Idol's Doomsday Survival Guide

"What's the meaning……"

"What happened on the first day when the infection broke out?" You Guohao looked at Zou Tu, crossed his fingers on his chin, "As far as I know, not all the members of your sports department were in the dormitory on the day the infection broke out. It's showing up at the gym. That includes you."

Zou Tu recalled the situation at school that day. Since the incident happened a few months ago, it has been some time.

"I remember at the time, it was in preparation for a sporting event a few weeks later." He bit his nails, obviously not remembering the details clearly, "That night we briefly celebrated the gold medal in the last basketball game, and as for the teacher showing up, When they were ready to start training, they had already turned into zombies. Others, I don't know."

You Guohao looked at the tablet in his hand, circled it a few times regretfully, and pointed out: "It's a pity, I thought I could get the answer from you, after all, patient zero is looking at the world through your eyes , he exists in your mind. You and him were an inseparable part, but now, he has abandoned you, and the 'tyrant' deep in your body..."

"Tyrant? How do you know about it?"

"We have to ask our dear intermediate host." You Guohao knocked on the carriage.

Ji Ran rolled in through the open car window.

"Ji Ran...!"

"Brother." He looked at the agitated Ji Nanze, and nodded coldly, "I will explain it to you later."

Looking at his strange appearance, Ji Nanze bit his lip in a low voice.

"I only learned about the concepts of 'patient zero', 'intermediate host' and 'tyrant' after contacting him. It turns out that there are so many independent individuals in the slime mold world."

Ji Ran stepped forward, met his elder brother's gaze, and said to Zou Tu without hesitation: "The slime mold that entered your body is the most primitive slime mold, that is, the unsplit high-concentration bacterial liquid, even if After multiple dilutions. So, unlike me, when the weakened 'tyrant' parasitizes in the depths of your brain, he has no power to stop your personal will, in other words... you start from the moment you open your eyes , is the 'tyrant'."

"what?"

Zou Tu stood up excitedly, "What do you mean!"

You Guohao looked at him coldly, without any influence.

"In my serum bank, the serum of the 'tyrant' is stored, and what is suppressed is the 'Zou Tu' in the depths of your consciousness. But you merged in a way I couldn't think of. He made you face everything, yourself But go back to the depths of the subconscious to be happy."

Zou Tu felt that his heart was about to freeze into icy slag, his lips moved several times, but he couldn't speak.

"Tyrant... what do you mean? You..."

You Guohao's eyes were full of sarcasm: "The one who has been fighting against your conscience all this time, how could it be a 'tyrant'? That is the most original you who shouldn't be alive, you who have no emotion and no humanity at all Zou Tu, you were born a different kind, a natural anti-social personality."

"That night, the night you told me to stand in a pool of blood with a knife, who was the man who killed, do you remember?"

"No, no... how is it possible?"

"It's your father." You Guohao bit his lips and smiled, "He found you, he finally found you. He doesn't even care that you killed his wife, he desperately wants to get you back, wants to be with you Start a new life. But what did you do? You killed him...you slit his throat, you refused his embrace, you pushed your blood relatives away cruelly, you bit by bit , Destroyed his family with his own hands."

"You don't know. What do you think you've done, you think you're covered in blood? Of course, it's true, but it's an acting skill used to deceive you when your heart and body are weakest and most tormented—he Pretend to be you, let you witness everything, let you think that your own will caused other people's misfortune, he lent you his eyes, he has planned for a long time. He is waiting for this day, waiting for you to believe, really wants to kill The person, is yourself."

"But just because you don't know, doesn't mean you haven't done it."

***

The car stopped.

You Guohao gave them more than 30 minutes to rest. As soon as the door opened, Zou Tu couldn't help but ran out of the car.

And Ji Nanze looked at Ji Ran who was opposite, and didn't know what to say.

"Brother." Ji Ran spoke first, "Long time no see."

"...Long time no see. You...look fine." Ji Nanze bit his lips, "Why, why are you unwilling to come to me even though you are safe and sound? I have always been worried about you. If I treated you badly before, I apologize, Ji Ran, I apologize to you."

"I can't see you." Ji Ran stopped his words, "From the day my father became an infected person, I shouldn't appear in front of you." He looked at the man sitting in the woods not far away. Zou Tu said, "Go to him, brother, I know you have a lot to say to me, but 'tyrant' is necessary for us."

Saying that, he turned to leave.

"Do you even want to use Zou Tu?"

Ji Nanze stopped him from behind.

"Brother, you are the only one in this world who cares about him." Ji Ran turned around and said to him, "If you don't go, he will go crazy. Completely crazy."

Ji Nanze wiped away his tears fiercely, he stood on the spot and clenched his fists.

He really wanted to know what happened to his father, and he really wanted to know if it was possible for their home to return to its original state.Is it possible for his family to be as busy and happy as before.

Zou Tu took a sip of iced Coke, crushed the empty can and threw it into the trash can.Then he sat down on the bench and lit a cigarette.Ji Nanze glanced at You Guohao, and the other party seemed to know that they couldn't digest the answers so quickly, so he walked aside to talk to the researchers who came and went.

"I feel now that everything is a joke."

He looked at the flames of the cigarette butt, and pulled his hair in pain: "I fucking thought my dad didn't want me anymore, I fucking thought I was abused by them, why? Why...how could it be me, I really , Did I really do it all? From the very beginning, I shouldn't...shouldn't I have opened my eyes?"

"They have been tossing all these years for a dead person, for a born criminal. What is the reason for my previous suffering? I have cursed countless times for the vaccine, what is it for... What the hell am I... Why do you live until now!"

Ji Nanze sat beside him, wanting to put his arms around him.

"No, please, don't touch me, senior. I really want to calm down."

Zou Tu's reaction was great, even if Ji Nanze grabbed his shirt, he refused any possible physical contact.While supporting Ji Nanze's shoulder with one hand to distance him, he took a puff of cigarette eagerly, the pain on his face did not ease in the slightest.He took a deep breath, then slowly hugged his head.

"Fuck, why on earth, why on earth is this..." He propped his chin and looked at the ruins on the display screen, "Who exactly was it that I ate and was about to invade my consciousness? If I had been 'Tyrant', if I was the winner in the war of wills from the start, who am I, who am I here?"

"I'm not a tyrant, I can't be a tyrant. I should be Zou Tu..." His shoulders slumped, and he sobbed in despair, "But if, if I were Zou Tu, what have I done in my life? What? Me, what the fuck am I entitled to live on!" He punched the tree trunk, and it came down very solidly, a crack appeared on the wall, and a stream of blood flowed out from his fist.

"Zou Tu!"

His nails scratched his face fiercely, and a few bloodstains appeared immediately.Black blood seeped out of the wound, and it flowed all over the back of his hand in no time.Ji Nanze quickly grabbed his wrist to prevent him from further self-harm.

"What the fuck did I do!"

"What the hell have I been doing all this time!"

"Listen, Zou Tu, you listen carefully."

"Don't touch me, those slime molds... those slime molds will talk in my head, and I will hurt you. Really, I... I'm really dangerous, very dangerous." He looked over tremblingly, teeth No matter how much you bite, you can't bite, "I have, I have killed my mother and my father, I am a lunatic, I am a lunatic who keeps rationalizing crimes, I am an infected person from the beginning!"

"From the beginning...I was wrong." He lowered his head and buried it between his knees, "What should I do...what should I do, what should I do, so that I can face those dead people...I How are you going to carry these dead souls on your back..."

"Carry it on your back and walk on. I don't care." Ji Nanze held up his face, not allowing him to look away, "You are Zou Tu, you may be a tyrant, no matter who you think you are, no matter what you have suffered before Whatever, whatever is running through your veins right now, you are yourself."

"do not look at me……"

"You can't forget. You are Song Haiying's son, you must never forget—" He suddenly took out the silver pendant with his mother's photo from his clothes, and held it in front of his eyes, "She loves you. She wants you to grow up, she's waiting for you at the end of the world. Does it make sense to her that you're a tyrant or a tyrant?——to her, no matter what you've done, no matter what you've done or It doesn't matter what you witness."

"I love you too. I love you no matter what you've done. We've come this far, we've got nothing left, and we've got each other. You're going to leave me, stay where I am, Never move forward?"

Zou Tu took the pendant blankly, and Ji Nanze grabbed his cold hand.

"No, really not. I can't... what have I done? I'm infected, I'm not human—do you know how many people I hurt? I have to..."

I can't enjoy my dirty life, and I can't enjoy my hard-won happiness.

I can't, so mean.

really can't.

"Then stand up, move forward, and look forward."

"We can't lose to You Guohao." He hugged Zou Tu's neck and kissed him on the cheek, "This time, we can't lose, absolutely not."