain, can't feel? Sad.

She seemed to smell Jian Qin's breath, hear Jian Qin's voice, and feel Jian Qin's body temperature.

To die under such a hallucination is perhaps the greatest reward for her.

"...Jing Lian? Jing Lian?"

Ji Jinglian was awakened by the soft voice and movement, and opened her eyes in a daze, only to find that she had tears streaming down her face at some point.In the blurred field of vision is Jian Qin's worried face, which looks extraordinarily soft under the soft night light.

"Jian Qin, what's the matter?"

Jian Qin gently wiped the corners of her eyes with her thumb, and asked gently: "What's wrong with you, did you have a nightmare?"

Ji Jinglian shook his head at first, and then nodded: "I dreamed that you drove me to sleep with Shan Shan, but I didn't expect it to be true."

Jian Qin knew that she was lying, but she just chuckled lightly: "Okay, you can go back to my place, and wake Shan Shan up after crying like this for a while."

The tears on Ji Jinglian's face were still wet, but a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth: "Without my company, do you feel lonely?"

Jian Qin felt a little helpless, but he didn't refute. Instead, he echoed: "Yes, I feel a little lonely without Mr. Ji's company."

The corners of Ji Jinglian's eyes trembled slightly, and before tears welled up in her eyes again, she turned over neatly from the cot, jumped up and rushed towards Jian Qin.

"I just know you can't live without me."

She was the one who couldn't live without Jian Qin, but once she didn't sleep together, she dreamed about that darkest memory again.Of course, fortunately, she didn't really die, and before she was about to make the most stupid decision, she still thought of Jian Qin.

She couldn't bear it, she couldn't bear to die like this, she couldn't bear to let go, she couldn't bear to let Jian Qin just remember her, she couldn't bear to let Jian Qin feel guilty all her life because of her death.

Since she is not even afraid of death, how can she not let go of her face and figure?

She wants to be stubborn, lingering, and omnipotent? She won Jian Qin's heart back to the extreme.

Of course, she will never tell Jian Qin about this.

作者有话要说：把这段放在这里，是碎碎最大的善良了。感谢在2021-07-1817:51:18~2021-07-1902:56:47期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!